Downtown Love (18+) - Chapter 3: Chapter 3

POV: Tiana Matts
I wasn't feeling myself on this day because I felt above the clouds. I felt like I was glowing. It was my boyfriend Trey, now fiancé's birthday. We have been together for seven years. I know it was a long time, but with, Trey time felt like it was flying away. Trey and I were together since high school and have been inseparable since and he finally proposed to me when we were on a family trip. I knew this was the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Yes, it took him a long time to purpose, but I knew it was going to happen, eventually because we had so much love for each other.
I wanted to have a surprise party for him and invite all his friends and family to the party just to celebrate him. He was a good boyfriend and is going to be an amazing husband, family man, and businessman. He works hard day in and out. He usually spends the night at work just to save enough for our future. He was off the day of his birthday, but he didn't know it yet because I asked his boss if he could take the day off. My best friend, Asia, was helping me set it all up from the beginning to the end. She was one of the people I'd trust with my life because we were friends since elementary school and best friends since middle school. We then both met Trey in high school and things changed from then on.
Asia and I have been through so much and she's helped me through my rough times. I don't know where I'd be without her sometimes. High School was rough for me because my parents got a divorce during my freshman year. My parents tried their hardest not to put the stress on my siblings, but we ended up being stressed out the most. What made it worse is that we had to pick who we wanted to live with. Through that whole thing, Asia was helping me cope with it. I'll never be able to repay her for what did for me. I almost got into drugs and alcohol, but Trey and Asia helped me shy away from that. Trey helped out but just not as much as Asia did.
I grabbed Trey's spare key and I took his car and drove it back home to make it seem like his car got towed away, then after I came back home, Asia left to pick him up and bring him back to our house. I don't know what dumb excuse Asia used as to why she was picking him up instead of me, but he didn't call me at all which was good, but weird. All of the family members had already arrived and everyone was in their positions ready to surprise Trey. Asia finally walked in with Trey and Trey pulled Asia on the couch and started kissing and groping on her.
" I miss your body so much, Asia. I miss fucking on this couch when Tia wasn't home. Tia is so inexperienced with sex, but you, you are like a different breed. You make me horny just looking at you." Asia kept looking back at me trying to push herself away from Trey, but he was gripping on her tightly. She was looking at me with a face that bled I'm sorry. I wanted this to be a misunderstanding so badly. I wanted them to say, "Sike! it was all a joke", but Trey continued groping her and kissing her.
" Remember back in high school when we'd stay after school to fuck or that time you were on a video call with Tia and I was blowing your back or the late nights at my office. That was a good time for us wasn't it. Now we are adults and I'm not complaining at all..." Trey then rubbed on her stomach softly.
" I'm going to be a father of a beautiful baby boy and I want nothing more than to take care of this child. We done fucked so many times I can't even count, but now I'm going to be the father of a baby to the woman I love the most." My heart sunk so deep I felt dumb. I couldn't even manage to get words out of my mouth. Asia was pregnant with Trey's baby and not only that but my whole relationship my best friend and fiance were having sex. All I could feel was pain and so much anger. My blood was boiling and I was shaking so hard that If I continued holding the cake. It would be ice cream, not a cake. I stormed out of the corner I was hiding in and smashed the cake in Trey's face. Making sure to get a good smack in.
"EVERYONE GET THE HELL OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE NOW!" All of the people that were hiding in the house now revealed themselves. Everyone was looking at me like I was crazy maybe I was crazy because the only thing that was running through my mind was; kill this man! merk him in front of everyone! make him pay!
" I SAID, GET THE FUCK OUT! DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE I AIN'T SAY SHIT GET. THE. FUCK. OUT!" Everyone started leaving in bunches and all I could hear was the sounds of whispers and footsteps. They were all looking at me making me feel more insecure and embarrassed then I was right now. I know that people would tell me I was in the moment, but this wasn't a moment at all. It was a crisis. My whole relationship I thought I had found the one for me. I thought he'd never do something like this to me, but here is in front of all of our family and friends he admits to cheating and announces he's having a baby boy. I haven't felt so much anger in my life till now. Not only that but to put salt in the wound the person he's been cheating on me with was my best friend. I didn't even know which emotion to feel. I wanted to cry and tear myself apart, but the other half of me wanted nothing more than to kill everyone in my peripheral view. Asia touched my shoulder in a comforting way.
"GET THE FUCK OFF ME BITCH! Y- YOU!" I tried not to cry, but I could feel my throat tightening and my voice kept cracking. I ran upstairs and started throwing Trey's stuff down the stairs because I wanted him out of my house now. Since Asia is the one he loves so much there was no reason for him to be living underneath my roof. I ran back downstairs once I threw the main stuff he needed down the stairs like his bags and stuff.
" GET THE FUCK OUT MY HOUSE! IF I EVER SEE BOTH OF YOU AROUND MY HOUSE OR NEAR MY HOUSE I WILL SUE THE FUCK OUT YOU!"
"Bae.."
" GAG ON MY DICK BITCH! YOU HAVE SOME BALLS TREY! CALLING ME BAE! TAKE YO SHIT AND YO BITCH AND LEAVE!"
"We don't have nowhere to go come on T! she pregnant." I wanted to take my hand and slapped the fuck out of Trey.
" I DON'T GIVE A MOTHER FUCKING FUCK IF YOU AIN'T GOT NOWHERE TO GO! THAT'S FUCKING TOUGH! YOU STAYED UP WORKING ALL THEM LATE NIGHTS AND YOU SUDDENLY DON'T HAVE MONEY?!?! AH, I THOUGHT A BROKE NIGGA SAID SUM! LIKE I SAID BEFORE TAKE YO SHIT AND YO BITCH AND LEAVE MY GOT DAMN HOUSE."
" See what you not fenna do is embarrass me in front of my baby momma!"
" OH REALLY BITCH! PLAY WITCHO PUSSY CAUSE I AINT THE ONE!" I started taking out my earring and putting my hair up. Asia started holding me back.
" Don't do it, girl." I pushed Asia off me and I was ready to punch her, but I forgot she pregnant. I'm pissed but I'm not that kind of person so, I pulled my arm back.
"MAIN GET THE FUCK OFF ME ASIA! YO BITCH ASS AIN'T NO FUCKING BETTER! YOU WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MY HOME GIRL, BUT YOU WENT AND SLEPT WITH TREY BEHIND MY BACK?!?!?! DON'T YOU EVER COME AROUND ME NO MO AND IF I HEAR YOU SPEAKING ON MY NAME I"LL ROLL UP ON YO MAN!" Asia started crying hard and fell to her knees and grabbed on my legs.
" I am so so sorry Tia! I never meant for it to get this far Trey means absolutely nothing to me! I feel guilty every time for not coming to you instead of hiding it! I acknowledge my mistakes and I want to fix them. Tia, you're my best friend I can't lose you! Please hear me out."
" Get the fuck off me, Asia! you lied to me for how many fucking years?! if he meant nothing to you then, why did you continue to sleep with him?! You should've fixed this years ago." I couldn't even hold back my tears anymore I was so hurt that they would do this to me. I'd do about anything for Trey and Asia and this is how they pay me back?
"Asia, how could you do me like this girl if you would've told me when this shit first started yes, I would've been upset, but I would've eventually forgiven you. Now that it's been years! I can't and I won't forgive you for what you've done! I am so hurt you can't even understand how hurt I am right now! The fact that I had to find out that my best friend and the love of life were sleeping with each other behind my back for years and are having a child through a fucking birthday party that I'm throwing is ridiculous and not only that all my family and friends know! I'm embarrassed, disgusted, and mad hurt man! yall out here fucking with my head! You know me the best you should've known I would've found out sooner or later. It's not you. It's me... thinking I had a happy life with a perfect EX! fiance and an even better best friend. You know what though it's cool I ain't fenna trip over this dumb shit no more. I can't do anything about this situation. He in love with you and you carrying his child I wish you the best truly, but remember two things. The same way you got Trey is the same way you gonna lose him and whatever goes around comes around. Actually, how many years has it been Asia?"
"Tia, please."
"I'M NOT PLAYING WITH YOU RIGHT NOW! HOW MANY YEARS ASIA?! HOW MANY YEARS HAVE YALL BEEN CREEPING AROUND."
" It's been six years..." I started crying so hard and fell on my knees where Asia was at. I took the ring off my finger and threw it in Asia's face.
" YOU FUCKING BITCH! HOW COULD YOU?! HOW?! SINCE YALL BEEN FUCKING AS LONG AS I HAVE BEEN IN THIS RELATIONSHIP WHY DON'T YOU HAVE THE FUCKING RING! WHY ARNT YALL TOGETHER?!" I looked at her finger and to my surprise, she had the same ring I had on my finger on hers shining through my teary eyes. Why didn't I notice till now?
"He proposed to you..."
" We've been married for a year now... T, I'm so sorry!" Now I started yelling enough for the neighbors to know our business.
"YOU TRICK ASS, DUMB ASS, CRUSTY ASS BITCH! YALL MARRIED! YOU MARRIED HIM?! WOW, I MUST BE A DUMB BITCH! GET THE FUCK OUT MY HOUSE NOW! I DON'T GIVE A MOTHER FUCKING FUCK! I DON'T GIVE A GOT DAMN FUCK IF YALL DON'T HAVE A PLACE TO GO. YALL WILL MOST DEFINITELY NOT BE STAYING AT MY HOUSE. YALL COULD BE HOBOS FOR ALL I FUCKING CARE! YALL FUCKING BUGGING IF YOU THINK IMMA LET YOU STAY HERE AFTER EVERYTHING YALL DONE, DONE TO ME FUCK.OUTTA. HERE!"
"Calm down, Tia!"
"CALM DOWN?! CALM DOWN?! YALL WERE FUCKING FOR SIX YEARS, MARRIED FOR ONE, AND HAVING A BABY! AND YOU'RE TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN! YOU GOT THE WRONG BITCH SIS! FUCK WRONG WITCHU TELLING ME TO CALM DOWN!" I took Trey's things that I threw from downstairs and threw them outside.
"BEFORE YALL SAY SOME OTHER DUMB SHIT LIKE YOU HAVE TWO OTHER CHILDREN GET THE FUCK OUT MY HOUSE!" Asia got up off her knees and Trey stood up from my couch. This whole time I was yelling at Asia, giving her so much shit, but it takes two to cheat. I got Trey another day I couldn't even fathom enough words to be able to say what I want to say to Trey. If I would talk to Trey, today, then he wouldn't be able to understand me because of how much tears were coming down face. At this point, I just wanted to smack the fuck out of Asia and shoot Trey. Asia was crying just as much as I was and Trey didn't even shed a single tear that whole time. As soon as I slammed the door on them I broke down completely. I ran up the stairs into my room and started throwing shit around. I burned pictures of Asia and Trey, I threw all his stuff on the floor and tore up all the clothes Trey gave me.
I just couldn't believe that they would do this to me. I dropped down on my knees again and wailed out of pain. I started clawing, hitting, and pushing myself around. All the self-hate and depressed thoughts started filling up my mind. I wanted nothing more than not to be hurt anymore I wanted to be free of this pain that was drowning my mind and heart. I laid there clenching my chest thinking it was all my fault. I walked myself downstairs stumbling on each step till I fell on the floor. I didn't even have any strength to get back up. I was all alone, no one to comfort me, and none of my family members stayed when I told them to leave.
The life I was living before was all a facade. This is my life the true colors of the world I lived in. The world wasn't colorful at all it was black and white. I was hoping it was a nightmare I was praying it was a nightmare. I spent the rest of the weeks crying myself to sleep. I woke up every morning to a wreck, puffy eyes, and the pain in my heart still were very prevalent and it's already been a few weeks now. No one even thought about reaching out to me. Why did this happen to me like this? Why did I have to find out about something like this in a harsh manner? My body was aching, my head was pounding, and my heart was still aching. Goodness, why did I feel so much pain?
I had a horrible cough and I lost my voice from yelling and crying so much. I felt so weak that I had to call into work and tell them I wouldn't be come in for 3 weeks. I felt horrible and the looks followed behind. I had powered off my phone since the incident because the last thing I needed was my phone, but I needed something that would help cope with what I was feeling. I always had food and the tv and which wasn't so bad since I was eating every minute and binge-watching tv till my eyes were straining with pain. My mistake was opening social media thinking that everything was peachy.
When I opened social media the first thing I always do is watch stories. The second I opened my cousin's story she had the whole video of that night even when I was yelling at everyone to get out. I felt so frustrated and angry now that I was looking back at the footage and the fact that my cousin thought that this was a laughing matter and used my pain to get views was making me overwhelmed. I worked so hard on starting the process of getting over it.
I looked at my dm's and they were blowing up with people who knew me, Asia, and Trey in high school and other family members just pretending to care about how I'm feeling, but wanted insight on the whole situation. I was so traumatized that my cousin decided to post that on social media like it was her business. I dm'd her immediately asking her to take down the video and she responded immediately saying;
"No, it's my video and my account so, I do what I'd like with it." I knew that if I called her parents that they'd try to pry information from me and they wouldn't make her delete the video off her phone and Instagram. The post had already been up for six hours I was already screwed. I started crying even more than I was yesterday. Not only was my cousin public she had over 1,000 followers. The video of my trauma was up for anyone with an Instagram to see. I was feeling ridiculous, pain, embarrassed, and deceived.
All I wanted was the pain to end! All I wanted was for my heart and my body to stop aching. I opened my phone to look up where was the nearest pharmacy so I could buy pills. I would do anything to stop all the tears and hurt. Looking back on the memories Asia, and Trey's relationship did look suspicious, but I didn't want to find out because I was in denial and in love with a man who wanted nothing to do with me. Suddenly I remember that Trey had a close homeboy who sold.
His name was Jamal and he was a popular loner, but he was also fine as hell back in high school. I don't know if he's still fine now or even if he still sells, but I had to try. I'd try anything he had to numb this pain.
I immediately hit his dm's and told him to text me on my number because I was logging out of social media. He texted me back 5 minutes later. He agreed to text me messages instead. A minute after agreeing to message me he texts me through my number.
Jamal: Hey, it's Jamal it's been a minute. How have you been shawty?
Tiana: it's been ight I'm not gonna lie, but that's not why I'm texting you... I'm texting you to ask if you still packing.
Jamal: I'm not FedNex I ain't packing nothing 🤣
Tiana: that's not what I mean. When I say packing I mean like the goods
Jamal: like muffins...
Tiana: Nah like macaroni 🌚 no nigga! I mean packing angel dust or Mary Jane or something!
Jamal: ah um, it depends
Tiana: ok pull up then
Jamal: bet drop the addy
I gave Jamal my address and he told me he was on his way. All I wanted was to smoke a fat blunt and do a couple of lines maybe that'll help me cope with the voices, self-hate, and pain I was feeling. Like my best friend and ex-fiancé just had a 6-year relationship, got married, and are having a child with me being so oblivious. Like how deep was I in this facade? I just can't believe that this is my life and my fantasy was running wild.
A few minutes later Jamal rang on my doorbell. I was getting very suspicious of Jamal because why did he get here within three minutes of sending me my address? I looked out the peephole and there he was still as fine as ever. He looked even better than how he did in high school because he grew his beard and pierced his ears and nose. He wore a shirt that hugged his muscular tatted arms and grey Nikey shorts. He wore a simple gold chain and Space Force 1's.
I opened the door and there was Jamal Turner mighty fine, but seeing him reminded me of Trey and all the times we spent together. I almost started crying, but I held back my tears to make it look like nothing was phasing me. Jamal stood there and looked at me for a while. He then walks up to me and hugs me.
"Everything's going to be alright. I promise you don't have to treat yourself like this anymore." I wanted to push him away, but he smelled good and he was the first person to comfort me since the situation. I broke down in front of Jamal and he hugged and reassured me the whole time I was crying that everything was going to be ok. We just sat on my couch and he caressed my head as I cried on his shoulder. Nothing felt better than this.