I still remember. Do You? ꒰ა yoonmi... - Chapter 54: Chapter 54

While Jimin was busy overthinking his decision he heard Yoongi's footsteps coming in the living room. His head automatically turns around to see the alpha coming towards him with something in his hands.
He first helps Jimin to stand up from the cold floor and brought him up to sit on the couch.
" What is this? "
Jimin eyes the paper with his head tilted in confusion. All the crying and screaming has made his throat hurt by now.
At that question, Yoongi looks at him with a petrified look in his eyes. Like the paper holds some dark secrets that can turn Jimin's life around. But then again, Yoongi has no other choice, he had already delayed the truth for so long. And if he continues to do so he might loose Jimin for once and for all.
With trembling hands, Yoongi pushed the paper in front of Jimin to take it.
The tears has blurred Jimin's vision so he uses his sleeve to wipe them up in one go.
He looks at Yoongi for his answers but the alpha only points towards the paper as if trying to say that it has all the answers that Jimin's looking for.
After being able to see clearly, Jimin recognised it was a birth certificate. On reading it further and seeing the name on it, it was clear that it was Yoonjun's. But he still couldn't understand what this has to do with the answers he needs.
" Why are you-"
Jimin stops his body movement, as his eyes pause at a particular field on the certificate. His pupils dilate in shock, the thing that he just read was so unimaginable to his brain that his body starts to feel numb. His hands lost their grip making the paper slip out of his hands.
The absence of tears indicated his pain that was too deep for his heart to take. He was in a kind of shock that stays as it is, it is too vast to process so he just freezes on his spot.
He doesn't say anything because he's afraid in what form his words would come out.
Jimin felt the shock comes in form of waves, little ones at first but soon it gets huge and strong that he feels so swept away. They come at such random moments, replacing his devoid eyes with hot tears.
His face washed blank with confusion, like his brain cogs couldn't turn fast enough to take in the information from his wide eyes. Every muscle of his body just froze.
He turns to look at Yoongi because he still can't believe it. No, he was trying not to believe it. Because believing it would cause him more pain than he was actually in.
But when he saw the same tears in Yoongi's eyes, the same pain and torment, his apologetic eyes. Jimin knew it was real. It felt like one of your nightmare just became a reality, but you're uncertain if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
He stares at the fallen paper on the ground. His eyes again catch the same words as before and it was nothing else than Yoonjun's birthday date.
Yoonjun's birthday date.... That's the exact day when he gave birth to his child. His child that was supposedly a stillborn. His child that never made it alive to this world. His child that he cried rivers for.
His silence is soon replaced by his loud cries, and Yoongi has to wrap his arms around Jimin to calm him down. The omega cried so vulnerably in the alpha's arms, because Yoongi is his safe place and it makes Jimin show his raw emotions to him.
But once the realization settle in, he sucks in his tears composing himself. Something in him tells him not to put his guards down so easily. He looks up at Yoongi with a glare.
" What kind of sick joke is this? "
He tries to push Yoongi away from him so, he could successfully break free from his arms but the alpha didn't even budge.
" Jimin ah-"
Yoongi is trying to explain himself but Jimin is stubborn in not hearing him. The omega shakes his head, while putting his hands out in front of him to stop Yoongi from coming any closer.
" Why are you playing with my feelings like this ? W-WHY ?"
He puts his hand onto his ears and closes his eyes. The voices and scenarios from his past and present are revolving in his head. He doesn't know what is the reality and what should he believe in anymore.
" I'm not, Jimin. I'm not. This is the truth-"
Yoongi takes Jimin's hands off to wrap his own hands around them instead.
" - the truth that I've been hiding from you."
" NO! IT'S NOT POSSIBLE. THIS ISN'T THE TRUTH."
Jimin screams with all his might, he's still hesitant to believe all this. Anyone would be like him if someone just comes and tell them that the life they've been living is a lie.
" MY CHILD-- is dead."
He doesn't know what is easier. To believe that his child is dead and continue living a remorseful life or to believe that his child is alive and the life that he has been living till now is all a fucking lie.
" No, baby. Our child... Yoonjun is our child."
Tears rolls down Jimin cheek like a hurricane is unleashed from inside of him. A hurricane of emotions.
" STOP LYING! YOU'RE A LIAR YOONGI."
His mind thinks it's better to regard Yoongi as a liar than to regard the past few years of his life as a lie. It's easier that way. But is this easy path, a good one ?
" I'm not lying Jimin. Yoonjun is our child, mine and your child."
Yoongi speaks calmly in front of a frantic Jimin.
" MY CHILD IS FUCKING DEAD."
Jimin screams again, his mind is blinded by hurt and betrayal right now.
But Yoongi is determined too, he'll make Jimin accept the truth. Even if it hurts him. Because it's better to get hurt by the truth once than to let a lie mask it and keep getting hurt from it.
" Our baby is safe, Jimin. Yoonjun is our baby."
Jimin is continuously shaking his head to even consider that as a possibility. Yoongi lets out a sigh, he knew it'd be hard to for Jimin when the truth comes out but he never knew it'd be that hard for Jimin. It's more harder because it's been years and the lie has now became a reality for him.
Maybe the omega is doing so as a protective manner. It's easy to live in a well built house of lies than to let a single truth break down the house that you built with it.
But Yoongi knows it's time Jimin gets out of that house, he needs to face the truth even if it hurts him today. He needs to face it. And he's there for Jimin, he'll help him bring out of that collapsing house. He'll protect Jimin from his crashing world.
" Didn't you see the similarities between you and him? "
He says it in a soft voice and it surely gets Jimin's interest. The omega look at him with teary eyes, teary but curious eyes. As if wanting Yoongi to continue.
" Have you seen how his eyes turns into crescent moons when he laugh? "
A quick image of Yoonjun laughing is flashed in front of Jimin's eyes. He stops breathing for a second as he notices the similarity for the very first time.
He shakes his head to get the image out of his head but he isn't successful.
" How he scrunches his nose when something is not according to his liking ?"
While Jimin is still dealing with the first wave of shock, Yoongi gave him another one. And Jimin can picture it very clearly in his head. The cute nose scrunch Yoonjun makes when he's forced to eat vegetables or when he's forcefully made to study.
And how this is so similar to the way he reacts in such situation.
" How he puts on a pouty look whenever he's upset? "
The cute image that flashes in front of Jimin this time had him smile. And Yoongi feels alive after seeing that tiny flicker of change in Jimin's mood.
" How he tends to fall asleep easily when someone pats his head? "
By now, Jimin find himself relaxing down a bit, his thoughts are occupied by Yoonjun only. But soon it starts to shatter and he understands what all of this mean.
" No, but my dad-"
He holds onto Yoongi's arm, his grip so tight that he'll leave a mark on it.
" My dad would never lie to me. He would never-"
He looks at Yoongi with those desperate eyes, he wants Yoongi to comfort him, to agree with him and tell that what he's thinking is not true. That it's not his father who's at fault here.
But Yoongi doesn't do say instead his eyes and expression tell Jimin that his suspicion is true.
Jimin gets up frantically after that,vhis mind can't think straight and he's only thinking about one think. He dashes out of the room, leaving Yoongi behind.
" Jimin ah, where are you going? "
He asks but there's no reply. The omega is busy putting on his shoes to go out. Even though all Jimin's body is begging him to do is just lay down, because it's not in the proper functioning state right now.
" Jimin ah. Wait!"
He holds Jimin right before he could walk out of the house. Jimin tried to move ahead but Yoongi's hold is strong.
" I need answers."
He says not looking back at Yoongi, he doesn't want to show Yoongi how broken he is right now. It's a state he wish the alpha has to never see.
" I don't think it's okay for you to drive right now."
Jimin is not in his sane state of his mind, the adrenaline is flowing in his veins. His brain is overflowed with thoughts and his body is weak from all the shock. And Yoongi knows it won't be safe for the omega to drive in such state.
" I'll take you there."
" Please."
Jimin finally becomes successful in taking his hand of Yoongi's hold but he doesn't walk away, instead he stays in the same position.
" Thank you."
Yoongi says as he realise that Jimin is listening to him. He immediately fetch his car keys to drive Jimin back home.
" Min ah."
Yoongi tries to break the heavy atmosphere in the car, he wants to ease the omega's mind by talking to him. Jimin's pungent scent is making his alpha restless too. He's dying to comfort him in such a situation.
" I don't wanna talk right now."
Jimin replies while looking outside. He has so much going inside right now, he's afraid he might take all his anger out on Yoongi.
" Okay, I won't force you."
Yoongi retrieves his hand back from half way through. He wishes he could help Jimin right now, but he can't. He can just be by his side. Jimin needs to do rest alone.
And he's afraid as he sees the house approaching. Will Jimin choose him, the person who had betrayed him once or his father that he loves and trust more than a god ?