Becoming Alpha’s Personal Caretaker - Chapter 34: Chapter 34

Freda POV
Oh my god. I actually slept in his arms?!
I was stunned and didn’t know how to deal with this predicament.
Allen raised his eyebrows and looked down at me as I lay in his arms. He smiled and said, “Are you gonna sleep here for the rest of the night?”
His chest suddenly became too hot for me and I hastily sat up from his arms, acting normal as I fixed my hair, “Oh, I’m sorry. I fell asleep just then. Next time you can just wake me up.”
I even reached out my hands to straighten up his wrinkled shirt, which seemed like I was helping him get ready after sex. I took a deep breath, trying to get these wild thoughts out of my head.
“Okay. I’ll remember to do that next time,” Allen chuckled in a deep voice that sounded kind of seductive in such a narrow space.
Next time?
Sitting in the narrow space with him seemed a little too intimate. I panicked and just kept nodding my head. Then I opened the car door and got off immediately. The cold air finally made me sort of sober. I looked up and saw the pale moon up in the deep blue sky. The moonlight was bright and clear and I really didn’t want to go into the house and miss this beautiful sight.
If Mila was here, she would definitely tell me to sit on top of the car and drink bear with her.
Tonight I didn’t feel like suppressing myself anymore and I just sat on the engine. If I hadn’t drunk too much tonight, I would’ve had a few more drinks right now.
Allen got off the car and frowned at me. He wasn’t mad at me. He was just confused.
I laughed, “You wanna join me? The moonlight’s so stunning tonight.”
The second I said that, I realized he was my patient and an alpha who had lost his ability to walk.
I felt stupid and awkward.
Allen saw the look on my face and slightly raised his eyebrows, “Just because I can’t walk for now doesn’t mean I’ve become an invalid for the rest of my life, Miss caretaker.”
He was teasing me by calling me that.
Yeah, as his doctor and private caretaker, I should be the one who was the most aware of his condition. And the engine wasn’t even that high.
Just as I was still feeling embarrassed, Allen stretched out his arms and used his arm muscles to sit right next to me without my help.
I was shocked and turned my head to Allen. Just a month ago, he was a weird alpha who chased away more than a dozen of caretakers but now he did something so childish with me, which wasn’t like him at all. He was nothing like the cold and distant alpha that everyone said he was.
“What?” Allen asked.
“You’re different today,” I couldn’t help but gasp.
Allen froze for a second and then said, “You’re also very different tonight.”
“Huh?” I was a bit puzzled.
His words were few yet quite sharp, “You look lonely.”
“And sad,” he added.
Hearing that, I was stunned.
Mila went to the bar to get wasted with me because she knew I was upset tonight. She thought I was just mad at Carl and the others but she didn’t know that I drank because I felt lonely.
I lost my sense of belonging to the pack I grew up in after having that talk with Alpha Levi. Alpha Hunter, who always protected me and cared for me, chose his interest over me and was on their side. That pack didn’t feel like home anymore and I felt like I had been evicted.
And that was the thing that upset me the most.
“You wanna talk?” Allen said gently yet firmly, “I can be a good listener.”
Should I tell this alpha who I barely knew about my hard feelings?
I didn’t think I could manage to let down my guard in front of him yet.
I avoided eye contact and looked away. Then I just acted to be cool and giggled, “Maybe it’s because they wanna break off the engagement and that disgusts me. My father and I aren’t close in the first place and things haven’t changed for the better. I’m not a child anymore and I moved out a long time ago. Things are still the same and I’m just a little grossed out by them. I got used to…”
All of a sudden, I stopped talking.
Allen was patting my head, trying to comfort me.
I got a strange feeling and if someone else did that, I would feel that it was too childish and awkward. But when Allen did that to me, I felt warm and touched. I somehow even wanted to cry. I couldn’t pretend to be fine anymore and say things I didn’t mean. I felt like I was a child who had just been comforted by him.
He was patting my head gently and I tried hard to stop myself from rubbing against his palm.
Was Allen really my destined lover? Was this kind of thing that only happened between lovers?
“Sorry, I just felt like you might need comfort,” Allen said after realizing that what he just did was kind of abrupt.
All of this was odd because Allen’s wolf had been missing but I had a sense of belonging in this strange pack after he comforted me like that. The feelings I had been holding back finally found their way out at this moment.
I looked down and my throat was getting dryer. I was a little drunk when I said, “That place isn’t my home anymore.”
“Yeah,” Allen was listening quietly.
“And they all picked Natasha.” Including alpha Hunter who I thought was a man of integrity.
“Only idiots will be fooled by the weak,” Allen said gently and withdrew his hand.
“I think I’ve lost my pack now,” I tried to make it sound like a joke by saying, “Olivia and Natasha took everything away from my mother and me. Even though I haven’t been banished yet, I still feel like they have already evicted me. Maybe some wolves are bound to be alone.”
Like me.
For a while, Allen had remained silent. Maybe he was trying to come up with something to comfort me. But when I looked up, I saw him watching me quietly with those golden eyes. I saw something in his eyes and felt a tension between us two.
“Freda.”
“Yeah?”
“Let’s get married.”
“Huh? What did you just say?” My mind went blank and couldn’t tell if I was dreaming or not.
But Allen didn’t look like he was joking at all.
He said in a deep and calming voice, “Be my partner, Freda.”
I thought I was the one who got wasted tonight. Why was Allen talking like he was drunk?
Did he know what he just said?