I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 8: Chapter 8
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Seoul - September 2016
No One's P.O.V
At that moment, with his leftover energy, he called his parents. Said that he can't go home. When they asked why, he just replied: "Sorry, but I've promise my friends to go to Jeju island together. I love you". He hates lying very much. but seeing his family worried and sad are the least desirable thing in his life.
He tried to call that guy, even all his friends. But no one answered his call. The silence on the other side seemed to say "Don't call me, I don't want to hear your voice ever again"
It's been three days since that day. All that predators never left his house at all. A few of them even threw rotten eggs and stones at his house. Thousands of insults being sent to his social media, Twitter or Instagram. Surely, he wants to delete all his accounts. But he was too scared to just hold his phone. He was too afraid to just get out of his bed. He didn't even know whether last night he was sleeping or fainting.
Ironically, he doesn't even know what his fault is. Is it wrong to love that man? Is it wrong if he loves a man? Is he so disgusting? What he ever do to deserve all of this?
Right now, if someone asking him "if you were granted one wish, what would it be?" this helpless man will answer "the acceptance from the society. A society which doesn't know, to kill with words is also murder"
* * *
Jin's P.O.V
it's been three days. And this incident is not getting better, but getting worse instead. All of this starts from the spreading of Jungkook and Taehyung's picture. At that time, our magnae was driving his lover back home. In that picture, Jungkook smiling behind the wheel in the direction of Taehyung who standing next to his car. Actually, there is nothing wrong with the photo, they just smile at each other, no physical contact at all, let alone look so intimate. No.
Out of nowhere, then appear a rumour said Taehyung is gay. Since then there have been a variety of news headlines. Starting with "Jungkook from BTS have been caught together with a gay at dawn", "Is Jungkook of BTS friends with a gay?", and "BTS's Jungkook who has been loved by many women, allegedly is gay". And so many more and more news headlines. The reason why this scandal didn't subside is that we haven't give any confirmation at all.
Me, Jimin, and Yoongi agreed that we just need to say 'Taehyung is Jungkook's friend but Jungkook is not gay'. Meanwhile Namjoon and Hoseok insist that it's not that easy. Why they make it so complicated? Actually, I think the solution to this problem is quite simple.
And Jungkook? he still confines himself in his room. I know it's hard for him. But somehow he had to make a decision.
Taehyung? After the incident, he tried to call me several times. But I didn't accept the call. I can't bear it. And now I'm regretting so much. This two days I tried to call him, but he didn't answer. He's okay, right?
"Hyung" Jimin opened the door of my room slowly. "Namjoon hyung asked us to gather in the living room"
we immediately headed to the living room. Yoongi, Hoseok, and Namjoon already there. Jungkook followed us shortly afterwards. He was a mess. Rumpled hair, puffy eyes. He must've been crying all night.
"Kook, you have to decide today, we can't let this problem drag on." Namjoon stroked Jungkook's head. "Have you decided?" he asked, lovingly.
"Hyung ..." I really can't bear to see his teary eyes.
"Don't overthink. You just creating problems that weren't even there. What you need to do is simple, so simple" yoongi didn't need to speak in such a judgmental tone, but what he has said is actually true.
"It's all up to you, other people are just spectators, and you know what they're doing as a spectator. commenting. they can only comment. Whatever you do, they'll keep giving a judgment" I really hope Jungkook can make the best decision
"Forgive us, Kook. we really don't want to put it all on you, but you are ...." While Namjoon still talking, Jimin cut him off
"What about Taehyung? Is there anyone here thinking about his feelings? Why we don't ask him what he really wants?" He cried. Jimin was crying. Oh, God. I quickly hugged him. Rubbing his back gently.
One minute, two minutes, ...., ten minutes. we all fell silent, no one's talking. Only Jimin's sobs were heard.
"Hyung please called Bang PD-nim, tell him I'll see the reporters now" And we were all surprised. Namjoon then takes his phone to fulfil Jungkook's request
* * *
Jungkook's P.O.V
For this past three days, all that I do is thinking. I'm thinking over and over again until my head throbs. I've never used my brain this much in the 21 years of my life.
yes, I've made my decision. Hopefully, this is the best decision for me, for BTS, and for him.
I'm currently in the company with Namjoon Hyung, the other members decide to just wait in the dorm. Outside the building, there are many journalists waiting. I fix my clothes and my makeup, prepared to meet them.
the light from many cameras blinded my eyes, they're constantly taking pictures and videos. I try to be calm and keep smiling. Namjoon Hyung put his arm around my shoulders, trying to encouraging me.
"Hello, Good Afternoon. I'm Jeon Jungkook from BTS, I'm sorry for the late clarification. Recently, we're busy with our new album preparation." I took a deep breath, then continued on
"All about the gossip that is spreading are not true. First, I'm not gay. I'm straight. Secondly, I don't know this guy named Kim Taehyung. That time i'm just driving around to get some fresh air, but then I got lost. Fortunately, I saw him in front of his house, so I called him to ask for some directions. We didn't have any relation at all and absolutely didn't know each other. He's completely a stranger" there is commotion between the journalists. Some of the fans who came here showed their relief.
"Therefore, I ask you to stop spreading the news because it's just a groundless rumour, and I beg you to not associate me with that man, furthermore please don't send any more bad comments to him. it's not fair because he knows nothing but gets treated like this "Oh my God. My heart hurts so much.
I can't stand it anymore. I bowed to them and waved my hand while smiling at the camera before finally goes into the building.
There's one more thing I have to do
Me
Let's break up.
Sent 14.20
Right from the start, there is nothing between us.
Sent 14.23
No One's P.O.V
At that moment, with his leftover energy, he called his parents. Said that he can't go home. When they asked why, he just replied: "Sorry, but I've promise my friends to go to Jeju island together. I love you". He hates lying very much. but seeing his family worried and sad are the least desirable thing in his life.
He tried to call that guy, even all his friends. But no one answered his call. The silence on the other side seemed to say "Don't call me, I don't want to hear your voice ever again"
It's been three days since that day. All that predators never left his house at all. A few of them even threw rotten eggs and stones at his house. Thousands of insults being sent to his social media, Twitter or Instagram. Surely, he wants to delete all his accounts. But he was too scared to just hold his phone. He was too afraid to just get out of his bed. He didn't even know whether last night he was sleeping or fainting.
Ironically, he doesn't even know what his fault is. Is it wrong to love that man? Is it wrong if he loves a man? Is he so disgusting? What he ever do to deserve all of this?
Right now, if someone asking him "if you were granted one wish, what would it be?" this helpless man will answer "the acceptance from the society. A society which doesn't know, to kill with words is also murder"
* * *
Jin's P.O.V
it's been three days. And this incident is not getting better, but getting worse instead. All of this starts from the spreading of Jungkook and Taehyung's picture. At that time, our magnae was driving his lover back home. In that picture, Jungkook smiling behind the wheel in the direction of Taehyung who standing next to his car. Actually, there is nothing wrong with the photo, they just smile at each other, no physical contact at all, let alone look so intimate. No.
Out of nowhere, then appear a rumour said Taehyung is gay. Since then there have been a variety of news headlines. Starting with "Jungkook from BTS have been caught together with a gay at dawn", "Is Jungkook of BTS friends with a gay?", and "BTS's Jungkook who has been loved by many women, allegedly is gay". And so many more and more news headlines. The reason why this scandal didn't subside is that we haven't give any confirmation at all.
Me, Jimin, and Yoongi agreed that we just need to say 'Taehyung is Jungkook's friend but Jungkook is not gay'. Meanwhile Namjoon and Hoseok insist that it's not that easy. Why they make it so complicated? Actually, I think the solution to this problem is quite simple.
And Jungkook? he still confines himself in his room. I know it's hard for him. But somehow he had to make a decision.
Taehyung? After the incident, he tried to call me several times. But I didn't accept the call. I can't bear it. And now I'm regretting so much. This two days I tried to call him, but he didn't answer. He's okay, right?
"Hyung" Jimin opened the door of my room slowly. "Namjoon hyung asked us to gather in the living room"
we immediately headed to the living room. Yoongi, Hoseok, and Namjoon already there. Jungkook followed us shortly afterwards. He was a mess. Rumpled hair, puffy eyes. He must've been crying all night.
"Kook, you have to decide today, we can't let this problem drag on." Namjoon stroked Jungkook's head. "Have you decided?" he asked, lovingly.
"Hyung ..." I really can't bear to see his teary eyes.
"Don't overthink. You just creating problems that weren't even there. What you need to do is simple, so simple" yoongi didn't need to speak in such a judgmental tone, but what he has said is actually true.
"It's all up to you, other people are just spectators, and you know what they're doing as a spectator. commenting. they can only comment. Whatever you do, they'll keep giving a judgment" I really hope Jungkook can make the best decision
"Forgive us, Kook. we really don't want to put it all on you, but you are ...." While Namjoon still talking, Jimin cut him off
"What about Taehyung? Is there anyone here thinking about his feelings? Why we don't ask him what he really wants?" He cried. Jimin was crying. Oh, God. I quickly hugged him. Rubbing his back gently.
One minute, two minutes, ...., ten minutes. we all fell silent, no one's talking. Only Jimin's sobs were heard.
"Hyung please called Bang PD-nim, tell him I'll see the reporters now" And we were all surprised. Namjoon then takes his phone to fulfil Jungkook's request
* * *
Jungkook's P.O.V
For this past three days, all that I do is thinking. I'm thinking over and over again until my head throbs. I've never used my brain this much in the 21 years of my life.
yes, I've made my decision. Hopefully, this is the best decision for me, for BTS, and for him.
I'm currently in the company with Namjoon Hyung, the other members decide to just wait in the dorm. Outside the building, there are many journalists waiting. I fix my clothes and my makeup, prepared to meet them.
the light from many cameras blinded my eyes, they're constantly taking pictures and videos. I try to be calm and keep smiling. Namjoon Hyung put his arm around my shoulders, trying to encouraging me.
"Hello, Good Afternoon. I'm Jeon Jungkook from BTS, I'm sorry for the late clarification. Recently, we're busy with our new album preparation." I took a deep breath, then continued on
"All about the gossip that is spreading are not true. First, I'm not gay. I'm straight. Secondly, I don't know this guy named Kim Taehyung. That time i'm just driving around to get some fresh air, but then I got lost. Fortunately, I saw him in front of his house, so I called him to ask for some directions. We didn't have any relation at all and absolutely didn't know each other. He's completely a stranger" there is commotion between the journalists. Some of the fans who came here showed their relief.
"Therefore, I ask you to stop spreading the news because it's just a groundless rumour, and I beg you to not associate me with that man, furthermore please don't send any more bad comments to him. it's not fair because he knows nothing but gets treated like this "Oh my God. My heart hurts so much.
I can't stand it anymore. I bowed to them and waved my hand while smiling at the camera before finally goes into the building.
There's one more thing I have to do
Me
Let's break up.
Sent 14.20
Right from the start, there is nothing between us.
Sent 14.23
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