Forgotten Conscience - Chapter 60: Chapter 60

Faith's POV
"Hey B, how's it going?"
Speaking of fun, I might as well have some.
"Faith, what... what are you doing?"
Isn't it kinda obvious?
"I'm changing, what does it look like?"
Her head turns my way slightly and she peaks at me out of the corner of her eye, but my goodies are still facing the other way so she gets nothing.
I must be evil to do this to her.
"Well I... I'll... I'll just you know, wait outside until you... you're finished."
I put my shirt up against my chest to cover up before turning around to face her.
I wouldn't have covered up but she's already really nervous, I don't wanna give her a seizure or something.
"Oh come on, it's not like you're not itching to see me in my birthday suit."
She looks at me and then quickly turns away.
"That's not the p... I'm gonna wait outside."
She back steps out the door and closes it behind her.
She's such a spaz. Maybe I should have a little more fun with her.
I pop the button on my leathers and pull them below my ankles, stepping out of them as I do. I throw my shirt back on the dresser. As I straighten up I readjust the elastic on my panties, pulling them up a little higher just to tease her.
"Okay B, I'm decent."
I can't help but chuckle.
Decent in whose sense of the word?
The door starts to open and I throw my t-shirt over my shoulders, just barely covering my upper body. She steps inside for a second time, this time without the tray in hand.
Probably thinks I'm gonna pull a prank on her.
I cross my arms across my chest.
She was right.
"Look, Faith... just because..."
Her jaw drops as she freezes in her tracks and stares at my nearly naked body.
Jackpot.
She covers her eyes before turning away.
"I thought you said you were dressed."
"I said I was decent, there's a difference."
"FAITH just..."
She leaves the room, closing the door.
"Put something on please."
Okay enough fun, she's gonna hurt me if I do it again.
I actually put the shirt and the leather pants on.
"Okay B, you can come in now."
I don't hear anything.
"You can come in B."
"Are you sure? You put something on right?"
I just have to laugh.
She thinks she's gonna walk in here and I'm gonna be completely naked. Hmm, maybe later.
"Yes I'm wearing clothes, you can come in."
"Okay but if I come in there and you're not wearing anything I'm gonna sock you one."
I laugh at her as the door opens.
She probably shouldn't be talking that loud about this, people might start to talk. Not that I care much but I'm sure B does.
She peeks around the corner like she's in a haunted house and something might jump out at her. She looks at me fully clothed and it's like the scary thing in the haunted house wasn't scary. She steps outside the door, gathering up our breakfast and coming inside. She shuts the door with her foot and starts over to her bed. While she walks in she peeks at me out of the corner of her eye.
She's thinking about what she saw a second ago, I know she is.
She sets the tray down on her bed and sets a small bag down beside it.
"You're too uptight B."
She turns to me with a look of almost shock on her face.
"UPTIGHT? I am NOT uptight."
She doesn't think so does she?
"Oh come on, compared to me you're wound up tighter than a snare drum."
"Hey, I was just trying to do the right thing, the decent thing."
I walk toward her with a little swagger in my step.
Maybe I can have a little more fun.
She watches my hips sway and it makes her kinda nervous.
"What? Didn't you like what you saw?"
I stop inches from her and she starts breathing heavier.
Hot for me already are you? She really is incredibly uptight.
"Well I... of, of course I, I liked w... but, but after what you said last night, I just wanted to give you the time you needed to, to think."
I guess I should tell her.
I get a little closer and my own breathing gets kinda heavy.
"I've been thinking about that. Thinking about my feelings and all that. And you know what I've decided?"
It takes her a second to register a response, given our proximity.
"What?"
"I wanna stop thinking about it..."
I put my arms on her shoulders and pull her to me so our bodies are pressed against each other.
"I just want us to spend time together, see where it takes us."
I take each of her wrists in my hands, one at a time, and place each of her hands on my ass.
"Faith I..."
She doesn't finish her sentence as I kiss her long and hard, which is different cause usually for me it's all about hard and fast. She starts to squeeze my ass and it only makes me kiss her harder. After a few seconds of this I finally let her breathe. She looks at me, breathing harder than before, and blinks. All of the sudden her hands jump from my ass to the small of my back.
Something about this just feels so right.
"Are you... are you sure about this?"
More than anything.
"I've never been more sure of anything in my entire life."
She pushes my hair back behind my left ear.
"Cause I don't want you to do anything you don't..."
I stop her right there with a quick kiss. I take her head in my hands.
"Don't worry B. I want this just as much as you do."
I give her another quick kiss for good measure.
"Oh Faith..."
She gives me a peck on the lips as one of her hands moves up my back between my shoulders. She speaks between a barrage of kisses.
"You don't... you don't know... how much... that means... means to... me."
The next kiss is deeper and softer than the ones before. We slowly make our way to the bed, inches away. We brace ourselves as I fall on top of her, our lips still locked. I pull our lips apart even though I don't want to and look down at her. I look down into her eyes and I get lost in them.
It's like I can see into her soul and she can see into mine. I can see how much she cares about me... how much she wants to be with me. And I hope to god she can see the same in mine. Because I do, I care about her more than I've ever cared about anyone, ever.
"So..."
I run my thumb over her bottom lip, just to know that I touched it, just to know that I tasted it.
"What do you wanna do now?"
She smiles at me and licks her lips.
"I think..."
Why did I even ask? I know what she wants.
I feel her hand slide down my back and onto my waist.
I definitely know what she wants.
"I think we should have breakfast."
I run my index finger over her collarbone.
"What did you have in mind?"
"Muffins."
Okay maybe I don't know what she wants.
"That's not what I was thinking of having."
I start to lean into her but she stops me.
"No, really Faith... I think we should stop."
She's struggling to get the words out. Sometimes it's really hard to do the right thing eh?
"Why? I thought we were having fun."
"We are..."
I run my hand down her chest and softly cup her breast in my palm.
"Oh god, are we having fun but... we should, we should stop."
I run my hand down her side and she squirms under my touch.
"But I'm having so much fun doing what I'm doing."
"Faith it's not that I don't want to it's just... I wanna take things, slow."
"Oh come on, you didn't take things slow with Angel."
"I know..."
She pushes my waist away from hers.
This is obviously isn't gonna happen.
I roll over next to her on the bed.
"All the more reason to take it slow. Look how that turned out."
I guess she's right. What am I saying?
She takes my hand in hers.
"What we have is different than what I had with Angel, on so many levels, and it's completely different than anything I thought I had with Riley. I want our relationship to be totally different than my others, and from what I know about your old relationships I was kinda hoping you'd want the same."
She's right, I don't know what it is but something's telling me she's right. We have to wait. Course I'm not gonna tell her that.
"Well if that's the way you want it I guess I won't fight you. You have a tendency to put me in a coma when we fight."
She laughs out loud.
Good, I'm glad we can joke about that.
I lean over her and slide my hand down her stomach between her legs. She gasps as her hips gyrate at the feel of my hand against her.
"Of course, you should know better than anyone... I'm not a very patient person."
I push my hand deeper between her legs, over the clothes, but it still makes her moan.
"Sooner or later, I'm gonna get real impatient."
She slides her own hand down to meet mine between her legs.
"I look forward to it."
Damn B, I didn't think she could be so kinky.
I look her in the eyes and she looks back.
It's like we're looking into each other's souls again, it's overwhelming.
After about a minute we remember to breathe. She pulls our hands away from her crotch.
"Okay... I think we should stop before we do something neither of us is ready for."
"Okay."
I make sure and crawl over her as I move down to the end of the bed so that our breakfast sits between us. She sits down at the top of her bed cross legged as I do the same at the end of it. I take one of the plastic juice bottles in my hand and twist it open. B picks up the bag and takes out one of the muffins. I take a swig of my fruit punch before she hands the bag to me and I grab my own muffin. I watch her as she tears off a piece of her muffin and puts it in her mouth.
Wow, she must have really soft lips.
I take a bite of my muffin and go back to watching her chew.
Okay I know I was kissing her lips a minute ago but I really wasn't thinking about how soft her lips were, I had my mind on... other things. You know a woman's lips are supposed to be a prefect representation of... okay ,don't I have more self control than this? Wait, no I don't.
I resist the urge to drop my breakfast and jump her bones cause that's not what she wants.
She wants to take it slow and I have to respect that.
I take another bite of my muffin.
I don't believe it. I almost don't want to believe it.
I take another sip of my juice.
There's actually someone I care about other than myself. There's someone in my life who means more to me then just some cheap fuck. I don't know if I can believe it. I mean this is me we're talking about. The get some and get gone girl... ME!
I take another sip of my fruit juice.
You know this juice isn't half bad. I guess it's kinda ironic that we're drinking fruit juice since we've both gone all fruity.
I can't help but chuckle.
"Hey B?"
She looks up from her muffin and all the sudden I get all flustered.
Down girl, tame the beast.
"Hmm?"
"What's with the fruit punch?"
"What about it? Does it taste funny? Sometimes it sits in the cafeteria for a couple weeks and it makes it taste funny."
"No it tastes fine I just mean, why didn't you get coffee or something?"
"Well I didn't really know whether you liked coffee or not. Plus coffee kinda makes me jittery."
Well that makes sense.
"Yeah after everything that happened last night, jittery isn't really a good idea is it?"
The room falls silent between us and we sorta avoid each other with our eyes.
"Yeah... last night was kinda intense wasn't it?"
Our eyes meet and she forces a smile at me.
I still haven't apologized for what I did to her. It must've been horrible the way I took advantage of her feelings for me, just so I could feel better about myself. I should say I'm sorry or something.
"Buffy about last night..."
"Did you call Giles?"
"Hmm?"
"Last night, did you call Giles and tell him everything was okay?"
She just cut me off. Did she know what I was about to say?
"No, I didn't think to."
"I should call him, he's probably worried sick."
She reaches for the phone.
"Buffy wait..."
She stops in mid-reach and looks at me.
"You were right."
She stops reaching and settles back on the bed.
"About what?"
"About last night..."
"Faith..."
"I was grieving. I was in pain over losing Wilkins... I shouldn't have done what I did to you."
"Faith it's okay."
"No it's not I mean, I used you."
"It's not like it's the first time you've used people."
"Yeah but I've never used anyone I cared about before. But then, I've never cared about anyone enough to care whether I used them or not."
She leans forward on all fours so our breakfast isn't between us.
"It's okay Faith, it's over now. All that matters now is that we're together, that we're going to be together. We are, aren't we?"
I take a deep breath before leaning in and kissing her.
"I want us to be."
She kisses me back at my words.
"Then nothing else matters."
She pushes my hair back behind my ears.
"Last night doesn't matter, all that matters is us, right here right now. Okay?"
Why didn't I think of that? It's what I do.
"Okay."
"All right..."
She settles back down at the other end of her bed before reaching for the phone and dialing Giles' number.
If that's the way she wants it then I guess it's the right thing to do. Buffy's all about doing the right thing. Not me, I just wanna jump her bones and get it over with.
I take a bite of my muffin.
"Giles it's me..."