Forgotten Conscience - Chapter 111: Chapter 111
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Faith's POV
"So we're going to the hospital eh?"
I guess so.
"That's where the big pile of evil dust told us to go."
Yeah he probably told us that so we could go there and die.
"Well it makes sense since most of us are gonna need medical attention by the end of it anyway."
"Xander!"
She looks at me at Xander's words.
There she goes again, trying to shield me from the truth.
"Anyway we're not going to the hospital, not for the big battle scene."
"We're not?"
"No..."
I know B told me that everything's gonna work out and live for the moment and all that happy fairy tale crap and I wanna believe it, I really do, but I can't. I've never had it this good. I've never had this much or been this happy and if I let myself believe, even for one moment, that everything's gonna work out... then I could lose it all. I can't do that. I WON'T do that.
"Omega's lair is in a cave not far from the hospital, that's where we'll find him."
Willow looks confused, they all do.
"Then why are we going to the hospital?"
"For Riley."
Here it comes. She talked about it all day today. About how she could finally avenge Riley's murder tonight. She probably would've talked about it last night too if we hadn't been... busy.
"For Riley?"
"Yeah. Riley's killer is somewhere at the hospital. I wanna go there, and stake him for Riley. Then we'll go fight Omega, and then we'll kill him... and then we'll go for drinks or something."
Ugh, again with the bad jokes.
"Okay so, where is he? Where is he in the hospital?"
"I... well I don't know exactly. But someone does. Someone there has to know. And when I find him, he's dust."
I roll my eyes at her but she's too busy to notice.
"Yes B, I'm sure we all know you're gonna kill him to death. Can we go already? I kinda want this over with and it'll be dark soon."
Spike's cowardliness rears its ugly head.
At least it looks better than his real one.
"Go? Why go anywhere? Tonight is Saint Vigeous won't they be coming to wherever you are?"
Son of a bitch.
"Remind me again why we don't stake Spike?"
"Cause, we know he wants to be on the winning side, and we're the winning side..."
Oh right, I forgot.
"Besides, we know he can't hurt any of us. So when the fighting breaks out he's got exactly two options. Fight with us and he just might survive, or fight against us get a killer migraine and be dust in the wind."
I look into her eyes and I can see she's serious.
"B, you're not seriously gonna let him come with us."
"Yes, I am."
"Why the hell for?"
I look deep into her eyes and... she... she can't be...
"Spike is the only person here besides you and me who has any chance of getting anywhere near Omega. He may just be neutered evil but his evilness is at its peak tonight and we could use that."
My head drops into my hands as everything becomes clear.
"Yeah we could use him, in case one of us has to die."
"What?"
"Hey now, I can be pretty handy in a fight and..."
"Shut up Spike... Faith that's not what this is about."
I get up and look in her eyes.
"Isn't it? You know as well as I do that when we walk in there it could come down to you and me. You KNOW it."
Xander gets up.
Probably thinks we're gonna fight, and the way I'm feeling? We probably will.
"Faith, I..."
She can't even finish what she starts to say.
"Don't lie to me B."
She stays silent for at least a few moments.
"I told you how I felt last night. I love you Faith."
Oh right.
"Yeah last night you love me, tonight I'm gonna kill you."
I turn away from her.
I can't look at her face right now. God how twisted is that? I can't even look at the woman I love.
I feel her hand gently on my shoulder.
"Faith please, I didn't mean to..."
I brush her hand off me, heading her apology off at the pass. After a moment of composure I turn to the Scoobies, purposely avoiding Buffy's gaze.
"Look, it'll be dark soon and I'm suddenly really itching to kill something. I'd prefer it not be one of you guys."
My eyes finally find the courage to face B's.
With one exception.
"Unless it's Spike, then I'm fine with it."
Spike stands up nervously, my angry gaze never leaving Buffy's hurt one.
"Giles, weapons all around. We're burning day light here. Which is usually a good thing in my case but not today let's go."
"Buffy?"
Her eyes never leave mine as she answers.
"Y-yeah, let's go."
Giles heads to his weapons chest and I join him. He opens the weapons chest and we start looking through it.
Maybe something large and blunt, I feel the need to do a lot of damage.
I can feel her come up behind me and wait her turn.
Ah here's something.
I pull out a two handed double edged axe from the chest and look it over.
"Perfect."
This is gonna help me do all the damage I want.
I move away from the weapons to let the others in. I pass Buffy without even looking at her. She puts her hand against my arm to stop me.
"Faith..."
"Don't B... just don't... let's just gear up and go."
I walk out onto the porch and start swinging it a little, get a feel for the weapon.
"So we're going to the hospital eh?"
I guess so.
"That's where the big pile of evil dust told us to go."
Yeah he probably told us that so we could go there and die.
"Well it makes sense since most of us are gonna need medical attention by the end of it anyway."
"Xander!"
She looks at me at Xander's words.
There she goes again, trying to shield me from the truth.
"Anyway we're not going to the hospital, not for the big battle scene."
"We're not?"
"No..."
I know B told me that everything's gonna work out and live for the moment and all that happy fairy tale crap and I wanna believe it, I really do, but I can't. I've never had it this good. I've never had this much or been this happy and if I let myself believe, even for one moment, that everything's gonna work out... then I could lose it all. I can't do that. I WON'T do that.
"Omega's lair is in a cave not far from the hospital, that's where we'll find him."
Willow looks confused, they all do.
"Then why are we going to the hospital?"
"For Riley."
Here it comes. She talked about it all day today. About how she could finally avenge Riley's murder tonight. She probably would've talked about it last night too if we hadn't been... busy.
"For Riley?"
"Yeah. Riley's killer is somewhere at the hospital. I wanna go there, and stake him for Riley. Then we'll go fight Omega, and then we'll kill him... and then we'll go for drinks or something."
Ugh, again with the bad jokes.
"Okay so, where is he? Where is he in the hospital?"
"I... well I don't know exactly. But someone does. Someone there has to know. And when I find him, he's dust."
I roll my eyes at her but she's too busy to notice.
"Yes B, I'm sure we all know you're gonna kill him to death. Can we go already? I kinda want this over with and it'll be dark soon."
Spike's cowardliness rears its ugly head.
At least it looks better than his real one.
"Go? Why go anywhere? Tonight is Saint Vigeous won't they be coming to wherever you are?"
Son of a bitch.
"Remind me again why we don't stake Spike?"
"Cause, we know he wants to be on the winning side, and we're the winning side..."
Oh right, I forgot.
"Besides, we know he can't hurt any of us. So when the fighting breaks out he's got exactly two options. Fight with us and he just might survive, or fight against us get a killer migraine and be dust in the wind."
I look into her eyes and I can see she's serious.
"B, you're not seriously gonna let him come with us."
"Yes, I am."
"Why the hell for?"
I look deep into her eyes and... she... she can't be...
"Spike is the only person here besides you and me who has any chance of getting anywhere near Omega. He may just be neutered evil but his evilness is at its peak tonight and we could use that."
My head drops into my hands as everything becomes clear.
"Yeah we could use him, in case one of us has to die."
"What?"
"Hey now, I can be pretty handy in a fight and..."
"Shut up Spike... Faith that's not what this is about."
I get up and look in her eyes.
"Isn't it? You know as well as I do that when we walk in there it could come down to you and me. You KNOW it."
Xander gets up.
Probably thinks we're gonna fight, and the way I'm feeling? We probably will.
"Faith, I..."
She can't even finish what she starts to say.
"Don't lie to me B."
She stays silent for at least a few moments.
"I told you how I felt last night. I love you Faith."
Oh right.
"Yeah last night you love me, tonight I'm gonna kill you."
I turn away from her.
I can't look at her face right now. God how twisted is that? I can't even look at the woman I love.
I feel her hand gently on my shoulder.
"Faith please, I didn't mean to..."
I brush her hand off me, heading her apology off at the pass. After a moment of composure I turn to the Scoobies, purposely avoiding Buffy's gaze.
"Look, it'll be dark soon and I'm suddenly really itching to kill something. I'd prefer it not be one of you guys."
My eyes finally find the courage to face B's.
With one exception.
"Unless it's Spike, then I'm fine with it."
Spike stands up nervously, my angry gaze never leaving Buffy's hurt one.
"Giles, weapons all around. We're burning day light here. Which is usually a good thing in my case but not today let's go."
"Buffy?"
Her eyes never leave mine as she answers.
"Y-yeah, let's go."
Giles heads to his weapons chest and I join him. He opens the weapons chest and we start looking through it.
Maybe something large and blunt, I feel the need to do a lot of damage.
I can feel her come up behind me and wait her turn.
Ah here's something.
I pull out a two handed double edged axe from the chest and look it over.
"Perfect."
This is gonna help me do all the damage I want.
I move away from the weapons to let the others in. I pass Buffy without even looking at her. She puts her hand against my arm to stop me.
"Faith..."
"Don't B... just don't... let's just gear up and go."
I walk out onto the porch and start swinging it a little, get a feel for the weapon.
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