I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 54: Chapter 54
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A man sits on a sofa in the corner of the room. His hand looked for warmth on a mug of hot chocolate. Head resting against the wall. Eyes staring somewhere. A sad eye trying to show happiness with all the sadness that was hidden well.
"Are you okay?" Another man in the room asked him
The sitting man shook his head weakly "I'm not fine."
"Didn't I already told you that don't force on something that should have ended"
"Is that so?"
"If I let him go, will I free us both?" He added
"You did succeed to get away from separation, but surely there'll be a time when you will fail."
"I know."
"just rest."
"Later. I'll take a lot of rest later."
* * *
Seoul - September 2018
No One's P.O.V
"Dinner is ready ..." Jin shouts from the kitchen. His voice echoed throughout the house. And of course, everyone must immediately go to the dining room or Jin will drag them forcefully.
"Where is Yoongi?" Jin asked when he saw one member missing.
"I don't know" Jimin, who becomes the centre of attention, only shrugs his shoulders, he doesn't know either where his lover is.
"This afternoon he went to the studio with Hoseok Hyung," he added
"I also don't know where he is. He told me to go home first, he said he needs to meet someone first. Maybe he met his friend. Or his other lover ?"
"Hyung... " Jimin throws his chopsticks at Hoseok. Oh, how terrible is it for Jimin to imagine Yoongi have another lover. it's impossible, right?
"Stop it, Hoseok. You always teasing Jimin," said Namjoon who now sits between the two.
"Then let's just eat first, no need to wait for Yoongi to come."
Jin immediately serves his food. For them, there is nothing better than Jin's cooking.
"Kook, have you finished the hot chocolate I made earlier?"
"Yup, I'll wash the mug later. Thanks, Jin Hyung"
When they are about to eat the food, Jin suddenly shouts
"Stop. Taehyung isn't here yet. Gosh, I forgot. I cooked this dish specially for Taebaby's request. Put your spoon and chopsticks. Now."
"Jungkook, when will Taehyung come?" Jin asked
"I don't know, Hyung. He didn't pick up my phone, nor did he reply to my message. Maybe he is busy with work."
Jin is sad. He really hoped Taehyung could eat this meal.
Flashback
BTS members are busy with their individual schedules, except for Jin. The handsome man had finished his schedule this morning, so now he was relaxing in the dorm with a man who was no less handsome. Kim Taehyung.
The BTS's magnae's boyfriend arrived in the dorm about an hour ago. He wants to give souvenirs from Thailand, a country he visited for business since two days ago.
Because his boyfriend isn't there, Taehyung spends time with his Hyung.
"Hyung, can you cook Japchae?" Taehyung asked suddenly
"Of course, I can. Your hyung is really good at cooking" Taehyung chuckled to see his brother bragging.
"Why, Tae?"
"Can you cook it for me?"
"Uh, is my baby craving japchae?"
"Yes. I suddenly wanted to eat that. In the past, my mother often cooked Japchae at home, because it was my father's favourite dish."
Jin looked sadly at Taehyung.
He wrapped an arm around his shoulders and pulled him close, gently rubbing his arm.
"You are a strong man"
No, Taehyung didn't cry. He remained silent in Jin's arms. His body was limp, his gaze was blank.
Yes, this is the real Taehyung, Taehyung whom he hid from other people. A body that lives with a dead soul.
Flashback end
"So, Taehyung won't come?" Jin's voice trembled with tears
"Hey, honey. Why are you crying?" Namjoon wiped away the tears that ran down his lover's cheeks
"I'm just sad Taehyung can't come," said Jin, smiling
"Let's eat," Hoseok and Jimin said happily, tried to lift the mood
Although reluctant, Jin tries to finish his food. As well as Namjoon, Jimin, and Hoseok who enthusiastically ate the delicious food.
However, Jungkook just stirring his food.
How can he eat when he doesn't know how his love is?
How can he eat when he knows that his lover is injured?
How can he eat when he knows that what hurt his lover is his own parents?
"Hyung, I'm sorry. But it seems like I have to go for a while." Jungkook left his seat
"Where are you going?" Namjoon asked
"I want to meet Taehyung. I can't calm myself if I haven't met him."
"Okay, but you shouldn't stay overnight because tomorrow morning we have to go to London."
"Ok, Hyung"
With lightning speed, Jungkook took the jacket and car keys in his room then left the dorm.
* * *
I'm scared,
What if someday, the hand you hold is another hand who is not mine?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you go away from me and I have no reason left to be happy?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you want to open your heart for someone else who is not me?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you want to go from my side and left me all alone?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you wake up and no longer find anything about me?
I'm scared,
What if someday, even your tears can't bring me back?
"Are you okay?" Another man in the room asked him
The sitting man shook his head weakly "I'm not fine."
"Didn't I already told you that don't force on something that should have ended"
"Is that so?"
"If I let him go, will I free us both?" He added
"You did succeed to get away from separation, but surely there'll be a time when you will fail."
"I know."
"just rest."
"Later. I'll take a lot of rest later."
* * *
Seoul - September 2018
No One's P.O.V
"Dinner is ready ..." Jin shouts from the kitchen. His voice echoed throughout the house. And of course, everyone must immediately go to the dining room or Jin will drag them forcefully.
"Where is Yoongi?" Jin asked when he saw one member missing.
"I don't know" Jimin, who becomes the centre of attention, only shrugs his shoulders, he doesn't know either where his lover is.
"This afternoon he went to the studio with Hoseok Hyung," he added
"I also don't know where he is. He told me to go home first, he said he needs to meet someone first. Maybe he met his friend. Or his other lover ?"
"Hyung... " Jimin throws his chopsticks at Hoseok. Oh, how terrible is it for Jimin to imagine Yoongi have another lover. it's impossible, right?
"Stop it, Hoseok. You always teasing Jimin," said Namjoon who now sits between the two.
"Then let's just eat first, no need to wait for Yoongi to come."
Jin immediately serves his food. For them, there is nothing better than Jin's cooking.
"Kook, have you finished the hot chocolate I made earlier?"
"Yup, I'll wash the mug later. Thanks, Jin Hyung"
When they are about to eat the food, Jin suddenly shouts
"Stop. Taehyung isn't here yet. Gosh, I forgot. I cooked this dish specially for Taebaby's request. Put your spoon and chopsticks. Now."
"Jungkook, when will Taehyung come?" Jin asked
"I don't know, Hyung. He didn't pick up my phone, nor did he reply to my message. Maybe he is busy with work."
Jin is sad. He really hoped Taehyung could eat this meal.
Flashback
BTS members are busy with their individual schedules, except for Jin. The handsome man had finished his schedule this morning, so now he was relaxing in the dorm with a man who was no less handsome. Kim Taehyung.
The BTS's magnae's boyfriend arrived in the dorm about an hour ago. He wants to give souvenirs from Thailand, a country he visited for business since two days ago.
Because his boyfriend isn't there, Taehyung spends time with his Hyung.
"Hyung, can you cook Japchae?" Taehyung asked suddenly
"Of course, I can. Your hyung is really good at cooking" Taehyung chuckled to see his brother bragging.
"Why, Tae?"
"Can you cook it for me?"
"Uh, is my baby craving japchae?"
"Yes. I suddenly wanted to eat that. In the past, my mother often cooked Japchae at home, because it was my father's favourite dish."
Jin looked sadly at Taehyung.
He wrapped an arm around his shoulders and pulled him close, gently rubbing his arm.
"You are a strong man"
No, Taehyung didn't cry. He remained silent in Jin's arms. His body was limp, his gaze was blank.
Yes, this is the real Taehyung, Taehyung whom he hid from other people. A body that lives with a dead soul.
Flashback end
"So, Taehyung won't come?" Jin's voice trembled with tears
"Hey, honey. Why are you crying?" Namjoon wiped away the tears that ran down his lover's cheeks
"I'm just sad Taehyung can't come," said Jin, smiling
"Let's eat," Hoseok and Jimin said happily, tried to lift the mood
Although reluctant, Jin tries to finish his food. As well as Namjoon, Jimin, and Hoseok who enthusiastically ate the delicious food.
However, Jungkook just stirring his food.
How can he eat when he doesn't know how his love is?
How can he eat when he knows that his lover is injured?
How can he eat when he knows that what hurt his lover is his own parents?
"Hyung, I'm sorry. But it seems like I have to go for a while." Jungkook left his seat
"Where are you going?" Namjoon asked
"I want to meet Taehyung. I can't calm myself if I haven't met him."
"Okay, but you shouldn't stay overnight because tomorrow morning we have to go to London."
"Ok, Hyung"
With lightning speed, Jungkook took the jacket and car keys in his room then left the dorm.
* * *
I'm scared,
What if someday, the hand you hold is another hand who is not mine?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you go away from me and I have no reason left to be happy?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you want to open your heart for someone else who is not me?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you want to go from my side and left me all alone?
I'm scared,
What if someday, you wake up and no longer find anything about me?
I'm scared,
What if someday, even your tears can't bring me back?
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