Innocent (TaeKook) - Chapter 34: Chapter 34

"I want some time alone" Taehyung went inside and said to Jimin. Jimin couldn't say anything other than just nodding.
"Are you sure you are okay?" Jimin asked him after a while, Taehyung didn't said anything just looked him in the eyes. Jimin knew he is not okay but here Jimin cannot do anything as he can see he want to be alone for some time.
Jimin left the room without saying anything and closing the door on his way out.
Taehyung slowly walked to the side drawer and crouched down to the last one. He sat beside it and opened the drawer.
He pulled out 15 letters that were all same. White paper with for Taehyung written on it. He opened one by one and started reading them again. He felt his vision becoming blurry.
He didn't know what he was feeling, this foreign feeling is very painful. He feels like his heart is clenching, as in he was not just. The look on Jungkook's face was disturbing.
He felt like he is responsible for his state. He read all the letters again and the warm feeling that was present in the words was not helping him to lessen the guilt. Yes he was feeling guilty, guilt for being a burden, guilt for making Jungkook cry, for making him sad.
He kept on reading them, to help himself. He started crying, the pain was not lessening. He kept on trying his best to make it stop but he can't.
A small sob left his mouth unable to contain himself. He was busy with his feelings when he heard door closing. He folded all the letters and threw them in the drawer and closed it real fast.
He turned around to see who was the one who entered the room.
"Hi.... sorry I didn't asked before coming" the person said.
"You don't have to Hobi hyung." Taehyung said while showing that he is fine.
"Are you okay?"
"How funny.... chim asked the same thing few minutes earlier." Taehyung said while sitting beside Hobi.
"So what did you answered him?"
"I don't need words to talk to him. He know me really well."
"How funny.... the same thing Jimin said about you." A small smile got plastered on Taehyung's face.
"See you look too good while smiling. Why spoil this beautiful face?" Hobi said and Taehyung couldn't help but smile again.
"Okay fine now, I don't wanna die today. You smile really is killer dude." Hobi said softly, placing his hand on his heart and clutching it.
Taehyung couldn't help but giggle softly. Hobi dramatically dropped on his back on the bed portraying death.
"Stop...." Taehyung said while giggling. Hobi sat back and ruffled his hairs.
"So what were you doing?" Hobi said hand still in younger's hairs.
"Nothing..."
"Okay if you don't want to tell me." Hobi sat properly making his posture straight to say something.
"Can i say something Tae?" Taehyung nodded.
"He is not a bad person you know?" Hobi said.
"W-who?" Taehyung said not making eye contact with him.
"You know for whom I'm saying this." Hobi said looking at him. "He did what he did for some reason." Taehyung shivered visibly.
"I-I don't want t-to talk about it." Taehyung said eyes not leaving his lap.
"Hmm so what do you wanna talk about? We can talk about that!!" Hobi said tone not at all changing.
"Nothing"
"Silence is not very good thing. Only dead look good being silent." Hobi said taking a glass of water.
"I'm dead inside Hobi hyung, let me be silent.." Taehyung said looks getting all serious.
"And why do you feel like that?" Taehyung found that question really awkward.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Simple!! Why do you think you are dead inside?" Taehyung looked at him.
"What would you feel if you're mother leave you in this world all alone, when your father think of you nothing but a piece of trash, when your father hates you to the limit that he sell you for some money. What would you feel when you are nothing but a slave to the one who bought you in exchange of money? What would you feel when you live in a house where you can get sold any time? What would you feel when you become a target of every single being of the house you live in? What........ what would you think when someone gives you hope but when you try to find that person you don't fine him...." Taehyung had tears strained face. Hobi didn't said a word between this.
"I would like to think where is this going and why is this happening." Hobi said to which Taehyung gave him a defeated look.
"And what if i say that you never did anything with your own will that you need to think where you did wrong" Taehyung said eyes not leaving Hobi's face.
"Will is what make things happen Taehyung. If you never was willing you never had done anything. You did it willingly only the difference is that your willingness was linked with orders of others." Taehyung sense the logic in it.
"What are you trying to do Hobi hyung?"
"I'm trying to tell you that you can break this little shell of your's and you can see out side the walls you created for your own self. You can see with your own eyes not with the one that was given to you." Hobi said while standing up.
"I expect a better thinking from you Taehyung." He walked to the door. He was going out but halted cz of Taehyung's voice.
"You think I'm wrong?"
"I didn't said that. I'm just saying to think wisely before getting on any decision." Taehyung looked at him confused. Hobi continued.
"Things already got messed up cz of thinking with passion instead of patience." He looked toward the camera.
Taehyung was looking at him like he was some alien. Hobi has always been the one who helped him out when he got stuck somewhere.
"I will never let you down hyung...... but i need your support to get to the decision." Taehyung said to which Hobi shook his head.
"No.... i can only lead you to the direction the only one who can make it is you Tae. I told you the way, now walk on it and find you answers." Hobi said and walked away. Taehyung stood there with a frown on his face.
Jungkook was stunned to his place. Hobi did it so easily that he was surprised on his patience. He handled Taehyung with so much care yet he told him where he is getting wrong.
He wanted to go to Taehyung but he was afraid that may be if he made any rash decision, things will get out of hands then they already are.
He was thinking about what should he do cz Hobi's words were not just for Taehyung, it was also for him. Hobi said it cz both of them need to know that they are doing it wrong. Things should not have been that way.
He was busy thinking when his phone ringed. He picked it up.
"Hello...."
"......"
"What the fuck are you saying...."
"....."
"Arrange my meeting with him today..... I'll see what he wants...." Jungkook said and cut the call. He looked at Taehyung last time and stood up leaving his office.
He went outside and called everyone. All of them gathered in the hall and all of them were confused, looking at eachother to get the hint.
"I got a call from Enwoo earlier. He said Hyung-soo is trying to expose our underground businesses to the FBI and is trying to get us on the chart of FIO for doing illegal business. I need to go and visit him. I'm leaving in few hours. I want you guys to be on your guard." He said and pointed at Namjoom.
"Namjoon you will take care of the drug dealers, Yoongi you are incharge of Guns and Jimin hyung i want you to be in every meeting that is held when I'm not here. Handel it the best you can." He said and was about to walk to Jin.
"Jin Hyung...... keep an eye on T-Taehyung. Make sure he don't do anything silly again. Please give him your best time." He turned to Hobi.
"Be with him, he need a friend like you." He patted his shoulder and walked away.
Taehyung was standing there looking at the group of people standing on their guard listening to the one certain person. The last words that escaped his mouth made Taehyung to look at him in shock.
He talked about me..... he talked about me in a soft voice. What the hell is happening here. What is he trying to do now...
Taehyung came back to the room, thinking about the cahnged behavior of Jungkook. He couldn't process the sudden change in Jungkook. He can't believe it is true. It can't be? How could it be? Why? How? Whyyyyy?
Jungkook spend next two hours in his office, he spent these hours looking at his love. He don't know how many days he would be gone so he wants to see him and capture him in his eyes as much as he can. Taehyung was sitting on the bed lost in his thinking.
Jungkook finally shut down his laptop and took his mobile and walked out of the room. He met everyone and was about to leave the mansion and for one last time he turned back with the hope that he will see Taehyung for last time.
He turned around and there he was standing, Taehyung was standing by the reeling of the grill. He stood there looking at him . They made an eye contact and Taehyung was the first one to break the eye contact.
He walked back and locked himself in the room again. Jungkook stood there looking at the spot where he stood and then walked out of the mansion.
Jungkook was thinking about only one person in his whole ride. There was only one person on his mind this whole time.
On the other hand Taehyung was also thinking about only one person. Jungkook, Jungkook was only one person on his mind also, but his feelings were different. He was thinking about the changed behavior of Jungkook and he couldn't help but think that this must be some trick, he wants to be on his guard for whatever Jungkook is thinking.
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Its been 2 days Jungkook has been gone to his trip. Taehyung had more frequent visits to the mansion then to his room. He is meeting everyone and everyone is being with him more than they did in these 6 months.
He went down to have breakfast and everyone was sitting there. As he went down they started eating. Ater breakfast he was about to go back to his room when Jimin called him.
"Tae..... Tae..." Taehyung turned to his friend.
"I need your help... can you help me?"
"What? Just say it Chim.."
"C-can you bring me the blue file from Jungkook's office? It'll be in the right drawer of the table. It's the only blue file there. I need to go welcome the client or else i would have done it myself." Jimin said .
"It's okay Chim. No need to give explanation. I'll bring it just a minute."
"No no no bring it to the meeting room okay. I'm going there" Taehyung nodded and walked towrads Jungkook's office.
Jimin ran back to the meeting room.
Taehyung went inside the office and many different memories came rushing to his mind. He stood by the door for some time and then went inside, as told by Jimin he went to the right drawer and pulled it open.
"He said blue file..." he muttered and started looking for the blue file in the pile of files. He pushed up the files and went to the end of drawer but didn't found any blue file.
He started pulling one by one out to see clearly. As he pulled the fourth file out he found many curled up papers inside.
He wanted to ignore it but being the curious ass he is he dragged all the curled papers out. He looked at the first one and there were very familiar words written on it. For Taehyung.
He felt like someone hit him by the car. He felt like his whole world is being shaken. Everything was revolving around him. With all his courage he open the paper and there it was, the thing he feared.
Hello Tae.... I hope you are
The paper was crossed. He opened the other one and the other one was also same but it mentioned some more details.
He opened the third one and it was the one in which Yeontan was mentioned. Taehyung didn't know what he should feel. He should feel happy or he should feel betrayed. He should feel sad or emotional. He was shaken to his core.
He went through all the papers knowing that they contain the loving words he loved the most. The words that he felt so good to read were practiced on those curled up papers and then that perfect sentence was formed. It was a good thing that whoever wrote those letters did his best to make them have feelings but the only thing that was wrong here was that it was Jungkook who wrote them.
Then at the end of the papers there was a last ball of paper that was left. He opened it just like others. That letter was the one who made him fall the ground on his knees. A broken cry left his lips when he saw it. The letter reads...
Happy Birthday Tae. Well belated actually.
Don't skip you meals. Ask for help when you can't do it . Ask others to help you. People here don't bite. And keep this letter to your own self. Don't tell anyone that you found it. I don't want JK to get angry with you.
It was the letter that he found on his birthday but the only difference was that it was crossed and missed some details.
Taehyung don't know what to feel anymore . He completely forgot why he came here. What was the reason he was here he just don't have a control over himself. He was lost. Lost in his own mind and his own thoughts.
"It was Jungkook, It was him all along. I-It was J-Jungkook..."