I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 23: Chapter 23
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Seoul - May 2018
Jungkook's P.O.V
It's almost 2 years since that day. The day at the broadcasting station when we saw into each other eyes, for the last time. I could have asked him to stay, but I'm stupidly said nothing. My guilt eating me alive. It's not like it's the only one since I've always carried my regret on my back. I had done something awful.
It's still vivid in my memory, that day he became netizen's topic, again. He didn't show up on the stage, didn't perform his song. People started to talk bad about him again. They said 'right from the start they shouldn't give that fagot a fucking chance to perform in a music show. Hell, even he shouldn't release a song. All he does is just make a mess everywhere he goes'.
I understand him, with the thought that he might be so heartbroken, and of course, it's because of me. Again. That's what I thought.
However, two days after, our dorm had a guest for the first time. Usually, it's only PD-nim, manager, staff, stylist, and him. But that time, a beautiful girl came, violently looking for me. And what she did the moment she locks her eyes at mine, was grabbing my collar.
She furiously asked me about what are we, me and Tae, talking about two days before. She asked me whether I hurt him or not. She asked me how is his condition when he left, is he crying? is he heartbroken? the next second she fell on the floor with a trembled lips as she cried.
In her cry, she's calling Taehyung's name heartbreakingly. And what she said next shatter my heart into pieces, killing my already dead soul.
He left. He is nowhere to be found. That two days, Krystal was looking for him everywhere, but in vain. She even checked the CCTV of their apartment complex, but he didn't show up at all. She and Park Bogum tried to call him so many times, but they can't reach him.
We tried to thinking positively, that he might need some time alone, so he goes somewhere quiet. We tried to stay calm while still searching for him.
Two days turn into a week, two weeks. And on the third weeks, we've got a news about him. When Bogum tried to ask the college's staff about Taehyung's attendance, it turns out that he quit a week before.
Since that day, we've got no news from Tae. And more than a year have passed.
We conclude that he come back to his country since we can't find him anywhere. And now, after a year, more precisely 1 year and 7 months, everything back to normal.
We, BTS, just have our new album. In this time of period, we have three comebacks, and the newest is 'fake love'. We've been busy with album promotion, interview, and other schedules.
During these years, we become more famous, even in America, and in the world. Get so many awards both in Korea or international, a recognition, and of course, new fans. We're doing fine.
Within this time, Jin Hyung and Namjoon Hyung still in their relationship, even closer than they used to be. Yoongi Hyung and Jimin become a couple, a newly made couple, 5 months old. Even though our group full of gay, but not a single fans know about this.
Somehow, I become friends with Krystal. yeah, I called her that, because she doesn't let me yet to call her Soojung. We get close since we often contacted each other about Taehyung's news.
Regarding her and Tae's dating rumour, she doesn't say anything to the media. But she tells me everything about her and Tae, about her one-sided love. She tells me that Tae rejected her because he still loves me.
She also mentioned Tae who's trying to cut himself several times. That story passed through me like a hurricane, got me so devastated.
Since his disappearance, everything seems alright. But for me, it's just the outside. I look okay, but actually without anything left inside. On the surface, I might be joking and smiling, but every breath jabbing my heart.
Every night, I wrote a million letters for him. A letter that ends up I only keep in the box.
Tae, my baby, my love, where are you? At least tell me, how are you?
There's so much I want to say, but you probably already know.
I might be selfish, but you should be here. I miss you. I miss you so much. Missing you like crazy.
I want so much to keep you close, to talk and laugh like we once did.
I'm sorry love. I would gladly exchange my life for your forgiveness.
If you give me another chance, I will choose you over anything, that is my vow.
If getting happy means forgetting you, then I choose to suffer my entire life.
I just can't live without you.
No one had ever replaced you, and no one ever would.
When we meet again sometime in the future, I'll never let you go again.
I want to cherish you forever
I Love You.
Jungkook's P.O.V
It's almost 2 years since that day. The day at the broadcasting station when we saw into each other eyes, for the last time. I could have asked him to stay, but I'm stupidly said nothing. My guilt eating me alive. It's not like it's the only one since I've always carried my regret on my back. I had done something awful.
It's still vivid in my memory, that day he became netizen's topic, again. He didn't show up on the stage, didn't perform his song. People started to talk bad about him again. They said 'right from the start they shouldn't give that fagot a fucking chance to perform in a music show. Hell, even he shouldn't release a song. All he does is just make a mess everywhere he goes'.
I understand him, with the thought that he might be so heartbroken, and of course, it's because of me. Again. That's what I thought.
However, two days after, our dorm had a guest for the first time. Usually, it's only PD-nim, manager, staff, stylist, and him. But that time, a beautiful girl came, violently looking for me. And what she did the moment she locks her eyes at mine, was grabbing my collar.
She furiously asked me about what are we, me and Tae, talking about two days before. She asked me whether I hurt him or not. She asked me how is his condition when he left, is he crying? is he heartbroken? the next second she fell on the floor with a trembled lips as she cried.
In her cry, she's calling Taehyung's name heartbreakingly. And what she said next shatter my heart into pieces, killing my already dead soul.
He left. He is nowhere to be found. That two days, Krystal was looking for him everywhere, but in vain. She even checked the CCTV of their apartment complex, but he didn't show up at all. She and Park Bogum tried to call him so many times, but they can't reach him.
We tried to thinking positively, that he might need some time alone, so he goes somewhere quiet. We tried to stay calm while still searching for him.
Two days turn into a week, two weeks. And on the third weeks, we've got a news about him. When Bogum tried to ask the college's staff about Taehyung's attendance, it turns out that he quit a week before.
Since that day, we've got no news from Tae. And more than a year have passed.
We conclude that he come back to his country since we can't find him anywhere. And now, after a year, more precisely 1 year and 7 months, everything back to normal.
We, BTS, just have our new album. In this time of period, we have three comebacks, and the newest is 'fake love'. We've been busy with album promotion, interview, and other schedules.
During these years, we become more famous, even in America, and in the world. Get so many awards both in Korea or international, a recognition, and of course, new fans. We're doing fine.
Within this time, Jin Hyung and Namjoon Hyung still in their relationship, even closer than they used to be. Yoongi Hyung and Jimin become a couple, a newly made couple, 5 months old. Even though our group full of gay, but not a single fans know about this.
Somehow, I become friends with Krystal. yeah, I called her that, because she doesn't let me yet to call her Soojung. We get close since we often contacted each other about Taehyung's news.
Regarding her and Tae's dating rumour, she doesn't say anything to the media. But she tells me everything about her and Tae, about her one-sided love. She tells me that Tae rejected her because he still loves me.
She also mentioned Tae who's trying to cut himself several times. That story passed through me like a hurricane, got me so devastated.
Since his disappearance, everything seems alright. But for me, it's just the outside. I look okay, but actually without anything left inside. On the surface, I might be joking and smiling, but every breath jabbing my heart.
Every night, I wrote a million letters for him. A letter that ends up I only keep in the box.
Tae, my baby, my love, where are you? At least tell me, how are you?
There's so much I want to say, but you probably already know.
I might be selfish, but you should be here. I miss you. I miss you so much. Missing you like crazy.
I want so much to keep you close, to talk and laugh like we once did.
I'm sorry love. I would gladly exchange my life for your forgiveness.
If you give me another chance, I will choose you over anything, that is my vow.
If getting happy means forgetting you, then I choose to suffer my entire life.
I just can't live without you.
No one had ever replaced you, and no one ever would.
When we meet again sometime in the future, I'll never let you go again.
I want to cherish you forever
I Love You.
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