Falling For My Exchange Brother | B... - Chapter 62: Chapter 62

"I'm sorry, to all of you." I apologize, grinning at them all. They just watch me blankly, but I didn't stop myself. "I was mean and a bully. I never knew my limits and even when I was told them - I ignored them purposely. I was mean to every single one of you and I am sorry. I want to be able to put this behind me and hope we can get along. Arthur would appreciate that greatly as well - and I was mean to him too."
Their eyes glance at one another, and I grin sadly. I rest my hand on my stomach - that instantly garnering attention.
"I have a child within me. A child who deserves a parent who isn't as cruel and mean as I once was. I want to do this right. I want us...all to be friends; and again, I am sorry." I apologize once more, bowing my head before them.
I hoped it wouldn't be silent for too long. I genuinely meant my apology. Arthur can probably see me from the car and I know he's proud...I'm proud of myself too.
Until I felt something cold.
I blink as I feel my hair become drenched. Found myself beginning to feel some liquid drip down my face onto my lips. I stared forward as I saw people I used to know surrounding me.
Their faces full of mockery and hatred. The one person I saw first was Talia.
Talia smiling at me, she held a large cup as I could smell the scent of some cleaning fluid. Had me becoming nauseous just by the strong scent.
"I had to clean the bullshit from you. You still reek." She hisses, and I watch as I'm doused again.
All I could do was cover my face when I felt them do such a thing. My eyes beginning to burn from the chemicals and I shook my head quickly.
"Talia..." I look at her, and she sneered.
"You have always been the worst. You...you want to put this past behind you, but it will always follow you. You...you can't avoid who you are deep inside. You can try all you want to be a better person, but that's not in your nature! You don't deserve to be happy - you really don't. No one forgives you - not even Arthur. He could say he forgives you all he wants, but we'd all be stupid if we said that was true. With how you treated him...there'll always be a barrier.
"That child is only keeping locked onto you, not by choice. If...if he could - I bet he wouldn't hesitate taking everything from you and everything you love one day. I can see it." Tali's hissed, and I felt my heart begin to shatter.
The words...the thoughts I tried to hide are coming back. My own hands began to shake and I felt like throwing up. Even when I felt someone grab my arm, I could see Arthur rush past me.
There was this anger flashing through his eyes that I've never seen before. Though I couldn't hear anything or what anyone was saying. All I saw was him towering everyone.
Could tell he was yelling at Talia - rage radiating off of him. His eyes looked crazed as someone tried pulling him back, but all he did was shove him harshly. His body slamming onto the ground.
Arthur wasn't looking at me and I could guess why... There was so much rage filling him for me that he didn't want me to see this side of him. It was clear that it frightened everyone else.
I began to back away without even realizing it, but I felt my body bump into someone's. When I look I see it was someone from the football team from high school. His mocking smirk made me feel worse, but I didn't get to see it long enough.
Arthur was quick to shove him away from me. My eyes didn't want to look up because I felt like there was just hatred directed towards me. I already felt like throwing up.
"Arthur are you insane?!" Talia shrieks and I could now hear. I look and saw him begin to laugh.
"Talia I don't love you! I never liked you! You were never on my mind and never were considered! Who do you think you are?! All of you?! All of you need to get fucking lives and back the fuck up!" He shouts at them, and this was the first time his English sounded good.
Was he so...angry that it rehashed something?
"Arthur we all care about you, how are you not seeing that-?"
"I don't need your care! If this is your way of caring then fuck that! I only need one person - and that's him. He's done things, but haven't we all? He's apologizing, now you all are just being petty little asses. Camelote - all of you!" ( Worthless goods - ) He shrieks at them, and he shoves Finn's shoulder. "I should punch the shit out of your ugly ass face. You flirt with William and then you conspire with Talia's petty ass for this?"
Finn was looking at Arthur in shock. They all were. I knew it was because they probably expected something sweeter...what they've always seen.
"Arthur..." I say his name, but I soon flinch.
There was that look I once saw in high school. The look when it looked like a switch was turned on...
His eyes were darkened, the fear that crawls down your spine gave me chills. The frightening glare was this time not directed towards me, but everyone else.
"Is this all so shocking to you?" He spat at them, and they don't respond. "You don't think I can get angry? Well I'm fucking angry! When it comes to my kids, family, and William...I can be far worse than William. I'm not as nice as you all think. It infuriates me being kind to people like you constantly! So fake...petty...and ugly inside. The only person who was never those - only petty at times... - was William. That's why he will always be the most beautiful person to me. He may have been mean, but he was honest. Painstakingly so, but he didn't lie to you. Wasn't fake...but himself - that's why he is the most beautiful person."
Arthur looks at me, and I already knew I was crying. He removed his jacket and hands it to me, and I see him grab a cup from someone's hand.
When he sniffs it I see him sigh, but soon smile.
"I think there's someone else who needs cleaning." He murmurs, and we all watch as he dumps the last cup on himself. He was drenched like me now.
Everyone was silent, but I rush to Arthur. I was quick to hug him, clinging to him. His arms wrapped around my body in a comforting way. Reminding me that he was on my side.
"But Arthur how is it beautiful being mean like how he was to you?" David asks him, and Arthur snorts.
"It's not about that. When you like someone...you do stupid things. His honesty was misunderstood and character judged. Though no one ever gave him a chance - no one ever corrected him. How is someone to learn if the one time and time...and time again they make mistakes... Someone gives up on them? Then when he does change - you remind him of his past as if he didn't try to change from that. Just stop...I'm begging all of you." Arthur whimpers, and I look at everyone now.
Talia looked heartbroken, as if she was hit with some revelation. Everyone else looked pained as if they just realized they're grown adults...indulging in their child fantasies - getting revenge.
Well, they did.
"Arthur some people...can't change-."
"Shut the fuck up." Arthur sneers at her, and she flinched. "I'm done talking to you. You are a broken record at this point. You're just doing this because you weren't needed to be our surrogate - I'm not dumb."
Her eyes become watery, and she was quick to run away. Everyone else had nothing to say because what Arthur said was enough.
"If I had shown you guys this side of me sooner, maybe you wouldn't have ever thought of pulling a stunt like this. All of you...just go back to your pathetic lives. You all are much uglier than I remembered." He hisses, and I he picks me up.
I would usually be embarrassed, but this time I didn't mind. He looked down at me sadly as if he couldn't believe I was in this predicament.
When I see...tears start to stream down his face I felt like crying again.
"William I sorry..." He whimpers, and I grin at him. He hugged my body close to his as we were in the car. In the backseat - his broken English seemed to be back.
"Why are you apologizing? You did great...defending me."
"No, I - I feel horrible. They all...infuriate me! How dare they do such to you?!" He cries as he started to breathe heavily.
"They were just satisfying their urges from high school. I think...it's been satisfied." I state, glancing outside to see them still there.
I just face forward, wiping my face with a napkin. Even when I looked back at him he still was crying. This seemed to hurt him...more than it hurt him.
"Arthur it's...it's okay."
"They try to hurt you...embarrass you. When you try to better. When I see them do such to you...a switch just flip for me and I not think clearly. I just full of rage...pain...anger! I try to hold back...it all. I almost show this side to you when you say sorry...after gym event; but I not do so. I not want you to such side of me - I meaner than you think." He croaks, and I cradle his face.
As I stare into his eyes, I smile at him. I still found him the nicest person in the world.
"You are still my hero. Even if you are meaner than we may think...it doesn't matter. It only comes out when you are defending me. So are you really mean at all? Or are you just protecting the one you love?" I question him softly, and he doesn't respond. "Arthur?"
When he looks at me there was this look of pain. As if he found it useless being kind it seemed...
"We need...to go home." He says quietly, and he pulls away from me. When he gets out the car to go to the front - there was some who were quick to rush to him.
Except he ignores them as if they weren't even there. He gets back in the car and slams the door closed, locking the door. I know the doors were too tinted to see anything inside, but I could see them.
The looks of...regret.
They feel regret now?
Even after I apologized? Or are they feeling regret because Arthur told them the truth they clearly ignored...up until now?
I don't know if it's because I'm with child, but I'm not really angry. More pleased...slightly, but kind of satisfied. Maybe because Arthur was there - just to say what the truth.
Finally.
Found myself sighing peacefully, grinning as I stare up at the ceiling of the car. It was silent inside and I know Arthur was too upset for my sake to talk. It just showed how much he loved me.
"I love you Arthur."
I hear him chuckle, looking over his shoulder at me. The both of us smile at one another as he quickly faces back forward.
"I love you too, William." He says back, but I could still hear the anger in his voice.
When we got home he helped me from the car, but when everyone else started to come out he was quick to rush past everyone. The twins watching him walk away. Raphael looked at me with a raised eyebrow, Dylan rushing to me as he smelled what was thrown on me. Bella looked angry as if she knew who did this whole thing... Then there was Nathan who avoided looking at me, and I didn't need him too.
I just walk past all of them, but I do rest my hand on Raphael's shoulder. He looks at me in confusion, and I sigh.
"Talk to him...I think this your time." I inform him quietly.
Raphael's eyes began to glitter almost, and he nodded. I watch him jog after Arthur as if he was excited to do such a thing. Hopefully something can be done...
Because he was very upset; and it showed greatly. The most I've ever seen...ever.
|Arthur
"Arthur!"
I sigh in frustration, shaking my head as I continue to walk forward. I did not want to be near anyone that was ever rude to William. My anger right now couldn't be suppressed. All I needed was to be alone for a little bit.
I haven't been that rude in years. Ever since I was a Sophomore... That was year to change and be better because when I was beginning to fall in love. I needed to better myself to be able to love correctly and be loved correctly.
Even with William...when I first got here I was kind no matter what. I didn't want to be what I used to be. Seeing him in that predicament brought out the worst in me...something I thought I suppressed.
"Arthur we need to talk." My dad says again, grabbing my arm. Except I yank it out from his grasp, shaking my head at him.
"Father...I not in the right mindset. Leave me be - please."
"I'm your dad, talk to me. I'm here and I want to listen to you. Why are you pushing me away when I have come to offer my support? Besides what happened?" He asks me without much consideration with what was wrong.
"William was confronted by many, mainly many people from high school who were petty and vengeful little wretches. They dumped cleaning fluids on him, and Talia along with my nurse who went to our high school planned this. I'm...pissed right now!" I yell, and he looks at me in shock.
I already knew that when I became angry my English somehow became better. I was beyond pissed...there was this rage that filled me. I'm...tired of William letting others hurt him, and letting him hurt himself.
I love him...and he's hurting himself. Others are hurting him - they want to see him fail.
"Arthur we're you attacked?"
"No. I went out to them and...I lost my temper. I'm no longer that innocent Arthur they've once seen - and I could care less." I shook my head in frustration. "You don't know...how much rage I have within me dad."
"Rage at who-?"
"William!" I shout at him, and he frowns.
I knew he wouldn't understand what I meant.
"What...? Are you still mad at him from back then-?"
"No! I'm angry because he won't forgive himself, and he's hurting himself! I'm mad at him for not...telling me he's hurting. While I was in my comatose - he became worse. He needed me, and I wasn't there. I told him to promise me not to let himself go and to take care of himself...but he didn't. He hurt the one person I love the most - him; and that infuriates me as it is. Then for people to come in our lives and try to still bash him for his past self as if he's still the same person...?" I leaned against the wall, my hands shaking.
I looked at the ground, trying to calm myself. There's nothing I...desired to say to him.
"I think he is changing now-."
"What a hypocrite. When you first came here you bashed him constantly and brought up the past as if you're any better. You were and probably still are a very big part of the problem - so now you want to acknowledge he's changing?" I found myself sneering at him and he truly looked shocked.
I didn't desire...to apologize. I truly was upset and angry. Too angry at the moment.
"Arthur...we all have acknowledged our wrongs and apologized to him when you were in comatose. So I know you're upset, but I'm the wrong person to be having outbursts on like you're five." He says to me.
That instantly made me even more angry.
"How would you know how I was when I was five?"
"Oh? The classic phrase of 'how would I know' this and that. I have experience- I've raised kids-."
"But you couldn't raise me right? You weren't 'allowed' to."
"I wasn't!" He cries, and before I could respond I saw William rush to me. His hand rested on my chest, shaking his head at me.
My eyes began to close, sighing as I hug him. Could tell he took a quick shower since he wasn't...reeking of cleaning fluids. I on the other hand kind of did.
"Don't be mad for my sake. This isn't you Arthur..." William murmurs to me, and I don't respond. "Raphael isn't the enemy here. Don't say things you'll regret later once you're in the right state of mind. You know what I mean?"
I look at him now, seeing him nod as if he needed assurance. That's when I nod back - just for him.
"Arthur, I have an ultrasound tomorrow - isn't that fun?" He reminds me, and I found myself smiling.
"It is...isn't it?"
"Yes. We get to have our first one together. Makes it all that more exciting!" William grins at me so sweetly. It...helped me calm down faster than before.
I felt better...slowly.
It didn't stop me from still being angry. From being annoyed about all of this. How was I to cope with this all now that this anger I've tried keeping hidden is released and free?
...I hope I can myself soon... Before I become angry again - something I hate doing and being...
Especially before William.
Even though I'm this way...because of him.