Helping Lena - Chapter 51: Chapter 51

Lena's pov
All week mama was working and coming late home from work. Mommy had to fetch me from and take me to work, basically everything. I didn't even have mama milky from mama, only from my bottle but it wasn't the same and it made me sad and upset with mama. It is a week since I last nursed.
Right now mama was working in her upstairs office while I played with my toys in my room. Mommy was downstairs, cleaning up the kitchen after eating a silent dinner. I wasn't really into playing with my toys, I just missed mama and wanted her cuddles.
"Hi mama" I said softly as I opened her office door and poked my head through the opening.
"Hi" mama said nonchalantly, not even looking at me.
"I 'tay in hewe wif you mama?" I asked nervously. I was hoping that mama would let me nurse. I just wanted to feel close to her.
"Not right now Lena. I'm busy, go to mommy" mama shooed me away with her hand.
"Okay" I whispered out sadly as tears came to my eyes. I closed her door and wiped my tears away as mommy came up the stairs.
I ran to mommy and hugged her close as I buried my face in her stomach. She picked me up and took me into my nursery and took out my toys so we could play before bedtime.
"What's wrong bumblebee?" Mommy asked as she pushed my hair out of my face.
"Miss mama" I sigh sadly and crawl into mommy's lap and laid my head on her chest.
"I know honey, but mama is really busy with work and her boss is a real meanie" mommy pouted and tickled my neck. I giggled and tried to move to get away from her.
"Do mama 'till wan' me, mommy?" I asked insecurely as I fiddle with my fingers.
Before mommy could answer, we heard footsteps coming towards my room. We stared at the open door.
"Can you guys please be quiet" mama came through the door as she stood there looking irritated and stared sternly at us.
"We weren't being that loud Anna, but sure we will be quiet" mommy rolled her eyes and she didn't look happy.
"Hi mama" I smiled at her while giving her a small wave but she didn't even acknowledge me. That hurt me as I hid my face in mommy's chest as tears made their way down my face.
"You guys were being loud! Then how the hell did I hear you guys down the hallway" mama exasperated.
I jumped in mommy's lap at how loud mama was talking. I could see mama become angry so did mommy. I hated confrontations and arguments.
"Stay here honey, mama and I are going to have a talk" mommy whispered lovingly in my ear as she comfort me. I nodded my head.
Mommy picked me up and sat me down in my crib. I turned my back to them and hugged Mr Noodle. I could hear them argue but trying to argue quietly at the same time.
I didn't like that they were arguing, because of me. I picked up my paci and put it in my mouth. I took deep suckles trying to calm my crying and beating heart.
I don't think mama wants me anymore...
I didn't like that she was ignoring me. I quietly made a blanket rope and got out of crib. I grabbed Mr Noodles and tiptoed to the window. I open the window and looked down, it was a high way down. I whined and backed away. The only way out was through the front door.
"I scawed Mw Noodles" I mumbled and look down at my stuffy.
'But mama doesn't want you Lena' Mr Noodles said. He was upset too.
"But..."
'No buts Lena. Let's go, we were fine on our own anyway'
"O-okay" I muttered out unsure.
I put on my ducky slippers and softly made my out of my nursery. I could hear they still arguing. I sniffled and opened the baby gate but it creek. I looked to the back but saw no one came out. I turned back around and I hesitated going down the steps.
I made it down the stairs successfully as I opened the baby gate downstairs. Fear and anxiety was setting in.
I ran to the door and found it lock, but I unlocked it and made a run for it. I was dark outside and I don't like the dark.
I kept running, but I didn't know where I was running to. It was my first time being outside in the road without mama or mommy with me. I ran until I came upon a bench. I sat on it out of breath, clutching Mr Noodles to my chest.
"I scawed" I whimpered as I pulled my legs to my chest and curled into a ball. I suckled deeply on my paci, hoping for some comfort.
"I wan' to go home"
I started sobbing softly as the wind picked up. It was cold and my diapee was wet and dark outside. I just wanted mommy.
I know mama doesn't want me, but I hoped mommy would still want me.
Olivia's pov
"Stay here honey, mama and I are going to have a talk" I whispered lovingly in Lena's ear as I comfort her. I felt her nod her head yes.
"Come on, let's talk" I gritted out after i put Lena in her crib.
I pulled Anna by her arm and walked into her office. I shut the door and turned to Anna and glared at her who was glaring back at me.
"What the hell is your problem!?" Anna said harshly and yanked her arm out of my hand.
"My...my problem?!" I asked shock because honestly what the hell!?
"Did I stutter? Yes I said what is your problem"Anna rolled her eyes and folded her arms.
"My problem is you!" I harshly but softly said as pointed my finger at her. I didn't wanted Lena hearing us argue.
"Oh please, what the hell did I do, huh?" Anna said sarcastically.
"Look... I understand you under a lot of pressure at work okay, and I know you stressed and I explained it to Lena but she doesn't understand why you so distant from her" I closed my eyes and took a deep breath in.
"That's not true! I'm not distant from Lena" She argued back, getting defensive.
"If you not so distant as you say, when last did you pick her up from work?"
"Uh...o-on..." Anna's defensive stature changed as she dropped her arms. She frowned before it clicked.
"When last did you put her to bed or spend time with her? Or even sat down and actually have dinner with us or having a normal conversation with us, without working interrupting?" I could feel all my anger come up. It felt good getting it off my chest.
"I- I- I don't know" Anna said in a vulnerable voice.
"That's what I thought. For this entire week you didn't cuddle her or breastfeed her. She missed nursing with you, Lena would just drink her bottle with not even finishing it" I said. I could feel my heartbreak for Lena.
"I didn't even notice" Anna mumbled out vulnerably and subconsciously rubbed her chest.
"You know what hurt me the most, Anna? She asked me something that broke my heart. She asked me if you still wanted her" I said as my voice cracked.
I wiped the tear away that escaped. I sigh as I sat down on the sofa as I thought about how Lena was feeling this whole time. My little bumblebee.
"WHAT!" Anna said in shock.
"Why would she think that. I love her with my whole heart. Lena is my baby is my everything including you. I will always want her" Anna paced around up and down, running her hand through her hair.
"I remember Lena said that one of her limits is being ignored" I looked at her feeling angry again.
"I was so mean to her when she came to my office. I need to talk to her. I hope I can still fix this" Anna said hurriedly.
"Let's go" I said and stood up as we made our way out of her office, that was until we heard the door downstairs slam shut.