I Still Want You [Taekook] - Chapter 9: Chapter 9

Seoul - September 2016
Taehyung's P.O.V
I woke up. For this past four days, I went to sleep all day. And when I finally wake up, I just want to sleep again. Other people wake up from their nightmare, meanwhile, I woke up just to face this cruel nightmare. it hurts. It hurts so much. it really, really hurt. What's actually hurt me? I don't even know the answer. whether a thousand insults, the broke up message from him, or the fact that he said we just a stranger. I don't want to think about all of that. No, is not that "I don't want". I just can't.
"sleeping again doesn't give any harm," I said to myself while tucking myself deeper into my soft and warm blanket. When I was about to close my eyes, I heard the front door open. Who's that? Could it be? Are that predators trying to break through my house? Don't they feel tired waiting all the time in front of my house? Even I feel tired of my life. footsteps approaching my room. I froze. What should I do? Should I confront them? or should I pretend to sleep?
"Kim Tae" a heartwarming voice call me. there is only one person in this world who call me with that nickname.
"Noona" and she stood there. She spreading her arm, and in no time I run to embrace her.
"geez. How many days have you not taking a shower? you stink." She giggled while caressing my back softly, swaying her body left and right.
"Oh, God. do you really need to say that?" I pouted at her.
"My little baby brother, we have so many to talk about. But first, you need to take a bath. I'm not lying when I said you stink." She pushes me to the bathroom.
I'm glad she is so understanding. I'm sure she knows what actually happen, that's why she's here. She didn't bombard me with questions right away, she didn't talk about it. and I am very grateful for that. Anyway, I really smell bad. It's been 4 days since the last time I showered. Yes, I am dirty.
I took my time in the shower. Thinking about nothing. it just too painful, too awful. I feel like being stabbed by a knife, for a thousand times. I feel like someone ripping my hearts to shred. it's just indescribable.
"Do you need me to go home first then come back here so you can finish your bath?" my sister knocked on the door. and I just laugh at that. an empty laugh.
"yes, madam. I'm done. What should I do next?" She pulls me to the dining room. there are meat and other foods on the table.
"Did you prepare this?"
"who else?" she shrugged her shoulder proudly."Now, you need to eat. Look at yourself, just skin and bones. I always proudly tell anyone that my brother is the most handsome man in this world. and with your state now, there is no one will believe me." she said jokingly and I glare at her.
After we spend some time in silent, I decide to say something.
"why did you come here?" I ask whilst chewing my food.
"Don't you remember that I have a social media account too"
"So you see all of ... " Noona cut me off when she notices me push my plate.
"you finish?" I just respond with a muttered answer.
"let's go out. There's a lot of thing we need to clean"
"what?" is she crazy? go out with all those predators outside? Nope. I prefer to suicide rather than get killed by them.
"they have gone. Do you think how I manage to go inside this house? They go away after the press conference." she dragged me outside.
Some people said that predators always leaving traces of its prey, I guess that's true. My front yard is full of trash. Rotten eggs splattered everywhere. They write so many 'love message' with spray paint on the wall and the door.
"Nobody likes you"
"Disgusting"
"Go kill yourself"
"You're ugly"
"You're fat"
"Gay"
"Fagot"
"Bitch"
"You were born by mistake"
"Why don't you just go cut yourself?"
"I wish you were dead"
"Attention seeker"
"Nobody would care, so just die"
"Loser"
"The world and everyone in it hates you"
"F*** you"
And many more. I thought reading those writings would hurt me so bad. apparently not. the scene on my left is more heart-wrenching. more painful than anything.
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No One's P.O.V
She fell to the floor as her grief poured out in a flood of uncontrollable tears. She couldn't hold the heartbreak for longer. A great tremor overtook her.
She feels guilty for just coming now. Why not since four days ago. Why she didn't check her Twitter earlier. All regrets haunt her mind. She was determined to not show any of her anguish to Taehyung. She doesn't want to put more sadness in his heart, she wants to be a pillar of strength for him. But she can hold it no more.
When she first saw his brother's condition, a tear was forming but she wouldn't let it fall. This woman is in the brim of breakdown when she sees all the writings in the wall, when she knows how cruel those people are. And finally, she fell to her knees, crying out, when she accidentally sees the cut in her brother's wrist. Not one or two.
and for the said male, watching his sister in this condition is like having a giant tsunami in his heart. Everythings that happened this past day slowly numbing his soul. He even considers to give up everything, including his life. he cut himself, every night pondering about what the best way to kill himself. He just wants to end everything. But seeing his sister, he regrets all. How can he give up when his family offering a warm hug, offering a place to stay, called a home.
He may lose the people he loves, he may lose all the things he has, he may get abused by thousand people, but whatever happens, he still have his family who never let him lose himself.
He hugs his sister and whispered "let's go home"
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Jimin's P.O.V
"Hyung, can I go out for a while?" I begged Namjoon hyung who was working on something on his laptop.
"Where?" He replied without looking at me
"uhm ... just go for a while .. I'm bored in the dorm"
"No. Don't wander around"
"but hyung ...." I whine
"Just let him go. we've got a lot of trouble lately, give him a little freedom, he needs a refreshing" Jin Hyung comes from the kitchen. You know, it feels like you're asking something to your father, but he insists on prohibited you. Then your mother comes to defend you, and let you get what you want.
"thank you hyung" I hugged him and rushed out before Namjoon hyung forbade me again.
Don't tell anyone, but I want to go to Taehyung's house. I don't want to meet him, I just want to see him. I'm very worried about his condition, I really do. Ever since Jungkook came home from the press conference, no one has talked about the scandal. The atmosphere in the dorm became tense. That's why I decided to keep my reason for going out.
I drove my car, wearing t-shirts, jeans, hat, masks, and sunglasses. I parked my car far enough from Taehyung's house and decided to walk.
when I got in front of his house, everything was dark. no lights are on. Only lights on the street are illuminating his home. Showing a very horrible scene.
"Young man." someone patted my shoulder. When I turn, it was a grandmother.
"Do you know Taehyung?" she asked
"Yes, he is my friend, Do you know him?"
"Yes, I'm his neighbour. he's a good kid, very kind towards the other. I can't believe it, how people can do this to him"
The grandmother then recounted all that had happened during the last four days. She also tells me how she actually wants to help Taehyung, but his grandson forbade him because it will only cause them to get in trouble.
I sniffled quietly, tears threatening to spill from my eyes.
"Is he home? why it's so dark?"
"he just left this afternoon, along with his sister. they left with loads of suitcases"
He left. I'm glad at least his sister is with him. While here I am, can do nothing. I'm such a terrible friend.
I want to have a longer chat with the grandmother, but my phone is ringing
Jin Hyung
Go home. We'll have dinner together
With that, I said goodbye to the grandmother.
On the way home, I'm thinking about something. Should I tell other members about everything that happened to Taehyung?
Yes. I'll tell them. I don't care if the mood will get messed up or not. Taehyung is part of us. So they should know what happened to him. What I'm going to do isn't wrong right?
When I got home, all of them had gathered in the dining room. Jin hyung calls me and says something to me. but I ignored him. I pulled out my phone, showing them the 'horrible scene' I had photographed