I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 31: Chapter 31

Busan - July 2018
Jungkook's P.O.V
I take a deep breath. Everything's gonna be okay Kook. Just relax. You are what you are, don't let other people control, judge, and label you.
Knock... Knock... Knock...
A 50-year-old woman opened the door and immediately hugged me. I looked at her. Some of her hair started to turn white, her face is decorated with wrinkles around her eyes.
If only you accepted me as I am, mom.
"Jungkook my son. Come in."
"Hey, Dad." My greeting when I saw a middle-aged man sitting in front of the television.
"Oh my God, Jungkook. What's with the surprise visit." He pulls me into his embrace
"I know right. You should tell me so I can cook your favourite food." My mom kisses me on the cheek.
"Well, I didn't plan to visit either." I settled my self on the couch.
"Is it because you miss us?"
"Not really." I shrugged my shoulder
"Then for what reason you came all the way here? Don't you have a schedule?" My dad furrowed his eyebrows in confusion
"I have something to tell you."
"What's that?" he looks at me with a narrowed eyes
"Let's have the talk after the dinner. You must be tired. Go to your room and have a little bit rest. I'll prepare the dinner." My mom ruffled my hair
Dinner time is very slow. During it, my parents asked some questions like "what are you busy doing?", "Are you preparing a new album?", They just asked about work. Can't they ask about the state and health of their son? Put aside asking about how do I feel. They never care.
I put my fork and spoon down.
"So, Dad. Mom. I need to say something."
"We're all ears." My dad said
"I love someone."
"Really? Glad to hear that. You should bring her home. We'll be very happy to meet her." My mom said excitedly
"It's not her. It's him." I looked at them straight in the eye
"What?"
"I'm gay"
Dad throws a glass of water right into my face.
"Get help NOW..." My mom scream. "You're sick"
"No. I'm happy and healthy with it. Can you just accept who I am?"
"Accept? Gay?" My mom's face turned red from anger.
Suddenly dad comes to me, yanks my hair harshly, ready to slap me. But I halted his hand.
"Do you think I'm going to let you do the same to me, just like what you did to Junki Hyung?"
"Tell me you're kidding, Kook."
"No. I'm deadly serious about this, Mom."
"Mom, Dad. I love you. I sincerely do. Can you love me too? Love me the way I am."
"We'll do if you're not a disgrace to the family." Her words are full of hate and rage
"So I'm a disgrace to this family?" I snort at her
"Yes. You put shit on our face. You ... " my mom can't continue her words because the rage she feels.
"I only have two children. and both of them are disgusting." Daddy threw the plate, the glass and all the objects on the table.
"Exactly. you just have two sons, can't you just treat them lovingly?"
Suddenly, Dad threw a candle holder made of metal towards me. Right at my head.
Damn. My head throbbed. It's so painful.
"Didn't I already said that I will kill my self if you're gay?" My mom threatening me
"Yes, you did. But please don't do that. Because it's useless. Whatever you do will not change anything. I'm gay, I love a man, whatever you do, I will never marry a woman."
"No, it's not. You can change. you're not gay. You just misunderstand your own feeling."
"No, I'm not. I understand very well about what I feel."
"No. You should change. You're not gay."
"CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT MY SEXUAL ORIENTATION?" I yelled at her in frustration
"It's the best for you, Kook."
"The best for me? How?" I laughed like a maniac
"You will never have children of your own."
"So what? That's not a problem for me."
"What? Are you stupid? You will end the family line."
"Family is not only about blood. Never heard of adoption?"
"You must have biological children. Your descendants."
"For what? So I can control their life? So I can decide on everything they do? So I can hit them, beat them, abuse them if they don't obey me?"
I'm too occupied with my mom, therefore I didn't realize that Dad is standing behind me. He kicked my calf so I fell down.
He kicked me repeatedly. Kicking my back, legs, hands and even my stomach and face. And my mother just stood there staring at me.
Suddenly Junki Hyung appeared in my mind.
Out of nowhere, I got the strength to rise. I punch my dad hard to the extent I hurt my own fist. Blood flows from his nose.
"Dad, Mom. Can't you just love me? Don't you regret what happened to Junki Hyung? Do you want the same thing to happen again?" I stood weak, crying. Tears continue to flow from my eyes, either because of the pain, sadness, or frustration. I don't even know
"We are your children. Your own blood. We are just like other people. We are no different." I'm wailing.
"Get out of my house. Never come back again, never show your face in front of us. You are no longer my son. I have never had a child who is embarrassing and disgusting. You're just like your brother, a disgrace to the family."
It hurts me. Break my heart into pieces, even though I already expect this response from them.
"I'll do that. No problem. After all, I have my own house in Seoul and I never need your financial support." I rushed to my room to take my bag and my hoodie.
"I love you mom, dad, with all my heart. I'll always do. So is Junki Hyung. But this is not the way you treat your child. Thank you for showing me a bad example of parents. And don't worry, I'll never kill my self. I have someone that I want to spend my life with"
The moment I closed the house's door, shouts and the sound of the objects being thrown were heard from inside.
My face and body must be full of bruises. Damn. What should I do with tomorrow's schedule?
* * *
Seoul - July 2018
No One's P.O.V
It's 1 in the morning, but it doesn't stop the banging sound on Taehyung's door. And the said male, who still in front of his laptop doing some works, growl irritably.
"No matter who stands at the door, I will kill that person," He said
But as soon as he opened the door, someone in a black hoodie staggered over him.
"Oh my God, Jeon Jungkook. What happened to you?" Seeing the man in front of him unconscious, Taehyung immediately carried him inside. Put him to lay on his bed.
As soon as he takes off Jungkook's hoodie, his eyes widened. The man who was once his lover has a bruised body, there are several bruises on his face too.
Taehyung picks a clean T-Shirt from his closet and puts it on Jungkook.
"What happened to you?" Taehyung caresses Jungkook's face carefully, afraid to hurt him. He takes a first aid kit from his drawer to treat Jungkook's bruises.
After he finishes taking care of the raven-haired man's wound, he pulls his phone and dialled a number. Hope someone on the other side is still awake.
"Hello"
Taehyung is relieved that his call is answered
"Hello. It's me. Kim Taehyung." the other line is dead silence. He is too shocked and can't believe that Taehyung called him.
"Earth to Min Yoongi"
"Ah yes. Sorry. So, why do you called me?"
"Can you pick up Jungkook from my house? He suddenly comes and is currently unconscious. I don't know what happened, but his body is full of bruises."
"What?" Yoongi panicked and worried. He wants to go straight to Taehyung's house and see Jungkook's condition. But isn't this a chance for Jungkook to settle the things between him and Taehyung? Maybe this is an opportunity to fix their relationship.
As much as Yoongi worried about the magnae condition, he thinks that it's the best, for now, to leave them alone. He hopes something good will happen between them.
Well, Jungkook's condition won't be that bad right? After all, he can safely come from Busan to Seoul. Yoongi thought.
"I'm sorry Tae. But I can't right now. I might be able to pick him up in the morning. Uhm, about 8 a.m."
"How about the other members or the managers?"
"I'm afraid they can't do that too."
"Oh. Okay" Taehyung ends his call
Meanwhile, in the dorm, Yoongi smiling.
"Sorry Tae I'm lying to you. Kook, It's your chance. Use it well."
Back to Taehyung. He just stares at Jungkook. He can't decipher his own feeling.
"I struggle so hard to forget you, but it's so easy for you to coming back to my life. Why do you keep appearing before me?" Taehyung brushes Jungkook's hair that covers his eyes
"You've come back again and it only hurts me more. It's easy for you, but not for me. Have you never realized, I'm the one who was hurt? If only your love is like mine. If only your pain is like mine. If you were me, You'll never wish to meet me again in your life.
Where are you when I get hurt, cry, and scream for your name? You're not there. So why do you have to appear again?
Do you know? you have ruined my soul. Everything is enough. It's too late for you to realize, it's too late for you to understand, it's too late for you to return. Don't force this love to blossom. I am tired. My wounds have let you go, so you don't need to go back again.
The one you're yearning, the one you're looking for, is Kim Taehyung. And he is long dead."
Taehyung left without realizing that the man on his bed already gained his consciousness. Jungkook's eyes drip with tears, He heard everything.