I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 55: Chapter 55
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Seoul - September 2018
No One's P.O.V
Jungkook is panics, fear and worry wash over him. After a dozen minutes of waiting, a dozen times ringing the bell, there was absolutely no sign the door would open.
"Taehyung ..." Jungkook names his lover desperately
He tried to call Taehyung for the umpteenth time, but the results were nihil and it makes all the dreadful memory from two years ago fill up his head.
What if Taehyung leaves him again? it feels so painful even just with the thought of it. If it really happens, Jungkook would go crazy. He won't be able to survive if he has to lose his love a second time.
"Taehyung ... Love..."
"Jungkook" the said male promptly turned his body by the voice he loves the most in this world.
All of his troubles disappeared into thin air seeing his beloved standing there with a mask covering his face.
Without wasting time, Jungkook pulls Taehyung into his arms and kissing his crown repeatedly.
"Love, You really make me worry. I pressed the bell and banged on the door of your apartment for a dozen times but you're not there. And why didn't you pick up your phone?"
"Did you call me?" Taehyung searches for his phone in the bag.
"Gosh. My phone is out of power. I'm sorry, Kook"
"It's okay. You are safe and sound is what's important for me. But, next time make sure your phone is always on. I'm almost going insane because I can't contact you."
Jungkook embraces Taehyung's waist dearly "Let's go inside."
"Open your mask, love." They're now sitting together on Taehyung's bed, more precisely Jungkook is sitting on the soft mattress while Taehyung is sitting on his lap.
"But ..."
"Kim Taehyung, open your mask."
If Jungkook has spoken in a dominant tone like that, there is no way Taehyung are able to do otherwise.
As soon as the mask removed, the bruises and scratches on Taehyung's face are clearly visible.
Jungkook cupped Taehyung's face gently, kissing the wound on his face softly with affection. Whispering 'sorry' every time he kisses him
"Kook," Taehyung calls his lover lovingly.
"It's not your fault, you don't need to apologize."
"This is all because of me, if I ..."
Taehyung glared at Jungkook, who pretends to get scared by his boyfriend's gaze while actually, he finds it cute.
"Say sorry once again, you go out from this house."
Jungkook kiss his lips.
"Let's treat your wound."
After treating Taehyung's bruised face, the two boyfriends spend their time together by cuddling and watching some movie.
"Is there a lot of work at the office? It looks like you are very busy, Tae", Jungkook asks as soon as the movie they watched is finished
"Well, that's how it is." Taehyung rested his head on Jungkook's chest, listening to his favourite sound of a heartbeat.
"Don't push yourself too hard. Look, now you're so thin." Jungkook holds Taehyung's arm. His lover is now just bone and skin. The chubby cheeks that usually bitten and pinched by Jungkook are now gone.
"Even sometimes you look pale." and this hurt Jungkook's heart, seeing his lover so fragile, weak and tired.
What's hurts him more is, knowing that the bony cheek of his lover is littered with bruises and scratches caused by none other than the woman who gave birth to him.
"Sleep, you need to take a rest," Jungkook said while rubbing his lover's back soothingly.
Taehyung now laying on top of Jungkook
"Don't want to, because you will go once I closed my eyes."
Jungkook kiss his forehead, "I'm sorry love, I really want to stay, I swear. If I can, I just want to cuddle with you for hours. But we need to go to London for our concert."
"Hmm..." Taehyung only hummed
"Don't force yourself to work. Goes to sleep, hmm?"
"Don't want"
"Love, you don't want to eat, don't want to sleep, what if you got sick?"
"I will eat and rest as long as you don't leave me", he drawing circles on Jungkook's chest, clutching his shirt tightly, he really doesn't want his boyfriend to leave him.
"Love..."
"No, stop it. Don't continue your word. I don't want to hear that."
Jungkook can feel that, now, his chest is wet with Taehyung's tears.
"Please don't leave me, Kook." his voice is croaked
"Tae, as much as I want to ... "
"You can't, right?" Taehyung said without even lifting his head
"Just stay here, hold me, that's enough for me. You always said that 'wait for me a little bit, Tae', you said that you're doing this for the sake of us, but you know Kook, right now, all that I need is You always by my side."
Jungkook can only caress Taehyung's back, now his eyes are dripping with tears.
"I'm sorry." that's the only thing Jungkook can say now.
No, he really wants to says so much more.
"Yeah, sorry. I'm sorry too. I'm an egoist, right?"
"No, you're not." Jungkook kiss Taehyung's head
"Me too, all I want in my life is you, no one else but you. If I should throw everything away just to be with you, I'll do that willingly. But you know the best that I can't do that, at least for now. It's not about fame, it's not about the money, it's not about me anymore, but this is about the dreams of five other people who were also there. You love them as much as I do, and I'm sure you didn't want to crush their dream into pieces, right?"
Jungkook holds Taehyung closer.
"I ever lost you once in my life, and believe me, it was hell without you. It's nothing compared to what's you have been through, but believe me, my life is meaningless for those two years. Each day is so messed up."
Finally, Taehyung raises his head. Their eyes meet, there is so much love in there.
"Before I met you, my life is nothing but a cycle of 24 hours. I spent most of my life being a trainee, doing nothing but training, training, and training. Glad, at least, I train with kind Hyungs who are like a family to me. They make it bearable. When I decide to become an Idol, the young me don't know that the path I need to take is full of thorn. And even after I achieve my dream it's not only a flower road which lies before me, but I'm so happy for finally live up to my dream."
Taehyung lay his head in Jungkook's chest again.
"But day by day, the happiness is replaced by the hollow feeling in my heart. I'm happy about being an Idol, but somehow it feels so fake. Being an Idol means having to live with the expectations of others, and it drives me crazy. When I try to adapt to the Idol's life, then that 'things' happen. I watch, with my own eyes, my brother died in the hands of my parents. Since then I lost my true self more and more. All the things that I do are just to please my parents and to meet people expectation on me. I hide my true self deeper. Until I met you."
"My Taehyung, my love, you're the compass in my messed up world. Even our relationship is not so normal like any other, we just met at most once in two weeks, keeping our relationship behind the closed door, but it means a lot to me. Every time I want to give up or when everything feels like it's too much, just by hearing your voice and your laughter over the phone, I can get up and fight again.
And those hellish two years without you is so unbearable. Every day was so messed up, I feel like all my path covered by a storm cloud. I'm nothing without you. You're my compass, you're the only one who can show and tell me which way I should go. I can survive all of this because I still have you by my side."
"So, tell me how can I live without you? How can I leave you? I have a mistake once but don't worry love, I would never leave you again."
with that, Jungkook pulled Taehyung into a loving kiss.
No One's P.O.V
Jungkook is panics, fear and worry wash over him. After a dozen minutes of waiting, a dozen times ringing the bell, there was absolutely no sign the door would open.
"Taehyung ..." Jungkook names his lover desperately
He tried to call Taehyung for the umpteenth time, but the results were nihil and it makes all the dreadful memory from two years ago fill up his head.
What if Taehyung leaves him again? it feels so painful even just with the thought of it. If it really happens, Jungkook would go crazy. He won't be able to survive if he has to lose his love a second time.
"Taehyung ... Love..."
"Jungkook" the said male promptly turned his body by the voice he loves the most in this world.
All of his troubles disappeared into thin air seeing his beloved standing there with a mask covering his face.
Without wasting time, Jungkook pulls Taehyung into his arms and kissing his crown repeatedly.
"Love, You really make me worry. I pressed the bell and banged on the door of your apartment for a dozen times but you're not there. And why didn't you pick up your phone?"
"Did you call me?" Taehyung searches for his phone in the bag.
"Gosh. My phone is out of power. I'm sorry, Kook"
"It's okay. You are safe and sound is what's important for me. But, next time make sure your phone is always on. I'm almost going insane because I can't contact you."
Jungkook embraces Taehyung's waist dearly "Let's go inside."
"Open your mask, love." They're now sitting together on Taehyung's bed, more precisely Jungkook is sitting on the soft mattress while Taehyung is sitting on his lap.
"But ..."
"Kim Taehyung, open your mask."
If Jungkook has spoken in a dominant tone like that, there is no way Taehyung are able to do otherwise.
As soon as the mask removed, the bruises and scratches on Taehyung's face are clearly visible.
Jungkook cupped Taehyung's face gently, kissing the wound on his face softly with affection. Whispering 'sorry' every time he kisses him
"Kook," Taehyung calls his lover lovingly.
"It's not your fault, you don't need to apologize."
"This is all because of me, if I ..."
Taehyung glared at Jungkook, who pretends to get scared by his boyfriend's gaze while actually, he finds it cute.
"Say sorry once again, you go out from this house."
Jungkook kiss his lips.
"Let's treat your wound."
After treating Taehyung's bruised face, the two boyfriends spend their time together by cuddling and watching some movie.
"Is there a lot of work at the office? It looks like you are very busy, Tae", Jungkook asks as soon as the movie they watched is finished
"Well, that's how it is." Taehyung rested his head on Jungkook's chest, listening to his favourite sound of a heartbeat.
"Don't push yourself too hard. Look, now you're so thin." Jungkook holds Taehyung's arm. His lover is now just bone and skin. The chubby cheeks that usually bitten and pinched by Jungkook are now gone.
"Even sometimes you look pale." and this hurt Jungkook's heart, seeing his lover so fragile, weak and tired.
What's hurts him more is, knowing that the bony cheek of his lover is littered with bruises and scratches caused by none other than the woman who gave birth to him.
"Sleep, you need to take a rest," Jungkook said while rubbing his lover's back soothingly.
Taehyung now laying on top of Jungkook
"Don't want to, because you will go once I closed my eyes."
Jungkook kiss his forehead, "I'm sorry love, I really want to stay, I swear. If I can, I just want to cuddle with you for hours. But we need to go to London for our concert."
"Hmm..." Taehyung only hummed
"Don't force yourself to work. Goes to sleep, hmm?"
"Don't want"
"Love, you don't want to eat, don't want to sleep, what if you got sick?"
"I will eat and rest as long as you don't leave me", he drawing circles on Jungkook's chest, clutching his shirt tightly, he really doesn't want his boyfriend to leave him.
"Love..."
"No, stop it. Don't continue your word. I don't want to hear that."
Jungkook can feel that, now, his chest is wet with Taehyung's tears.
"Please don't leave me, Kook." his voice is croaked
"Tae, as much as I want to ... "
"You can't, right?" Taehyung said without even lifting his head
"Just stay here, hold me, that's enough for me. You always said that 'wait for me a little bit, Tae', you said that you're doing this for the sake of us, but you know Kook, right now, all that I need is You always by my side."
Jungkook can only caress Taehyung's back, now his eyes are dripping with tears.
"I'm sorry." that's the only thing Jungkook can say now.
No, he really wants to says so much more.
"Yeah, sorry. I'm sorry too. I'm an egoist, right?"
"No, you're not." Jungkook kiss Taehyung's head
"Me too, all I want in my life is you, no one else but you. If I should throw everything away just to be with you, I'll do that willingly. But you know the best that I can't do that, at least for now. It's not about fame, it's not about the money, it's not about me anymore, but this is about the dreams of five other people who were also there. You love them as much as I do, and I'm sure you didn't want to crush their dream into pieces, right?"
Jungkook holds Taehyung closer.
"I ever lost you once in my life, and believe me, it was hell without you. It's nothing compared to what's you have been through, but believe me, my life is meaningless for those two years. Each day is so messed up."
Finally, Taehyung raises his head. Their eyes meet, there is so much love in there.
"Before I met you, my life is nothing but a cycle of 24 hours. I spent most of my life being a trainee, doing nothing but training, training, and training. Glad, at least, I train with kind Hyungs who are like a family to me. They make it bearable. When I decide to become an Idol, the young me don't know that the path I need to take is full of thorn. And even after I achieve my dream it's not only a flower road which lies before me, but I'm so happy for finally live up to my dream."
Taehyung lay his head in Jungkook's chest again.
"But day by day, the happiness is replaced by the hollow feeling in my heart. I'm happy about being an Idol, but somehow it feels so fake. Being an Idol means having to live with the expectations of others, and it drives me crazy. When I try to adapt to the Idol's life, then that 'things' happen. I watch, with my own eyes, my brother died in the hands of my parents. Since then I lost my true self more and more. All the things that I do are just to please my parents and to meet people expectation on me. I hide my true self deeper. Until I met you."
"My Taehyung, my love, you're the compass in my messed up world. Even our relationship is not so normal like any other, we just met at most once in two weeks, keeping our relationship behind the closed door, but it means a lot to me. Every time I want to give up or when everything feels like it's too much, just by hearing your voice and your laughter over the phone, I can get up and fight again.
And those hellish two years without you is so unbearable. Every day was so messed up, I feel like all my path covered by a storm cloud. I'm nothing without you. You're my compass, you're the only one who can show and tell me which way I should go. I can survive all of this because I still have you by my side."
"So, tell me how can I live without you? How can I leave you? I have a mistake once but don't worry love, I would never leave you again."
with that, Jungkook pulled Taehyung into a loving kiss.
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