I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 44: Chapter 44

Seoul - August 2018
No One's P.O.V
Jungkook lay down on the bed, while Taehyung lay down his head on Jungkook's bare chest. Listen to every heartbeat of the man he loves.
Jungkook moves his finger, tracing the tattoo on Taehyung's neck. Occasionally, he lowered his head to kiss every piercing in Taehyung's ear.
Jungkook then kissed Taehyung's lips. Sucking and nibbling on the piercing on Taehyung's lips.
"You know, Kook. You can tell me anything."
Jungkook looks at Taehyung's brown orb fondly. Then he whispered the word 'sorry' over and over in Taehyung's ear, while his fingers stroke the red hair.
He then pushed Taehyung slowly, away from his body, then sat on the edge of the bed, turning his back to the man he loved
"Stop it, Kook" Taehyung snorted in annoyance
"I can't, Tae. I really feel guilty and sorry."
"What for? What makes you feel guilty?" Taehyung rubbed his man's back.
"If only at that time ..." Taehyung cut off his words.
"Quit it. 'If at that time I didn't take you home'. Do you want to say that? How about, 'if we never met', 'if I hadn't come to Korea', 'if I never been born in this world'. Stop with all this bullshit. Even if you say for millions of times that you regret it, nothing will change at all. So throw away all your regrets. Or I will really leave you."
Jungkook hides his face in both hands.
"You don't understand, Tae" Jungkook ruffling his hair in frustration
"You know, if only I wasn't that stupid, then nothing would happen. If I could think of a smart solution like you did, you don't have to go through all those difficult times. I should have said that you were a songwriter who will compose songs for BTS's new album. I ... " Taehyung hit Jungkook with a pillow right on his face
"You say I don't understand? Then, do you think you understand what I feel? No Jungkook, No. You don't understand anything at all. It's true that everything is so difficult for me to the point that I feel numb. After all the wounds I feel, after all the suffering that I experienced, I finally decided to go back to life. I tried to get up and walk forward, slowly leaving all the bad things behind. Try to survive with all my remaining strength. Try to hold on to hope for the future. But look at what you do, you hold on to the past instead. Try to imagine how I feel every time you look at me with a regretful look?"
Taehyung then hugs Jungkook from behind.
"You are stupid. I admit it. However, you are the man I love. Stop feeling guilty and sorry, because that will only make me feel worse. Love me. That's what I need. The reason I'm back to you is that I love you and I need your love. So, don't do and think of other stupid things. All I want is the future with you, so we don't need to look back. Instead of wasting energy to regret the past, we better think about how to keep this relationship, this love."
Jungkook turned around. Pull Taehyung into his arms. Kissing the top of his head while crying.
"You are truly an angel. What did I do in my previous life so I could be loved by someone like you? I love you, Kim Taehyung. Forgive this fool. I promise I will love you and stay beside you forever."
"I love you too, Kook. I can't promise 'forever' since nothings forever in this world. But I can promise that I will love you till the day I die. As long as I live, you will be the only one. Until my last breath"
They stay in the intoxicating but calming silence. Peaceful in each other's embraces. All that can be heard in the room is their breath.
"Jeon Jungkook ... Kim Taehyung ..." There was a loud call that broke the silence. Who else if not the only Kim Seokjin.
Taehyung and Jungkook then burst into laughter.
"Take a bath and get ready. We'll leave soon." Taehyung let go of Jungkook, then pushed him into the bathroom
"Are we going somewhere?"
"Yup. We're leaving for Germany."
"To Germany? Now?"
"Yes. Now. So hurry up and get ready. I'll wait downstairs. If you haven't finished in 30 minutes, I'll leave you."
Taehyung walked towards the family room, there is Yoongi who's ready with his suitcase.
"Hyung"
"Ah, Tae. Come here." Yoongi pats the empty place next to him
"Hyuuung ..." Taehyung whined at his older brother
"Why? Is there a problem with Jungkook?"
The younger man just sighed slowly, then leaned his body against Yoongi. Resting his head on the shoulders of the pale-skinned man.
"Hyung ..."
"Hmm." Yoongi rubbed the back of Taehyung's hand, holding it.
"Do you think this is right? I got back together with Jungkook."
"Why?"
"I feel like betraying my sister. But, on the other hand, if I let Jungkook go, I feel like there is nothing left in me. What should I do?"
"To be honest, I don't know. I support your relationship with Jungkook. Really. I'm happy if both of you are happy together. However, at some point, I'm sorry but I feel that you are too good for him." Yoongi tried to smile. More precisely, forced a smile.
"Yeah. Maybe I was too good for him." Taehyung giggles a little.
"Do what your heart says"
"My heart? I don't even know what my heart really wants. It's just me and my sister. We have to depend on one another, we must protect each other. But now I feel so cruel to her."
Taehyung starts crying.
"I really really love my sister. She's everything for me. But I'm really ungrateful to her. She is willing to do everything for me. But I let her down."
"Then leave Jungkook."
"But I also can't do that. I know, I'm selfish. I know. I really love him, Hyung. I even willing to push back all the pain for him. When I part with him, it feels really bad. My longing for him tortures me more than my loneliness. Even in my dreams, I call out his name. I don't know, Hyung. I don't know. What should I do?"
Yoongi pulls Taehyung into his embrace. Drawing circle on his back.
"You poor little kid. Now calm down. I'm sure, there will be a solution. Who knows, slowly your sister will accept Jungkook." Yoongi kissed Taehyung's forehead.
"What are you doing, Min Yoongi?"
There, at the end of the stairs, stood Jeon Jungkook and Park Jimin.