Helping Lena - Chapter 56: Chapter 56

Anna's pov
"Not mama, it A'na" I heard Lena mumble harshly under her breath. I don't think she knew I heard her.
My eyes darted away from a running Lena as my breath hitched. I stared at Olivia with wide and panic eyes.
"S-she didn't mean that" Olivia hurriedly said, looking flabbergasted just as I am.
"She said I'm not her mama... she said I'm not her mama" I blinked trying to blink my tears away.
"She's upset Anna. You know kids say a lot of things they don't mean. Lena's in headspace and upset. Don't take it serious" Liv said as she moved forward to comfort me.
"I-I-I c-can't do this" i backed away from Olivia as I turn and ran up the stairs, straight to the bedroom.
"Anna!" Olivia screamed after me. I could hear her make her way after me.
"Mommy?" I heard Lena called out. She cursed and I heard her footsteps retreated back down to tend to Lena.
I slammed the bedroom door shut behind me. I leaned back, struggling to take deep breaths in as my heart pounded into my ears. I rubbed my heart as sharp pains shot through it. I staggered to the bed and laid down, taking shuddering breaths in and out as I count to ten.
"Anna?" I heard Liv knocked on the door.
I moved my eyes to the door but I didn't move to open it. Tears were sliding down the side of my face as I stared up at the ceiling. I just needed a moment.
"Lena wants to talk you you" Liv said after a while as I heard sniffles. I knew it was Lena's. My heart clenched, knowing Lena was crying.
I didn't reply to Olivia's constant knocking or Lena's sniffling. I turned into a ball as I heard Liv sigh and walked away from the door. I looked up at the monitor and saw Olivia walking around in the nursery comfortingly Lena, who was sobbing.
I turned away from the monitor as I cried myself to sleep.
Olivia's pov
"Anna" I yelled after her as she ran up the stairs in distraught and I don't blame her.
"Mommy?" Lena called me, making me stop my chase after Anna.
This was a mess and it couldn't go on any longer. My head was pounding of this headache forming. I hate arguments, especially when it goes on for to long.
We could have talked earlier if I didn't take Lena out for breakfast and to the park to look for Mr Noodles. She was a scared to enter the park, that I had to look for her stuffy while she sat in the car and cried.
I ended up not finding him and it made Lena cry harder. I had sat in the backseat cradling her at the lost of her first stuffy.
"Sit with me, I need to talk to you" I said as I took Lena's hand and sat with her on the sofa.
"Okays, t'en we play" Lena said as she smiled and pointed to her toys on the floor.
"Sure honey. So, mommy wants to know why did you say what you said before you ran to play with your toys"
"W'at I say mommy?" Lena frowned and tilted her head in confusion. I knew she wasn't going to remember.
"You said 'Not mama, it's Anna'" I said as I squinted my eyes.
"Don' 'member mommy" Lena's voice quiver as her eyes darted around the room. Yep, she's lying.
"Don't lie to mommy, Lena. Do you know why I'm asking you this" I asked as I put my finger under her chin to look at me.
"Why mommy?"
"Mama heard you said that" I sigh as I leaned back into the sofa and looked up at the ceiling.
I turned to look at her and saw Lena staring at me with big nervous eyes.
"Nos mean mommy. I angwy. Luv mama" lena said as she started sniffling.
"Well mama didn't know that and it made her cry"
"I know you upset and you have every right to be and mama understands that. But what you said was wrong and it hurt her feelings, bumblebee" I said to Lena who was full on crying.
"L-Lena sowwy. No mean to hu'ts mama" Lena said sadly as she rubbed her face on my t-shirt.
"Go mama pease" Lena said in my neck.
"Okay honey" I smiled softly and got up and walking up the stairs with Lena in my arms.
I walked to our room and saw the door shut close. I softly turned the nob but it was locked. I knocked on the door hoping for Anna to opened up but she didn't even when I called out her name. I sighed before walking away to Lena's nursery.
"Mama?" Lena asked hopefully and confused.
"I'm sorry, bumblebee"
Lena's bottom lip started wobbling and started wailing. I cooed and bounced her around the room, hoping to calm her down but it didn't seem to work. It took an hour to get Lena to stop crying and right after she fell asleep out of exhaustion.
I hated this.
Third person pov
Anna, Olivia and Lena, all sat in the living room waiting on someone to speak first. Lena woke up out of headspace and felt jittery. Each one of them were nerves because this talk could go right or wrong. It all depend on their wording.
Anna's mouth gaped opened like a fish, struggling to get the words out as Lena tapped her foot on the floor. Olivia was twisting her ring out of habit.
"I'm sorry Lena" Anna said with glazed over eyes. Lena looked up and finally looked Anna in the eyes.
"I'm so sorry baby. I-I was so caught up in work that I neglected you. I neglected each one of your needs and wants for a whole week and I didn't even seem to realise how much I was hurting you" Anna was fisting her dress to the point her knuckles turned white.
"It hurt me Anna. I felt and little me felt like we did something wrong. I kept trying to thing of what I did wrong but I came up with nothing" Lena nervously fiddle with her finger beds.
"None of it was your fault. If I was in your place, I wouldn't forgive me either. That 1 day and 4 hours that you ignored me, felt like an eternity"
"That's how I felt"
"And I can't begin to imagined how much you endure with being ignored and being chased and almost getting hurt" Anna was crying at this point.
"I was so scared. My insecurities got the best of me" Lena's voice quivered as she stared down at her hands.
"I'm sorry I broke one of your limits. The relief I felt having you on my arms for that minute, felt like I was able to breath again. When I found you, you were having a panic attack and Liv was the one that was able to get you to calm down" Anna smiled sadly.
"I know I can't take back with what happened and I know that you need time but all I asked for is forgiveness and to be your mama again" Anna asked hopefully.
"I'm s-sorry what I said last night. I didn't mean it, I just said it out of again to hurt you and when Liv told me how it affected you, made me feel guilty"
"Yeah, it hurt really bad" Anna chuckled awkwardly. Lena looked guilty.
Everyone was quiet for a moment, Anna and Lena got their emotions under control.
"Can... can you forgive me Lena?" Anna asked with nervousness.
"I-I forgive you Anna" Lena said as she smiled at Anna.
"Y-y-you do?!" Anna asked in disbelief before a smile broke up on her face.
"I do, I can't ignore you for ever. We basically live in the same home and little me really miss her mama" Lena whispered softly as she stared at Anna.
"Thank you so much Lena!" Anna screeched in excitement and happiness.
She shot up from her seat and pulled Lena a unexpected Lena up and pulled her into a big hug. Lena let out a high pitched oof as she patted Anna's back awkwardly.
Big Lena was still a bit awkward with showing affection, maybe because she is rarely in a bigger headspace.
"I love you Lena and thank you for giving me another chance" Anna whispered heartwarming.
"I..I love you too" Lena eyes teared as she melted into the hug.
Soon the conversation had to happen between Olivia and Anna.
"Liv...I'm sorry too. I ignored you and got mad at you, which I shouldn't have"
"Yeah, It was shitty the way you treated us" Olivia said still feeling petty.
"That's why I'm apologising for what happened. I don't want you to be angry at me anymore. I just want us to get back to normal"
"Normal as in almost getting kidnapped because someone had an attitude" Olivia tutted.
"Olivia I know and that's what I'm apologising for. I know I'm to be blamed for what happened with Lena and I can never forgive myself for it" Anna said, feeling a bit edgy.
"Okay, I forgive you" Olivia said nonchalantly.
"Can at least look and sound convincing"
"What more do you want, I said I forgive" Olivia said feeling fed up with this whole conversation.
"Why are you acting like this?!" Anna asked raising her voice.
"Because you made Lena ran away. You treated us like shit for a week and now suddenly after Lena was almost kidnapped, you want to apologise!"
"Olivia I know how serious that situation was and I didn't mean for any of it to happen. What don't you understand"
"You where ignored for what 1 day and 4 hours and you couldn't even handle that. You tried apologising with food, if that was going to make everything better!"
"I didn't have a choice. You guys were ignoring me. I tried talking but nothing and I thought make breakfast at least do something"
"So what?" Olivia asked, pissed off.
"I trying okay. I couldn't even held Lena in my arms after that traumatic event. I couldn't even imagine the far that ran through her and you asking me so what" Anna asked exasperated.
"I was their Anna"
"And I'm glad you were. But at least think how I felt. I felt like a woman that almost lost her baby, I felt worthless that I couldn't comfort Lena" Anna's voice cracked.
"I sat on that sofa entire day yesterday waiting for you to come home. Do you know how worried I was? You just took her out for hours just after what happened!"