I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 67: Chapter 67

Berlin - November 2018
No One's P.O.V
"If I can be honest, I don't agree with your decision, Kim Taehyung. But I know, you say this to me not to ask for opinions, but to tell me the matter. So there's nothing else I can do. But I warn you, Taeeun must be very shocked to hear this. And I'm sure, she will definitely oppose your decision." said Chris to his soon to be brother-in-law.
"I'm sorry for messing up your marriage." Taehyung looks down, doesn't dare to look at the handsome man in front of him.
"Meet Taeeun now. There's still some time."
"Thank you, Chris. I'll see you later."
Taehyung then comes to his sister's room. She's waiting for the stylist to come.
Yes, four more hours of Taeeun and Chris's wedding will be held. And Taehyung will selfishly tell her, about the donor's heart he will do, right now.
Taehyung really wants to tell his sister after the wedding was over, but an hour ago he got a call from Jimin who said that Jungkook is in critical condition and he doesn't have much time left, at most a days, the doctor said. So, soon after his sister's marriage, he has to go back to Korea to do the surgery. Now is the only chance to tell Taeeun about everything. Even though he really feels guilty.
Her sister should have cried on the altar because she is happy for her marriage, but, instead, she would have to cry on the altar because she should lose her brother.
"Hi, Noona." Taehyung hugs his sister
"Oh, have you finished chatting with Chris?"
"Yup," he replies smiling
"What are you talking about? Why is it taking so long?"
"Hmmm...."
"Come on, you don't want to tell your sister?"
For a moment there is silence between the two of them. This sibling only exchanged glances. Taeeun looks at his brother curiously, while Taehyung looks at his sister with such deep sadness.
"After your marriage blessing, can you and Chris cancel the wedding reception and come with me to Korea?"
Taeeun raised his eyebrows in confuse. "Why?"
"I will tell you, but please don't cut my talk and listen to me until I finish. After that, you can say everything you want. Promise me."
"Okay. Pinkie promise." Taeeun and Taehyung linking their little fingers.
"So, ..." Taehyung took a breath, then grabs his only sister's hand.
"A few days ago, the day we were supposed to leave to Germany, Jungkook had an accident. That is why I was late coming here. His condition was very severe, his heart suffered fatal damage. The doctor said that he couldn't live if he didn't get a heart donor. I'm devastated, Noona. I can't see Jungkook on the verge of living and dying like that. That's why I decided to do an examination. Cardiac Examination. And it turns out, my heart is medically suitable to be donated for Jungkook. "
Taeeun pulls his hand off Taehyung's grasp, then stand glaring at his sister.
"Don't say you will donate your heart to Jungkook?"
"Yes, Noona. I'll do it"
"Are you crazy?" Taeeun shouts. "What kind of idiocy you do, Kim Taehyung? You really are insane. If you do it, it means you killed yourself, stupid."
"Sis, listen to me first."
"What? What else? What other stupidity will you say? What kind of nonsense this time? Oh, Did you ask for my permission? No, I will never give it. All this time I've been silent seeing you foolishly so in love with Jungkook. This time I won't stay still. After all the suffering he caused, you still come back to him. And now, are you even willing to die for him? What kind of bullshit is this? This isn't loving, Kim Taehyung. Real love includes loving yourself and self respect too. And because of him, you don't care about your pride, and now you don't even care if you die." Taeeun messing his hair in frustration. His face flushed with anger.
"This is the only way to save Jungkook."
"Do you think I care about that? I don't care at all"
"Doctors say this is a miracle because it's very rare to find a suitable heart donor in a short time and from the person closest to the patient. This might be a sign from God that I really have to do this."
"I told you, I don't care."
"I've told the hospital that my family has agreed, and the operation will take place tomorrow."
"You're really crazy. I don't know that my brother is this insane and stupid"
"I'm begging you, Noona."
"You begged me to agree to all this nonsense? Did you ask me to kill my own brother? If I agree, it means I'm going to kill you, Kim Taehyung." Taeeun snaps at him.
"In the end, I still going to die because of this illness I suffered. You know about that, Noona."
Taeeun is dumbfounded. She feels, betrayed?
Is Jungkook so important to Taehyung that he doesn't think about his sister's feelings at all? In the past four months, Taehyung has spent all his time in Korea. And instead of spending the rest of the time he has with his one and only remaining families, he asked her to 'end' his life sooner. For Jungkook's sake?
"Am I so insignificant in your life? You prefer to die sooner for the sake of Jungkook instead of enjoying the rest of your life with me?"
A great sob escapes her, and she covers her face with shaking hands.
Taehyung hurriedly stands to hug his sister.
"Gosh. Why did you think like that? You're far, far more important to me than Jungkook."
"I'm sorry, four months I left you and come back with this unpleasant news. In Korea I worked hard to expand our company there, I tried my best to dominate the Asian market. So later, when I'm not here anymore, you don't have to work too hard for it."
Taeeun is still crying in the arms of his brother.
"After all, isn't it better if I die from donating my heart to Jungkook? Even if it's not Jungkook, I think I'll still do that donor. Why? Because later, when I leave this world, there is at least one part of my body left. I even wish I could donate my other organs too. If you miss me someday, you can meet Jungkook. Touch his chest, there my heart beats."
"Even if you approve this, it doesn't mean you kill me, Noona. You don't speed up my death either. You help me instead. Help me from all this agony."
Now it's Taehyung's turn to cry. Her tears wet her sister's blonde hair
"It feels really painful, Noona. I just want to get rid of all this pain."
The body of the beautiful girl stiffened in Taehyung's arms. He really remembers every suffering Taehyung experienced because of cancer he suffered.
Since cancer took Taehyung, he was skin and bones, pale as a ghost, masking the ordeal inside with a smile that he always shows. Telling everyone that it's due to fatigue because of the work that is piling up.
Taeeun often watched his brother screaming in pain, and the morphine would be increased day by day. Every time Taehyung falls asleep, it can't even be distinguished whether he really sleeps or passed out. The doctor said that his body will self destruct, day by day. His cancer will grow, spread, consume and squash the very organs that work to sustain it.
Even so, Taehyung insisted on continuing to work and carry out activities as usual. For him, his life may be just about pain medication until he dies. But he didn't want to spend his life on four walls.
"The thing I don't want the most is my death being longer and more painful than it needs to be," Taehyung said between his sobs. "Please set me free from this pain and misery."
* * *
The marriage blessing is carried out. Chris waited handsomely for Taeeun to walk on the aisle by holding Taehyung's arm.
The sibling both cried. Can't stop the tears that race down their cheeks. Chris knew the real reason behind the crying, but other people thought that this was a cry of happiness.
Even though it's clear how destroyed and devastated Taeeun and Taehyung are. Linking arms, counting every time left before they have to separate forever.
"Chris, I entrust my sister. Please take care of her and make her always happy and healthy. I believe you can do it." Taehyung says before he moves to his seat.
Taehyung looks up at the ceiling.
"Dad, I've carried out a task that you haven't complete yet. She'll happy with him. Now it's my time to meet you and mom. Wait for me."
He says while smiling