I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 5: Chapter 5

Seoul - September 2016
Taehyung's P.O.V
Today is a good day. very very beautiful day. Why? Because today is my boyfriend birthday. He turns 21 this year. Last night he called me. he 'fight' with Yoongi Hyung, and honestly, it makes me worried. I can't sleep at all. And now, I should deal with this bags under my eyes. Tonight, we'll have dinner to celebrate Jungkook's birthday, and I can't show up in this state. I tried varied methods to remove this dark circle. Start from using chilled spoons on top of my eyes, slices of cucumbers, and even chilled, dampened tea bags with a drop of lavender essential oil added. I want to look handsome on my boyfriend's important day.
I glance over a beautiful little red box tied with a satin ribbon on my nightstand. The gift that I prepared just for Jungkook. White gold hoop earrings with our name engraved on the inside. It customized at my Sister's jewellery shop, so it's still a secret that no one knows. This way I'm not afraid that somebody will leak this information to Netizen. the images of my boyfriend wearing these earrings make me smile all over my face
Then my view is fixed on an A3 paper on the wall.
1. Careful with your words
2. Be patient
3. Don't be a whiny kid
4. Don't demand too much from him
5. Believe in him
6. Never stop loving him
That's what written in the paper. I wrote it myself as a self-reminder about this relationship with Jungkook. Honestly, I really want to have a proper date like other normal couples. Watching the movie, goes to the restaurant, walking in the park, holding hands in the beach, just another classic date. I really want to proudly announce that he is my boyfriend. I want to brag to everyone that I have the best boyfriend. But yeah. I should remember who is he and who I am. This is just some reason why I stuck that self-reminder on my bedroom wall. So I can read it over and over when I'm feeling angry or weary about this fact.
Still, there is no falling in love without angry and weary. It's just some people who angry choose to hate, some of them choose to forgive. Some people who weary choose to leave, some of them choose to stay.
And in this secret relationship that I have, I choose to hold on and never leave him. Until he is the one that leaves me.
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Jungkook's P.O.V
To said the dorm is full of hustle and bustle is an understatement. The preparation for tonight's dinner party is just like a year-end discount on the supermarket, very rowdy. It's just dinner for 7 people, but anyone would believe if I said this party is for a whole fandom.
Jin Hyung busy in the kitchen with Jimin as his Sous Chef. They prepare so many foods. Japchae, mandu, kimchi pancakes, seafood pancakes, eomuk, fried chicken, bulgogi, bibimbap, kimbap, seaweed soup, tteokboki, grilled pork belly, beef short ribs, eggroll, and another menu that I don't really pay attention to. Actually, it's amazed me how they can prepare this lot of foods.
Hoseok Hyung and Yoongi Hyung busy in the living room. Decorating the room with many kinds of a balloon, streamers, confetti, and even a handmade banner with my photo. Gosh. Do they think that this is a birthday party for 5 years old kid? No matter how much I protested, they ignored me.
Our leader, He prepares the lighting and the music. At first, he wants to help in cooking, but Jin Hyung drives him away. Then he wants to help in decorating, but Jin scolds him. He said, "just don't do anything or you'll break them". The others just laughing at his remarks.
And me? They ask me to wait in the room while preparing myself. My to-do list including takes a bath, choose the best outfit, and even put some makeup on. In conclusion, I should try to pretty myself up for this dinner.
It's 8 p.m. the six of us already sitting in the living room waiting for Taehyung to arrive. Sejin hyung offering to pick him up, just like usual. But oddly, this time he rejects the offer. he said that he wants to take a taxi, so Sejin hyung just tell him the secret passage to our dorm. Shortly after, he arrives. And even it's been 2 years since he became my boyfriend, but God, he is so handsome. for this past 730 days, I never tired of admiring how handsome he is. handsome, beautiful, pretty, gorgeous, cute, in the right amount. He is as pretty as a picture in his black pants and a black t-shirt combined with denim jacket. With his newly blonde hair, he looks like a million dollars.
I hug him then kissing his cheeks and lips, earning a coo from the member. And that's how our dinner party start.
time flies when you're having fun, we've not realized it's already 2 a.m now. As much as we want to have fun till morning, Tae needs to go home cause he has a morning flight. And that's realization what makes me fall silent. He is going back to his country for his summer breaks, a month long. Yeah, He is Korean but he was born and raised in German. And all of his family live there.
"Wussup? why the birthday boy have this sad look in his eyes?" Hoseok hyung teasing me
"my boyfriend gonna leave me for a month," I said pouting. My hands wrapped in my boyfriend slim waist, and I rest my chin in his shoulder.
"We already used to not meet each other for a month-long" Tae strokes my back. his voice is so calm, and somehow it makes me guilty. I'm the best at keeping my image for the public, but I'm not that good at keeping my boyfriend feeling. Ironic.
"Hyung, can you leave the two of us?"
"Sure," Jin hyung said understandingly. with that, the other members leave us.
I hug him tightly. if it's possible, I really don't want to let go.
"I'm sorry" I don't know why, but my voice comes out hoarse.
"for?"
"just" we're standing, still hugging
"my love, you don't need to feel sorry. The moment when I meet you, when I amazed by you, when we get close, when we finally become a boyfriend, and all of the moments that we spend together are the best time in my life. I consciously know, that we never have a date outside this dorm and Sejin hyung's house. But that never changes the fact that I'm happy with you. All this time we really have a whale of the time"
we look at each other eyes with my hand still in his waist and his hand curled around my neck.
"don't you sad that we never have a proper date?"
"proper date? like what other people do? of course. you know, I always dreamed of goes to a cinema with you, posting our selfie on my Instagram, telling my friend that I have an awesome boyfriend. Yet as much as I want to do that, I love you more. that's why all of this doesn't really matter to me. You never know how happy I'm just listening to your voice over the phone, even a single text from you makes me feels so ecstatic. Do you remember how happy we were when we first stayed out for a night at Sejin hyung's house? We were over the moon." He is smiling sweetly.
"I know who you are, and being your boyfriend I should accept all the consequences. I never want to make you choose between me and your dream. We've survived a lot. And we will survive whatever is coming, right?" he continued
God, I don't deserve him. He is literally an angel. He is very accepting and supportive of me. As an idol, sometimes I got some groundless rumor with a female idol or actress, yet he is very understanding. he is got jealous but never lost his trust in me. I often left him for the world tour, my packed schedule sometimes doesn't allow me to meet him for some months. and it's not only once or twice when I vent my tiredness and bad mood to him. But he still loves me so much.
Minutes pass, and we just hugging in silence. Not an awkward silence, but the comforting one. we let our feeling to go through each other soul.
"kook, I need to go home. remember, I have a morning flight." he squirm in my hug, trying to free himself.
"I'll drive you home" I intertwined my hand with his.
"Are you sure? you're not drunk right?" shocked painted all over his face. And I'm just giggling, amused by his expression.
"yes. hundred percent sure, baby. my birthday treat."
"but... "
"I know, I can't let people know. but it's already 3 a.m. who the hell is still hanging around at this time. there will be no one. and I'll just drive you, not even get out of the car. Let's go"
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Taehyung's P.O.V
he kissed the back of my hand. and open the passenger door for me. is it real? isn't dream right? it feels like I'm in seventh heaven. euphoric. the one word that might describe my feeling right now. During the travel, we spent the time with chatting, talking about so many randoms thing.
"Arrive." he smiles beamingly. when I'm going to get out, he grabs my wrist and suddenly kisses me. deep, a passionate kiss full of love. I can feel his love flowing through every movement of his lips. and it ends when the two of us out of breath.
Finally, I get out of his car. Before I went into my house, I looked back at him. smile, giving my last look.
No One's P.O.V
Moon still shining bright, became a witness of two people who truly deeply madly fall in love with each other. And another one person who secretly takes their picture from afar.