I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 70: Chapter 70
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Present
Berlin - February 2019
No One's P.O.V
Jungkook fainted when he saw the grave of his lover, Kim Taehyung. Panicking, the members rushed him to the nearest hospital.
Fortunately, the doctor said that nothing bad happened to him. He was shocked but didn't endanger his heart.
"How's Jungkook doing?", All members turned to the sound cause.
"Taeeun, Noona."
The woman is much thinner than the last time they met, three months ago. There is a dark circle under her puffy eyes. Her face, which usually looks so pretty, now doesn't show any light at all.
She walks over to Jungkook, drawing an abstract pattern on his chest, where his brother's heart beating. The small movement woke Jungkook who frantically rushes to get off the hospital bed, call Taehyung's name countless times, like a mad man. His outburst stops when he realizes Taeeun's presence by his side.
"Guess it's the time for you to know everything"
Taeeun hands a letter to Jungkook, then turns around and asks the members to get out of the room. Give privacy to their younger brother.
Jungkook slowly opens the letter. His hands trembling, not ready to read anything written there.
Seoul, November 2018
For my beloved,
For my dearest,
For you, my only man.
Long time no sees. Do you miss me? I really want to know how you are doing.
When you read this letter, it means you are healthy and recovered. I'm so happy about it.
Hey, you.
Do you remember the first time we met? Are we met by chance?
Nope. I never believed that our meeting was a coincidence. It's destiny that we met among the people who were as numerous as the stars.
I still remember clearly how I'm holding in my breath and looking at you. That time, when your eyes looking at mine, it feels as if the world has stopped and there were only the two of us. Your eyes looking at me as if they know my heart, so I blushed and pretended to be indifferent.
We meet again several times, and without anyone knowing, without even me knowing, don't know when and how, without any reason, you came into my heart. It was you who made my heart pound.
Then bit by bit, you become the one and only person for me, the one and the only person who loves me, the only person that I crazily loved and has all of me. Every time you're smiling at me, It's such happiness for me.
You ever asked me, how much I love you. And my answer is always the same. You're my only one, my perfect love, my everything. Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and until forever, I will only love you.
I love you.
Even though sometimes I get worried about the far ahead future, but I am happy that I'm by your side. Just because you're by my side, I can smile, I'm able to have strength, it always feels so warm.
Thank you for being by my side.
You're the only person who makes my heart race, the only want that I want to give my all. When you cried, I cried. When you smiled, I smiled.
One day, our love became a painful love that makes my heart ache. My heart is worn out because of you. But I still can't go on a road that's not you, I can't live without you. What should I do? I can't even erase your name that was barely permitted to me.
I know you won't hurt me in any way, but that time, I had a thought unbeknownst to anyone else, a thought that I wish I could disappear. People who pass by seem to laugh at me, pointing at me. I really want to escape from the pain that chains me, from all the stares that burn me. I'm sorry I was born so weak, and that's why I left you. I lack so much, so please forgive me for leaving you.
Then I realized something, I'm not the only one who got through tough times. You too.
Did I make things hard for you?
I'm a coward man who didn't have the confidence to protect you and left you instead. Sorry for not taking good care of you as other people do. If only there's no pitiful man like me by your side, how good this is
I couldn't give you happiness, but I loved you. I love you to the point that I'll even give up on any hope just for you. Living was hard, but I withstood it because of you. Because it's you that I love, so I can hold it in several times.
But, Love.
Nothing lasts forever and maybe our together was never meant to be forever. I guess that this is the end.
If only I could see you again, I will go back to you and have my last dance with you. I want to be selfish to the end, and be with you until always. But this is what we call fate, it's something inevitable
My love, it's time to say goodbye.
Seeing you for the last time aches my heart but let's not shed tears today. I want to leave with our unforgettable happy memories, not the sad one.
I know that I can't see you again, forever. I know that it would be my last breath. I know that I would be no longer in this world. But don't worry about me, all I have to do is rest.
If you miss me, you just need to look up at the sky because I'm just somewhere a little higher than you, somewhere you can't see.
What I wanted to say, what I was going to say, I leave it all behind in this letter.
Now you need to practice being on your own too. Just because I'm not there, please don't be sick. Don't drink too much, don't smoke, only drink one cup of coffee a day. Even if it's annoying and you get lazy, please always eat your meals, don't forget to always shave, and always take care of your own body.
Don't hold things in like a fool, but say something. Tell the Hyungs and your parents about everything you feel, don't keep it for yourself. Cry when you want to cry, don't purposely hold in your sadness. When you feel like you can't breathe, close your eyes for a bit and think about your future. Spread your wings and fly to the sky. I know you'll fly high in your life and doing fine without me. Keep going, keep growing.
Please live a happy life and meet someone better.
Meet a good person, meet someone who loves you so much. From now on, you can be happy, I'll sincerely hope for your happiness. You can forget about me for the rest of your life if you want. But please remember how I loved you so that when we meet in another life, we don't just brush past each other. Even if you are holding other's hand, please think of my love at least once. That's all I need.
It's ok, please don't cry, my Love. Even if things get rough, it will be okay. It's only a momentary goodbye, until the day we meet again.
Let's please meet again in the next world. If we love each other, if we really love each other, we'll meet again. If it turns out that you're not there, I'll live waiting for another life. Even if I were to be reborn thousand times, I'll still only love you. Only you.
When we meet again sometime in the next life, I hope I can love you all I want. And please don't ever let me go again. On a far off day, if you see me again please tell me that we'll always together, holding each other hands, look at the same place, and have an unbelievable love.
Even if time passes, even it's in another life, one thing that would never change. You're my first love, my last love, and you're my only eternal love.
I'll wait until the day we meet again.
Goodbye, my love.
Jeon Jungkook, you're the best part of this life, you're my happy ending. I love you.
Yours,
Kim Taehyung
And no one has ever heard of crying which more heartbreaking than the cry of Jeon Jungkook who lost the love of his life.
Berlin - February 2019
No One's P.O.V
Jungkook fainted when he saw the grave of his lover, Kim Taehyung. Panicking, the members rushed him to the nearest hospital.
Fortunately, the doctor said that nothing bad happened to him. He was shocked but didn't endanger his heart.
"How's Jungkook doing?", All members turned to the sound cause.
"Taeeun, Noona."
The woman is much thinner than the last time they met, three months ago. There is a dark circle under her puffy eyes. Her face, which usually looks so pretty, now doesn't show any light at all.
She walks over to Jungkook, drawing an abstract pattern on his chest, where his brother's heart beating. The small movement woke Jungkook who frantically rushes to get off the hospital bed, call Taehyung's name countless times, like a mad man. His outburst stops when he realizes Taeeun's presence by his side.
"Guess it's the time for you to know everything"
Taeeun hands a letter to Jungkook, then turns around and asks the members to get out of the room. Give privacy to their younger brother.
Jungkook slowly opens the letter. His hands trembling, not ready to read anything written there.
Seoul, November 2018
For my beloved,
For my dearest,
For you, my only man.
Long time no sees. Do you miss me? I really want to know how you are doing.
When you read this letter, it means you are healthy and recovered. I'm so happy about it.
Hey, you.
Do you remember the first time we met? Are we met by chance?
Nope. I never believed that our meeting was a coincidence. It's destiny that we met among the people who were as numerous as the stars.
I still remember clearly how I'm holding in my breath and looking at you. That time, when your eyes looking at mine, it feels as if the world has stopped and there were only the two of us. Your eyes looking at me as if they know my heart, so I blushed and pretended to be indifferent.
We meet again several times, and without anyone knowing, without even me knowing, don't know when and how, without any reason, you came into my heart. It was you who made my heart pound.
Then bit by bit, you become the one and only person for me, the one and the only person who loves me, the only person that I crazily loved and has all of me. Every time you're smiling at me, It's such happiness for me.
You ever asked me, how much I love you. And my answer is always the same. You're my only one, my perfect love, my everything. Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and until forever, I will only love you.
I love you.
Even though sometimes I get worried about the far ahead future, but I am happy that I'm by your side. Just because you're by my side, I can smile, I'm able to have strength, it always feels so warm.
Thank you for being by my side.
You're the only person who makes my heart race, the only want that I want to give my all. When you cried, I cried. When you smiled, I smiled.
One day, our love became a painful love that makes my heart ache. My heart is worn out because of you. But I still can't go on a road that's not you, I can't live without you. What should I do? I can't even erase your name that was barely permitted to me.
I know you won't hurt me in any way, but that time, I had a thought unbeknownst to anyone else, a thought that I wish I could disappear. People who pass by seem to laugh at me, pointing at me. I really want to escape from the pain that chains me, from all the stares that burn me. I'm sorry I was born so weak, and that's why I left you. I lack so much, so please forgive me for leaving you.
Then I realized something, I'm not the only one who got through tough times. You too.
Did I make things hard for you?
I'm a coward man who didn't have the confidence to protect you and left you instead. Sorry for not taking good care of you as other people do. If only there's no pitiful man like me by your side, how good this is
I couldn't give you happiness, but I loved you. I love you to the point that I'll even give up on any hope just for you. Living was hard, but I withstood it because of you. Because it's you that I love, so I can hold it in several times.
But, Love.
Nothing lasts forever and maybe our together was never meant to be forever. I guess that this is the end.
If only I could see you again, I will go back to you and have my last dance with you. I want to be selfish to the end, and be with you until always. But this is what we call fate, it's something inevitable
My love, it's time to say goodbye.
Seeing you for the last time aches my heart but let's not shed tears today. I want to leave with our unforgettable happy memories, not the sad one.
I know that I can't see you again, forever. I know that it would be my last breath. I know that I would be no longer in this world. But don't worry about me, all I have to do is rest.
If you miss me, you just need to look up at the sky because I'm just somewhere a little higher than you, somewhere you can't see.
What I wanted to say, what I was going to say, I leave it all behind in this letter.
Now you need to practice being on your own too. Just because I'm not there, please don't be sick. Don't drink too much, don't smoke, only drink one cup of coffee a day. Even if it's annoying and you get lazy, please always eat your meals, don't forget to always shave, and always take care of your own body.
Don't hold things in like a fool, but say something. Tell the Hyungs and your parents about everything you feel, don't keep it for yourself. Cry when you want to cry, don't purposely hold in your sadness. When you feel like you can't breathe, close your eyes for a bit and think about your future. Spread your wings and fly to the sky. I know you'll fly high in your life and doing fine without me. Keep going, keep growing.
Please live a happy life and meet someone better.
Meet a good person, meet someone who loves you so much. From now on, you can be happy, I'll sincerely hope for your happiness. You can forget about me for the rest of your life if you want. But please remember how I loved you so that when we meet in another life, we don't just brush past each other. Even if you are holding other's hand, please think of my love at least once. That's all I need.
It's ok, please don't cry, my Love. Even if things get rough, it will be okay. It's only a momentary goodbye, until the day we meet again.
Let's please meet again in the next world. If we love each other, if we really love each other, we'll meet again. If it turns out that you're not there, I'll live waiting for another life. Even if I were to be reborn thousand times, I'll still only love you. Only you.
When we meet again sometime in the next life, I hope I can love you all I want. And please don't ever let me go again. On a far off day, if you see me again please tell me that we'll always together, holding each other hands, look at the same place, and have an unbelievable love.
Even if time passes, even it's in another life, one thing that would never change. You're my first love, my last love, and you're my only eternal love.
I'll wait until the day we meet again.
Goodbye, my love.
Jeon Jungkook, you're the best part of this life, you're my happy ending. I love you.
Yours,
Kim Taehyung
And no one has ever heard of crying which more heartbreaking than the cry of Jeon Jungkook who lost the love of his life.
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