Alpha’s Pregnant Luna - Chapter 75: Chapter 75

Paula
I was currently training in the arena alone by doing squats and one-man exercises. I was expecting Frankie to show up and train with me but just like the days before, he was a no show.
Since we fucked like crazy that day, we had both been thrown back into our busy lives with me learning spells and doing meditation and him taking care of the pack and Alpha business. The only way we met was at night or when I wanted to train.
I always made time for training and at first, he did too but now, he didn’t seem to have time for me at all.
I was not in the least bit bothered at first because I felt that I should let both of us have our own lives but it became too often to ignore.
I asked him what the reason was numerous times and he just told me that he was busy.
I tried to understand multiple times but now he had also started keeping late nights and that hindered us from seeing each other.
Now, it has been a while since I actually saw him and that made me really sad.
I had pondered over it for a while and I figured that I truly did love him.
I was looking for an opening to tell him how I felt but I hadn’t found any as we barely saw each other.
Today though, I was going to stop giving myself excuses and demand an audience as well as a good explanation.
Before that though, I had a spell lesson and yoga with Akayla.
I might have not become a witch that could practice spells yet but I needed to learn for when I do.
I was somewhat happy though because my episodes had been reducing more frequently.
I couldn’t wait to also break the news to Frankie that I was slowly getting better and that I most likely will no be subjected to a dominance battle.
It all started reducing when I started the yoga sessions. The sessions started on teaching me how to be one with myself. It was also on one of these sessions that I figured that it would be better if I admitted the truth and told Frankie how I felt about him.
It wasn’t like I didn’t love him back all those times that he said it it was just that I was too scared that once I said it, he would just change and become hostile towards me.
I know that what I was thinking was absurd but the roots of deceptions and betrayal ran deep. I was not willing to trigger it.
Now though, I have realized that I wasn’t being totally fair to Frankie as he was giving me his all yet I wasn’t giving him mine.
He had helped me so much while disregarding himself but I still want ready to tell him that I appreciated him.
I was ready to say that I loved him with all of my being.
I was ready to tell him that I was willing to give my all into the relationship just as he did.
I just needed the perfect timing.
I sighed and ruffled my hair in frustration before I walked towards the wooden figure that was used to train on combat skills.
I had started to feel a bit heavy so my combat skills were not really top notch anymore but I was managing.
I closed my eyes and just like always pictured the face of the person I hated most on it to motivate me.
Xayden
I started striking the wooden figure with hate fueling me.
I am going to take revenge for all that you put me through.
I will make you pay for all the suffering that you made me go through.
For all the abuse that you made me experience.
For all the years that I cried out for help and you squashed my hope before me.
For all the years of captivity.
I was going to get stronger.
‘No. I am already strong’ I thought as I did a roundhouse kick that sent the head of the wooden head of the digure flying.
I bent over panting breathlessly.
This had happened quite a few times and the expression of the faces of the people here the first time was priceless.
They had all been very surprised then but now, it was just a routine for them.
I stood up and walked towards the towels that had been prepared for me beforehand.
At least, Frankie knew to tell them to look out for me even though he was not here.
I was sure this people wouldn’t have cared if not.
I wiped the sheen off my head and proceeded to the chambers that I shared with Frankie.
There I got freshened up and went on to meet Akayla.
I had a whole afternoon of lessons scheduled for me.
When I got to her room, I knocked thrice like she asked me to and soon the door slid opened on its own.
“You are here” she said as she smiled at me from where she was sitting on the bed.
“Yeah. Sorry I took so long. I had a lot of pent up anger and frustration I needed to let out.” I answered and I went towards her closet.
My mother was not in the room and I kinda appreciated it.
I was not comfortable with her at all and I preferred when she was not around.
Akayla had tried to get me to converse with her multiple times but it was a bust.
Something in me just didn’t trust her but I didn’t know what.
I picked up the yoga mats that were in a corner of her closet and sprayed them on the floor.
“I am sure that the wooden frames would have suffered for sure” she joked and I chuckled.
“Well, they are kinda used to it by now.” I answered.
“All that bottled up emotions is the reason why we are holding all these sessions. Yoga helps to try and channel all those emotions out of your body in a way that is not violent.” She said as she stood up and went to spray the mat that I had brought for her.
“Yeah it does help” I answered.
Temporarily
“Okay. You can sit down so we can start. Once we are done with this, we can move on to learning spells.” She said.
“Okay” I answered as I obeyed.
Soon we were done with the all our session for the day and I was already so worn out.
I walked towards my chambers and on the way, I suddenly froze.
I stood for a while before redirecting my route.
It was time I settled this!
I knocked on Frankie’s study and entered once I heard him say come in.
“Hey. Can I talk to you? I have something important to say.” I said to him as I watched him arrange and go through the files on his desk.