Chasing His Betrayed Luna - Chapter 39: Chapter 39

ALPHA RAIDEN
Lorraine didn’t return to my mansion that day and while a part of me felt relieved that she had gone back to her dad’s home, a bigger part of me felt like I was the asshole Fiona and Lex had been calling me.
I shouldn’t have treated Lorraine like that and while it was a good choice to reject her body because I didn’t want her, perhaps I could have found a better and less insulting way to do it.
And Fiona?
Nothing could ever make up for the way I treated her in the past. She made me realize I wasn’t as perfect as I thought I was. I said I hated bullies but I bullied Fiona emotionally for the three years she stayed married to me…. Until I literally slapped her with divorce papers, running into the arms of Lorraine… who I had been treating poorly as well.
Maybe I was under a curse- To never love any woman like they deserved to be loved.
“Curse? Hell no! You’re just plain stupid.” Lex countered my thought even though I was already feeling like shit.
He added, “You shouldn’t feel like shit.” He emphasized the word feel and continued, “You’re shit. Own it, asshole.”
“You look like shit, Alpha. Is everything alright?” Andrew asked, emphasizing Lex’s words even though he couldn’t have heard my wolf.
We were both sitting in the pack’s general office after dismissing a meeting with the council of Elders and of course, Nolan was there, shooting daggers at me all through the meeting. I assumed his daughter already told him about what happened between us last night and he most likely despised me even more than he did after the dinner we had.
“Everything sucks and you know it,” I confessed to Andrew, closing my eyes in hopes that I’d feel a sense of peace even if it was for a mere second but Fiona’s face popped into my head, stealing my peace.
Andrew asked with interest, “Is this about Fiona or Lorraine?”
“Actually, it’s both, Drew,” I revealed.
If I was going to be a better man and Alpha, I might as well start owning up to my mistakes and feelings. I was in love with Fiona but I didn’t deserve her and Lorraine was still in love with me as seen yesterday before she stormed out of my home but I also didn’t deserve Lorraine’s love… not anyone.
“You are still confused about how you feel about both women?” Andrew asked me, his beta senses kicking in.
I looked around my office, taking a minute to think before voicing my response with conviction, “I’m not confused, Drew. I know I love Fiona. I’ve been in love with her even before she escaped and rejected me but-”
“You were too blinded by your childhood love to realize that.” He completed for me. “Or you were probably just longing for what you were used to because you were terrified of your new feelings.”
It made so much sense when Andrew described it like that but it also made me look like the victim which I wasn’t. In this story, I’m the villain.
“Fiona hates me.” I filled Andrew in, telling him about the long argument I had with Fiona after the dinner with Lorraine’s parents. “Lorraine also despises me. She didn’t return home yesterday and I haven’t heard from her all day.”
Andrew’s jaw hung loose as he stared at me in disbelief. “Who could have tried to kill Fiona while you were searching for her? About Lorraine, we both know she will come around soon. It’s left to you to decide how you want to end the long relationship you have been maintaining with her or do you plan to keep stringing her on?”
“Hell no!” I replied, utterly disgusted by the idea but isn’t that what I’ve been doing these past few years? Tsk!. “I don’t want to keep leading Lorraine on but telling her I no longer love her will break her, Drew. She still means so much to me even though my heart beats for a different woman and what if the assassination attack on Fiona was just random? She was alone and an easy target for predators.”
“Ending it with Lorraine is the right thing to do at this point. Take your time but don’t take too much time. Her honor would be questioned but she would be fine.” Andrew advised me and I nodded but he wasn’t done yet. He continued, “Fiona will leave soon, Lucas. You either get her back or lose her again. Whatever happens, I’ll be here to support you.”
That was a true friend right there but again his words left me confused. How I wished I could be told how to make amends with Fiona and how to end it with Lorraine without hurting her. Heck!
“Thank you, Drew.” I appreciated my friend and we both left the office.
Andrew patted my shoulder before excusing himself as he had to be in the arena to prepare the place for the finals that would be happening tomorrow. I decided to head back to my mansion to catch a break from everything going on in my life.
However, I sighted Fiona in a small enclosed garden close to my home. My heart lept for joy when I saw her but Tristan also stepped into sight, holding the familiar little girl who kept screaming, “Look at me. I can throw Kyle over my shoulder.” I could hear her excitement from where I was standing as she dragged Tristan around with her.
I masked my scent, wanting to hear more even though eavesdropping was wrong.
The masked little boy walked over to Fiona who picked him up, and whispered some words into his ears before responding to the little girl, “Be nice to your twin brother, Katie, or this little play date will be over before it even begins.”
They were twins… and they seemed to have a close bond with both Fiona and Tristan.
The sound of Tristan’s laughter cut my thoughts short and little Katie retorted bluntly, “Okay, mom. I’ll be nice.” Mom? My heart sank as it all began to make sense or should I say my greatest fear and suspicion had been confirmed.
“I don’t want to play, Mama. I’d rather stay in the library.” Kyle was his name… He called Fiona Mama, causing me to stagger backward while Tristan drew closer to Fiona, Katie in his arms.
“Don’t be a nerd today, Kyle. I thought this was supposed to be a family time for us all. Let’s play and we will read all the books you want together afterward.” Tristan muttered fondly.
There was no doubt. He was their dad.
I stopped listening to the conversation because every word they uttered broke me, shattering my chances with Fiona. Goddess, no! No, please….
I cried to myself, my legs shaking as I retreated, taking many steps back from the happy family that would never be mine. I’ve lost her… everything was lost and I, Lucas Flockhart accept this defeat.