I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 11: Chapter 11
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Seoul - October 2016
Taehyung's P.O.V
We walked together to the class. To be honest, I still hesitate about this, what if Bogum hyung get into trouble because of me? Even though he said that nothing to worry, but I nevertheless feel distressed about this. Bogum Hyung seemed aware of my insecurities, yet he still acted as if nothing. He still talking to me, as usual, occasionally wrapping his arms around my shoulders.
"Tae... Taehyung aaaah ..." Bogum Hyung waves his hand in front of my face.
"Ah yes, Hyung" He pulled me from my day-dreaming.
"Come on in!" He pulled me into the class and sat next to me. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.
"What are you doing here Hyung? Go away, my class is about to start" I tried to push him. Oh Gosh. Though he doesn't look muscular, he is very strong.
"I'm in this class." He just shrugs his shoulders as he pulls out a notebook from his bag.
"Don't be kidding me Hyung. You don't have to do this. I'm okay, I really do. You don't need to always accompany me. Get back to your class."
"Well, I actually have my own reason to be in this class. But yours seems better, so let us go with that" He smirked.
Jeez, this Hyung. It turns out that he really takes this class for his upcoming movie. He got the role as famous songwriter, so for the research purpose, he asks permission to attend my class. And deep down my heart, I thank God for letting Bogum Hyung stay with me. At least at this moment, there is someone who's going to hold back my gravities to jump into the abyss.
"I don't know that there was much to be learned for a songwriter wannabee." he stretched his body once the class was over.
"if it's easy, I don't have to come all the way here" we just laughed.
"By the way Tae, I have a brilliant idea," said Bogum Hyung when we arrived at the cafeteria.
"What is it Hyung?"
"How about you singing my drama's OST? You know, I just finished filming the drama, and we still need a song for the soundtrack."
"No Hyung, definitely no. I can't drag your drama into my disgrace. I'm just going to aggravate your drama's good name"
"Come on Tae. I don't have the right to say this, but just stop your fear of being judged. It's your life, it's your body, it's your mind, why let people influence all that's yours? I know it's hard for you. Very hard. But at least you should try bit by bit to stop concerning yourself with how people judge you. They will judge you no matter what, so don't waste your energy for them. Let's try together. Maybe I can't light up your world, but let me sit with you in this dark. No matter how hard you tried to push me out of your life, I'll stay. you're my friend, and never once in my life would let you go through this alone." and it's really warm my heart. He said all the words that I really want to hear. Park Bogum is the literal meaning of an Angel.
"What if the director refuses me?" I'm still feeling uneasy about this.
"I assure you he wouldn't do that. he's not a narrowminded person, and he sees talent more than anything. And your talent in both singing and composing are superb"
he somehow convinced me a bit. Should I try?
"Hmm, I'll think about this Hyung"
"Trust me. You have to do it. Rather than cultivate your own sadness, it would be better if you write it into a song. Pours out all of the feelings you bottled up inside."
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Krystal's P.O.V
I just finished my schedule today and finally got back to my apartment after a few days out of town
"Huh, it's already 10 p.m" I hurried through the park in front of my apartment building, but my pace stopped when I saw a man sitting on a park bench, alone.
"who is he? I seem to have never seen him around here" I said to myself. Ah, he is Kim Taehyung. The man who has recently become a topic of gossip. What is he doing here? at this time? I should have ignored him and headed straight to my apartment, but somehow I approached him instead.
"Hey, can I sit here?" I asked him. He just smiled and nodded then shifted his body slightly so I could sit on the same bench. Maybe this is not the right time, but Oh my God, his smile is so sweet. I see his face several times on television, in newspapers, and also on SNS, so I know he's handsome. But seen him directly like this, I can say with certainty that he is ethereal. It's more than 10 years since I worked in this industry, yet I never meet someone as handsome as him.
"I didn't expect that many famous celebrities lived here" he chuckled. "A while ago, I just met Park Seojoon, Park Hyungsik, WannaOne, and Yoona from SNSD. Who would have thought that I would meet with f(x) Krystal? An honour for me "he smiled at me.
"Well, you don't need to move out just because you feel inferior" I mocked her jokingly, and he knew it. because he was laughing. the way he laughs make me want to do the same. it ends up we just laugh over nothing for a minute.
He wiped a single tear in the corner of his eyes. "You know, recently I'm more famous than you," he said while wiggling his eyebrow.
"Ay. don't think too highly of yourself. How can you beat me in term of popularity" I nudge him softly. "My name is Jung Soojung, you might know me as Krystal, but I'd appreciate it if you call me Soojung" I stretched out my hand.
He accepts my hand, "My name is Kim Taehyung, you might know me because I'm famous" he smiles. He might be smiling, unfortunately, his eyes betrayed him. There is so much sadness in his eyes. Beautiful eyes covered with a layer of scar.
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Jungkook's P.O.V
I hate this. I hate my life.
I'm always dreaming of becoming an idol, spent half of my life to make it come true. I'm happy with my job, how I put my best performance for our fans. I love singing and dancing in the stage. Until I realize how terrible it is to be seen as an idol.
Being an idol means you should force yourself to always smile, force yourself to go on no matter what happens. Though I smile, it doesn't feel like smiling. Lately, in my head lies so many wars. Voice in my heads shouting alternatives, I have questions in my mind. But in the end, I choose to send him away. Forcing him, the love of my life, to get out of my world. All those painful words I said, stabbed in the heart like a knife. Always repeated to my self "you didn't come this far, only to come this far", just to justified the way I'm hurting him.
Watching movies every night become my routine activities. In there, I found happiness and a happy ending which I couldn't find in my own real life. And I still remember how that night, when Jimin shows us the picture of Tae's house, is the first night where I have no desire to live longer. My body is a dead soul within itself.
I hate how the members blame me. They say they know me, but they can't even see that right now I have a thousand reasons to die for.
"Seems like you get close with Irene." is the topic that Hoseok hyung bring up in our dinner in the dorm. And it's the start of the mess. I already hate my life enough, it's been nothing but chaos. Yet this girl, called Irene, stick to me like a leech. She said she likes me, so she wants to know me better. I tell her that I don't interested in her even just a little bit, but just as stubborn she is, she's still chasing me everywhere. Clinging in my arms, make me disgusted. And the Hyungs thinks that there is something going on between me and that bitch. Then they start to accuse me again. Nope. It's not they. It's just one person, Yoongi Hyung. He said I'm a heartless man. Breaking Tae's heart, turn his life into hell, then enjoy my own life with a new girl. And it triggered my anger.
Right now, I and Yoongi Hyung throwing a punch to each other face. The supposedly peaceful dinner is long gone. Currently, I have blood on my nose and lips, and he has blood in his temple. The other members tried to broke up the fights, but I guess our outrage is stronger. I don't care about the Album promotion, what I care about right now is I really despise this Hyung.
"You know nothing Hyung. You know nothing" I'm roaring at him. " I'm hurting too. It hurt so much hyung. it's hurt. As I pick the broken pieces of my heart, you never stop blaming me. You don't know how much I missed him even in the moments I fell asleep. You never know that deep-seated in my heart are those beautiful eyes. You never know Hyung. Never. So don't talk like you know everything."
"Yes, I don't know anything. The only things that I know are Taehyung's life is ruined." He tried to break away from Namjoon Hyung and Jimin whos holding him.
"Why you only care about Taehyung? Why? I'm dying a little within but deceptive outside. I have my own reason to send him away. I have my own stories unsaid, the truth untold." I punch him on his left cheek
"I only care about him because I love him. I Love Taehyung. If he just knows how much I'm crazy for him, If he just sees how I keep talking about him, If he just could see himself through my eyes, and If he just could break into my heart for a minute, He would know that I love him very much. Why it's you the one that he loved? why not me?" With that, a great sob escaped him, and he covered his face with a shaking hand.
Taehyung's P.O.V
We walked together to the class. To be honest, I still hesitate about this, what if Bogum hyung get into trouble because of me? Even though he said that nothing to worry, but I nevertheless feel distressed about this. Bogum Hyung seemed aware of my insecurities, yet he still acted as if nothing. He still talking to me, as usual, occasionally wrapping his arms around my shoulders.
"Tae... Taehyung aaaah ..." Bogum Hyung waves his hand in front of my face.
"Ah yes, Hyung" He pulled me from my day-dreaming.
"Come on in!" He pulled me into the class and sat next to me. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.
"What are you doing here Hyung? Go away, my class is about to start" I tried to push him. Oh Gosh. Though he doesn't look muscular, he is very strong.
"I'm in this class." He just shrugs his shoulders as he pulls out a notebook from his bag.
"Don't be kidding me Hyung. You don't have to do this. I'm okay, I really do. You don't need to always accompany me. Get back to your class."
"Well, I actually have my own reason to be in this class. But yours seems better, so let us go with that" He smirked.
Jeez, this Hyung. It turns out that he really takes this class for his upcoming movie. He got the role as famous songwriter, so for the research purpose, he asks permission to attend my class. And deep down my heart, I thank God for letting Bogum Hyung stay with me. At least at this moment, there is someone who's going to hold back my gravities to jump into the abyss.
"I don't know that there was much to be learned for a songwriter wannabee." he stretched his body once the class was over.
"if it's easy, I don't have to come all the way here" we just laughed.
"By the way Tae, I have a brilliant idea," said Bogum Hyung when we arrived at the cafeteria.
"What is it Hyung?"
"How about you singing my drama's OST? You know, I just finished filming the drama, and we still need a song for the soundtrack."
"No Hyung, definitely no. I can't drag your drama into my disgrace. I'm just going to aggravate your drama's good name"
"Come on Tae. I don't have the right to say this, but just stop your fear of being judged. It's your life, it's your body, it's your mind, why let people influence all that's yours? I know it's hard for you. Very hard. But at least you should try bit by bit to stop concerning yourself with how people judge you. They will judge you no matter what, so don't waste your energy for them. Let's try together. Maybe I can't light up your world, but let me sit with you in this dark. No matter how hard you tried to push me out of your life, I'll stay. you're my friend, and never once in my life would let you go through this alone." and it's really warm my heart. He said all the words that I really want to hear. Park Bogum is the literal meaning of an Angel.
"What if the director refuses me?" I'm still feeling uneasy about this.
"I assure you he wouldn't do that. he's not a narrowminded person, and he sees talent more than anything. And your talent in both singing and composing are superb"
he somehow convinced me a bit. Should I try?
"Hmm, I'll think about this Hyung"
"Trust me. You have to do it. Rather than cultivate your own sadness, it would be better if you write it into a song. Pours out all of the feelings you bottled up inside."
* * *
Krystal's P.O.V
I just finished my schedule today and finally got back to my apartment after a few days out of town
"Huh, it's already 10 p.m" I hurried through the park in front of my apartment building, but my pace stopped when I saw a man sitting on a park bench, alone.
"who is he? I seem to have never seen him around here" I said to myself. Ah, he is Kim Taehyung. The man who has recently become a topic of gossip. What is he doing here? at this time? I should have ignored him and headed straight to my apartment, but somehow I approached him instead.
"Hey, can I sit here?" I asked him. He just smiled and nodded then shifted his body slightly so I could sit on the same bench. Maybe this is not the right time, but Oh my God, his smile is so sweet. I see his face several times on television, in newspapers, and also on SNS, so I know he's handsome. But seen him directly like this, I can say with certainty that he is ethereal. It's more than 10 years since I worked in this industry, yet I never meet someone as handsome as him.
"I didn't expect that many famous celebrities lived here" he chuckled. "A while ago, I just met Park Seojoon, Park Hyungsik, WannaOne, and Yoona from SNSD. Who would have thought that I would meet with f(x) Krystal? An honour for me "he smiled at me.
"Well, you don't need to move out just because you feel inferior" I mocked her jokingly, and he knew it. because he was laughing. the way he laughs make me want to do the same. it ends up we just laugh over nothing for a minute.
He wiped a single tear in the corner of his eyes. "You know, recently I'm more famous than you," he said while wiggling his eyebrow.
"Ay. don't think too highly of yourself. How can you beat me in term of popularity" I nudge him softly. "My name is Jung Soojung, you might know me as Krystal, but I'd appreciate it if you call me Soojung" I stretched out my hand.
He accepts my hand, "My name is Kim Taehyung, you might know me because I'm famous" he smiles. He might be smiling, unfortunately, his eyes betrayed him. There is so much sadness in his eyes. Beautiful eyes covered with a layer of scar.
* * *
Jungkook's P.O.V
I hate this. I hate my life.
I'm always dreaming of becoming an idol, spent half of my life to make it come true. I'm happy with my job, how I put my best performance for our fans. I love singing and dancing in the stage. Until I realize how terrible it is to be seen as an idol.
Being an idol means you should force yourself to always smile, force yourself to go on no matter what happens. Though I smile, it doesn't feel like smiling. Lately, in my head lies so many wars. Voice in my heads shouting alternatives, I have questions in my mind. But in the end, I choose to send him away. Forcing him, the love of my life, to get out of my world. All those painful words I said, stabbed in the heart like a knife. Always repeated to my self "you didn't come this far, only to come this far", just to justified the way I'm hurting him.
Watching movies every night become my routine activities. In there, I found happiness and a happy ending which I couldn't find in my own real life. And I still remember how that night, when Jimin shows us the picture of Tae's house, is the first night where I have no desire to live longer. My body is a dead soul within itself.
I hate how the members blame me. They say they know me, but they can't even see that right now I have a thousand reasons to die for.
"Seems like you get close with Irene." is the topic that Hoseok hyung bring up in our dinner in the dorm. And it's the start of the mess. I already hate my life enough, it's been nothing but chaos. Yet this girl, called Irene, stick to me like a leech. She said she likes me, so she wants to know me better. I tell her that I don't interested in her even just a little bit, but just as stubborn she is, she's still chasing me everywhere. Clinging in my arms, make me disgusted. And the Hyungs thinks that there is something going on between me and that bitch. Then they start to accuse me again. Nope. It's not they. It's just one person, Yoongi Hyung. He said I'm a heartless man. Breaking Tae's heart, turn his life into hell, then enjoy my own life with a new girl. And it triggered my anger.
Right now, I and Yoongi Hyung throwing a punch to each other face. The supposedly peaceful dinner is long gone. Currently, I have blood on my nose and lips, and he has blood in his temple. The other members tried to broke up the fights, but I guess our outrage is stronger. I don't care about the Album promotion, what I care about right now is I really despise this Hyung.
"You know nothing Hyung. You know nothing" I'm roaring at him. " I'm hurting too. It hurt so much hyung. it's hurt. As I pick the broken pieces of my heart, you never stop blaming me. You don't know how much I missed him even in the moments I fell asleep. You never know that deep-seated in my heart are those beautiful eyes. You never know Hyung. Never. So don't talk like you know everything."
"Yes, I don't know anything. The only things that I know are Taehyung's life is ruined." He tried to break away from Namjoon Hyung and Jimin whos holding him.
"Why you only care about Taehyung? Why? I'm dying a little within but deceptive outside. I have my own reason to send him away. I have my own stories unsaid, the truth untold." I punch him on his left cheek
"I only care about him because I love him. I Love Taehyung. If he just knows how much I'm crazy for him, If he just sees how I keep talking about him, If he just could see himself through my eyes, and If he just could break into my heart for a minute, He would know that I love him very much. Why it's you the one that he loved? why not me?" With that, a great sob escaped him, and he covered his face with a shaking hand.
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