Alpha Alec’s Redemption - Chapter 28: Chapter 28

Now more than ever, I needed to do something about my training. If King is right and going by how strong and vicious the woman was, then I needed to be able to defend me and my baby.
I sat there and listened to the crickets. Lost in my own thoughts, the question the dead hybrid asked continued to ring in my head.
What are you?
I push the thought away, not really ready to probe into why two vampires asked me the same question after tasting my blood.
My focus now is on being able to protect those I love, and that means I have to accept that that may just include killing in order to survive.
There wasn’t much to talk about after everything poured out of King. After our conversation, Raven invited him for dinner. I wasn’t in any position to help, so King and Raven took care of everything.
After having our meal, I went straight to sleep. My body was tired and wired at the same time. I want to say that I had a peaceful sleep, but I didn’t. My brain couldn’t shut down, no matter how hard I tried. I was still awake long after Kingsley and Raven fell asleep.
Waking up slowly so as not to wake them up, I got out of my sleeping bag and wandered around. I was so fucking tired and sleepy, yet my damn mind refused to let my body get the rest it surely deserved. I felt frustrated and bitter.
Pushing my tears back, I spotted a big boulder, and I went and sat on it. The moon was out today, and seeing it just made me angrier.
Why me, moon goddess? First, you take away my parents depriving me of the chance to get to know them and be loved by them. As if that wasn’t enough for you, you let all that happened to me happen. Why? If you’re so caring and love your children, then why let all this happen to me?
Of course, there wasn’t any answer from her, and that just made me more bitter. She took away the life I had built, the people I love, and my dignity, yet she doesn’t have the guts to tell me why.
When we were younger, we were taught to always trust and believe in the moon goddess. We were taught not to question her and to just trust that she does everything for our good. I used to trust her, and I used to believe that there’s always a silver lining because the goddess had everything under control.
Now my trust is broken, and my eyes are opened. The faith and love I had for her slowly faded in the months that my life turned to shit. We were supposed to trust her no matter what, but how could I when I was fucking tortured by the very man I was in love with?
How could I continue to trust her after Gabriel banished me? Ordered my death and almost killed my unborn child? How could I continue to blindly trust her when she turned my life upside down?
I touched the scar on my cheek, remembering the day Gabriel put it there. The day he branded me. It will always be a reminder of what I went through at the hands of his and that of his pack. Sighing, I got up and walked back to our little camp. I lie down and close my eyes, I didn’t expect it, but finally my body shuts down.
“Wake up, Susie. We need to leave.”
Raven’s voice pulled me from my sleep. I rested, but it wasn’t a peaceful sleep. My dreams were a nightmare, reliving my time in the dungeon and when I killed the hybrid yesterday.
When I was in the pack, I knew that one day I would need to defend myself, but I never once believed in killing. I thought it was merciless and uncalled for. I told myself that I would never take a life. If ever I was in danger, I’d weaken them, but not kill them.
I broke that promise yesterday. They made me break that promise. Gabriel made me break a promise to myself, and that’s something else I won’t ever forgive him for.
I got up, and Raven handed me a cup of steaming tea and bread. Surprisingly, King was still here.
“I thought you would’ve left by now,” I told him, sipping the comforting tea.
He sighed. “I thought so too, but for some reason I can’t.”
“What do you mean you can’t? No one is stopping you from leaving; just stand up and leave. It’s that simple.” That came from Raven, who was drinking her coffee as usual.
I loved coffee; it was my fucking lifeline, but since we learned I was pregnant, Raven has limited the amount I take.
His things were already packed, but he was seated, and he looked mighty frustrated.
“I was going to leave, I’d even gotten my things and was about to leave, but something inside me stopped me. For some strange reason, I feel like this is where I’m meant to be. That I should stick by you.”