Alpha Alec’s Redemption - Chapter 122: Chapter 122

Gabriel.
“You look deep in thought.”
Colin’s voice interrupts my musings, pulling me back to the present. It’s been three days since we found out that a demi-god was probably imprisoned here.
I am in my office. I should be working. I had a lot of work load. Both from my pack and my security company, yet I couldn’t get my mind to focus on the task at hand no matter how much I tried.
I drop the pen I was holding on my desk and push away the contracts I was supposed to be working on. After all, it’s been nearly two hours since I sat down at my desk to work, yet I haven’t done shit in those hours.
I can’t stop my mind from thinking. I had a lot going on, yet all I could think about was Susie and Aspen. It’s like my mind has been invaded by thoughts of them. I can’t get my head to think about anything else.
“Let me guess, you are thinking about Susie,” Colin mumbles, sitting on the other side of my desk.
He isn’t wrong at all. That’s one of the things I hate and love about Colin. He knows me too well. Anyway, what kind of Alpha does that make me? Instead of thinking about my pack and the huge ass problem we are currently facing, all I can think about is my mate and our daughter.
I swallow “Yeah.”
Letting out a deep breath, I sigh and lean back against my chair and stare at my desk as if it has all the answers I need.
I’ve never really felt this way. Even when I thought that Eunice was my mate. What I feel for Susie is indescribable. My soul craves her. Not just her body, but everything that is her. I want her. I want it all with her.
Susie has never been on my radar. To me, she was my little sister’s tomboy best friend who lacked any kind of fashion sense. She was a plain Jane. She blended into the walls. She was always unseen.
It’s not that she wasn’t pretty. She was, but you had to really try and see her beauty. While other women did everything humanly possible to get their beauty noticed, she did everything possible to make sure no one saw hers.
She was always shy and could hardly speak to me without stuttering. Her eyes were always cast down. She hardly ever looked me in the eyes.
I’m not being a jerk, but if I were asked years ago whether I would ever be attracted to Susie, well, the answer would be a definite no. It’s actually hilarious because now I think of no one else apart from her.
I haven’t even thought about Eunice in a long time. My thoughts are consumed by the woman who I hurt, and she wants nothing to do with me.”
She used to follow me and chase me around back then. Now, the tables are turned. She wants nothing to do with me, while I want everything to do with her.
“So, what’s your plan?” Micha asks me, once again pulling me from my thoughts. “How are you planning to win her back because I can tell you that it won’t be easy?”
Unable to sit down anymore, I stand up and head to my window. I catch sight of her and for a moment my heart fucking misses a beat. Damn it! What the hell is happening to me? I’ve never been this cheesey.
“I don’t know. I have no fucking clue,” I mumble, my eyes glued to her back.
She has just come from inside. I don’t need to be told where she’s heading. It’s clear that she’s heading to the training arenas. We have two of them. One is outside, while the other is indoors.
“You can’t be serious, Gabriel.”
I turn back to Colin once Susie disappears out of sight. “What do you want me to say? I have no clue. She can barely tolerate me, so what the hell should I do?”
I’m clueless about how to win back my mate.
I can still feel her stare on my bare skin from three days ago. I couldn’t sleep, and I thought that going for a run would help. Besides, it had been a few days since I changed into Axel. He needed it, and so did I.
When I got out and started changing, I didn’t know that I would be giving Susie a strip show. Not that I am complaining anyway.
I turned when I felt eyes on me. That’s when my eyes landed on her form, standing by the window. She didn’t flinch or move when I turned, even though I was stark naked in front of her.
I admit that I sometimes expect her to behave like her old self. She didn’t, though. Instead of turning around and hiding, she kept her eyes on me. I know that she wasn’t looking at me in a sexual manner, but I couldn’t help but feel like her gaze was like a smooth touch that lit a fire on me.
“You have to do something, Gabriel, especially given that the full moon is in two weeks.”
Yes, the full moon. The day when my mate’s heat scent will drive me and my wolf crazy.
“We are idiots, you know that?” Axel mumbles, his eyes staring lazily at me.
“Why do you say that?”
“We never thought about it back then,” he answers. “During the full moon, we never really felt any strong pull towards Eunice like most people said we would when we met our mate, and she went into heat.”
It’s true. We did scent her heat, but it didn’t do much. The desire to bend her over was there, but it wasn’t all consuming like I was supposedly supposed to be.
For Alpha’s, that need should be stronger, deeper. I shouldn’t have been able to resist her. I’ve never heard of any alpha who was able to resist his mate and Luna during their heat.
It should have been a clue that something wasn’t right, and for a moment we did feel it, but we chose to ignore it. Otherwise, what kind of mate would I be if I doubted my mate and our bond, even though I felt the connection? Hell, everything we were taught would happen when you meet your mate, happened. I felt like I was betraying the goddess and our bond by doubting things. Instead of looking into it, I decided to ignore it and push it to the back of our minds.
I should have listened to my gut, but I was just too happy to have found my mate and my pack’s salvation that I chose not to dwell too much into things.
“Yeah, we were complete fools,” I mumble, raking my fingers through my hair.
I didn’t want to believe it before, but maybe it’s time to admit that I was played and Eunice probably had a hand in it. Because of her, I tortured and tormented my mate, and now she completely hates my guts.
For the first time in a very long time, I feel defeated and dejected. I seriously have no idea what to do. Fuck, I don’t even know if I can fix things with her.
“Gabriel?”
I turn and face him at the mention of my name. I uncurl my fist. I didn’t even realize it when I folded them into a fist.
“I know that look; you can’t give up,” he says. “You’ll win her back. You are a persistent asshole, and it’s not like you to give up on something you want.”
I raise my brow at him; he’s right. “I’ve never screwed this royally though.”
“True,” he mutters. “But the Gabriel I know takes without permission, fights for what is his, and rarely asks permission or apologizes for it. You usually go after what you want, everything and everyone, be damned. Start slow, but don’t fucking give up on her. It’s time for you to fight for her like she deserves.”
I’m quiet, letting his words resonate inside me.
I stand up, round my desk, and walk towards the door.
“Where are you going?”
“To fight for my mate.”
His chuckle follows me as I walk out of my office.
Colin is right though; there’s a reason why I’m one of the best alphas in the world. I don’t know how to lose, and I’ll be
damned if I lose my mate.