Alpha’s Pregnant Luna - Chapter 42: Chapter 42

Paula
“What the hell is going on?” I asked as I stared at Frankie and the girl clinging on to him and thanking him for always loving her.
My heart squeezed in my chest and a wave of nausea hit me as I stood frozen, watching another female touch my mate’s body and he didn’t even try to stop her.
This should have not shocked and hurt me seeing as I had faced worse in the hands of Xayden but it actually did.
I felt really hurt at the thought that Frankie who I had just started to trust and open my heart to would do be with another female in the open this way. At least Xayden was open about it and didn’t act like he truly cared about me before going behind my back to cheat on me.
I couldn’t really blame Frankie as I didn’t even know what I was to him asides his supposed mate. We hadn’t even done the mating ceremony so I was basically a gum that wouldn’t come off.
A burden!
I held back tears and turned around to head back to my room, feeling the ground under my feet sink deeper. It felt as though all the sounds in the room was merging into one incoherent noise.
I thought I could hear his voice calling out to me but I ignored it as I stormed off to my room. I locked the door behind me and sank to the floor besides the bed.
I could feel the memories rushing back.
I could feel the hole and shreds in my soul when Xayden was shagging other girls before coming back to me, except this time it was stronger.
Why does this keep happening to me? What did I ever do to deserve all this?
‘You were always too weak!’ I heard a voice say.
‘You were way too ugly and pathetic’ the voice announced loudly.
No!
‘Don’t deny it Paula. We both know how true it is.’ The voice disputed.
I am not pathetic!
‘You are Paula. You are the one that took your mother’s life when she was just at the peak of her life. The seed of that human rapist, so maybe that’s why you are cursed and doomed. That was the reason Akayla left you for your rapist dad to raise as she also didn’t want to raise you. It was the same reason your dad would rather sell you than care for you because you have been nothing but a burden. The more you grew, the more pathetic and useless you became. He would rather have money than have you for a daughter.”
No! That is not true!
‘Stop denying the truth Paula. Do you not realize you are just lying to yourself? Will you deny that you were a burden to Xayden? You couldn’t even satisfy him till the extent that he had to seek pleasure outside. What a shame that he had to lug you as well as your baggage around whenever he had to go out with his Luna. Now you had left him and carried your useless self to Frankie.” The voice claimed.
‘Liar! You are an absolute liar!’ I responded as I placed my hands on my ears in an attempt push the voice away but it was futile.
The voice was in my head!
Get out of my head!
‘There is no use covering your ears as I am just a voice that is stating out your deepest thoughts. You have now moved your burdensome and pathetic self to the Alpha king. When he saw how weak and problematic of a Luna you are, he would surely explore other options before he had to force himself to be tied to you. Besides have you forgotten one little detail that might stump your relationship? You are a witch! The sworn enemy of the werewolves. Which werewolf would make the sworn enemy of his kind his Luna, talk more of an alpha king?’
At this point, I was sobbing uncontrollably as the words the spoken to me sunk in.
‘Even your child, once it is born, won’t want anything to do with you and it will also want to leave you. Nobody wants you at this point because you are nothing but a burden. You are doomed to always be alone so stop trying to change that fact.’ The voice announced.
“No! Lies! They are all lies!” I yelled refusing to accept that no one wanted me at this point.
I stood up and tried to crawl away from where I was previously in hopes that it would go away but I was so wrong.
The voice became louder
It was as if the voice was following me but once I looked behind me, I found that no one was there.
Burden!’]
Weak and pathetic Luna
No one wants you.
You are forever doomed to be alone for the rest of your life.
There is no use denying the truth.
You are a curse.
A dent on the lives of many.
Rapist seed
I held on to both sides of the dresser as I crouched and tried to bury my head between my knees to stop the voice but it was of no use.
All the abusive words kept playing on repeat and it seemed to drive deeper in my mind anytime it was repeated.
No!
“Paula don’t listen to the voice! There is nothing wrong with you. You are going to be alright. It is fine. You are beautiful and it is their loss for not wanting you” I stated as I desperately clung on to hope that all that was said were lies.
I picked up the little mirror on the dresser and peered at it. It had been a while since I really looked at myself in the mirror.
The person that was staring back at me had bags for eyes and scars in some parts of her body. I lifted my hand and traced the little scar that was on my neckline. It had dried out but it was still very prominent and most of all ugly.
Tears streamed down my face as I traced every scar that was in my line of sight from the mirror. I was so ugly and I knew it.
I really just wanted to feel beautiful for once, just once. I guess I was just deceiving myself as that kind of life is what I can never deserve. Why couldn’t I just be happy for once? Was it truly my fault all those things happened? Was I really a curse and a burden?
I didn’t want to be like that!.
I wanted to love and be loved
I wanted to be a strong Luna for Frankie.
I wanted to be beautiful.
I wanted to be a normal person.
I wanted to be worth fighting for, for once.
I wanted to be worth more.
Most of all, I wanted to be enough for once.
“Why?” I muttered
“WHY?” I yelled as I chugged the mirror far away.
“Ahhhhhhhhh” I screamed as tears streamed down my face.
I buried my face between my thighs as the dam broke and I let out mournful sobs.
Suddenly a loud crash could be heard in the room.
I looked up in fright as thoughts of Xayden coming to beat me flooded my mind.
I could see that the door had been broken down and amidst the fumes and dust from the impact of the door hitting the ground, a silhouette stood.
I shrunk back and buried my head between my knees and used my hands for a protective cover. I waited for the impact from the hits but they never came.
All I could feel was a big palm wrap around my forceps.
I shrunk back even more and stayed quiet as the hits only increased if I talked or pleaded.
I didn’t know why I just didn’t fight back.
Maybe it’s because after the multiple attempts at doing so, I wished I was dead instead.
The hand suddenly…. embraced me?
What is going on? When did Xayden start hugging me? Was this some sort on new torturing method? Will he embrace me to frighten me and when I least expect, beat me to a pulp? This method was really well thought out and terrifying.
I started trembling terribly as I didn’t know what to expect next.
When the owner of the hand spoke, I understood why I was being hugged.
It was Frankie.
I breathed a sigh of relief but once that image of him hugging that girl popped up, I immediately disentangled myself from his embrace.
“What’s wrong? Are you hurt? I heard you scream. Did something happen to you?” he inquired frantically as he made to touch me again.
“Don’t touch me please.” I screamed as I scooted away from him.
I could see the hurt and worry in his eyes but I knew it was all fake.
“Paula! Please let me explain. It is not what you think.” He pleaded as he tried to grab on to me.
I wasn’t going to listen and fall for his lies so I covered my ears but he wasn’t having any of it. He took my hands off my ears even with my protests and started to speak.
“Paula! Listen to me. Anne is not who you are thinking she is. She is Xayden’s true mate and my best friend” He pronounced.
At first I wasn’t really listening as I was trying to struggle out of her hands but once the words sunk in, my eyes immediately widened.
“What?”
NARRATOR
In a dark old room that was filled with mold, creepy dolls and statues that could make a person puke their guts out, an old woman and a cloaked stranger sat.
“Our plan didn’t work as the Alpha king barged into the room mistress” The old woman announced with her head bowed.
“What? I thought you assured me that it would work?” the cloaked figure responded.
“Yes mistress. She was supposed to start losing her mind and maybe commit suicide with all the thoughts I kept implanting in her head but the Alpha king barged in when I wanted to seal the deal. He would have sensed my presence was he got close to her. So, I fled before he came in.” The old lady chimed in meekly.
“Ughh! Whatever! Just make sure that she looses her mind or kills herself before her power awakens because if we can’t stop it, she will be a threat to us and our plans.” The cloaked figure said before turning around and prancing off.