Alpha King Xavier - Chapter 91: Chapter 91

Xavier
“Why isn't she opening her eyes?” I yelled suddenly, my frustration getting the best of me.
“Yes, what's happening?” Rick chimed in.
He looked as frustrated as I was.
I backed away for a moment, my head reeling. Gwen has been like this for a while now. She hasn't opened her eyes or even shifted.
And I couldn't help thinking about a lot of things. Has something really bad happened? Will something happen to her?
The thought of it angers me. The fact that I was unable to find Gwen all this while. The fact that I was unable to make a judgement on who had kidnapped her.
I've never felt so ashamed of myself.
“Your Majesty,” Albert called suddenly.
I turned to look at him again and watched him turn to look at us as well. I didn't miss the sad look on his face.
My heart skipped a beat at this. Albert definitely has some sad news for me.
“She seems to have taken a lot of the witch poison as well,” he revealed.
What?
“And it has affected her a lot. I mean, I don't know; even with the antidote, I'm not sure she can wake up,” he explained.
I was frozen to a spot. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Gwen went missing, and I searched for her for days, but I couldn't find her.
But suddenly, she shows up in my house, and she's half dead?
“What do you mean? You should find a way to save the queen!” Rick corrected him.
Albert nodded once. “I will do all in my power to ensure that,” he assured and stepped out with his equipment.
I walked into my library, stopped slightly, and dived a blow into the wall again. Blood spurted out from my knuckle, but they soon started to heal.
I wasn't bothered by the way. I wasn't at all bothered about myself.
For the first time in so long, I felt tears lingering in my eyes.
“Xavier,” Rick called behind me softly.
I ignored him and hit the wall again. It gave way this time, creating a big hole.
“Xavier!” Rick called again, louder and deeper.
I tried to swallow everything, to stop the tears from leaking before turning to look at him.
“What did you call me again?”
Rick hesitated. “I_”
“You know I'm weak?”
“No, don't say that. You are the strongest wolf ever!”
“You know that's a lie! You know why?”
Rick looked away, bothered.
“Because Gwen is going to die! She's not going to survive, and what happens next?” I laughed casually as if nothing was wrong, but I felt the pain deep in my heart. “The war is unavoidable!”
“Xavier, let's be opt_”
“And it wouldn't matter why I held Autumn hostage!” I yelled, shutting him up forcefully.
He didn't get me. No, he won't. I feel terrible. I regret a lot of things now.
An unreadable expression flicked across Rick’s face. “Are you worried about Autumn or Gwen?”
“Shit!” I cursed. “Don't ask me that, Rick. You know the whole deal! You remember what I caused her? I literally killed them all, and now what? For nothing? Gwen is still going to die!”
Rick started to shake his head. “No. She's going to live.”
I regarded him for a moment. “And if she doesn't? It would mean I sacrificed them for nothing. I cleared off a whole pack because of her. So what? I even made her stay as Gwen. But then, the war will still happen!”
I turned away, my head calculative. Just why didn't I just tell Rowan the first time? Why did I have to lie? Why did I have to get Autumn involved in all this?
It doesn't mean anything because the war was inevitable. Whoever had kidnapped Gwen knew what he was doing all along. He had it all planned out.
And I was too angry to see it!
I held my head for a moment as I thought of everything. I wasn't only dumb; I fell into the trap.
“What's your regret exactly, Xavier? You seem to be giving up on Gwen too soon.”
I hesitated briefly as I cupped my face in my hand. I eventually looked at Rick again.
“I regret not killing myself when my mother died.”
Rick’s eyes widened. What?
“Then, this war wouldn't have started. Then we would have avoided this disaster.”
“Xavier!” Rick called again, shocked. “I wouldn't give up on Gwen.”
I closed my eyes as I inhaled a sighing breath.
I wouldn't give up on Gwen on a normal day, but it suddenly felt like I was losing my mind. I promised to offer my head to Autumn, but would I leave now, knowing my pack would have to go to war with Rowan if Gwen dies?
I sucked in a breath. “I haven't given up on her.”
“Good,” Rick muttered. “Because she's going to wake up, and then everything will be back to normal.”
I nodded several times, even though that felt wrong. But I desperately want to rely on that now. I desperately hope Gwen will wake up.
“Autumn wants to see you, Xavier. She said it has to do with everything. I think you should see her.”
I turned away and stared at the hole I had created on the wall. “Did you tell her she was free to leave?”
“Not yet,” he confessed.
I looked at him. “Why? There's no need to still keep her here.”
“Well, you just showed the elders that she was doing fine. If she leaves, who would stand as Gwen when need be?”
I groaned inwardly. “I will find a way around it. Autumn needs to leave now. She has tried a lot already. Tell her she can leave now.”
“But we still have to be sure.”
“Let her go, Rick. She's not part of the Ocean Howl Pack. She doesn't have the right to continue meddling with our business. Besides, I promised her. And I will never go on my words,” I explained.
Rick nodded once and bowed slightly. “I will tell her that,” he turned to leave.
“And also inform me when she decides to leave,” I said quickly before he would open the door.
He nodded again and eventually stepped out.
I turned towards nowhere in particular. I could feel my pain eating my wolf. I felt so miserable, a good-for-nothing Alpha like my father had always told me.
But no matter what, I still have to keep to the end of my deal.
Autumn will leave with the Moon-like pack, and I will keep to my promise.
When I'm gone, Rick can rule in my stead.