I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 27: Chapter 27
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Los Angeles - July 2018
Yoongi's P.O.V
"Hyung... Hyung... Hyung" someone nudges me
I open my eyes reluctantly. "What do you want?"
Instead of answering my question, Hoseok directing his gaze in the other direction, pointing his chin towards a man who sat alone in the corner. Jungkook.
Right at the moment, we and the staff are in the airport lounge waiting for a flight to Korea. Jin Hyung, Jimin, and Namjoon talked together while occasionally joking. But Jungkook, again and again, distanced himself.
"Hyung, try conversing with him. I can't bear to see him like that over and over. It's been almost two years and he still can't move on"
"Leave him alone. He's grown up enough."
"Come on, Hyung ..." Hoseok whined
"Oh, Lord. Jung Hoseok. Why don't you talk to him by yourself? Why do you have to disturb my sleep? Haish"
"I've tried Hyung. So many times. But it's useless, he doesn't listen to me"
"Then what makes you think that he will listen to me?"
"Uhm, maybe because you're scary?" I hit his back with the bottle beside me.
"Go away"
"Come on Hyung. I'm just kidding. You used to love Taehyung but look at you. You can move on and has a happy relationship with Jimin. Who knows, maybe you can help Jungkook to do the same thing"
Hoseok kept whining and even tried to act cute.
"Alright" with that I approached Jungkook
"Kook" he didn't look at me at all, just gave a small murmur.
"Can I sit here?" he kept quiet but shifted his position so I could sit next to him.
"Five years ago, two days before we debuted, I met Taehyung for the first time. A handsome, friendly and very kind man. There was something within him, which I didn't even know what, but he could make me open up to him immediately
it was our first meeting, but I told him my secret that not even one member knew about it. I used to suffer from depression which was quite severe. The mental pressure during the trainee period, insecurities, and family problems. My parents never supported me in being a trainee, they disregard my dream to become an idol. They didn't want to meet me at all. That's why I never going home at that time.
I want to give up everything so many times, I tried to kill my self almost every day, fortunately, I never put that into a realization. I refused to visit a psychologist. First, because I don't want to be labelled as a crazy person, well that time I thought that everyone who visits a psychologist is the crazy one. Secondly, because I don't have the money. Remember, when we were trainees, even a packet of ramen was expensive."I smiled wryly remembering those times. I then continued my story
"At that time I thought Taehyung would judge me and even laugh at me, but he actually calmed me down. Convinced me to see the psychologist. Always accompany me to visit them. And most unexpectedly, He went to Daegu to meet my parents.
He introduced himself as my friend. He said how much I was interested in music, how much I was talented in this field, how much I really wanted to be an Idol, how much I loved my dream. He also guarantees that I will succeed on this road, he tells my parents that their support is the most important for me. Now, my parents are the best support system for me.
Taehyung means a lot to me and you know that I love him. With everything happens to him, with his disappearance, I'm just as crazy as you, I'm hurt as much as you do. But look at me now, I'm having a happy relationship with Jimin. Do you think I already forget Taehyung? Do you think he doesn't mean anything to me anymore? Nope.
It's because I open my heart, I let other people enter my life. That's why I able to move on. And that's what you need to do.
Honestly, at this point, I don't even know what you feel about Taehyung. Is it love? sympathy? pity? or is it guilt? Because if it's love, you're too stupid and too coward for it.
If you really love him, then why did you let him go so easily? If you really love him, then why you did nothing in this past two years? It's not something impossible to find him.
Taehyung's family has a very big and famous company. You can find the company address in the blink of an eye. Goes there, looking for his family or information about his residence, in the end, you'll able to meet him. If only you fight for him."
Jungkook open his mouth for the first time, "Then why you didn't do that Hyung?"
"Because it's not my place to do so. It's yours. Be honest to me, do you really break up with him because of us? because you're afraid that BTS career will be destroyed? I think this might be the reason, but not the main one. Am I right?
Kook, I'm telling you this because I care for you. I really do.
Fight for him, get him back, give him your everything, if he is someone you can't live without. But if you think it's better to break up, that your decision is the right one,
then let him go for goodness sake. There is nothing in between." from the corner of my eye I saw the other members no longer chatting, but they looked at us. Even so, they couldn't hear what we were talking about. I get up, caressing Jungkook's shoulder gently.
"Hyung" His call made me halt my steps.
"My parents are homophobic. The worst homophobic I ever met." then he tells everything about his parents and his brother. He recounts his stories in tears. I knelt in front of him, hugged him, let him lean his head on the crook of my neck.
"I'm sorry to hear that." I caressed his back lovingly.
we drown in silence for a few minutes.
"So, you let him go because of this?" He just nodded.
"Do you love him?" he nodded again
"But what's the point in loving him when you're going to end up marrying a random woman and spent the rest of your life with her?" he looked up in confusion
"Why? Do you think your parent not going to force you to marry a woman?"
"I know that you love your parents, I get it. But it's wrong. You're gay, then tell them proudly about it. If they deny it, show them how happy you are living this way. Show them that you can still make them proud.
You love Taehyung, then tell them sincerely about it. if they oppose it, don't let Taehyung go but hold his hands, and fight together through this storm. Show your parents how much you love each other. Show them how handsome and kind the person you love is."
* * *
........... - July 2018
No One's P.O.V
"Hey"
"Hmm"
"What if he comes back and asks for a second chance?"
The other man just laughing
"Don't be ridiculous Hyung"
"Well, it's possible."
The other man's expression turns dark
"There is someone who deserves a second chance, but there is some person who deserves to be buried in the side of the deepest heart."
"So, you're no longer have any feeling left for that person?"
"I left not because I stopped loving him. I left because the longer I stayed the more I don't love myself. I've tried to give my best as I can for that person, being a patient person as much as I can, thinking positively about everything that is really uneasy for me. But now I have found my tiredness, that's why I left everything behind. Right now I learned to love the sound of my footsteps walking away from things that were not meant for me"
"If you meet him again, would you forgive him?"
"Of course. But you need to understand something Hyung. You can forgive a person and not allow them back into your life. That's what I'm going to do."
Yoongi's P.O.V
"Hyung... Hyung... Hyung" someone nudges me
I open my eyes reluctantly. "What do you want?"
Instead of answering my question, Hoseok directing his gaze in the other direction, pointing his chin towards a man who sat alone in the corner. Jungkook.
Right at the moment, we and the staff are in the airport lounge waiting for a flight to Korea. Jin Hyung, Jimin, and Namjoon talked together while occasionally joking. But Jungkook, again and again, distanced himself.
"Hyung, try conversing with him. I can't bear to see him like that over and over. It's been almost two years and he still can't move on"
"Leave him alone. He's grown up enough."
"Come on, Hyung ..." Hoseok whined
"Oh, Lord. Jung Hoseok. Why don't you talk to him by yourself? Why do you have to disturb my sleep? Haish"
"I've tried Hyung. So many times. But it's useless, he doesn't listen to me"
"Then what makes you think that he will listen to me?"
"Uhm, maybe because you're scary?" I hit his back with the bottle beside me.
"Go away"
"Come on Hyung. I'm just kidding. You used to love Taehyung but look at you. You can move on and has a happy relationship with Jimin. Who knows, maybe you can help Jungkook to do the same thing"
Hoseok kept whining and even tried to act cute.
"Alright" with that I approached Jungkook
"Kook" he didn't look at me at all, just gave a small murmur.
"Can I sit here?" he kept quiet but shifted his position so I could sit next to him.
"Five years ago, two days before we debuted, I met Taehyung for the first time. A handsome, friendly and very kind man. There was something within him, which I didn't even know what, but he could make me open up to him immediately
it was our first meeting, but I told him my secret that not even one member knew about it. I used to suffer from depression which was quite severe. The mental pressure during the trainee period, insecurities, and family problems. My parents never supported me in being a trainee, they disregard my dream to become an idol. They didn't want to meet me at all. That's why I never going home at that time.
I want to give up everything so many times, I tried to kill my self almost every day, fortunately, I never put that into a realization. I refused to visit a psychologist. First, because I don't want to be labelled as a crazy person, well that time I thought that everyone who visits a psychologist is the crazy one. Secondly, because I don't have the money. Remember, when we were trainees, even a packet of ramen was expensive."I smiled wryly remembering those times. I then continued my story
"At that time I thought Taehyung would judge me and even laugh at me, but he actually calmed me down. Convinced me to see the psychologist. Always accompany me to visit them. And most unexpectedly, He went to Daegu to meet my parents.
He introduced himself as my friend. He said how much I was interested in music, how much I was talented in this field, how much I really wanted to be an Idol, how much I loved my dream. He also guarantees that I will succeed on this road, he tells my parents that their support is the most important for me. Now, my parents are the best support system for me.
Taehyung means a lot to me and you know that I love him. With everything happens to him, with his disappearance, I'm just as crazy as you, I'm hurt as much as you do. But look at me now, I'm having a happy relationship with Jimin. Do you think I already forget Taehyung? Do you think he doesn't mean anything to me anymore? Nope.
It's because I open my heart, I let other people enter my life. That's why I able to move on. And that's what you need to do.
Honestly, at this point, I don't even know what you feel about Taehyung. Is it love? sympathy? pity? or is it guilt? Because if it's love, you're too stupid and too coward for it.
If you really love him, then why did you let him go so easily? If you really love him, then why you did nothing in this past two years? It's not something impossible to find him.
Taehyung's family has a very big and famous company. You can find the company address in the blink of an eye. Goes there, looking for his family or information about his residence, in the end, you'll able to meet him. If only you fight for him."
Jungkook open his mouth for the first time, "Then why you didn't do that Hyung?"
"Because it's not my place to do so. It's yours. Be honest to me, do you really break up with him because of us? because you're afraid that BTS career will be destroyed? I think this might be the reason, but not the main one. Am I right?
Kook, I'm telling you this because I care for you. I really do.
Fight for him, get him back, give him your everything, if he is someone you can't live without. But if you think it's better to break up, that your decision is the right one,
then let him go for goodness sake. There is nothing in between." from the corner of my eye I saw the other members no longer chatting, but they looked at us. Even so, they couldn't hear what we were talking about. I get up, caressing Jungkook's shoulder gently.
"Hyung" His call made me halt my steps.
"My parents are homophobic. The worst homophobic I ever met." then he tells everything about his parents and his brother. He recounts his stories in tears. I knelt in front of him, hugged him, let him lean his head on the crook of my neck.
"I'm sorry to hear that." I caressed his back lovingly.
we drown in silence for a few minutes.
"So, you let him go because of this?" He just nodded.
"Do you love him?" he nodded again
"But what's the point in loving him when you're going to end up marrying a random woman and spent the rest of your life with her?" he looked up in confusion
"Why? Do you think your parent not going to force you to marry a woman?"
"I know that you love your parents, I get it. But it's wrong. You're gay, then tell them proudly about it. If they deny it, show them how happy you are living this way. Show them that you can still make them proud.
You love Taehyung, then tell them sincerely about it. if they oppose it, don't let Taehyung go but hold his hands, and fight together through this storm. Show your parents how much you love each other. Show them how handsome and kind the person you love is."
* * *
........... - July 2018
No One's P.O.V
"Hey"
"Hmm"
"What if he comes back and asks for a second chance?"
The other man just laughing
"Don't be ridiculous Hyung"
"Well, it's possible."
The other man's expression turns dark
"There is someone who deserves a second chance, but there is some person who deserves to be buried in the side of the deepest heart."
"So, you're no longer have any feeling left for that person?"
"I left not because I stopped loving him. I left because the longer I stayed the more I don't love myself. I've tried to give my best as I can for that person, being a patient person as much as I can, thinking positively about everything that is really uneasy for me. But now I have found my tiredness, that's why I left everything behind. Right now I learned to love the sound of my footsteps walking away from things that were not meant for me"
"If you meet him again, would you forgive him?"
"Of course. But you need to understand something Hyung. You can forgive a person and not allow them back into your life. That's what I'm going to do."
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