I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 25: Chapter 25
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Seoul - September 2016
Jungkook's P.O.V
it's been three days since the spreading of my picture with Taehyung. And since that day, my head, my heart, can't stop throbbing. I just really want to engulf him with the tightest hug. But for now I can't do that, I'll just make everything worse.
For these three days, I had locked myself in the room. Tried to calm down, think clearly, and find the best solution, but I can't. It feels like I'm going crazy. I need Taehyung.
What should I do?
I can't just admit that we are dating, because it's not only threatening my career, but also the careers of other members. I don't care about my own, but what about them? For years they worked hard to get to this position, how could I destroy it.
I'm also working hard, being an idol is also my dream, but everything is not important right now. All I want is Taehyung, I want to protect him with my whole life. You can call me crazy, call me unreasonable, whatever. I only knew him 3 years ago, we just had this loving relationship for 2 years, but I love him so much. Love cannot be measured by how long you know each other.
He came into my life, lightening my pitch-dark world, like an oasis in a barren field. He taught me what love is. We are not always together, but we never stop loving each other.
Taehyung is my reason to stay strong through all of this, he keeps me inspired and excited even though I'm very tired. When I see him, thinking about him, it's as if my universe begins and ends with him. He's my one stable force, my one stability in a world filled with chaos and I so desperately need him in my life.
That's why I can't choose my career over him.
But how about other members? Should I just leave BTS? The members still can continue their career, and I still can be with Taehyung.
Suddenly what Jin Hyung said a few moments ago ringing in my head. I can say that Taehyung is just my friend. It's not a problem, right? Even though our friend is gay, that doesn't mean we're gay too, right?
Yeah, that's the best solution, I want to get up and tell Namjoon Hyung about my decision when someone knocks on my door. I open the door and find Hoseok hyung standing there
"Hyung I already made my decision," I said smiling to him
"Great, but first you need to take this call" he handed me his phone
"Who?"
"Your mom. These three days she tried to call you many times but your phone is turned off."
I take his phone, go back to my room and close the door.
Damn. I forgot about her.
"Hello," I said softly
"Jeon Jungkook, is that you?"
"Yeah. What's wrong?"
"You know what I want to ask"
yes, I know, but I hope I never know because I can't give the answer you want. Of course, she didn't want to simply ask 'how are you'
"Jungkook" she called me
"What do you want to ask, mom?"
"Son, tell me that everything on the news isn't true. It's all just gossip, right?
"Uhm ..."
"Jungkook. Don't tell me..."
"Mom." I cut her off. And she suddenly screaming hysterically over the phone
"No. You can't do it Jungkook. No. It's a lie. You're not going to embarrass your family, right? You're not going to disgrace your family's good name, right?"
"Mom... "
"Jungkook..." she's screaming at me.
"Don't you dare to do that, tell me you don't know him at all, tell me you don't have any relation with that person " she added
I can't say anything, so I just stay silent.
"If everything on the news turns out to be true, I will kill myself."
"I can't bear to lose another son" she's crying
Yeah, I'm not an only child. I had an older brother. But he passed away three years ago, two months before I met Taehyung. Taehyung came into my life when I'm on my lowest point and he raised me to the highest point in my life.
Suicide. My brother is killing himself.
We used to be a very close brother, very dependent on each other. We shared many similarities, one of them is we're both gay.
And unfortunately, my parents, especially my mom, are homophobic.
One day, when my brother has a date with his boyfriend, my mom dragging him home. She found out that he is gay.
She yelled at him, told him how he is a disgrace to the family, said that he is embarrassing, said that he is disgusting. She even said that her life was cursed for having a child like him. Not only that, my parents beat him up.
And this lasts for several days. They scolded him, shouted at him, beat him. Every day, his eyes were swollen over and bloody spit drooled from his jaws.
"I will never accept a gay son. We can't be mother and son" that was the last sentence my brother heard before he ended his life.
"Jungkook, do you hear me?" she takes me back from the flash of memories.
"You're not like him, right? You're a family pride, you're the only one we can be proud of. Please, Son, tell me that you're different from that person." she's still sobbing.
"I'm serious with my words. If you're indeed gay, I'm going to kill my self. What's the point of living when your two sons are disgracing your own family? For 9 months I carried you in my stomach, risking my life to give birth to you. Work hard for you. You can live easily because of your parents' sacrifice. You're not going to let your own mom died, right?"
I hang up the call. My mind is a mess right now.
"Junki hyung... What should I do?"
* * *
Seoul - May 2018
No One's P.O.V
The man fell asleep in his car with his head resting on the steering wheel. Overnight he cried without stopping until he finally got tired and fell unconscious. He was awakened by the ringtone of his phone which didn't stop ringing since 5 minutes ago. With his half-closed eyes, he picked up the phone
"Hello" his voice comes out hoarse
"Oh my God Jungkook. Finally, you picked up your phone. Where are you? We have a morning flight." The said male take a glance at his watch. 06.00 a.m
"Shit. I'm on my way" the man rubbed his eyes so he can see clearly. Before he left, he takes a good look at the house for the last time while murmuring "I will come back here"
But he failed to notice that across the street, inside of a black Ferrari, someone staring at him. A man with a lip piercing, a lot of piercing in his left ear, and a tattoo on his left neck.
The man smirking and take a look at the picture which he captured with his phone.
Jungkook's P.O.V
it's been three days since the spreading of my picture with Taehyung. And since that day, my head, my heart, can't stop throbbing. I just really want to engulf him with the tightest hug. But for now I can't do that, I'll just make everything worse.
For these three days, I had locked myself in the room. Tried to calm down, think clearly, and find the best solution, but I can't. It feels like I'm going crazy. I need Taehyung.
What should I do?
I can't just admit that we are dating, because it's not only threatening my career, but also the careers of other members. I don't care about my own, but what about them? For years they worked hard to get to this position, how could I destroy it.
I'm also working hard, being an idol is also my dream, but everything is not important right now. All I want is Taehyung, I want to protect him with my whole life. You can call me crazy, call me unreasonable, whatever. I only knew him 3 years ago, we just had this loving relationship for 2 years, but I love him so much. Love cannot be measured by how long you know each other.
He came into my life, lightening my pitch-dark world, like an oasis in a barren field. He taught me what love is. We are not always together, but we never stop loving each other.
Taehyung is my reason to stay strong through all of this, he keeps me inspired and excited even though I'm very tired. When I see him, thinking about him, it's as if my universe begins and ends with him. He's my one stable force, my one stability in a world filled with chaos and I so desperately need him in my life.
That's why I can't choose my career over him.
But how about other members? Should I just leave BTS? The members still can continue their career, and I still can be with Taehyung.
Suddenly what Jin Hyung said a few moments ago ringing in my head. I can say that Taehyung is just my friend. It's not a problem, right? Even though our friend is gay, that doesn't mean we're gay too, right?
Yeah, that's the best solution, I want to get up and tell Namjoon Hyung about my decision when someone knocks on my door. I open the door and find Hoseok hyung standing there
"Hyung I already made my decision," I said smiling to him
"Great, but first you need to take this call" he handed me his phone
"Who?"
"Your mom. These three days she tried to call you many times but your phone is turned off."
I take his phone, go back to my room and close the door.
Damn. I forgot about her.
"Hello," I said softly
"Jeon Jungkook, is that you?"
"Yeah. What's wrong?"
"You know what I want to ask"
yes, I know, but I hope I never know because I can't give the answer you want. Of course, she didn't want to simply ask 'how are you'
"Jungkook" she called me
"What do you want to ask, mom?"
"Son, tell me that everything on the news isn't true. It's all just gossip, right?
"Uhm ..."
"Jungkook. Don't tell me..."
"Mom." I cut her off. And she suddenly screaming hysterically over the phone
"No. You can't do it Jungkook. No. It's a lie. You're not going to embarrass your family, right? You're not going to disgrace your family's good name, right?"
"Mom... "
"Jungkook..." she's screaming at me.
"Don't you dare to do that, tell me you don't know him at all, tell me you don't have any relation with that person " she added
I can't say anything, so I just stay silent.
"If everything on the news turns out to be true, I will kill myself."
"I can't bear to lose another son" she's crying
Yeah, I'm not an only child. I had an older brother. But he passed away three years ago, two months before I met Taehyung. Taehyung came into my life when I'm on my lowest point and he raised me to the highest point in my life.
Suicide. My brother is killing himself.
We used to be a very close brother, very dependent on each other. We shared many similarities, one of them is we're both gay.
And unfortunately, my parents, especially my mom, are homophobic.
One day, when my brother has a date with his boyfriend, my mom dragging him home. She found out that he is gay.
She yelled at him, told him how he is a disgrace to the family, said that he is embarrassing, said that he is disgusting. She even said that her life was cursed for having a child like him. Not only that, my parents beat him up.
And this lasts for several days. They scolded him, shouted at him, beat him. Every day, his eyes were swollen over and bloody spit drooled from his jaws.
"I will never accept a gay son. We can't be mother and son" that was the last sentence my brother heard before he ended his life.
"Jungkook, do you hear me?" she takes me back from the flash of memories.
"You're not like him, right? You're a family pride, you're the only one we can be proud of. Please, Son, tell me that you're different from that person." she's still sobbing.
"I'm serious with my words. If you're indeed gay, I'm going to kill my self. What's the point of living when your two sons are disgracing your own family? For 9 months I carried you in my stomach, risking my life to give birth to you. Work hard for you. You can live easily because of your parents' sacrifice. You're not going to let your own mom died, right?"
I hang up the call. My mind is a mess right now.
"Junki hyung... What should I do?"
* * *
Seoul - May 2018
No One's P.O.V
The man fell asleep in his car with his head resting on the steering wheel. Overnight he cried without stopping until he finally got tired and fell unconscious. He was awakened by the ringtone of his phone which didn't stop ringing since 5 minutes ago. With his half-closed eyes, he picked up the phone
"Hello" his voice comes out hoarse
"Oh my God Jungkook. Finally, you picked up your phone. Where are you? We have a morning flight." The said male take a glance at his watch. 06.00 a.m
"Shit. I'm on my way" the man rubbed his eyes so he can see clearly. Before he left, he takes a good look at the house for the last time while murmuring "I will come back here"
But he failed to notice that across the street, inside of a black Ferrari, someone staring at him. A man with a lip piercing, a lot of piercing in his left ear, and a tattoo on his left neck.
The man smirking and take a look at the picture which he captured with his phone.
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