Beyond the Trap of Yesterday - Chapter 23: Chapter 23
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Zara's pov
-8 years ago-
"HURRY UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT, WERE GONNA BE LATE" father shouts
We're going to dinner right now, I don't want to I would rather hide in my room with a book, mom spent an hour covering my bruises with makeup to make sure no one would notice
I don't know what the purpose of this dinner is, last time we went to dinner dad came out of the bathroom with his shirt covered in blood and we had to leave
I remember him screaming on the phone the night before that the shipments were late and that a man stole a part of them or something I'm not sure
My parents always make sure I act like the good respectful daughter I should be at dinner, and if I don't... I receive a punishment, sadly I always get a punishment since I always somehow do something wrong
We're now back home from dinner, dad is getting rid of the shirt covered in blood, he said he was gonna go to the bathroom but he didn't he followed a man and came back with blood on him
I'm scared, did he hurt that man like he hurts me?
I somehow spoke to little this time...'it's disrespectful to not address everyone at the dinner table' father said
I don't understand last time I talked too much, and now too little?
I'm curled up in a ball in the corner in my room covered in blood, bruises, and cuts as a punishment for being a bad daughter
I'm sorry, I really tried mom and dad
-end of flashback-
I wake up in cold sweats freaking out, I notice that it's raining outside... I quickly get up from bed and start pacing around my room
I look at the clock to see that it's 3 am
Shit.
I feel a panic attack coming along
I haven't had a panic attack in a while
I don't understand what triggered it, I'm guessing the nightmare
But I'm pacing around my room shaking
I end up sliding against the wall shaking, and a sob escapes my throat
That's the moment I know I can't do anything about this panic attack but suffer through it
The rain is getting loader and scaring me even more
' this is not what us Ricci's do we don't cry' my parents would tell me
Well F them
They did this to me,
To most people rain is relaxing, it even puts them to sleep
But not to me, I can't breathe at this point I'm gasping for air not being able to breath
Suddenly I hear a voice I've grown to well to talk as he comes closer to me and squats down
"Hey what's wrong," Enzo says voice filled with concern
Pls go Enzo I can't tell you, I won't let you see me as a broken flower you need to fix, pls go to bed and let me suffer alone how I always have
Enzo's pov
I'm finally done with the last paperwork I need to get through
I look at the clock and it's around 3 am
Damn where did the time go, I need sleep
Thankfully I don't have work tomorrow, but still, a man needs his sleep
I'm walking to my room when I hear someone crying?
At first, I think it's Mia but it's closer to my room
I see Zara's door a little open
I open it some more
And what I see absolutely breaks my heart
It looks like she's having a panic attack
She's in the corner of the room, sobbing and she looks like she can't breathe
I immediately make my way towards her
I don't know why she's having a panic attack but I'll try to be there for her
She did say the dark makes her anxious and stuff so maybe it's that?
"Hey what's wrong," I ask crouching down closer to her
I realize the moment the question comes out of my mouth that its stupid to ask someone who can't breathe and is having a panic attack that
So I quickly slide on the floor beside her and grab her hand
She immediately starts fiddling with my rings
I grab her and put her on my lap
She immediately wraps her arms around my neck and digs her head in the crook of my neck sobbing
And it absolutely breaks my heart
I don't know what's wrong but I won't push it tonight, I don't want her talking about whatever triggered her panic attack and risk her having another one, so I'll talk to her in the morning about it
"Your okay, I'm right here, I got you," I said stroking her hair
"Nothings gonna happen to you, I'm not leaving" i whisper in her ear
She clings even tighter to me
"Tell me about your favorite things to bake at the bakery," I ask her trying to get her mind away from whatever she's panicking about
She mumbles something and tries to catch her breath
"Umm c-cake" she manages to choke out
"Muffins" she chokes again
"That's it keep going take your time," I tell her
I stand up picking her up with me and sit on the bed
"Cinnamon r-rolls" she manages to get a tiny bit more relaxed
"Brownies," she says
"Good your doing great, now what are things you're thankful for"
Hopefully talking about happy thoughts will help her
"Ummm Ava," she says shakily
"Mia," she says
I smile at that
"The bakery," she says a little less shaky
"You," she says in a whisper, no shakiness to her voice whatsoever
I can't help but smile at that
"I'm thankfully for you too," I say kissing the top of her head
"Thank you" she whispers
"Are you okay now?" I ask
"Better, thank you" she hugs me tighter
I continue stroking her " I'll leave when you're ready okay?"
She clings tighter to me if that's possible and whispers "don't leave me"
My heart breaks at the words, yet swells in happiness that she trusts me at least a little to not want me to leave
I will never leave you la mia Regina (my queen)
"I need to change sweetheart, and shower I'm still in my work clothes," I say smiling slightly
"Who cares" she whispers
I can't help but chuckle at that
Clearly whatever triggered her panic attack is making her anxious to be alone right now
"Ok you can sleep in my bed then, but I'll have to leave for 5 minutes to change and shower and brush my teeth," I say standing up holding her as she clings to me
She mumbles an ok in my neck
I can see her shirt is completely soaked from crying so I quickly grab a hoodie to give to her
"Here change it to this your shirt is soaked, I'll be right back okay, also you can keep to hoodie?" I say
She gives a nod and a slight smile
Her facial expression broke me
Her eyes are puffy from crying, her cheeks are tinted pink and her lips are plump
She somehow still looks breathtaking after crying
I quickly shower, change and brush my teeth
I come out of my room to see her still crying a little
I crawl into bed and she immediately wraps her arms me
She's so cute
I stroke her hair and whisper a "your okay, your safe" to which she clings tighter to me
After a few minutes of me stroking her hair, I notice her breathing is even
I look to see she's asleep
I hope she's okay, I guess I'll try to see tomorrow
Good thing I don't have work tomorrow
Soon I fall asleep listening to Zaras steady breathing
-8 years ago-
"HURRY UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT, WERE GONNA BE LATE" father shouts
We're going to dinner right now, I don't want to I would rather hide in my room with a book, mom spent an hour covering my bruises with makeup to make sure no one would notice
I don't know what the purpose of this dinner is, last time we went to dinner dad came out of the bathroom with his shirt covered in blood and we had to leave
I remember him screaming on the phone the night before that the shipments were late and that a man stole a part of them or something I'm not sure
My parents always make sure I act like the good respectful daughter I should be at dinner, and if I don't... I receive a punishment, sadly I always get a punishment since I always somehow do something wrong
We're now back home from dinner, dad is getting rid of the shirt covered in blood, he said he was gonna go to the bathroom but he didn't he followed a man and came back with blood on him
I'm scared, did he hurt that man like he hurts me?
I somehow spoke to little this time...'it's disrespectful to not address everyone at the dinner table' father said
I don't understand last time I talked too much, and now too little?
I'm curled up in a ball in the corner in my room covered in blood, bruises, and cuts as a punishment for being a bad daughter
I'm sorry, I really tried mom and dad
-end of flashback-
I wake up in cold sweats freaking out, I notice that it's raining outside... I quickly get up from bed and start pacing around my room
I look at the clock to see that it's 3 am
Shit.
I feel a panic attack coming along
I haven't had a panic attack in a while
I don't understand what triggered it, I'm guessing the nightmare
But I'm pacing around my room shaking
I end up sliding against the wall shaking, and a sob escapes my throat
That's the moment I know I can't do anything about this panic attack but suffer through it
The rain is getting loader and scaring me even more
' this is not what us Ricci's do we don't cry' my parents would tell me
Well F them
They did this to me,
To most people rain is relaxing, it even puts them to sleep
But not to me, I can't breathe at this point I'm gasping for air not being able to breath
Suddenly I hear a voice I've grown to well to talk as he comes closer to me and squats down
"Hey what's wrong," Enzo says voice filled with concern
Pls go Enzo I can't tell you, I won't let you see me as a broken flower you need to fix, pls go to bed and let me suffer alone how I always have
Enzo's pov
I'm finally done with the last paperwork I need to get through
I look at the clock and it's around 3 am
Damn where did the time go, I need sleep
Thankfully I don't have work tomorrow, but still, a man needs his sleep
I'm walking to my room when I hear someone crying?
At first, I think it's Mia but it's closer to my room
I see Zara's door a little open
I open it some more
And what I see absolutely breaks my heart
It looks like she's having a panic attack
She's in the corner of the room, sobbing and she looks like she can't breathe
I immediately make my way towards her
I don't know why she's having a panic attack but I'll try to be there for her
She did say the dark makes her anxious and stuff so maybe it's that?
"Hey what's wrong," I ask crouching down closer to her
I realize the moment the question comes out of my mouth that its stupid to ask someone who can't breathe and is having a panic attack that
So I quickly slide on the floor beside her and grab her hand
She immediately starts fiddling with my rings
I grab her and put her on my lap
She immediately wraps her arms around my neck and digs her head in the crook of my neck sobbing
And it absolutely breaks my heart
I don't know what's wrong but I won't push it tonight, I don't want her talking about whatever triggered her panic attack and risk her having another one, so I'll talk to her in the morning about it
"Your okay, I'm right here, I got you," I said stroking her hair
"Nothings gonna happen to you, I'm not leaving" i whisper in her ear
She clings even tighter to me
"Tell me about your favorite things to bake at the bakery," I ask her trying to get her mind away from whatever she's panicking about
She mumbles something and tries to catch her breath
"Umm c-cake" she manages to choke out
"Muffins" she chokes again
"That's it keep going take your time," I tell her
I stand up picking her up with me and sit on the bed
"Cinnamon r-rolls" she manages to get a tiny bit more relaxed
"Brownies," she says
"Good your doing great, now what are things you're thankful for"
Hopefully talking about happy thoughts will help her
"Ummm Ava," she says shakily
"Mia," she says
I smile at that
"The bakery," she says a little less shaky
"You," she says in a whisper, no shakiness to her voice whatsoever
I can't help but smile at that
"I'm thankfully for you too," I say kissing the top of her head
"Thank you" she whispers
"Are you okay now?" I ask
"Better, thank you" she hugs me tighter
I continue stroking her " I'll leave when you're ready okay?"
She clings tighter to me if that's possible and whispers "don't leave me"
My heart breaks at the words, yet swells in happiness that she trusts me at least a little to not want me to leave
I will never leave you la mia Regina (my queen)
"I need to change sweetheart, and shower I'm still in my work clothes," I say smiling slightly
"Who cares" she whispers
I can't help but chuckle at that
Clearly whatever triggered her panic attack is making her anxious to be alone right now
"Ok you can sleep in my bed then, but I'll have to leave for 5 minutes to change and shower and brush my teeth," I say standing up holding her as she clings to me
She mumbles an ok in my neck
I can see her shirt is completely soaked from crying so I quickly grab a hoodie to give to her
"Here change it to this your shirt is soaked, I'll be right back okay, also you can keep to hoodie?" I say
She gives a nod and a slight smile
Her facial expression broke me
Her eyes are puffy from crying, her cheeks are tinted pink and her lips are plump
She somehow still looks breathtaking after crying
I quickly shower, change and brush my teeth
I come out of my room to see her still crying a little
I crawl into bed and she immediately wraps her arms me
She's so cute
I stroke her hair and whisper a "your okay, your safe" to which she clings tighter to me
After a few minutes of me stroking her hair, I notice her breathing is even
I look to see she's asleep
I hope she's okay, I guess I'll try to see tomorrow
Good thing I don't have work tomorrow
Soon I fall asleep listening to Zaras steady breathing
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