Chasing the rejected luna’s heart - Chapter 183: Chapter 183

~LUCA~
I turned sharply as Damon grabbed onto my hand and yanked the gun out of my hand before I could pull the trigger.
"Are you insane?!" He screamed in my face while from the Corner of my eye, I saw Delilah trying to approach me.
Clara and Mrs Donovan rushed in soon after and they gasped when they took in the scene in front of her.
"Don't come near me! Take her away!" I screamed as I tried to move as far away as I could Delilah. I couldn't even look at her, I Couldn't look at what I had done to her.
"I'm fine Luca! I've healed and..."
"Get her away, I'm behind you. Take her away!" I screamed before tugging at my hair and the voices slowly returned.
"Let's go outside, Delilah. Damon will handle him" Clara uttered as she walked up to Delilah.
"Luca please" Delilah murmured and I closed my eyes as her pain overwhelmed me. My wolf was crying within me but he knew better than to lash out.
We had just attacked our mate, we deserved death for that.
"Come on, Let's go clean you up honey" Mrs Donovan said as she grabbed onto Delilah.
Only when she was out of the room did I try to reach for the gun again.
"Are you out of your damn mind?" Damon questioned as he pulled back his hand before throwing the gun across the room.
"I don't deserve to live, Damon. Did you see what I did to her? I was this close to killing her!" I yelled and he sighed.
"I understand but..."
"Kill me Damon because I cannot control it! The voices! They are still in my head and at any moment, I might lose my mind again and kill Delilah, kill Mia, kill everyone. You have to kill me, Damon" I said to him and he shook his head.
"I won't kill you, we..."
"I attacked my mate, Damon! She bled because of me!" I screamed in his face and he frowned.
"It wasn't your fault..."
"If you were in this position, you would have never hurt Clara. You would fight against it. I'm weak, Damon and because of this weakness, I need to be killed now" I told him and he clenched his jaw then sighed.
"I understand you but I'm not going to kill you so just..." Before he could complete, I pushed him aside and ran towards the gun before I could reach it, he hit me on the neck and I lost consciousness.
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I was to the sound of Damon and Delilah arguing back and forth.
"I'm not letting him go to those witches. We can help me, Damon" Delilah uttered, earning a sigh from Damon.
"We cannot help him, Delilah. Only the witches can so we have to take him to them before he hurts anyone again" He told her calmly.
"He won't hurt anyone again. I'll make sure he..."
"He almost killed you, Delilah! I won't let him hurt you or anyone else again!" He yelled.
"We can just let him go there! He can't go there!" She screamed back.
"He has to, Delilah. He's my best friend, I can't even remember the last time we were not with one another and as much as I would need him, it's obvious that we cannot help him. He needs to go" He told her calmly and my heart as Delilah cried.
"You Don't understand. He's my mate, my husband. He has a child, we were supposed to build a happy life together, Damon. I can't live without him" She managed to say through her tears and I felt my tears slide down the side of my face.
"I know and I understand but it's the only way for now. He wanted to kill himself just because he hurt you, what if next time, you can't stop him? After he has controlled the voices, he'll come back and..."
"No! I won't let you take him! I won't..."
"I'll go," I muttered, interrupting Delilah. They both turned to me and Delilah immediately rushed to my side. I glanced down at her and was happy to see that she was okay, almost Like nothing had happened but I knew something had happened and I was never going to forgive myself for it.
"Luca..."
"Please Delilah just... just don't come near me for now. I'm begging you" I told her softly and I turned away as soon as I felt her pain.
"I'm not letting you leave..."
"It's not your choice to make. It's either i leave or I kill myself" I told her and she gasped.
"Luca..."
"Take me to the witch's coven today, Damon. I need to leave as soon as possible" I told him and he nodded then sighed.
"You're not going anywhere! I'm not letting you leave me!" Delilah screamed before storming out of the room, leaving Damon and I.
I took in a shaky breath as tears rolled down my cheeks.
After that, Damon took me back and I packed up some clothes and the necessities. I didn't see Delilah but thankfully, Mia was sleeping in her room which meant Delilah was in the house.
I walked into Mia's room and stared down at her.
"Daddy's going to miss you and mummy very much. I have to be better to be with you and mummy so I've got to go now" I murmured softly before leaning down to place a kiss on her cheek, letting my tears fall on her cheeks.
She stirred a Little but didn't open her eyes.
After I was sure I had engraved how she looked In my head, I walked out and Damon was waiting for me.
"You have to take care of Delilah and Mia for me. Delilah will never say it but she needs help in taking care of Mia especially now that I'm leaving. She will get a little lonely so please let Clara come stay with her from time to time. She likes the ice cream from Little Ben shop and has to have it every Tuesday Afternoon for her day to be better. She usually forgets her schedules for the day so I write them down and place it on the fridge before heading to work, please do that for me" I told him and he stared at me for a while then nodded.
"I promise" He said and I nodded before hugging him.
"I love you man" I told him and he chuckled humorlessly.
"You're not dying, you're coming back to us" He uttered but even his voice sounded unsure.
I pulled away and nodded at him while wiping away my tears.
"Let's go" We got out of the house and I stood by the doors, waiting for Delilah but saw no trace of her.
"Are you waiting for Delilah? I can call..."
"No. Maybe it's better if I leave without seeing her. It will hurt less" I told him and he nodded curtly.
We walked towards the car and just as I was about to reach for the car handle, she screamed behind me.
"If you leave, we are done!" She screamed and I turned around to stare at her. Her eyes were swollen indicating She had cried seriously.
"If you leave me, I'll file for a divorce, reject you and run away with Mia. Even if you come back alive, you'll never see us again!" She screamed as new found tears dripped down her cheeks.
I dropped everything in my hand and ran towards her And only started breathing properly when I had her in my arms.
"I'm being serious. If you leave me, I will hate you forever" She muttered stubbornly as she glared at me with tears in her eyes. I smiled at her as I used my thumb to wipe away her tears before leaning down and slamming my lips on her, intertwining our tears with our kiss.
I wanted to imprint this moment in my head just in case...
"Don't leave me, I'm begging you" She choked out in between the kisses.
I pulled away slowly then outlined her face features with my thumb, engraving them in my mind. If only she knew how hard this decision was.
If only she knew how hard it was to walk away from her and Mia, not knowing if I was going to come back to them.
It was the hardest decision I've ever had to make but I needed to be better to be able to be with them.
"I'll love you till my last breath, Delilah. Don't ever forget that"...