affectionate - Chapter 14: Chapter 14

FALLON
The next morning I had a plan. I only had two classes so I was going to skip the first one to warn Lucius about my father. I didn't want to see him yet which was selfish on my part, he didn't do anything but it was me who already trying to avoid him. If I had even the slightest clue that Lucius's past was so rough I would've never asked. It was also silly of me to make a promise I knew I wouldn't be able to keep. Wishful thinking was a funny thing.
My father was adamant on taking me to school this morning and I had to practically peel him off of my back. I promised him I would drive and somehow that made him feel better about the entire situation. I wasn't happy about having to leave my car unattended at the college but it was the only way my plan would work.
On my way to the trail I decided not to worry too much about it. I didn't plan on staying with Lucius very long and the walk to the college was only ten minutes. My talk with Lucius should only take five. I didn't really want to see him and I was sure the feeling was mutual.
My stomach curled into knots at the sight of Lucius. His arms were crossed tightly over his chest making his tattoos pop and his rings glitter in the scattered sunlight from above. It annoyed the fuck out of me how good he looked even when he was upset.
"Didn't think I'd be seeing you today." I mirrored his position feeling vulnerable under his scrutinizing gaze.
"I'm not staying. I'm skipping a class for this so I'll make it quick." His eyebrows furrowed when I said I wouldn't be saying and it made my heart beat a little faster at the thought him wanting me to stay even though yesterday left us at odds.
"My father is getting suspicious, more than he already is. He knows I'm hiding something and I can't keep lying to him because it'll just cause more problems." Lucius narrowed his eyes and the knots in my stomach meshed even tighter together than before. I hated that I was doing this the day after he practically bared his soul to me. I was doing the exact thing he was afraid of but there was nothing else left to do.
"Spit it out, Fallon." He gritted through clenched teeth. I took an accidental step back at the sound of his voice and look of shock, hurt, and confusion passed through his face all at once.
"We need to be careful, okay? That's all I was going to say. I can't see you everyday, it's too risky." He scoffed and looked to the side for a second before turning and looking back at me.
"For who, you or me?" Now it was my turn to furrow my eyebrows and scoff.
"Are you serious? For both of us, Lucius." He nodded his head and his jaw ticked.
"Are you sure? I think you forget, Fallon, I am a vampire. Your father doesn't scare me, never has never will. I sneak around for you, I deny myself your blood for you, I haven't marked you for you, I fight against this stupid fucking bond everyday for you. I deprive myself of satisfaction for you. So I'll ask again, who are you doing this for, me or you?" I was shocked to say the least. Just yesterday he confessed that he wouldn't mark me because he was scared I was going to leave him and now all of sudden he was flipping the entire thing onto me and insinuating that I was scared of my own father.
"Don't put all of this on me. You knew what the risks were from the beginning, Lucius. And I don't know why you're acting like I said we'd have to stop seeing each other completely, we're in too deep for that to be an option now." We were not by any means in any sort of established relationship. If there was no bond between us we'd just be two people meeting up in the woods everyday who exchanged one sided kisses and heated touches. If I had the mental capacity to stop, I would've.
"I'm "acting" like this because you're pulling back over something stupid. Your father controls your fucking life Fallon, you get to decide how you live. Not him."
"Stop speaking to me like we're in a relationship and I'm trying to break up over something stupid. Just yesterday you admitted to not wanting to mark me for a very valid reason but still, you have no real intentions of ever making us work so what the hell are you so upset about? And don't speak to me about my relationship with my father, you don't know shit about it." I was breathing heavily, my chest heaved up and down and I noticed that my arms had fallen to my sides and my hands were balled into fists. Lucius was quiet but was staring at me so intensely that I had to look away because the staticky feeling on my face was too much to handle.
I heard a rush of air and before I could protest he was in front of me with his hand gripping my chin and forcing me to look into his dizzying eyes.
"I am upset because clearly I overestimated you and you cannot read me as well as I thought. If you could, then you would know that even though there is a chance of you leaving me, I am more than willing to mark you and make you completely mine. If you were smart, then you would've caught onto the fact that for the past week I've been kissing you in the exact spot where I intend to mark you." He roughly let go of my chin and the same hand gripped me by my waist while the other one cradled the side of my face gently.
"Why don't you understand, Fallon? I'm infatuated with you. Ever since we touched at your job you've been the only thing on my mind and it drives me fucking crazy. I bend my own personal morals for you, I make stupid decisions for you, I kill for you. Yet you still do not think that I want you? I need you, Fallon. I need your touch, your body, your smell, your eyes on me, your voice. I need it all." He dipped his head downward until it was buried in the crook of my neck and nuzzled the skin there with his nose before breathing in deeply and licking it.
"And most of all, I need your blood. I want you to belong to me completely and I want to belong to you completely. These are my personal feelings, what I'm saying to you has nothing to do with the bond." The hair on the top of his head tickled my chin and a shiver ran down my spine. I was overwhelmed. I had no idea what to do with this information except allow it to burrow itself into my heart.
"Lucius, I-" He shushed me and pulled me closer to him without moving his head from my neck. His lips snuck up the side of my face until they were pressed against the corner of my mouth and my own lips trembled in anticipation.
"Can I kiss you?" My breath hitched and my arms traveled upwards to rest on his shoulders while my hands joined together behind his neck. I turned my head ever so slightly so that our lips would brush together and when they did sparks erupted in my body and a quiet whine fell from my lips.
"Please," I wish reliving moments that changed your life was possible. If it was, I'd relive this one over and over until the day I died. His lips on mine was better than anything I've ever felt. All those neck kisses were nothing in comparison to this. His lips were rough but the way they moved against mine was delicate and with much fervor. His tongue devoured the inside of my mouth, no corner was left untouched by it. If my eyes were open they would surely be rolled into the back of my head from the amount of pleasure that I was feeling. His thumb rubbed teasing circles against my neck and I moaned in response to the feeling. The cherry on top was Lucius's leg slotting itself in between mine, all of it was too much and briefly I wondered how sex would feel if I was so close to the edge from kissing and rubbing alone.
To my disappointment, Lucius pulled away. My eyes were still closed as I tried to catch to my breath, I leaned all of my body weight onto him and dropped my head onto his shoulder.
"Aw don't go shy on me now, Fallon." He drawled. My inner thighs shook with want around his leg and I bit my lip in embarrassment. He rubbed my back slowly, useless shapes that I arched into involuntarily.
"You wanna be shy yet a few nights ago you were getting off to the thought of me. You aren't slick, Fallon." I couldn't do anything but breathe against him. I didn't care that he knew about that, I wanted the real thing now. I was ready for it.
"Fuck," I muttered. Lucius laughed against me and shrugged his shoulder to force me off of it and to look at him. His thumb found my cheek and brushed it a few times before moving to my bottom lip and pulling it out of my top one.
"Let's get you back to the cottage," I blinked and suddenly everything came rushing back to me. Where we were, what I was even here for in the first place.
"But my classes—"
"Fuck your classes, Fallon. You should've thought about that before coming here." I gulped. Lucius's eyes were fully dilated, his cerulean irises replaced by a deep, obsidian circle and reduced to nothing but thin rings.
It was then I decided that nothing mattered anymore if I couldn't have Lucius. Not my father, not my mother, not school, not anything. I wanted him and I was going to have him.
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