Chasing His Betrayed Luna - Chapter 65: Chapter 65

LARISA’S POV
After tending to Fiona’s abomination alone all night, I decided to visit Lucas without taking care of my appearance. I thought it would be good for my plans if he saw me looking haggard… I thought his heart would beat for me again if he realized that I was under a lot of stress because of his missing son…
Which was true even though it wasn’t in the same sense.
“… I’m putting you on the resting list though…”
Those words were a testament to the fact that he still cared about me… that he still saw the good in me and that I was happy. I got carried away by the love I had always carried in my heart for him and I hugged him, kissing his neck even though his skin reeks.
He clearly hasn’t showered today.
Yet I loved him.
“I have missed you, Lucas. I’ve missed us.” I sighed, inhaling his musky scent as I held him, hoping that he would wrap his arms around me as well.
But Lucas tried to push me away instead of holding me.
“Lorraine.” He called my full name despite knowing that I didn’t like hearing it from him.
I preferred him calling me Lorraine.
“Can’t you just hold me for two minutes, Lucas? I’m hurting and exhausted.” I blurted, manipulating him again.
Lucas sighed but I won. He wrapped his arms around me, filling me with memories of the good old days when Fiona wasn’t in the picture and the twins were far from being a threat to my place in Lucas’s heart.
Everything would be fine as long as Lucas still loves and chooses me.
However, the blissful moment was cut short when Lucas muttered close to my ears, “We need to talk, Lorraine.”
“I just want to be in your arms, my love. Can we talk later?” I mumbled, closing my eyes to enjoy the moment. 1 Who knows? If he treats me better and makes me happier, I might return Kyle to Fiona and have her leave the pack- “We should talk now, please.” Did Lucas just beg me? Oh, dear goddess! Today must be a good day for me.
I pulled back just enough to gaze into his eyes, “Are you about to tell me to stop looking for you bastard son because I look like I’d drop dead any second from now?”
Lucas’s face knitted into a tight smile before I realized that I might have been a little too honest with my last statement. Before I could ease the tension, Lucas etched, “Yes, you can stop looking for my son since he is a bother to you.”
He pushed me off him, turning his back to me but that didn’t stop me from responding, “Of course he is a bother to me, Lucas. Don’t you get it!”
“Lorraine!” He raised his voice.
But I went three octaves higher, “You have kids! The man I love and will be spending forever with has two kids with his ex and he has been acting like I’m just supposed to be okay with that. You haven’t even marked me. What’s the assurance that you would mark me and crown my efforts by making me your woman? That’s all I have ever desired. Being yours, Lucas.” “Lorraine-”
“I just want to be yours! I want you to be mine as well- ”
He countered, “But the moon goddess didn’t want that, Lorraine. We are not meant to be.”
His words sent shock waves through my body and I stuttered, “Since when do we care about the moon goddess arrangement? You know we are meant for each other and that’s all that matters.”
Lucas hit my heart with an invisible sledgehammer as he uttered with conviction, “I don’t know, Lorraine. We made a mistake due to our childish infatuation. We should know better-”
“What are you trying to say?” I voiced that question fearfully. “Are you br-breaking up with me?”
That question would only be valid if Lucas and I had been in a relationship and to be honest, I don’t think what we have could pass for a romantic relationship… not after Fiona’s return.
“It’s time we let it go, Lorraine. Please understand that you mean a lot to me but we can’t keep forcing things-”
“But you love me.” I heard him but I refused to understand those silly words nor accept them.
“As a friend, Lorraine.” Lucas swept the floor off my feet with those words.
My mouth dropped wide open and I found myself losing balance. Tears brimmed in my eyes and I wished those were fake but they were fucking real. He was making me cry without remorse.
“No!” I shook my head. “You love me as a woman, Lucas. You are just saying this because you are under a lot of stress and pressure from Fiona.”
He has to love me. I confirmed that before returning to the pack from where his parents sent me. In fact, I sealed his love for me with everything I learned while I was away-
“Yes, Fiona’s return made me realize what I felt for you wasn’t love but she has nothing to do with my decision to let you go. You deserve a man who loves you—” Lucas started but I zoned out.
I zoned out when I recalled how I ripped out the heart of the only man who could genuinely love me because I was in love with Lucas. I kill the man Lucas believed I deserved to return to this pack but this is what I get?
I fucking sacrificed my destined mate for Lucas, including my wolf when she wouldn’t stop bitching about her dead mate… yet, this is what I get?
“Are you listening to me, Lari-” Rauden shook my frame.
However, I snatched myself from his hold, running as fast as my legs could carry me and intending to make Lucas pay… He either pays a heavy price or gives me back his heart!