Cloud - Chapter 51: Chapter 51

Today was Frederick's funeral.
I was dressed in a black suit for the occasion.
I was standing in front of the mirror of my bedroom, putting on my watch. My hands were trembling as I did so. I was back at home with my parents. About four days had passed since the event at Vance's mansion and I had decided to stay at my house to take a break from everything that had happened. I felt different somehow.
Well, I was different.
I was no longer human and had now adopt all the powers of the original. It was still hard for me to believe. Each time I thought of it, I had the want to laugh but at the same time, I wanted to cry. I was in pain and I wanted Frederick to be there with me. He would have knew what to tell me to make me feel better but he wasn't there anymore and I still felt guilty for this.
"Luffy," I heard my mom say as she opened the door of my bedroom and I turned around to look at her, "Are you ready to go?"
I simply nodded. I took in a deep breath and walked out of my room, closing the door behind me. I followed my mom downstairs and we found my dad, at the front door, waiting for us. We all got out of the house and went in my dad's car. I sat at the back close to the window while my parents got in the front. As my dad drove us to the graveyard, I stared outside.
Nicolas put a protective charm around Frederick's body to prevent it from decomposing so that it would be ready for the funeral. A random story was created to explain his death and really, I did not find it necessary for me to know what kind of excuses Cloud and the others found to tell the people related to Fred. I needed only one version of the story and that was the truth.
The image of Frederick dying right in front of me would forever haunt me. There was nothing that could make me forget about this and I did not think that, one day, I would be able to forgive myself. He was gone. I would never be able to speak to him again. If only I could talk to him one last time, I would tell him how much I was sorry and how much I love him.
Now I hated myself.
I did not do anything for him. I did not revenge his death. I did not kill Axel like I was supposed to. I let him live and now I did not know where he went. He completely disappeared and he was not the only one who was gone. Alexandro and Calius too were no longer there and I asked myself if they were still alive. They probably were and I wondered how they were doing now that their dad was dead.
We finally arrived at the graveyard and my dad turned off the engine. I grabbed the handle of the door, ready to go out but I couldn't open it. My dad looked back at me.
"You alright, son?" he asked me and I closed my eyes, breathing in and out slowly.
"I think," I replied and I gulped, "I need a little bit of time to - I just-"
"Okay," my dad nodded and him and my mom shared one look. "We'll go ahead. You join us when you feel ready."
I murmured a little okay under my breath and my mom and dad got out of the car, leaving me behind. Was I really ready for this? Maybe I should have waited a few more days before giving the signal to Cloud to announce Frederick's death. I could not see his lifeless body just yet but I needed to hold on. I couldn't break during the ceremony. I needed to keep on a good face.
Slowly, I opened the door and got out of the car. I started my walk towards the place where everyone was gathering. I could see the parents of Frederick in the distance. My aunt was crying in her husband's arms and I could only understand what they were feeling. Frederick was their only son and losing him so soon was probably unbearable for them.
When my aunt saw me, she immediately came to hug me. I tried to give her my condolences but the words got stuck in my throat and I couldn't speak. So I hugged her back tightly. I then shook hand with my uncle and went to sit beside my parents to wait for the ceremony to start. It did not take long for Rain, Cloud and Nicolas to come followed by Storm, Nova and Estella. I did not go to greet them and they did not come to me too. They probably knew that it was better to leave me alone for now.
The ceremony soon started and my mind went blank. All I could see was the priest's lips moving but nothing was coming to me. The body of Frederick was close but I could not look at it. Minutes passed and I let my eyes wander around. I looked at everyone's face. Some of my other family members were there and most of them were in tears. I was not really close to them though. I continued to look around and my eyes fell on Rain. He was standing straight, looking down with a hard gaze.
My eyes softened. I did not talk to him at all these past few days. I did not get the chance to ask him how he was doing. I should probably do so, specially since he asked me to kill him. I wouldn't want him to end up doing such thing. Suddenly, he looked up and his eyes fell on something, or maybe someone, that made him frown. Discretely, he stepped back and walked away.
"Luffy," my mom said, capturing my attention and I looked at her with a frown on my face, "You want to say something?"
I opened my mouth but no words came out when I realized what she meant. Did I want to say something in the memory of Frederick? I was not sure. I did not have the right words to say but there was something that I wanted to tell him, so I stood up and walked to his coffin. I finally let my eyes fall on him and I fought back the tears.
"I love you too, Fred. You are the best cousin that I could have asked for and I'm sorry for what happened," I told him quietly and I walked away without another word. I could feel people's eyes on me but I did not mind them and just went to search for Rain.
He did not go really far. He was talking to someone, he was talking to Cale to be more precise and I stopped dead in my track. My breathing accelerated as I clenched my fists. That was the face that killed Frederick. I tried to stay calm and simply breathed in and out. The last time I saw Cale was during the ritual and I had no idea what happened to him and Calum after. Rain was supposed to have taken care of the latter but he never mentioned what he did to the twin.
He never said that he did anything at all.
I approached them and saw Rain give Cale a punch in the face. The guardian fell down and hit against the tree behind him. Rain then turned around and placed his hands in his pockets. Cale slowly stood up and murmured something to Rain before walking away in my direction. When he saw me coming closer to him though, his eyes widened and he stopped walking. He waited for me to reach him to open his mouth to speak.
"Luffy," he started and I did not let him say more.
"Give me one single reason to not punch you in the face right now," I told him and I tried to control my hands, "Give me one reason to not rip your heart out."
"Please-"
"Your brother killed Frederick," I interrupted him and the tears finally fell down my cheeks, "You were both supposed to protect him. Why would you let that happen? I trusted both of you and you let him die."
"I'm sorry, I really am sorry," he told me, crying himself, "I did not know that Calum was going to kill him and I was unaware that he worked for Vance. If I had knew, I would have done something to stop it. I would have never hurt Frederick. This was our job as guardians to protect him but we both failed miserably."
"Where is Calum now? Is he still alive?" I asked him, ignoring his excuses and he stared at me briefly.
"Yes, Rain let him live," he replied and that was shocking, "He's with me now and I already locked him somewhere. I will make sure that he never hurts anyone again. I promise you."
He seemed to be really sorry. He was even crying but I did not want to forgive him. I knew that it was not really his fault but I did not want to talk nicely to him and to reassure his conscience. It was too much. That was the last drop and I needed to let go. I did not want any constant reminder of what happened.
I could have asked Cale why Calum did what he did but I did not have enough will in myself to ask the question. I just wanted him to disappear from my sight.
"You can go," I told Cale at last, "But if either you or Calum comes before me again, I swear to god I will kill you. There will be no hesitation and you will die instantly. Understood?"
He nodded immediately.
"Farewell, Cale."
"Goodbye, Luffy."
And he was gone. I let out a sigh, feeling a weight being lifted off my shoulders and continued to make my way to Rain. He was staring in the distant and I came to stand beside him. He did not say anything and I decided to be the first one to speak.
"Tell me," I began, "How are you not crying right now?"
"I have a lot of control," he surprisingly replied, "I don't cry often and the only one who ever saw me let a tear out died so I don't feel like crying really."
"I'm sorry," I told him and he glanced at me with a frown. It needed to be said, "You lost him because of me and you must probably hate me."
"Don't be ridiculous. I don't hate you and you're really the last person that I want to blame," he told me and he sighed, "You know, Fred, he...he accepted to marry me."
My eyes widened and I remained speechless in front of him as he continued.
"When I took him to the airport, I asked him to marry me again and he said that when he would get back, I would have to get on my knees and to have the ring. Then, he would say yes. I was really motivated to act," he stopped talking and took something out of his pocket. It was a little black box. He opened it and I was shocked to see a ring, "I got everything ready. I just needed him, but then he got kidnapped and died so now it's game over." He replaced the box back in his pocket and I looked away, feeling worse now. "I'm going to continue to live so make sure to do the same. Don't blame yourself anymore. Frederick loved you and I'm sure that he still does. From now on, I will look after you like he would have liked me to."
I did not reply and we remained like this, side by side without speaking. The funerals eventually ended and I walked away from Rain. I met with my parents and informed them that I was not going back with them. They did not object my choice and I kissed them goodbye. My eyes scanned the group of people and I finally found the one I was looking for. I walked to him and he gave me a small smile when he saw me.
"Hi, darling," Cloud told me before giving me a peck on the lips. I hugged him, burying my face in his neck. I missed feeling him close to me.
"I want to go back home with you," I murmured, "Can you make me feel good?"
"Depends on what type of good?" He smirked and I cracked a smile.
"You know what I mean."
"Do I truly know?"
"Cloud, don't tease me," I scolded him.
"Okay, let's go," he told me and we walked away together. My gaze met with Nicolas as we went away and he gave me a nod, mouthing to me that we could talk later. Nicolas happened to be now staying at Cloud's house. My guardian fought bravely against Nike but in the end, he did not succeed to kill him. Nike ran away and there had been no trace of him since then.
Cloud and I arrived at his car and we got inside. We drove in silence to the house and when we reached the place, we went directly in the direction of his bedroom. He kissed me right in the middle of the hallway and I responded to his kiss eagerly. There was no one else in the house anyway.
"You don't have to be gentle with me," I told Cloud when we reached the bedroom and he chuckled. He moved us to the bed and started taking off my clothes. I did the same with him, letting the clothes fall to the ground.
"Don't worry, I will be so rough that your screams will be heard around the whole house," he assured me as he pushed me on the bed but I did not lay down. I remained in a sitting position to unbutton his pants. He looked down at me with a smirk on his lips and his eyes full of lust as I let free his member. I licked my lips seductively and took him into my mouth.
I moaned instantly when my tongue touched the tip of his d!ck. I moved my head, taking in his whole length. I closed my eyes when he grabbed my hair and forced me to move faster. Damn, I loved it. I loved him. I needed to admit it to myself at last. I loved him so much, I did not know that it was even possible. I only needed him right now to make me feel better.
His d!ck touched the back of my throat and I gasped. He let me choke on his member for a few seconds before finally letting me pull away. I coughed a few times and swallowed hard as I looked at his hard member. I wanted him to cum in my mouth but he seemed to have another plan in mind. He pushed me back on the bed and removed my pants.
Once I was completely naked, I raised my legs and opened them widely for him.
"Impatient much?" He chuckled, biting his lips and I spread my ass cheeks.
"I just want you," I told him, "Take me."
"You don't want me to prepare you a bit first?"
"No, I'm good. Do it."
He did not have to be told twice. He jumped on the bed and placed my legs on his shoulders, leaning forward and folding my body in two to kiss my lips. He slowly pushed himself inside of me. I gasped against his lips and deepened the kiss by pulling him closer. His tongue entered my mouth and I welcomed it happily.
Unexpectedly, he started to move inside of me with speed and the pleasure as well as the pain were instantly felt. My body kind of forgot how it felt to have him inside. Cloud did not even try to hold on his thrusts and he slammed into me without any gentleness, just like I wanted. He hit my special spot and I pulled away from his lips to curse out loud.
In, out, in, out..., I thought as he moved in and out of me and I flopped my head back, my eyes rolling up in pleasure. The bed shook wildly under us and suddenly, he pulled out of me and turned me around on my stomach, raising my ass in the air.
"Oh, god!" I moaned when he entered me again.
My sceams filled the room and I lost count of how many times I cum. Cloud turned me in different positions and the bed ended up breaking under us, making both of us laugh. We did it for hours and there was only me and him. His lips, his hands and his body were my main focus and he just made me go crazy.
"Cloud!" I exclaimed as he hit my sweet spot. The pleasure traveled through my whole body as he filled me up with his cum. I was sitting on top of him, his d!ck deep inside of me. I was breathing hard and tired, I let my head fall on his chest. "I need water. My throat is dry from all this screaming," I breathed out. He laughed and turned us around. He regained his position on top of me and he kissed my lips sweetly.
"I need to give you something," he told me when he pulled away from my lips and I hummed, examining his face.
"What?" I asked him.
"Later, I'll give it to you," he promised me and he stared at my face. It did not take long for a smile to come on his face, "Stay forever with me, Luffy," he told me then and I laughed, shaking my head in disbelief.
"Again with that. You will never stop, I swear," I told him but he did not reply. Instead, he kissed my lips again.
We remained in this broken bed, simply kissing and hugging each other. It was good, I felt good. Cloud soon covered us with the bed sheets and I laid my head on his chest. We talked for awhile and before I even knew it, he was falling asleep but me, I remained wide awake.
I started to think about my life. I thought about what I had lost and about what I found along the way. Things had not always been great and now I was asking myself if they would even get any better. How did that crazy story even begin? Could I adapt myself to this new lifestyle? Wouldn't I lose the control of my powers one day and hurt people again?
Really, I was not sure if I was ready to take on whatever was waiting for me in the future.
I looked up at Cloud's sleeping face and kissed him softly on the lips.
"I love you, Cloud," I whispered and I laid my head back on his chest. I closed my eyes and a happy thought came to me before I fell asleep.
I will be forever with him.