Alpha Alec's Redemption - Chapter 129: Chapter 129
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His words stopped anything I was going to say. I gaped at him, unable to say a single word as everything inside me felt like it just froze.
I stared in wonder as he shot up from his chair and started pacing the room. He seemed so agitated that I could almost feel my heart stopping for a second and went out to him.
“Alec,” I began but stopped when no word came out of my mouth.
I had no idea what to tell him or what to do. He had caught me completely off guard and surprised me to the core.
I didn’t expect this to be the reason. If I am being honest, I thought the reason why he wanted me to go back was selfish. I wanted it to be selfish. That way, I could convince my heart and mind that he is still the same arrogant and selfish man I’ve always known.
If you had told me that one day Alec would try to do something this selfless, I would have laughed in your face and told you to shut the fuck up… But here we are, and I don’t know what to do with it.
“I don’t want to lose you, Sadie,” he repeated. “I just can’t.”
He doesn’t stop in his pacing, just grabs his hair before shaking his head and letting go.
I’ve never seen him like this. He is always composed. Always put together. Even when Lola left him, he didn’t fall into this state. Yes, he was angry and resentful, but not this pitiful.
I rub my chest, trying to ease the discomfort. The bond was really working overtime to make me feel things that I didn't want to. I didn't want my heart going out to him. I didn't want to feel sorry for him. I didn't want to humanize him and I definitely didn't want to feel like his pain was my pain and his discomfort was mine too.
“With how things are right now, there is a big chance there will be a war.” his eyes seemed wild. Like a caged animal that has finally been set free. “Given your premonition, I want you far away from that war. I won’t risk losing you. I’d rather we lose the war than lose you.”
He was speaking from a place of fear. I could recognize that. After all, didn’t I think of running back to my pack, my safe haven, when things got a bit too overwhelming and scary? Didn't I wonder if it would be worth it, probably losing my life? Didn't I almost back out because I didn't want to miss Aspen growing up simply because I went to fight a battle that wasn't mine, and I lost my life in the process?
I completely understood, but it wasn’t right. I'd figured it out a long time ago. I was completely terrified, but I knew I had to do it because it was the right thing for me to do. For the sake of Aspen, everyone I loved and the innocent. I had to fight if there was ever going to be a war.
“Come here, Alec,” I called him gently. He stopped his pacing and turned to look at me. He didn't do anything at first, just stood there with bloodshot eyes, so I repeated what I'd said. “Come and sit down.”
As if his legs were made of lead, he slowly walked towards me before dropping on the chair.
“You realize I was given these powers for a reason?” I questioned. “Nyx could have picked anyone to be bonded to, but she chose me for a reason.”
He remains quiet. His eyes cast down, staring at his hands.
I continued. “It would be selfish of me to have all these powers and not help.”
“At the cost of your own life?”
“Do you think I’d be okay hiding when people are dying, knowing very well that I can help even if I don’t make it out alive? Would you be okay standing by while others fought in a war?”
Again, he doesn’t reply, but I see a small shift in his eyes. He’s an Alpha. A leader. Of course, he wouldn’t be okay hiding while others sacrificed their lives.
“It doesn’t sit well with me… I just want to protect you.”
Something softens in my heart and I feel something warm uncurling within me. I try to push the feelings down, but it’s stubborn. Instead, I just decided to ignore it.
“Everyone dies at some point, and I’ve already accepted that I might die sooner than I had originally thought… And besides, premonitions aren’t always set in stone. I saw it for a reason, and we believe it is so that I have the chance to change it.”
His eyes turn contemplative. As if my words were sinking through. He relaxes, but not fully. His jaw is still locked and his shoulders are tense.
“Nothing is going to happen to me,” I tried to assure him, but I knew that I was lying. I wasn’t so sure myself, but something in me felt the need to reassure him.
Right here, right now, it feels like we are real mates. The way he is concerned about me. The way he is fearful of losing me. The way I am trying my best to reassure him. It all feels like we are in an actual relationship.
“Try to get some sleep, Alec,” I mumbled, pushing those thoughts to the back of my head. “It looks like I am not the only one who needs it.”
“But I don’t want to leave you alone,” he honestly sounded like a little kid. I had to fight the need to smile.
“I’ll be okay.”
“I still don’t want to leave you.”
I swallowed down my shock. Since when did Alec get so clingy? I have never witnessed this side of him. Not even when he was with Lola.
“Fine,” I breathed, tiredly. “But don’t come complaining when you wake up with a stiff neck.”
A soft, warm look takes over his face.
“Shouldn’t you be resting too?” he questioned.
“Just go to sleep,” I muttered, already feeling worn out, before adding,. “And next time you try telling me what to do, I’ll chop off your balls and feed them to your wolf. Am I clear?
“Yes, ma’am,” he salutes while chuckling.
“Good, now sleep.”
He folds his hands on top of the bed before leaning forward, placing his head on top of his arms and closing his eyes. Within minutes, his shoulders relax and his breathing evens out.
A yawn escapes my lips, but I don’t fall back to sleep immediately. I continue staring at him, seemingly captivated by how good he looks.
Would things have been different had fate not played that cruel joke on us? Would we be madly in love? Would we be happy?
The questions keep playing in my head. Each one is tougher to answer than the previous one. I didn’t have an answer to any of them.
Alec seemed so different from the man that he was three years ago. Hell, he seemed different from the man that stepped into my pack lands and threatened to kill me. How could he have changed that much in such a little time? And how much of that change was because of the bond?
Sighing tiredly, I push everything to the back of my mind. My body was craving rest and that’s what I was going to give it. I needed to start training. I needed to prepare for what was to come, but for now, I needed sleep.
After checking in with Martha concerning Aspen and getting reassurance that she was fine, I closed my eyes.
I stared in wonder as he shot up from his chair and started pacing the room. He seemed so agitated that I could almost feel my heart stopping for a second and went out to him.
“Alec,” I began but stopped when no word came out of my mouth.
I had no idea what to tell him or what to do. He had caught me completely off guard and surprised me to the core.
I didn’t expect this to be the reason. If I am being honest, I thought the reason why he wanted me to go back was selfish. I wanted it to be selfish. That way, I could convince my heart and mind that he is still the same arrogant and selfish man I’ve always known.
If you had told me that one day Alec would try to do something this selfless, I would have laughed in your face and told you to shut the fuck up… But here we are, and I don’t know what to do with it.
“I don’t want to lose you, Sadie,” he repeated. “I just can’t.”
He doesn’t stop in his pacing, just grabs his hair before shaking his head and letting go.
I’ve never seen him like this. He is always composed. Always put together. Even when Lola left him, he didn’t fall into this state. Yes, he was angry and resentful, but not this pitiful.
I rub my chest, trying to ease the discomfort. The bond was really working overtime to make me feel things that I didn't want to. I didn't want my heart going out to him. I didn't want to feel sorry for him. I didn't want to humanize him and I definitely didn't want to feel like his pain was my pain and his discomfort was mine too.
“With how things are right now, there is a big chance there will be a war.” his eyes seemed wild. Like a caged animal that has finally been set free. “Given your premonition, I want you far away from that war. I won’t risk losing you. I’d rather we lose the war than lose you.”
He was speaking from a place of fear. I could recognize that. After all, didn’t I think of running back to my pack, my safe haven, when things got a bit too overwhelming and scary? Didn't I wonder if it would be worth it, probably losing my life? Didn't I almost back out because I didn't want to miss Aspen growing up simply because I went to fight a battle that wasn't mine, and I lost my life in the process?
I completely understood, but it wasn’t right. I'd figured it out a long time ago. I was completely terrified, but I knew I had to do it because it was the right thing for me to do. For the sake of Aspen, everyone I loved and the innocent. I had to fight if there was ever going to be a war.
“Come here, Alec,” I called him gently. He stopped his pacing and turned to look at me. He didn't do anything at first, just stood there with bloodshot eyes, so I repeated what I'd said. “Come and sit down.”
As if his legs were made of lead, he slowly walked towards me before dropping on the chair.
“You realize I was given these powers for a reason?” I questioned. “Nyx could have picked anyone to be bonded to, but she chose me for a reason.”
He remains quiet. His eyes cast down, staring at his hands.
I continued. “It would be selfish of me to have all these powers and not help.”
“At the cost of your own life?”
“Do you think I’d be okay hiding when people are dying, knowing very well that I can help even if I don’t make it out alive? Would you be okay standing by while others fought in a war?”
Again, he doesn’t reply, but I see a small shift in his eyes. He’s an Alpha. A leader. Of course, he wouldn’t be okay hiding while others sacrificed their lives.
“It doesn’t sit well with me… I just want to protect you.”
Something softens in my heart and I feel something warm uncurling within me. I try to push the feelings down, but it’s stubborn. Instead, I just decided to ignore it.
“Everyone dies at some point, and I’ve already accepted that I might die sooner than I had originally thought… And besides, premonitions aren’t always set in stone. I saw it for a reason, and we believe it is so that I have the chance to change it.”
His eyes turn contemplative. As if my words were sinking through. He relaxes, but not fully. His jaw is still locked and his shoulders are tense.
“Nothing is going to happen to me,” I tried to assure him, but I knew that I was lying. I wasn’t so sure myself, but something in me felt the need to reassure him.
Right here, right now, it feels like we are real mates. The way he is concerned about me. The way he is fearful of losing me. The way I am trying my best to reassure him. It all feels like we are in an actual relationship.
“Try to get some sleep, Alec,” I mumbled, pushing those thoughts to the back of my head. “It looks like I am not the only one who needs it.”
“But I don’t want to leave you alone,” he honestly sounded like a little kid. I had to fight the need to smile.
“I’ll be okay.”
“I still don’t want to leave you.”
I swallowed down my shock. Since when did Alec get so clingy? I have never witnessed this side of him. Not even when he was with Lola.
“Fine,” I breathed, tiredly. “But don’t come complaining when you wake up with a stiff neck.”
A soft, warm look takes over his face.
“Shouldn’t you be resting too?” he questioned.
“Just go to sleep,” I muttered, already feeling worn out, before adding,. “And next time you try telling me what to do, I’ll chop off your balls and feed them to your wolf. Am I clear?
“Yes, ma’am,” he salutes while chuckling.
“Good, now sleep.”
He folds his hands on top of the bed before leaning forward, placing his head on top of his arms and closing his eyes. Within minutes, his shoulders relax and his breathing evens out.
A yawn escapes my lips, but I don’t fall back to sleep immediately. I continue staring at him, seemingly captivated by how good he looks.
Would things have been different had fate not played that cruel joke on us? Would we be madly in love? Would we be happy?
The questions keep playing in my head. Each one is tougher to answer than the previous one. I didn’t have an answer to any of them.
Alec seemed so different from the man that he was three years ago. Hell, he seemed different from the man that stepped into my pack lands and threatened to kill me. How could he have changed that much in such a little time? And how much of that change was because of the bond?
Sighing tiredly, I push everything to the back of my mind. My body was craving rest and that’s what I was going to give it. I needed to start training. I needed to prepare for what was to come, but for now, I needed sleep.
After checking in with Martha concerning Aspen and getting reassurance that she was fine, I closed my eyes.
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