Helping Lena - Chapter 4: Chapter 4

Stepping into the library, I'm met with absolute silence. Walking to the front desk, I saw Chloe sitting with her chin propped up on her hands, looking bored. I saw her sigh then blowing a bubble with her bubblegum.
I wonder what kind of flavour it is. I don't even know when last I ate a bubblegum. I'll buy me some after work, only if I don't forget.
I took slow steps towards Chloe, hoping that she won't be upset with me. I looked around the library and saw no Ms Willows around, she might be in her office. There were only four people in the library from where I can see.
"Where have you been? You're late!" Chloe's loud voice screech through my ears. Her blue eyes squinted with a angry look.
My eyes widen slightly. Oh no! She's mad at me....... again!
"I know, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be late. Something happen at the bakery and then....." I rumbled nervous before she cut me off.
"Well, I don't care. You made me late for.... Anyway, go tell that old fart you here and come immediately back!"She sneered at me with a pointed look.
"She's not an old fart. She's really ni..." once again I'm cut off from defending Ms Willows.
"I said I don't care! Do you ever stop talking? I can't stand you, get out of my face!" She snapped at me and pushed her finger harshly against my forehead, punctuating each word. My head bobbing to the back.
I know there is going to be dents of her sharp nails. There always is.
"Right, I'm so-sorry" I apologise and scurried away before she do something worse. The marks on my forehead burning. Why do I make everyone upset today?!
I walk silently to Ms Willows office, I stood in front of the door contemplating whether I should knock or not.
"Come in Lena dear" Ms Willows soft voice came through the door. I blush and slowly push the door open.
"H-hi Ms Willows" i greeted her, with a blush still on my face with being caught.
"Hi dear. You late today for the first time. Is everything okay?" she looked at me with concern.
"I apologise. Something happen at the bakery and it made me late. I won't let it happen again"
"It's okay. I was just worried that's all" she gave a small smile, her eyes wrinkling by the sides.
"Okay, thank you" I chuckle awkwardly, internally sighing a breathe of relief. Good, I'm not fired.
Ms Willows squinted her eyes eyes at me "what happen to your forehead?"
I quickly touch my forehead and felt a few dents, retracted my fingers and saw a small amount of blood "No nothing. I was re-resting m-my head on m-my hands and d-didn't realise i made d-dents w-with my f-fingers" I stutter out and chuckle nervously.
"Oh alright then. You may go, Lena. I'll see you later" still looking at me like I was lying, which I am but I didn't want Chloe in trouble.
"See you later Ms Willows" I waved before walking out the door. My beating heart gradually slowing down. Phew!
'Good lie, Lena' I mentally high five myself. I don't like lying, it's a big no no!
I wonder if Anna will come by today? I hope so.
Coming back to the front I saw Chloe looking agitated. I quickly speed up my walk.
"Thank goodness! What took you so long, I have to go. Take over my shift" she said hurriedly picking up her bag and walking out the door.
I stood like a deer caught in headlights. Sighing sadly, I moved around the front desks and sat down. Extra work for me. Yay!!! I cleaned my forehead with some toilet paper while looking at the mirror on my phone. The skin was slightly tore. I have to put some cream on when I get home.
Once again I pick up the book I read yesterday. Finally some peace and quiet. I wish I was magical like the fairies. I could fly anywhere I want and spread magic.
Checking the time on the wall and saw it was currently 11:00. Geez, time really flew by fast. Finally done with the book, I made my way to the kids section and put the book back in place. I stared with big eyes at the different bright colours and drawings on the wall. There chairs and tables for the little kids to read. There was a sofa were the parents could sit and watch their kids.
I looked around and debated whether or not I should sit down on the mat with numbers, letters and cartoon drawings. It was tempting. I'm glad it was my break. I was not to hungry so that was fine. I sometimes forget to eat.
I starting putting my thumb in my mouth and suckle on it slowly. I could the pulls my mouth made on my tongue, sometimes I imagine it was a bottle filled with milk and pretend to gulp down.
I lower myself down onto the mat and while suckling on my thumb. I felt all nervousness wash away and smile to myself. I did it. I made sure to face my back to the everyone walking pass therefore no one could see what I was doing. I crawl with one hand to the baby books and took one out and sat criss cross on my bum.
I hope if anyone walk past they think that I am sorting the books out.
I felt at easy and comfort. I don't think I slipped but I'm just trying to make myself comfortable enough whenever I get a caregiver. I really like this. I sucked on my thumb and looked at the pretty pictures in amazement, flipping the pages as more drawings showed up. Why can't they have this in adult books?!
Time soon flew by. Coming closer to the end of my book, I started having a pee pee. I knew I should not have looked at each page for five minutes. I rock side to side on my bum, hoping to finish the book before I really have to go.
I squirm in place as the pressure became more and more. I removed my thumb from my mouth and clutch the front of my dress. No, I'm going to pee in my dress. I wish I wore a pants today. I whimper as I felt little droplets drop on my panty. Tears sting my eyes, I knew i should have not wait so long but it's a bad habit I developed since I was a child. But I've never peed in my pants before and I don't plan on doing it now.
"I think someone has to use the toilet, mmm?" I turned my head so fast, I thought my neck would have snapped off. I'm met with Anna standing behind me, looking amused with a teasing smile on her face.
I nodded my head frantically. I knew if I stood up, I would pee my dress wet. I felt more vulnerable with Anna here as something crumble down in my head.
"Help pwease" i whimper as I felt my tears roll down my face as that switch flipped on again. My voice changed to a more softer tone and a bit high pitched. I didn't even notice my vocabulary changed.
"Oh sweetheart, come on let's get you to the toilet" she worriedly said as something flash pass her eyes. Like realisation dawn down upon her as she saw the tears staining my cheeks.
She moved quickly in front of me and took my hand and pulled me up. More whimpers fell from my mouth as more droplets fell. Oh no! She hurriedly pulled me to the direction of the toilets.
And then it happen, pee flowed down my legs. I started full on sobbing softly. I guess she heard my cries as she turned quickly to face me and looked concern.
"What's wrong, baby" she asked carefully titling my head upwards with her pointer finger to make me look in her eyes due to our height difference. I looked down at the pee on my legs and wet dress then looked back up at her. Her eyes widen slightly.
"Oh no, it's okay sweetheart, it is just a little accident" she cooed, looking at me with pity as she pulled me inside an open stall. Her concern and reassurance just made me cry more.
She pulled the door close and gave me some privacy. I just stood there and just kept on crying quietly. The coldness felt uncomfortable on my legs and the dress clinging to me due the wetness on my legs.
"Can you take off your clothes for me, Lena? I'm going to make a quick phone call to someone to bring you some extra clothes. I'll be back" she said through the door.
"Noooo, s'ay pease" i whimper loudly for her to hear. I just want her to stay and help and comfort me.
"I'll be quick sweetheart, I promise. I'll be just outside the door" she tried to reassure to me, but I was not having it.
Everything felt different now. Everything felt bigger to me. I felt like crying and wanted Anna's attention only on me. My emotions felt all over the place. I felt more childlike and I didn't want to be alone by myself.
"No, pwease An'a stay hewe!" i lisped and begged, feeling myself become upset. I put my thumb in my mouth and suckle fast, wanting the frustration to go away.
"Okay okay, I will baby. No need to get upset sweetheart. Anna will stay with you" she cooed through the door as her voice become a more gentle tone.