I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 18: Chapter 18
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Seoul - November 2016
Taehyung P.O.V
I decided to make an appearance at the music show. Like, why not? Maybe just like what Bogum Hyung said, and Minjae too, and my sister too, that this is the chance for me to show them, haters, that I'm more than what they think about. I'm a super talented handsome man *cough* oh how embarrassing for saying it myself.
And Soojung, the one and only who opposed this, offering to the PD that she's gonna be the special MC. Who will reject that offer? of course no one. It's Soojung after all, her class is different.
"Are you my mother? Am I a kindergarten child who needs his mother to accompany him to school?" that's what I said when found out her doing. meanwhile, the said female just ignore my question.
As an inexperienced in this field, I need Minjae counsel about what must I wear. And he said "Why you need to worried about that? Just wear anything. You're a Visual King. You'll look great in whatever you wear, and everything will looks expensive in your body. Believe me." I'm too flattered by his compliment *cough*. Considering I'm going to sing a sad song, I decided to dress in simple plain shirts and black jeans.
I'm driving alone to the TV station since Soojung needs to finish her other schedule first. When I arrived, there're so many people outside the building, the majority of them are BTS's fans.
"It's okay Taehyung. It's okay. Everythings gonna be alright. Just don't listen to everything they said. You're doing great, boy" I speak to myself to calm me down. Wearing my headphone, turn on John Legend song, I'm ready to fight.
I can feel their stare and their whisper when they see me. I've been this far, I can't let them drag me down. Finally, I entered the waiting room, the same room with Soojung.
"That girl really can't leave me alone" I smile. There are only three females that I let them get into my life, Mom - Sister - Soojung, and all of them really really overprotecting towards me. My Sister and Soojung only met once, two days ago, but they already make an alliance.
a few moments later one of the FD enter my room, "Kim Taehyung-ssi, you need to go to the backstage room. We are going to do the rehearsal with all of today's performers."
Among all of the singer and Idol, he stands there. The person that I can find even in the midst of a thousand people. Just like what my sister said, he wear the earrings. I always wonder how does he look with that, of course, he looks so handsome.
My eyes meet with his, and the other members. Indeed, it's really devastating. You can't imagine the grief that comes with the best friends turned into strangers. I smile and slightly lower my head towards them, as a greeting. Even though I'm just a stranger to them, at least I'm trying to be a stranger who knows manners. even if it hurts.
I said that I'm going to move on, I said that I'm going to forget and let him go, but yeah, easier said than done. it's just two months since we break up, what do you expect me to do. At least it's not that painful compared to before and I can hold back my tears. But it's still burned. Although not much, our memories are precious. I'm so happy with him, every moment engraved and attached beautifully to my heart and my brain. I really wish to have the chance to hug him for the last time.
The rumblings of other idol enter the room calls me from my past memories. One of them is Twice, who walk in the direction of Red Velvet, and all of them managed to give me a cold stare. Especially Sana and Irene, the previous and current leech of Jungkook's.
Do you still remember my exam accident? Yeah, basically the cause is this Sana girl. At that time, I was jealous of Jungkook because he was rumoured to be dating with Sana. The cause of the issue is this flirty woman who always mentions that Jungkook is her ideal type, netizen also notices that they have some alike items, not only that, they're also spotted in the same cafe. I'm jealous, so jealous, for the first time in two years, that's why Jungkook asked me to date at Sejin Hyung's house.
He explained that everything just a coincidence, he gave me fifteen purple roses, singing me his cover of nothing like us, he pampered me with a lot of kisses and hugs, and somehow we end up getting drunk.
And this Irene girl, lately her name is always related to Jungkook. The rumour about their dating is all over the media. This time I don't know whether she is just another leech or truly Jungkook's girlfriend. If the truth is the second one, then it must be so easy for him to forget me. Maybe he is indeed not gay, maybe he is bi like me, or maybe he is actually straight, and all this time I'm just his toy, the escape of his boredom. Who knows. I can hear a crack in my heart at the thinking of that.
Sana and Irene suddenly walk towards me.
"Hey you, what are you doing here?" Sana asked me, how rhetoric
"Why you ask a question that no need an answer. Do you think I'm here looking for a place to eat?" I answered lazily.
"Attention sucker. Do you think you deserve to appear on the Music Bank? Your song is famous just because people want to know what this gay doing. Don't think too highly of yourself" This girl really get my nerves.
"The same goes for you. It's not like you have any other talents except trying to act cute."
"What? You disgusting, how dare you a fagot insult me" she sways her hand to slap me, but another hand halts her movement, it Irene's.
"Stop it, you just dirtied your hands. He is not worth our time. Just look at him makes me feels like throw up."
"It's not like your hands are clean at the first place"
"Sunbaenim" Irene look so shocked at Soojung sudden appearance
"Apologize to him," Soojung said sternly to Sana
"What?"
"Apologize. Are you deaf?"
"No need to overdo this, Sunbaenim. She just states the fact",
Soojung stared at them in disbelief, "Let's go Tae"
"coward, take cover behind a woman. How useless you are"
"What the hell are you saying?" Soojung glares at Sana, she looks like a warrior ready to kill some bitch.
"I don't care what you want to say. I'm tired enough with all of this, so I have no energy to deal with you. If you don't like my presence here, then just ignore me. Isn't that easy?" I said to Sana while pulling Soojung behind my back, trying to keep her away, or she would grab Sana's hair anytime.
"If you're tired, why don't you just die? After all, no one will weep for your death" And that's what hit me hard.
Die. Useless. Disgusting. All those words triggered the darkest moment. All the bad memories come back to dance in my mind. All this time, I repeated those words over and over for hoping I'll be immune if I hear those words again. It turns out I'm wrong. It's okay if I hear it from my own mouth, but when it comes out from the other's mouth, it's really tearing my defences down. My head starts to spinning uncontrollably, my body starts to trembling anxiously, my hands are itchy to make a cut on my arm.
Plak...
Soojung slap Irene. "Once again you talk bad about Taehyung, I'll rip off your bitchy mouth. Have you never educate your mouth? say how much money do you need to do it? I'll pay for it" She is in rage, leaves everyone in the room shock and speechless.
Irene's eyes were teary "Why you slapped me?"
"Because you can't control your mouth"
"I'm your Hoobae, and you defending this fagot than me?" she holds his cheek which is now flushed.
"Didn't I already said if you insult Taehyung again, I'll tear your mouth"
Sana approached Irene "You have exceeded the limit, you slapped Hoobae from your own company just for him?"
Soojung, Irene, and Sana continue to argue about this problem. My head throbbing so much, my heart breaking more and more. In the midst of this riot, BTS just silently standing there, being a spectator. Yoongi Hyung clenched his fist, Jimin and Jin Hyung hold each other arms, Hoseok Hyung's face turned red, Namjoon Hyung closed his eyes. And Jungkook, he looks at me expressionlessly and stays silent. We might be a stranger, but even outsiders still help each other if one of them face difficulties. They left me to drown alone.
"He is nobody, why are you so defending of him?" I vaguely heard Sana's screaming at Soojung
"He is my boyfriend. Why?"
What?
Taehyung P.O.V
I decided to make an appearance at the music show. Like, why not? Maybe just like what Bogum Hyung said, and Minjae too, and my sister too, that this is the chance for me to show them, haters, that I'm more than what they think about. I'm a super talented handsome man *cough* oh how embarrassing for saying it myself.
And Soojung, the one and only who opposed this, offering to the PD that she's gonna be the special MC. Who will reject that offer? of course no one. It's Soojung after all, her class is different.
"Are you my mother? Am I a kindergarten child who needs his mother to accompany him to school?" that's what I said when found out her doing. meanwhile, the said female just ignore my question.
As an inexperienced in this field, I need Minjae counsel about what must I wear. And he said "Why you need to worried about that? Just wear anything. You're a Visual King. You'll look great in whatever you wear, and everything will looks expensive in your body. Believe me." I'm too flattered by his compliment *cough*. Considering I'm going to sing a sad song, I decided to dress in simple plain shirts and black jeans.
I'm driving alone to the TV station since Soojung needs to finish her other schedule first. When I arrived, there're so many people outside the building, the majority of them are BTS's fans.
"It's okay Taehyung. It's okay. Everythings gonna be alright. Just don't listen to everything they said. You're doing great, boy" I speak to myself to calm me down. Wearing my headphone, turn on John Legend song, I'm ready to fight.
I can feel their stare and their whisper when they see me. I've been this far, I can't let them drag me down. Finally, I entered the waiting room, the same room with Soojung.
"That girl really can't leave me alone" I smile. There are only three females that I let them get into my life, Mom - Sister - Soojung, and all of them really really overprotecting towards me. My Sister and Soojung only met once, two days ago, but they already make an alliance.
a few moments later one of the FD enter my room, "Kim Taehyung-ssi, you need to go to the backstage room. We are going to do the rehearsal with all of today's performers."
Among all of the singer and Idol, he stands there. The person that I can find even in the midst of a thousand people. Just like what my sister said, he wear the earrings. I always wonder how does he look with that, of course, he looks so handsome.
My eyes meet with his, and the other members. Indeed, it's really devastating. You can't imagine the grief that comes with the best friends turned into strangers. I smile and slightly lower my head towards them, as a greeting. Even though I'm just a stranger to them, at least I'm trying to be a stranger who knows manners. even if it hurts.
I said that I'm going to move on, I said that I'm going to forget and let him go, but yeah, easier said than done. it's just two months since we break up, what do you expect me to do. At least it's not that painful compared to before and I can hold back my tears. But it's still burned. Although not much, our memories are precious. I'm so happy with him, every moment engraved and attached beautifully to my heart and my brain. I really wish to have the chance to hug him for the last time.
The rumblings of other idol enter the room calls me from my past memories. One of them is Twice, who walk in the direction of Red Velvet, and all of them managed to give me a cold stare. Especially Sana and Irene, the previous and current leech of Jungkook's.
Do you still remember my exam accident? Yeah, basically the cause is this Sana girl. At that time, I was jealous of Jungkook because he was rumoured to be dating with Sana. The cause of the issue is this flirty woman who always mentions that Jungkook is her ideal type, netizen also notices that they have some alike items, not only that, they're also spotted in the same cafe. I'm jealous, so jealous, for the first time in two years, that's why Jungkook asked me to date at Sejin Hyung's house.
He explained that everything just a coincidence, he gave me fifteen purple roses, singing me his cover of nothing like us, he pampered me with a lot of kisses and hugs, and somehow we end up getting drunk.
And this Irene girl, lately her name is always related to Jungkook. The rumour about their dating is all over the media. This time I don't know whether she is just another leech or truly Jungkook's girlfriend. If the truth is the second one, then it must be so easy for him to forget me. Maybe he is indeed not gay, maybe he is bi like me, or maybe he is actually straight, and all this time I'm just his toy, the escape of his boredom. Who knows. I can hear a crack in my heart at the thinking of that.
Sana and Irene suddenly walk towards me.
"Hey you, what are you doing here?" Sana asked me, how rhetoric
"Why you ask a question that no need an answer. Do you think I'm here looking for a place to eat?" I answered lazily.
"Attention sucker. Do you think you deserve to appear on the Music Bank? Your song is famous just because people want to know what this gay doing. Don't think too highly of yourself" This girl really get my nerves.
"The same goes for you. It's not like you have any other talents except trying to act cute."
"What? You disgusting, how dare you a fagot insult me" she sways her hand to slap me, but another hand halts her movement, it Irene's.
"Stop it, you just dirtied your hands. He is not worth our time. Just look at him makes me feels like throw up."
"It's not like your hands are clean at the first place"
"Sunbaenim" Irene look so shocked at Soojung sudden appearance
"Apologize to him," Soojung said sternly to Sana
"What?"
"Apologize. Are you deaf?"
"No need to overdo this, Sunbaenim. She just states the fact",
Soojung stared at them in disbelief, "Let's go Tae"
"coward, take cover behind a woman. How useless you are"
"What the hell are you saying?" Soojung glares at Sana, she looks like a warrior ready to kill some bitch.
"I don't care what you want to say. I'm tired enough with all of this, so I have no energy to deal with you. If you don't like my presence here, then just ignore me. Isn't that easy?" I said to Sana while pulling Soojung behind my back, trying to keep her away, or she would grab Sana's hair anytime.
"If you're tired, why don't you just die? After all, no one will weep for your death" And that's what hit me hard.
Die. Useless. Disgusting. All those words triggered the darkest moment. All the bad memories come back to dance in my mind. All this time, I repeated those words over and over for hoping I'll be immune if I hear those words again. It turns out I'm wrong. It's okay if I hear it from my own mouth, but when it comes out from the other's mouth, it's really tearing my defences down. My head starts to spinning uncontrollably, my body starts to trembling anxiously, my hands are itchy to make a cut on my arm.
Plak...
Soojung slap Irene. "Once again you talk bad about Taehyung, I'll rip off your bitchy mouth. Have you never educate your mouth? say how much money do you need to do it? I'll pay for it" She is in rage, leaves everyone in the room shock and speechless.
Irene's eyes were teary "Why you slapped me?"
"Because you can't control your mouth"
"I'm your Hoobae, and you defending this fagot than me?" she holds his cheek which is now flushed.
"Didn't I already said if you insult Taehyung again, I'll tear your mouth"
Sana approached Irene "You have exceeded the limit, you slapped Hoobae from your own company just for him?"
Soojung, Irene, and Sana continue to argue about this problem. My head throbbing so much, my heart breaking more and more. In the midst of this riot, BTS just silently standing there, being a spectator. Yoongi Hyung clenched his fist, Jimin and Jin Hyung hold each other arms, Hoseok Hyung's face turned red, Namjoon Hyung closed his eyes. And Jungkook, he looks at me expressionlessly and stays silent. We might be a stranger, but even outsiders still help each other if one of them face difficulties. They left me to drown alone.
"He is nobody, why are you so defending of him?" I vaguely heard Sana's screaming at Soojung
"He is my boyfriend. Why?"
What?
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