Chasing His Betrayed Luna - Chapter 149: Chapter 149

Fiona
Why?
Why can’t I be happy? Why can’t my happiness last?
Why does life have to keep kicking me in the gut, hard, like there was no one else to kick? This was becoming too much for me, and I no longer knew how to handle life. All I wanted was a kiss that would help me decide if I could choose Lucas and forget the past like it never happened.
And to be honest, I almost believed we could be happy together when he touched my face and stared at me like I was the most beautiful and precious woman he had ever set his eyes on. He looked at me like he could see the moon in my eyes and smell heaven on my face…
He looked at me like I owned him even though I had rejected him many times.
Lucas looked at me and I loved it.
I wanted everything he could offer.
However, I was denied the satisfaction of taking him when I felt myself getting transported into the familiar realm- the same realm I had been trying to access so I could get a clearer glimpse of the visions- The Seer Realm.
I was snatched into the Seer Realm for one purpose and one purpose alone.
“That can’t happen, Relia.” Inara cried within me as I tried not to recall the bloody vision.
We both knew what or more precisely, whose life was at risk because the second I opened my eyes in the Seer Realm, I saw myself sitting on the floor, weeping profusely just like I had been seeing.
However, this time, I was able to walk closer to my future self and see beyond her shaking shoulders. I saw the frame she was holding clearer than ever and I felt my world collapsing when I saw the face of the person whose body she was crying over.
“I just got you. I can’t lose you again. I don’t want to do alive alone anymore.” My future self cried, holding the lifeless frame of the man I was just about to kiss.
Lucas.
The body was Lucas’s.
I stood there beside my future self and If I could cry in that realm, I cried. I knew I did as sadness overwhelmed me, nearly choking me.
Despite her tears and my misery, Lucas remained as he was and I was yanked back to reality where my tears flowed freely despite Lucas’s presence.
I knew I wasn’t in love with him at the moment but from what I saw, my future self was in love with in. She cried like a woman whose heart had been cut out of her body and sliced into unrecognizable pieces.
I cried for that woman… that version of me that fell in love again despite all odds only to have her heart broken in the worst ways anyone could ever imagine-
“What’s going on, Fiona? Please talk to me. Say something.” Lucas asked, worry loud in his voice after he failed to stop my tears.
He tried to help me relax but I just couldn’t not when I knew he would die.
“What the vision made look like Mia Lu’s death wasn’t what it seemed, Fiona. What if this is another case like Mia Lu’s? What if Lucas won’t die?” Inara asked rhetorically but hopefully.
She wanted to believe that so badly even though she could see the images of the vision in my head. The big wound on Lucas’s chest and my bloody hands wouldn’t let me take my wolf seriously but that didn’t stop me from running out of my hut after I told Lucas that I needed to see Mia Lu.
“But for what? Can’t it wait till tomorrow? It’s late, Fiona, and you are tired-” He started saying but I was gone before he could finish.
I left without giving him the closure he deserved.
Lucas was probably thinking I led him to believe I was ready to kiss him only to run off like I did when he asked to kiss me the other night.
With a heavy heart, I entered Mia Lu’s hut. I didn’t wonder why her door was opened even though she was supposed to be asleep by this time but after I entered and saw the Elders in her room, I realized that I had just walked into what could have been a meeting session.
Susanna was the first to react to my entrance, “Fiona? You are crying?”
Then Mia Lu voiced with squinted eyes, “What’s the problem? Another sleepless night?”
I burst into tears despite my intention to speak. Susanna rushed to my side, leaving her seat and all eyes turned to me. I stuttered, “I need help. You’ve to help me.”
“We can’t help until you speak to us, Fiona,” Lori uttered gently.
I nodded and quickly continued while Susanna patted my back, “You have to help me change the future.”
“That’s impossible. Even the brightest minds couldn’t achieve that in the White Shade Pac where spirituality was at its peak.’ Jeremy was quick to state.
“But I have to change the future!” I exclaimed. “What’s the point of seeing the future if it’s unavoidable? I believe these visions are warnings and I should be able to change them-”
“If only we can change fate, Fiona, perhaps White Shade Pack will still stand today.” Lori cut in with a sigh. “Every ability has its limits and as a Seer, making a change is your limit. You will see the good and the bad. You will get to celebrate the good in advance yet suffer as the bad becomes a reality-”
“I can’t let this bad become a reality, Lori. I can’t let him die.” I cried out, my heart clenching hard.
While others asked me who would be dying, Susanna’s breath hitched and that caught my attention. I turned my teary eyes to her but she looked away, her hands falling to her side.
I whimpered, “You knew, didn’t you? You saw it too.” Susanna nodded just in time for it to click in my head. “He knows as well. He knows he will be dying since the day you read his memories and visited the future through his mind.”
Again, Susanna nodded, causing my legs to buckle under my weight. Susanna caught me, blurting, “He didn’t want you to know because he was scared this would happen, Fiona. He was worried about your well-being and that’s why I couldn’t tell you-”
Susanna went on and on but I wasn’t mad at her. I was mad at myself. I was mad because I failed to realize this earlier. I fail to see the fear in Lucas’s eyes when he looks at me. I was so engrossed in my own feelings that I didn’t see how worried he was about himself… about us.
He was going to die and he saw himself dying.
What could be worse than knowing how one would die?