Betrayed from Birth – Alpha’s Unvalued Daughter - Chapter 92: Chapter 135

Reagan’s POV
Dad never ceases to amaze me, and not in a good way. I am so very disappointed in him. He let me down, and he let mom down.
He refuses to admit any fault and I am not going to back down here. I can’t because before I am done with him, he is going to admit what he did to mom.
He looks so stunned right now that I just sit back down in my chair to let him process what I just told him. It might take a minute.
When he does finally get it he will know for a fact that her dying, was completely on him.
He will not want to accept that, it will cause him to have to accept that if he had done what we asked to begin with, none of us would be here right now.
He would be at home, with mom, doing whatever it is they did there. He would still have his precious money. Cheryl and Blake would be fine, and happy together.
Their son would have never had to deal with the things that my dad put on him. I would be happy at Blood tracker, and not here to pick up my mother’s body for burial.
I felt a hand come down on my shoulder and then another hand falls on my other shoulder and it is Clive and Aaron showing me support for what I said to dad.
They knew it had been tough on me, and were showing me support. I now feel the tears on my face from having to give my dad a reality check.
I did hate that our last interaction together was going to be unpleasant. That his last memory of me was going to be me calling him out for what he has done.
He needs to know my anger at his actions and disappointment in what he chose to do to Blake, Cheryl, and their son.
He knowingly set out to destroy them, when others played a much bigger role in what happened.
He focused more on being angry with Blake and Cheryl and me being demoted to a breeder, than the two that lied about me, and set me up. I had been the cause of my own punishment.
I started that ball rolling myself. Blake was totally within his rights to kill me. Just like these girls are being sentenced to death, for the exact same thing.
They rolled the dice, and they crapped out too. I messed up, and my penalty was the same. Dad just bought my way out of being killed, and so did Aaron. I saw it when it hit.
When the knowledge of what he had done, hit him hard. I never meant to cause him to cry, but I did want him to know that he was the reason that his mate, my mother, is dead.
He sank to his knees, and he stopped pretending. He is in full-on grief at the realization that he is culpable, and entirely at fault here.
I know that I needed to ease up on him now, but I needed answers. I am sure that Blake needed them too. “Why dad?
What were you thinking when you know that we barely escaped the council, Black Adder, and Blood Walker? We barely escaped with our lives, so why would you do this?
Why would you pursue it when both mom and I asked you to drop it? Why did you choose to punish Blake and Cheryl, when Garrett and Marc were the ones that caused it?
I just don’t understand your thinking here, dad. It doesn’t even make any sense. Because now we are both on their radar, dad, they all knew where we are.
Did you think Cheryl was just going to leave you alone, and not pay you back?
I am not trying to be mean here dad, I just cannot understand why you would risk everything, including your own freedom to do this?” I asked him.
“Every time I saw you, I could not get over seeing what they did to you there. It was like you were branded by them with all of your scars.
They wanted to make you hideous so the guys wouldn’t want you anymore. You were so beautiful, just like your mother.
Now that I know that she is a descendant, it makes more sense that she was as stunning as she was. You are my only child, and I could not protect you from harm. I did.
I tried, I spent so much to try to keep you safe, and you were hurt the moment you left here. Do you think that didn’t hurt me too? How we weren’t even allowed to come and see you.
To see exactly what had happened to you. We were prevented from going there for three months. We knew it was bad, and it broke our hearts. I have spent my life protecting you and taking care of you.
I love you and your mother so much. I just wanted them to realize the same hurt I felt. I felt that the whole thing was caused by you being demeaned and demoted to the lowest ranking you could get.
Even Omegas have more value. You were meant for great things, and everything was taken away from all of us. I have had no control of anything for years when I have always had some control over things.
How do you think that made me feel? I just couldn’t let what happened to you go. I tried, I really, really, tried to let it go. But with each visit, I grew angrier.
Just seeing how you were treated by most of the people at Blood Tracker like you were less than gum on their shoes. Like they thought you asked to become a breeder.
Like you asked to be hurt by those jealous she-wolves. All you did was just want to live, we did too because it would have broken our hearts to lose you.
Yes, you made mistakes to get where you are, that was my fault too. I wanted to give you the world. I was so proud of you.
I know that Goddess punished us because of our actions, and what we did to Cole.
But I have loved you from the moment you arrived, and I would give my own life to protect yours” dad announced to the room.
I can feel the tears running down my face as I realized how bad he has felt over me getting hurt. He has been able to protect me, but I got myself into those binds, by trying to emulate what he did.
My dad was my hero, and I thought that he was the best at everything her did. I tried my best to be like him.
We were both in the wrong for it, him for teaching me to cheat and deceive people like that. He was the reason for most of my attempts to try to live up to what he had always taught me.
I screwed up, and I shouldn’t cry foul when it bites me in the a*s. I need to remind dad of that very thing because he targeted a child. An innocent child was affected due to his actions.
He went too far. He has to accept the fact that I didn’t want this, I never wanted this, even immediately after I was hurt.
I was shocked and angry that it happened, but Aaron had Alpha commanded them not to harm me.
I do not know how they were able to get past it, but the blame was solely on them, for their own actions, and Aaron had dealt with them all swiftly.
Aaron and Clive protected me when they wanted to kill me. None of us knew that they were capable of what they did. “Dad, I appreciate that you wanted to defend me, I do.
I know that you love me, you just have always shown it with gifts, and giving me stuff. I would have liked for you to tell me that you loved me.
I would rather just have had more time with you and mom. I didn’t have a great relationship with her, I was really hurt by your cheating on her.
She closed herself off from both of us and stopped giving her time. She just kind of stayed to herself. Part of that I am sure was the fact that you declared open season on Raven.
I had some excellent conversations with mom, on the last two visits. Getting to see her more relaxed, and happy was good to see.
I was looking forward to our next visit, but that is never going to happen now, is it?
She gave me an extra-long hug goodbye when she left the last time because she knew that there were not going to be any more goodbyes between us again.
I know in my heart that she went out of her way to remind me on the last couple of visits how much she liked Cheryl. How much she pitied Cheryl for what she was going through.
It was her letting me know that she knew what was happening and that she accepted the penalty for it. She pitied Cheryl because she had been there dad. She knew exactly what Cheryl was going through.
She knew just how hard you had pushed her because it was past the breaking point. Mom also knew that killing her would bring about what needed to happen, your suffering for it.
You brought this on yourself, dad. Mom couldn’t tell us because the Goddess wouldn’t have allowed her to. So she did what she could to let me know that it was going to be OK.
That she was fine with what had to happen here, that it was the Goddess’s will” I told him. “Graham, there was a reason that I killed them all myself. I felt guilt at what had been done to Reagan.
I made sure that Tabitha, Jennifer, and Michael, were all punished swiftly. I have mentioned to their families that they were killed because of their own actions.
They were all at fault, and I made sure their families knew this. We have and will continue to, protect her.
I would like to point out that there has not been another issue to happen to her in the last 15 years. That is why we are taking it so seriously about the vampire problem.
I want you to know Graham since you have such a laser focus on the faults of others, that you yourself set Reagan up for this to have happened. You coddled her and spoiled her.
You didn’t train her, or allow her how to be able to protect herself. She needed to learn how to do that. That was the very reason that she was able to be hurt by them.
Reagan is a fierce fighter, and things would have ended very differently if she had been allowed to train at your pack. If she was attacked by three today, she would be able to take care of herself.
I guarantee you that because we trained her. The fight would have been much different if you had. Reagan doesn’t hate the scars as you do. She considers them to be battle scars.
Your “ugly reminder” is different for us. To us, it shows just how far she has come. They do not bother me, or Clive.
We don’t find them to be ugly, instead, we look at them as something for her to be proud of. She is powerful now. She is strong and smart, and she will never allow herself to be hurt like that again.
That is the difference, Graham. I have known a lot of men like you, men who find value only in what they consider to be perfection.
What you need to realize is that she is perfect now too, right this moment, she is perfect.
I think that you might have started this whole thing as payback for her, but that is not what it ended up being, was it? I think you are an evil and malicious person, Graham.
I think that you used it as an excuse. The real reason that you went this far was that YOU were disrespected. Blake didn’t defer to you, or let Reagan get away with it.
Instead, he followed our laws and dealt her punishment. I think you felt it was a slap in your face, and you did what you always did.
Waited for people to lower their guard, and then stab them in the back. Why else would you set it up, to where the heir, would kill the next in line? I see it, even if you don’t want to admit it.
You would be running the show, with Garrett as the mouthpiece for you. I see you, Graham, and I know what you were doing.
You were taking out both the oldest children, so you could mold Robert into what you wanted him to be. You will never change, you are not innocent in this.
Your mate was the actual victim, you weren’t, so stop acting like you were. You need to realize that everyone on this side of the bars, including Reagan, knows exactly who you are.
You can hang it up on getting out of that cell, you will either be transferred to where you will get your sentence carried out and die there, or you will die here.
That is what you have to look forward to” Aaron told him. I was stunned at how strongly he told dad off. Dad hates disrespect, any Alpha does.
Why dad thought he could disrespect Aaron with what he was saying, and then be surprised at being called out was almost funny.
Dad was staring at Aaron as if he had never seen him before, but dad was in the wrong. He lied and said that Aaron didn’t punish anyone when Aaron was the one who killed all three of them.
Clive was going to do it, but Aaron was the Alpha and demanded to carry out their sentence. It just shows how far gone dad is in his thinking. I guess now that mom is dead, he is going to lose it.
He has nothing to live for, and he tried to get his freedom from here with the lies he was telling. No one believed his act at all, I couldn’t believe that he had the balls to even try it.
Dad cost Blake his mate and child. Dad was even planning on getting one of Blake’s children to kill the other, and then have several years to run Black Moon behind the scenes.
He was devious, and Aaron was right, he will never stop. Dad was sure that Blake would be crippled by the weight of guilt for what he had done to his mate.
That he would go crazy from either her dying, or doing what she did, and escaping. Dad planned this whole thing out and now was like “oh well” now that it didn’t work out for him.
He is only scared because he knows that Blake isn’t just going to kill him. He is going to make him sorry, and torture him, probably for the next 7 years. I don’t need to come back and hear his lies.
He thinks very well on his feet and even had me believing him until Aaron piped up. I cannot believe that I felt like he was doing it to defend me.
I am thankful that Aaron knew what he was doing and put an end to it. Because that is what this is, dad is pulling out all the stops to get his freedom, and then he will be in the wind.
We will never see him coming until he is here with whoever he can get to follow him and come after us. Dad is an excellent charmer, he can convince people to do almost anything he wants.
He is convincing, and he seems to believe the bullshit that he speaks. Like he actually believes that he is telling the truth when it is the furthest thing from it.
I cannot believe that I was falling for it. Mom and I both were the ones who knew what all he was capable of, and that is the scariest part of it. He is dangerous, and I was correct, to begin with.
I will not be back for him, not to visit, or speak to him. When he passes they can just burn his body, I will not want him back. He had played me for the last time.
I think that it is time to play with him now. “Aaron is right, and I believe that I am done here, Blake. I would like to thank you for allowing me to come and say my goodbyes to my father.
I appreciate that you would allow me here, especially after what I did to you and Cheryl. Again, I would like to apologize to you for what my father has done to you and your family.
It is heartbreaking to see the trail of c*****e that my dad leaves in his wake, as he serves his own agenda. I will not be returning again, as I have gotten my fill of lies today, and for my lifetime.
Apparently, that is the only thing that my dad can speak, so there is no point in me returning here for more of the same. I forgot how good he is at it too, he almost had me believing him.
I know him better than most, and he caught me up in his crazy attempt at twisting the facts to suit what he wanted me to hear.
I also wanted to thank you for sharing dads money with me, and my children.
The pack will benefit greatly from it, and I know that mom was worried about me not being able to take care of us in the future, as she knew how dad was with sharing his money.
That is why she made him write those checks on the last two visits.
I know she would have been very happy to see what you did and how you were able to get dad’s funds without the conman seeing the con.
I know that you will be using the money to make things better for so many people” I told Blake, and he gave me a smile. “Aaron is right, and I believe that I am done here, Blake.
I would like to thank you for allowing me to come and say my goodbyes to my father. I appreciate that you would allow me here, especially after what I did to you and Cheryl.
Again, I would like to apologize to you for what my father has done to you and your family. It is heartbreaking to see the trail of c*****e that my dad leaves in his wake, as he serves his own agenda.
I will not be returning again, as I have gotten my fill of lies today, and for my lifetime.
Apparently, that is the only thing that my dad can speak, so there is no point in me returning here for more of the same. I forgot how good he is at it too, he almost had me believing him.
I know him better than most, and he caught me up in his crazy attempt at twisting the facts to suit what he wanted me to hear.
I also wanted to thank you for sharing dads money with me, and my children.
The pack will benefit greatly from it, and I know that mom was worried about me not being able to take care of us in the future, as she knew how dad was with sharing his money.
That is why she made him write those checks on the last two visits.
I know she would have been very happy to see what you did and how you were able to get dad’s funds without the conman seeing the con.
I know that you will be using the money to make things better for so many people” I told Blake, and he gave me a smile.
He knew what I was doing now, switching gears, and he was ready to play along with me.
Dad is shocked at what I said and he immediately flared back up in anger, “You cannot take my money, it is MY money.
You cannot steal it away from me like that.”
“Dad, if my memory serves me correctly, and I already know that it does. You have robbed and tricked so many packs.
How dare you stand there and get so angry now, at getting played yourself? What can you do with it down here in the cells? Paper airplanes? You are in jail for breaking the pack laws.
They don’t have a gift shop down here for you to use. I remember your laughing at the little additions that you used to add to the deals and agreements you wrote up.
ones where you changed the amounts of what they would get to a lesser amount, but your cut and repayment stayed the same.
You have cheated at least a hundred people doing that, as a matter of fact, you did it so much that no one would deal with you anymore. You are a cheat and a liar, and that fact is well known.
You got rich off of doing things like that. I will start off with getting a fence built for Blood Tracker, and then see if I can repay the funds to the people you robbed.
I will even do it in your name. I guess I don’t have to hide anymore, because your little plan got the council to know where we are.
So before I get picked up, I guess I will be like a little fairy and grant their wish of getting their money back from you. It will be the least I can do for them.
I will use my half of the money to make things right” I told him and his whole face is almost purple in his fury. I don’t know what his problem is, fair is fair.
He really doesn’t need it down here, what was he going to do? Use it as wallpaper?
“I think that is an excellent idea, Reagan, and I am willing to give you 5 million of my half of the money for the perimeter fence for your pack.
That way you don’t overextend yourself by making it right for others. I bet he cheated a lot of people with all he used to do. I researched him after you all had arrived.
Other than him having an excellent head for business, there was nothing else positive about him. He clearly hasn’t learned his lesson either. He would rather keep it, even if he is stuck in the cells.
I hate to tell you Graham, but it is no longer “your” money. It is now, our money” Blake said, and I nodded at him. I appreciate him doing that, we absolutely need the fence around the perimeter.
That is good, as I have no idea at all how much dad owes these other packs. I truly may be more than I will get.
I guess after I call and speak to Raven, I already know I will have to contact the council next.
I will have to see if they can look up all the complaints against dad, so I can make it right and give those packs their money back.
“If you steal my money you ungrateful b***h don’t bother coming back here. You are no longer my daughter” I heard dad tell me as I stood up from the chair.
I had to give a little laugh, as his money has been gone from him for days. He has no more power now, he is literally waiting to die. “That is the best news I have heard all day, Graham.
I am sorry that we are related, as well. I knew you were bad, but I never knew you were willing to sacrifice an innocent child to achieve a position of power again.
You are the last person to be in charge of anything. I am ashamed of what you have done to further your own agenda with a plan so disgusting that you ended up killing my mother to achieve it.
You are the very reason that she is dead, and you just kept pushing and pushing, didn’t you? You pushed Cheryl to the breaking point.
It was not her fault that she had to do what she needed to, to escape and save her son. That is totally on you.
You are a despicable man, and now these women will suffer as bait for the vampires because you included them in your “great idea” didn’t you Graham? I hope you suffer every day for what you have done.
I know the Goddess will not be letting you worm your way out of it this time” I told him and walked away. I needed to get out of here.
My dad was screaming and cussing repulsive things at me, as he wanted to have the last word.
The women were being handcuffed to be transported to Blood Tracker, and they were in various stages of yelling, crying, and cussing as their time here is up.
Blake lead us out, and Clive held my hand as we went up the stairs. At the top, after the door closed I finally allowed my tears to flow freely.
That really hurt, and I see that his real love was his money. I have lost both of my parents now. It didn’t matter that he disowned me because I had already decided to let him go. I was done.
Done with the lies, and the throwing the blame on anyone but him. He is a piece of slime, and I am scraping him off of my shoe right now.
The girls were led past us by the warriors, and taken to the SUV, and I felt bad for them, but they were sentenced to death. Their own actions were the reason for it.
We just had to pick mom up, and we were leaving. I don’t ever want to come back here to Black Moon again, for any reason. Chapter 136
Raven’s POV
I was having a great visit with Cheryl today.
She has felt a lot better after getting to see Blake the other day. Anyone looking at him could tell that he is not sleeping well, and is clearly missing her very much.
He looked absolutely miserable, and I hate saying it but I was glad to see it. It meant that he realized just how badly he had messed up.
He looked like a man desperate to make things right for Cheryl, and I hope he does. Knowing that he was just as affected by her leaving made her feel better, I am sure.
She obviously still loved him, and I know that it lifted her spirits to hear him begging her to come back. He had started off right, he had put Graham in his cells.
I already knew what he was going to find when he went back to check out what I told him had happened. Justin and Brandon both agreed with me and said that they were sure he had been drugged too.
For Blake to have held out against Graham who was full tilt pushing him to cheat. It showed us all how much he loved her, for him to hold out for over 2 years.
He held out because he knew that he couldn’t come back from it, if he did cross her bottom line.
We knew that he would have liked to stay and speak more with Cheryl and Kevin, but once he realized what Graham had done, he had to go back home immediately to check.
Cheryl is still shy around the doctor, and he is already giving her some gentle flirting as he comes by the check her vitals.
For some reason she has it in her head that he just said that in from of Blake to try to dissuade him from coming back here for Cheryl.
But I know the real reason, and it has nothing at all to do with Blake. I was proud of Doctor Max, and I was wondering how he got so bold as to directly challenge an Alpha.
Most men would have listened to an Alpha ordering them to back off, but not Dr. Max. He took it in stride, and deliberately tried to piss Blake off.
If it hadn’t been such a serious occasion, I might have laughed when it happened. But I will not be supporting one over the other.
That choice is Cheryl’s alone and she is the only one who knows the route to take. Blake is trying to win us over, and he was off to a good start.
He repaid the funds, even though we hadn’t asked him to. It was a nice surprise and it went directly into the weapons budget.
I consider it ironic as we very well may be using the new guns, and ammunition against his own pack. But we are getting closer to the end, and things can turn very serious any time now.
We need to be prepared, as we don’t want to lose any of our pack members in this upcoming war.
But with monthly training it is a good thing to have a surplus on ammunition as we need it for the trainings. it was a nice surprise just falling into our lap like that.
Justin loved his new weapon that Blake had sent, and had been out there training with it the same day it arrived. He had the “Fab 5” with him, as I like to call them now.
Jax, Liam, Chase, Dex, and Kevin are all joined together at the hip. If you see one of them coming, the others will soon be in your line of vision.
They all loved the crossbow too, and Justin was great at teaching them on it. They all wanted one now.
Brandon was very happy at the benefit of him being able to use some of the ”free” money that Blake had given him to be able to make that happen.
Cheryl had been given two beautiful azalea’s and she loved them. Clearly he knew her favorite color, as sometimes I see her looking at them, with a smile on her face.
They made her happy, and I was glad that she liked them. She was less happy at the cards that came with them. Just two short messages, but she didn’t throw the cards away.
She kept them with the plants on the cardholder, and seemed to be thinking sometimes when we are sitting in an easy silence.
I liked my plant too and as soon as Brandon and Justin saw how much I reacted to them, they had more delivered from a local nursery.
I do love purple, and he must have got that from my workout outfit I wore that day. At least he was observant, that will play in his favor for Cheryl, as he is clearly paying attention now.
I hope it can work out between them, but it is going to be a long hard road to get them straightened out from all that had happened between them.
I see he is willing to try, and as hard as he possibly can. We all know a bribe when we see one, Blake just isn’t aware that we will not be stepping in to intervene for him.
He is trying to make amends. I can support Cheryl while she navigates her way through this. I think that she, and Kevin, will both be needing counseling for them to attempt to work through this.
He really did a number on them both, allowing Graham to get into his head like that. Graham was dangerous, and I have no idea how he managed to worm his way in like that.
He should have known how dangerous he was from him having to run from the counsel. There was a reason he was being hunted down like he was.
Blake was foolish to trust him, and learned a hard lesson for it. Cheryl knew how he was and should have warned him.
She said she did, but she also said that Graham was different after they arrived at Black Moon.
He was not his normal cocky self, maybe them being on the run, helped him realize he was not bulletproof, like he thought he was.
His waiting so long to put a plan in play, and going so slowly on this was the most dangerous part. He wanted to dig his roots in deep, and it worked out for him.
This was a devious plan from the start, but for Graham to have targeted Kevin in this, had us all pissed off.
It was disgusting what he had thought of doing, and he deserved whatever punishment that Blake gave him for it. We had stepped back, and dad had spoken with council member Emerson about Graham.
They took down the monthly BOLO on the group, because they knew exactly where they were now. It will not be sent out in the coming month anymore.
I still feel a ping in my heart when I think about my mom. She could have reached out, with a letter or something, if she wanted to.
I kind of ich she had, it would have meant more for me to hear it from her own lips, than to come from Cheryl. Not that I didnlt appreciate her telling me, I did.
I guess I would have just liked to hear her voice one more time, and in a positive light. I have never heard her speak kindly to me, and now I never will.
She could have mailed a letter with no return address on it. But I know that she always deferred to dad on things like this. What he said goes, and he would not have wanted her to do that.
I was a mistake from the beginning, as far as he was concerned. If he had known I existed in the first place he would have probably left mom back at the mating ball he found her at.
I realized right then how completely different my life would have been, if Graham would have knowm that when she mated with my father, that she was carrying his pup.
He would not have taken her, or accepted her, because he would have considered her tainted. I think that her having a pup from each of them, bother him way more than any of us knew.
I would have had both my parents if Graham had left her alone, and I would have been loved. I would have been cared for and treated well.
I would not have had to run and hide on the way to and from school. I wouldn’t have had Reagan as the bane of my existence. I wouldn’t have had to hide in my room to be safe from the pack.
The thought of that reminds me that all Graham had to do after I was born, was just give me to my father. It would have been over for him the moment he did.
No more living in fear of what my father would do to him if he ever found out that he kept me at Silver Blade.
He wouldn;t have to worry about being punished for his own dumb choices he made by keeping me hidden there. But I cannot live there in regrets and what-if’s.
I know that the Goddess had plans for me, and that I was molded into the woman that I have become, because of what I went through.
I knew how to be a better mother because of Olivia accepting and loving me from the moment she met me. She is my mother now, and has been for the 15 years that I have known her.
I am better for having Olivia as my mother, as my biological mother, was just not the outgoing or friendly type.
Maybe if she had not been looking for what she thought were green pastures, she would h ave realized why the Goddess put her with my father.
That between her bloodline, and his, that they would have created some of the strongest pups around.
I heard my name being called and I looked at Cheryl who was looking directly at me, with a frown on her face. I wonder how many times she had to call my name before I heard her speaking to me.
“Are you alright? You seem to be far away right now” Cheryl said to me. “Yea, I am fine. I just got caught up in my thoughts. The thing with Graham and what he has done.
What he has done to you and Blake. He needs to be killed for all the wolves he has hurt. He has cost a lot of people different things, money, their packs, and worse of all, their lives.
I hate that Cassandra had to pay the price for him, but I understood why. I honestly do, please do not feel like that was aimed at you at all, it wasn’t.
I know that the Goddess herself probably had her hand in it. It finally caught up to him, as he has lost everything now.
He will have to live with what he has done, and hopefully Blake will let him know that the only person to blame for him losing his mate, is himself.
He made up this whole misplaced, evil plan out to get you, and I hope that he is pleased with how it actually played out, as he will die in Blake’s cells, at Blake’s hands” I told Cheryl.
Knowing that this has got to be the very worst of all of his plans he has ever attempted. I am glad that Cheryl was the one to defeat him, when he tried to ruin her life like he had.
He got quite a few blows in of his own, but she defeated him, and got the last laugh. That is the best part of it, and if we can get it done, I would like to go see him, in the cell’s with Cheryl.
As soon as she is heatlhy again. I think that would help her get past all of this, much quicker, if she were to see him being the one suffering the consequences of his actions now.
“Yes, I would love to get to see him in the cells myself. I know for a fact that Blake is going to make him suffer.
I think that Graham got used to how Blake is now, instead of thinking about how he used to be. I am no longer there to keep him calm.
I still can’t believe that he thought the pack being punished if he were to go on rampage for me running away, was a valid reason for me to come back.
It is not, they showed their true colors after Blake announced I had cheated on him. From that moment on, it was like they all hated me.
Like they had just been waiting on a chance to let me know that they were glad I had finally been found out. Especially the she-wolves that had crushes on him.
They were coming out of the woodwork, and that was the hardest part. Seeing them throwing themselves at Blake, right in front of me.
He didn’t shoot them down either, he liked the pain that it caused me, he just didn’t cross a line with them, not then. He used them as tools to hurt me more, as he waited for me to finally lose it.
That was the worst part. The years of being told I was not worthy of him, how he made a mistake in choosing me. It tore me down piece by piece.
I know what his plan was, but the years of being bullied and disrespected, were worse than the physical betrayal. At least that pain was temporary.
The pain of his words, on a daily basis, year after year, that is what really hurt” Cheryl told me, and I could feel her pain. She glanced over at the plants he had sent her.
I can see the tears in her eyes as she tries to hide them from me by looking away. Yea, he has got some mountains to climb before he is going to be forgiven. I can see how conflicted she is right now.
She does love him, real love for your partner doesn’t just go away quickly. You have to keep reminding yourself what they did, and the lack of care they had when they did it.
Even today, sometimes the pain that Justin gave me will raise its head, and remind me. I know that it is not him any longer, but the fact remains that he had hurt me, and badly. Brandon hurt me too.
those memories don’t happen frequently, but they do pop up and when it does, the hurt is almost as fresh as when it originally happened. I love them both dearly, they mean the world to me.
But sometimes when you have been hurt by the one you love, it just stays there in your heart waiting for the opportunity to remind you that it could happen again.
The fear that comes with that warning, is where the real danger lies. Thankfully, I will not give it space to live there.
I tamp it down again when it does pop up, and tell it that it is a liar, because I have faith in my mates. “Raven, are you with Cheryl?” I heard Brandon’s voice in my head through the link.
He knew I was going to be here today, so I wonder what he needs. Before I can respond, he continues and he is speaking quickly. “I don’t know how to say this, other than to just come out with it.
Reagan is on the phone. She wants to talk to you, and also to Cheryl. If you don’t want to talk to her, I will take care of it.
But she seems nice, but insistent, on speaking with you both” Brandon linked me. Whatever I thought he was going to say, it was not this.
I never expected that I would ever speak to her again in my life. To say that I was stunned, is an understatement.
I will allow it, but the first time she goes to be her usual self, I am hanging up, and blocking her number. “I will speak to her. Go ahead and give her my cell number” I linked back to him.
I took a moment to prepare myself before telling Cheryl that a phone call was coming, and it was going to be Reagan on the line. I can see her stiffen up. She already knows that this will not be good.
Cheryl killed Cassandra, and since Reagan wants to talk to her too, we are almost positive that she is going to want to go off on Cheryl for killing our mother.
Reagan will then probably want to go off on me for allowing her to stay here. But whatever it is, I will be nice, until she says something to push me to not be nice anymore.
My phone rings a minute later and after taking a deep breathe, I answered the phone. “Hello” I said. “Raven?” I can hear Reagan’s voice come out over through the speaker.
She sounds older, but still the same. “Yes, hello Reagan” I answered her back. Different emotions come flying back at hearing her voice, and the main one was all the bullying that she did to me.
All the hateful comments that I thought had long been dealt with are suddenly right here on the surface. I am blinking back the tears from the bad memories that are now swirling around in my head.
She has been the cause of more bad memories than I can count. I may allow the tears to fall, but she will never hear me cry over the phone. “Hey, Raven. I am sorry for bothering you.
I won’t take up a lot of your time, I just called to tell you how sorry I am for everything. I was a horrible sister, and I cannot tell you how regretful I am about it. I am calling the council next.
I will be paying whatever fine, or accepting whatever punishment that they want to give me. But I wanted to start by talking to you. I know it is too late for you to forgive me.
I have done so many things wrong to you, and I hate that I just followed along blindly to what Graham wanted. I finally saw today, just how warped he really is, when I gave him my goodbyes.
I was picking up mom’s body, she will be buried at my pack, Blood Tracker. I am just mentioning it in case you ever want to come to pay your respects.
I heard what he had done, and I only agreed to speak with him because I wanted him to know that I knew he was the reason that our mom was dead.
He was never going to acknowledge his fault and involvement in it.
He needed to be told, he can deny it all he wants, but he is the reason, and I am disgusted by his actions” Reagan’s voice rang out into the room. Both Cheryl and I were too shocked to speak.
This sounded like Reagan’s voice, but I have never heard her acknowledge any fault of her own, or speak badly about Graham. She had him at hero level, as far as she was concerned.
He never did anything wrong in her opinion, any punishment that I received, she made sure to mention that I earned it, just like he said. Whatever he mentioned to her, she tried to do.
She wanted to be like him all her life, and she was, she became just like him. But right now, with her admitting her own fault and mistakes that she made. She didn’t sound like him anymore.
I have to say that it seems like she may have changed for the better. “Raven, are you there?” I heard Reagan’s voice cut into my thoughts.
“Yes, I am still here with Cheryl in the pack hospital” I answered her. “Good, because I needed to tell her something too. Can she hear me?” Reagan asked, and I am almost too scared to respond to her.
I know that we both want to know what else she is going to say, and we are scared for Cheryl as she is still very weak. I don’t know if she can handle it or not.
Before I can respond, I heard Cheryl’s voice ring out strong in response, “Yes, Reagan, I can hear you.
What would you like to say to me?”
No we both wait to hear if this is where Reagan shows her true colors again. Because we both know her, we know who she is at her core.
If there is one thing that we both know it is the fact that Reagan has never missed an opportunity to hurt someone else, when she could.
I am holding my breath as I waited for Reagan’s response, as this will be the real test of whether or not Reagan had truly changed, or not.