Cloud - Chapter 16: Chapter 16

My eyes widened as I felt Cloud's lips moved against mine. My first thought was to push him away but I didn't. I didn't do anything at all. I didn't move nor kiss him back, I just sat still with his lips moving against mine. I was too shocked to react.
He pushed me on the bed and I fell back with him on top of me. It felt weird kissing him again. My memory was back but I couldn't remember the feeling of having his lips against mine but now it was getting back to me and I didn't know what to do about it. Cloud passed his hand under the back of my shirt, caressing my skin and it was then that I snapped out of whatever I was in. I put my hands on his chest, pushing him away.
"What are you doing?" I asked him in disbelief and he smirked.
"I'm just having a little bit of fun," he replied, playing with my hair with his fingers and I pushed his hand away angrily.
"So I'm just a game for you," I concluded, trying to get him off me but this man was like stone.
"You're not a game. It just that it has been a long time since I last found interest into someone and you, Luffy, you interest me more than anything," he explained, looking directly at me in the eyes. He leaned forward to capture my lips again but I turned my head to the side, his lips coming in contact with my cheek. He sighed. "Why are you being so damn difficult? It didn't seem to bother you when I kissed you before."
"Yeah, but before I didn't know what I know now," I told him and he huffed, rolling his eyes.
"So knowing that I am bad makes you don't want to kiss me," he stated with a dry laugh."I thought that everybody wanted to have a bad boy."
"I'm not gay so being a bad boy or not, you don't interest me," I told him and he chuckled.
"Baby, you are more gay than me," he said, pinching my nose and I groaned, my eyes throwing balls of fire at him.
"Don't call me baby," I scolded him. "And besides, even if I was gay, something which is not true, I would have preferred to have a normal bad boy rather than a psychopath serial killer."
"Two things," he said, "First, I'm no longer a psychopath serial killer. I changed. The only reason that I kill now is to protect those I care about and for the record, Amelia was my first kill in months and it was to protect you. Second, Luffy, at the party you kissed me and moaned for me so stop lying to yourself, you are gay and you are interested into me."
"I'm not. I will never be interested into you," I promised him and he frowned.
"Because of who I am?" He questioned.
"Yes," I simply answered.
It was a bit harsh of me to say that but it was how I felt and I couldn't do anything about it. I didn't like what I learnt about Cloud. I wished that I never learned anything about him. He wasn't what I expected him to be and the reason why I wanted him to regret everything bad that he did was because it would show that he had a bit of humanity into him.
"You know," he started at last, "I'm a demon and also part reaper. Since the day I was born, I was meant to be bad."
"You choose who you want to be," I told him, "Not because your parents are supposedly bad, this mean that you need to be bad too."
"My dad is not so bad, you will see. He is even a bit too kind to be a reaper," Cloud smiled, "He was just never there for Rain and I. I saw him only two to three times in my life. It was our mom who raised us and I hated that woman. So cruel, so uncaring. I never saw any love in her eyes when she looked at me."
Maybe I imagined it but I swear that I saw the pain in his eyes at the mention of his mom. It was crazy, wasn't it? It was crazy how much impact our parents could have on us. If they were there or not, it would still affect us in a way that was sometimes incurable and irreversible. They were somehow part of the reason we were who we are today.
"So you are like this because of your parents," I said at last.
"I'm like this because it's who I am. I will never know if it's my mom or the absence of my dad which made me the way I am today but I'm like this and there is nothing I can do about it nor can I erase the past. You can't change me, you can just learn to live with me. It's something that Eden didn't understand," Cloud explained.
"Is it why you killed him?" I asked him quietly.
"I don't know. My perception of things wasn't clear at that time," he replied, "I wanted to go away. I wanted to leave him alone and never come back but I couldn't. Each time I tried to leave, I went back to him. Eden had a sort of power on me and I didn't like that."
"It was love," I told him and he stared at me.
"Perhaps, it was," he said, "I loved him, more than you know but I didn't want to feel like this. I didn't want to have to protect him, to care for him. I wanted to feel bad, to feel miserable."
"Nobody wants that," I said, the disbelief clear in my voice. I looked at Cloud, trying to understand what he was trying to say but it was hard.
"Me, I did," he said, "I wanted to feel bad. I wanted to regret certain things that I did but I couldn't. I just liked it. To have blood on my hands, to look at the fear and pain in the eyes of people before I took their life, I loved it so much. But still, Eden saw the good in me and I killed him for that. But you know what he told me before he took his last breath?" Cloud paused. He looked like he was reliving this moment. "He told me that he loved me and that he forgave me."
Cloud was so confusing at times. I couldn't understand him and I guessed that I never would, no matter how many explanations I got. Who understood him anyway? He was too complicated and I think that he confused himself at times. His way of thinking was different.
"If I try to change you," I said, breaking the silence that I had taken place, "Will you kill me for it?"
He didn't reply right away. He remained silent, different emotions passing through his eyes. I watched each one of them carefully. I wanted to understand, even if it was impossible for me to. He averted my eyes, not able to bare my stare and I bit my lips. I was so closed to him right now and in so many ways.
Not only physically, but he was more opened now in a way with me. He couldn't lie. I kind of had him against a wall. I broke one of his guards down and although it didn't really do anything to him, I was glad that he could tell me how he felt without having to lie.
Cloud finally looked at me and I swallowed hard. He took me by my chin, maintaining my face in place. Our eyes locked, he leaned forward. He glanced at my lips and he brushed his lips with mine but he didn't kiss me. My breathing had slightly accelerated at the proximity of his lips to mine. I could feel his breath on my face and it was making it more difficult for me to concentrate properly.
"I don't know what I will do to you," he said finally, our eyes locked, "I don't trust myself and to be honest with you, I, sometimes, am a bit scare of how far I can go. But I can make you a promise, if one day I end up with the want of killing you, I won't. I will leave you alone and never come back."
He then crashed his lips on mine. I was too stunned by what he just said to push him away. He took my hands and pinned them above my head with one hand. His other hand went under my shirt, touching my chest and I shivered under his touch. My skin seemed to burn everywhere he touched me and I felt myself slowly giving in the kiss.
His hand went up my chest to pinch one of my nipples and I gasped. At the slight opening of my mouth, his tongue immediately entered and I couldn't help myself but moaned. He explored my mouth and when his tongue touched with mine, my tongue quickly backed away. His hand under my shirt went up till it reached the back of my neck where he pulled me closer to him, deepening the kiss and my tongue didn't have a choice but to play with his.
I needed to take my breath now but Cloud didn't seem to want to stop kissing me. We both moaned as our tongues fought for dominance, a battle which, of course, he won but I needed air, damn it. Pushing him away wasn't an option as my hands were trapped. We continued to kiss until, fortunately, like hearing my prayers, Cloud finally pulled away and I could then catch my breath. He smirked at me.
"You're too cute for your own good. You will be the end of me," he told me before capturing my lips once again.
Jesus! Now wasn't the time to do this sort of thing but Cloud didn't seem to care. We had so much things to do, so much things to find out but that damn idiot was wasting our precious time. We needed to concentrate on the Vins. I might not know what to search for or even where to start searching but I knew that kissing him wouldn't be of any help.
But, damn it, despite the fact that I wanted to push him away, I couldn't find myself to actually do it. It was so hard for me to. I couldn't resist him and he didn't look like he wanted to let me go so easily. So it was better for me to just give in and it was exactly what I did. I gave into him. I didn't know if I was doing it right thought. I was still knew to all this kissing each other thing. But Cloud seemed to like it so I guessed that it was good then.
His hand left my neck and returned under my shirt to pull on my nipple and I gasped once again. He bit on my bottom lip and I moaned. He glanced at my face, lust in his eyes, and I found myself being lost in them. They were so deep. A cold blue which pieced through you. His eyes still on me, he started to trail kisses to my neck.
He arrived at a special place in my neck where he bit me suddenly and his name slipped out of my mouth. I turned my head to the side, giving him more space as he continued to bite my sensitive skin. He let go of my hands and his hands went to the bottom of my shirt to lift it, exposing my chest.
He pulled on my skin with his teeth and I immediately pulled on his hair. It hurt a little bit but I didn't complain and let him marked me. I was sure that I was going to regret it later but let's not worry about that right now. I wanted a break. Here was my break from everything.
I was stressing too much lately and I couldn't think clearly. Learning that everything that I thought was true was in fact false did that to me. Learning that since I was baby, somebody else was living in the same body as mine was terrifying. I wanted to know how it happened. Maybe during the night, when my parents were sleeping, someone came into my room and put this soul into me.
Or maybe my parents knew about this. I learnt that Frederick was some sort of magical being then maybe my parents weren't an exception. That thought crossed my mind multiple times for this week but I didn't get the chance to speak about it with my parents. My dad had returned home from Paris last Saturday and since then he has been working non-stop at the hospital while my mom was disappearing every morning before I woke. I didn't get the chance to see any of them. I missed them.
Cloud licked the hickey that he made in my neck and he pulled away, his hands at both sides of me, to look at me. His eyes roamed slowly on my exposed chest and he bit his lips. God, he looked so hot right now. In my state, I would find everything that he did sexy. His eyes finally reached mine and the corner of his lips turned into a smirk.
"If I tell you that I want to remove your shirt, will you let me?" He asked me and I gave him an incredulous look. "Not that I need your permission to do it but I'm trying to be a gentleman."
"Do you ask the permission to remove the clothes of all the guys that you have sex with?" I asked and he chuckled.
"Not really," he laughed, "But you are special."
"Stop saying things like that," I told him, feeling uncomfortable by his words.
"Why?" He asked me with a frown. "I'm telling the truth."
"If you think that this will get me in your bed, you are totally wrong," I informed him and he smirked. He leaned forward, his lips coming near my ear.
"You are already in my bed, Luffy," he whispered and he bit my earlobe and a small gasp escaped me.
"How many guys have you brought here?" I asked him, biting my lips to contain my moans as he continued to abuse my little ear.
"You are the first one," he replied, "I never brought anyone here. I preferred to be at their place."
"Or in empty classroom," I added, remembering what Emma said when she found Cloud and I in the library.
"Oh trust me, the empty classrooms are the best place to be fucked," Cloud whispered still near my ear, "And you know what I also like. I like it when the cute little guys under me is really loud."
"I-I didn't need to know that," I stuttered and I felt him smirk.
"Will you be loud for me, Luffy?" He asked me and I gulped. Dear god, his voice seemed so seductive right now. "I already know how I will take you. I have a few places in mind. But I think that the first place will be here. It will be slow. I will tear all your clothes apart, leaving you completely naked under me. I will kiss every little square of your body. I will touch you, bite your skin, lick you and suck you till you beg me for more. And then I will enter you slowly making the whole process a whole torture for you. I will fuck you until you can't even walk properly. I will take you in different position, learning all of your sweet spots. God, I can already imagine you moaning my name and being loud for me. Baby, I will be the best you ever had."
Was it normal for me to be hard with just what he said?
I guessed that it was. I quickly looked away as Cloud tried to catch my gaze. This was the most awkward moment of my life. I think that I never blushed so hard. And Cloud, as always, smirked at my embarrassed face. What he just said was just, god, so hot. I bit my lips as inappropriate images of us came to my mind.
Suddenly I felt a hand on my crotch and it immediately snapped me out my thoughts. I looked at Cloud with wide eyes as he gave me a perverted smirk.
"Already hard," he exclaimed with mock surprise.
"Shut up," I said and he laughed, "And remove your hand."
I think that he didn't understand me as he added some pressure on my crotch and a moan escaped me. I put one hand in front of my mouth to prevent any more unwanted sound to get out but Cloud smacked my hand away.
"Don't. I want to hear every sound that you make," he said as he started to rub my member over my jean with his hand, "Tell me, have you ever been touched before? Did you ever touch yourself?"
Stop saying things like that, damn it.
I closed my eyes as he continued to caress my crotch with his hand. It was good. But having my jean on me right now was a pain. I wanted him to touch me directly. I couldn't like this whole moment entirely as I wasn't experiencing it correctly without any clothes.
"Answer me, Luffy," Cloud ordered as he grabbed my member till over my jean and my head flopped back, my eyes still closed.
"No, I have never been touched before," I let out.
"Perfect, I will be the only one then," he said and I opened my eyes to glare at him.
"You are playing with me," I stated angrily and he gave me an innocence look.
"Maybe a little bit," he admitted, "But you are too easy to embarrass and I just can't resist."
"Remove your hand now, Cloud," I told him and he pouted.
"But I was planning on making you come in your pants," he told me and I turned red.
"N-no," I splattered, shaking my head.
"Why?" He questioned.
"I'm too young for this," I let out without thinking. I mentally slapped myself as Cloud started to laugh.
"How old are you anyway? Fifteen?" He asked.
"Sixteen," I replied.
"So young," he chanted.
"So old," I added, referring to his age and he smirked. I noticed that he liked to do this really often.
"There are other being on this earth older than me. My age is nothing compared to them," Cloud said, thoughtfully.
"How is it to be one of the reaper son?" I asked him just as he pulled down the zipper of my jean and I looked at him with wide eyes. "What are you doing?" I asked him as I tried to get his hand away from my jean but once again, he took my hands and pinned them over my head.
"You are distracting me," Cloud said, "I'm going to take care of you, then I will answer all of your questions."
I didnt't have any say in this, did I?
I didn't think so as Cloud unbuttoned my jean. He released my hands and got out of bed, standing in front of it, looking down at me with a smirk. I tried to run away but he quickly grabbed the hem of my jean before pulling them down, leaving me only in my boxers.
"Please, I don't want to do it now. I don't want you to see me.." I paused and looked at Cloud with widened eyes when I saw him removing his own jeans. "What are you doing?" I asked him in fear, referring to his future intention.
"Relax, I'm not going to take you today," he reassured me as he pulled down his jeans and I started to panic.
"Don't you dare come near me!" I shouted at him as I sat on the bed far away from him and he rolled his eyes.
"Come here, Luffy," he ordered me, trying to catch my feet but I quickly got out of bed.
Bad move.
Before I could even run away, Cloud gripped the back of my shirt and pulled me back on the bed. I fell back on my back and he came on top of me, yanking my hands at each side of my head.
"Please don't," I pleaded him.
"I'm not going to do anything," he said, "Well, I'm obviously going to do something but not the thing that you are currently thinking."
"Find someone else," I told him.
"It's you who I want," he said.
"But I don't want you," I informed him and he smirked, making me look at him in confusion.
"You will want me soon," he promised me and I opened my mouth to protest but a moan came out instead as he started to rub his member against mine.
Damn it, that was what he had in mind.
He's hard too, I thought in amazement. It was giving me a bit of satisfaction to think that an effect on him, even thought that it wasn't the type of effect that I wanted to have on him but it was still good.
"Stop," I pleaded him, hoping that it would stop his inappropriate act.
"Chut," he breathed out as he accelerated his little rubbing. My head flopped back, my eyes shutting, as I moaned. This was not going to end well.
"If you continue like this, I'm going to come," I told him, knowing that if he continued, I wouldn't last long and he chuckled.
"That's what I intended to do," he said and I moaned again.
"I don't have any other clothes," I tried again.
"I will give you mine," he said.
"But the Vins-"
"Luffy, just shut up and appreciate it," he snapped at me. He then kissed my lips hungrily. It took some seconds for me to react but then I went along with the kiss.
You will embrace him.
You will love him.
He will be your everything.
The words of the other me replaced in my head and I quickly pushed these thoughts away. Not now, I thought. It wasn't the time for this. Okay, it was also not the time to rub my hard member against Cloud's but we would keep this talk for another time.
We both moaned lightly in our kiss as our two hard erection continued to rub against each other. I hated clothes at this moment. I wanted to feel him without any clothes on. He accelerated his rubbing and my entire body was like heating up. I was feeling like I was on fire.
We stopped kissing as we were both breathing hard. I couldn't keep my eyes opened at the pleasure that I was receiving right now. My head fell back and Cloud kissed my throat. He intertwined our hands and I must admit that I liked having his big warm hand in mine.
I was near. I needed just a little more rubbing and I was going to come for the first time. But before I could reach my maximum climax, the door of the bedroom suddenly opened.
"Cloud!" A feminine voice exclaimed angrily and both Cloud and I jumped in surprise at the new intruder.
My attention immediately went to the door and I found in embarrassment that a girl, standing at the door, hands on her hips, was looking at us with a disapproving look on her face. I quickly looked away, feeling humiliated. Cloud didn't seem to care thought. He sighed before getting off me, my hard erection now clear for everyone to see. I immediately sat, putting my hand on my member to hide myself. Thank god, I was still in my boxers.
"Estella, you could have knocked," Cloud said, picking his jeans off the floor to put them on and the girl huffed in disbelief.
"You are simply impossible. I made a three hour flight to come here to help you with your fucking problems but Mr let his guests waiting while he is fucking a boy in his bedroom," she said angrily, glaring at Cloud and I looked at the latter in disbelief. The damn thing. I thought that we were alone here.
"Get out now, would you? We will be there in one minute," Cloud said and the girl, Estella, gave him a look that said that he better did before getting out of the bedroom, leaving the door opened behind her.
"Who was that?" I asked him as soon as she was out and Cloud threw my jeans at me.
"My friend," he replied, "And she is also an ally to help us against the Vins."
"You could have told me that there were people here," I scolded him as I put on my jeans.
"I wanted to have a little time alone with you," he said and I blushed. I seriously think that I was blushing too much today. It was just that we were in a sexual tension a few minutes ago and I was still in 'heat', we could say.
I finished putting on my jeans and looked up to see that Cloud was already looking at me. I didn't look away. I maintained his gaze as he walked to me and gave me a small peck on the lips.
"This won't happen again," I told him and he put his arms around my waists pulling me closer.
"Pity," he said, "If nobody was there, I would have already take you on this bed."
"Stop saying things like that, damn it," I told him, feeling uncomfortable again and he laughed. He took me by my chin and raised my head so that I now looked at him in the eyes.
"You will be mine. It's a promise."