Her Alpha Mates - Chapter 106: Chapter 106

MYRA
Two weeks later...
I sat in the library, staring at the computer's blank screen-everything was gone now. I spent the past week formatting everything from my servers.
To ensure no one could ever retrieve whatever I had removed, I decided to burn down my current servers and computers. I wanted them all gone. I was sure that I was done with all of this.
But this left a question in my head-what next? This was all I knew. This had been my life so far... and now I was finally putting an end to it. I had to do this, and I did this willingly.
I knew this was the right decision, and I'd never regret it in the future. I did this because of my mates. I did this for them because I couldn't imagine losing them. I had almost lost them, and it was traumatic enough. I didn't want them hurting because of me.
In the past, I did my job despite it being dangerous because I didn't have anything to lose back then. Now, I have everything to lose, and I almost lost them at one point. I didn't want to relive that experience.
My mates were more important than the crap I stole and collected from people. It wasn't worth it anymore. I was firm in my decision to destroy everything.
The incident was still fresh in my head and every night I woke up with nightmares about it. The brothers tried their best to soothe me and ask me what was bothering me, but I didn't want them to know about all those terrible things.
I sighed deeply, staring out of the window. It was the end of February, and spring was waiting on the doorstep. The snow was melting away, and the days were growing longer. A new beginning was approaching, and I was ready to greet it and leave everything behind.
I wanted to have a new beginning with my mates, especially since the mating bond was fulfilled. I could feel both of them through their bond and their emotions, which made me feel deeply secure about them. The connection always assured me that they were there, and whenever I felt worried about them, I'd tap into the connection and feel them.
It made me feel slightly better, but simultaneously, it was tiring, the whole mating thing. The heat was completely gone now, and parts of my body ached terribly, but I ignored them and focused on the contentment.
I had wanted this for a long time, and finally, I had it. I wouldn't throw this all away for a silly mistake again. I was now determined to make this happen. I wanted to be there for my mates and make their lives easier instead of finding new ways to fuck them up every day. I wasn't going to act foolish anymore.
I wanted to start fresh, and I felt that getting rid of everything from my old life would make it easier. I was doing this for them, and I owed this to them after they had done everything for me.
A sharp knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts, making me sit up. Hunter walked in the next moment, holding a cup of coffee and a plate of pancakes.
"You're up early today, baby girl," He said, setting them on the table before me and giving me a heated kiss. I kissed him back, and instantly, the marking on my breast tingled with satisfaction. After pulling back from the kiss, I hummed and stared into his deep, dark eyes. He was so beautiful. Even though I was tired from the long heat week, a part of me still ached for him and Mateo. I couldn't seem to have enough of them. I could feel the same enthusiasm flowing through the bond from his side.
I wanted to kiss him more, but the exhaustion took over.
"You're exhausted," Hunter remarked. The brothers could feel everything on my side through the bond, too. I couldn't hide much from them anymore-not that there was much to be hidden now.
"I'm fine," I told him, fighting a yawn. He chuckled and settled on the chair next to me before pulling me into his lap. I didn't protest and let him hold me. It made me feel incredible, and I could feel his wolf purring cosily, making my wolf stir.
"You didn't sleep well last night, baby girl," Hunter whispered, rubbing my back while I buried my face in his neck.
"Yeah, I need some time getting used to sleeping with you two in the same bed. Mateo's snoring and you spreading your limbs fully really helps," I said, making Hunter chuckle.
"That bed's too damn small for the three of us. I've talked to our pack carpenter. She's making a bigger bed for us," Hunter said.
"What size is it? King size? It'd still be small with you fully spreading your limbs," I joked.
"It's Alpha-sized," Hunter said, and I giggled but sighed deeply with dizziness instantly.
"You're very tired, baby girl. You should rest. The heat was brutal on you,"
"And so were you two," I reminded him, and he chuckled darkly.
"And you loved it," Hunter remarked, and I sighed again. I loved it very much, and he knew about it. "You have to rest now. You never recovered completely after being discharged from the hospital," He reminded me. "You were weak, and the heat weakened you even more, and then you keep waking up at night due to the nightmares," He said. The tone of his voice was prompting. I knew he wanted to know about these nightmares because they were pretty much recurring and didn't seem to stop, no matter what they did. I wanted to keep them to myself for now because I didn't have it in me to talk about them.
Talking about them would make them feel too real. I shuddered slightly as a bloody image flashed in front of my eyes, but I pushed it away before it could have a more negative effect on me.
"I'll be alright, Hunter," I assured him, but he scoffed.
"I told you to sleep longer this morning, but you weren't in bed when I returned from my early morning run. This won't work, Myra," Hunter said in a gruff voice, and he almost sounded like Mateo for a second.
"I didn't feel like sleeping," I told him.
"Why? Tell me," he forced, and I sighed again. He was growing all protective bear over me, and while it was slightly annoying, I loved this. I'd never take this for granted anymore.
"I just woke up and didn't feel like sleeping," I told him.
Actually, I'd woken up with the intense urge to puke my guts out, but as soon as I went to the toilet, the feeling was gone. After that, I tried going back to sleep, but sleep never came, so I came to the library to distract myself by completing the formatting. However, I decided it was too trivial to mention.
Hunter frowned at my response, not feeling satisfied.
"I'd have seen to this, but I'll have to go meet a delegation from an important pack in a couple of hours. Mateo would be back by then. You'll lay down with him and take a long nap," Hunter ordered. I wanted to argue but couldn't find the energy to do so. I was feeling increasingly tired, especially after he held me.
"I'll try to do that but how long will you two coddle me?" I asked after a moment of peaceful silence. This had been lingering in my head for a long time, and I needed to let it out. "I'll soon have to take over the Luna position,"
"It can wait, baby girl," Hunter said. "Your health and wellbeing is more important. The pack was without a Luna for all this time. It can go a few more months without one," Hunter said. "You don't have to stress over it right now. Just rest. That's all,"
"Thanks," I muttered, at a loss for words. I was anxious about taking over the Luna position because I had never been in a pack setting before. I lived a nomadic life, and this was all too new for me. I was only used to looking out for myself, and suddenly being entrusted with the responsibility for the wellbeing of so many people terrified me.
I was used to creating trouble... not resolving them. I was used to working alone instead of working with and for the people. This was going to be a huge learning curve for me.
"It's okay, baby girl," Hunter whispered soothingly. "You've had enough of shit. It's time for you to rest. The world can wait,"
I blinked the tears and tried to thrust the cloud of darkness away before Hunter could sense them through the bond. I wanted to tell him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me, but the words got stuck in my throat for some reason, making me blink more tears. I hid them before Hunter could notice them.
"I've brought you breakfast. Skip the coffee and have a good nap with Mateo, alright? I'll take you on the run in the evening once I'm back after meeting the delegation," Hunter said as he held up a sandwich before me. The scent of food made me want to throw up, but the nausea was gone as quickly as it had come.
"I'll look forward to the run," I told him and took a bite, my eyelids growing heavier each second.