IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT 18+ - Chapter 5: Chapter 5

ELIAS'S P.O.V
Dove is a fucking perfection.
She’s so goddamn perfect, she's so nice, sweet, kind, there's no word to describe how fucking perfect she is, she speaks to me even when everyone else keeps their distance, like I’m some unstable freak they’d rather avoid which I am but she doesn't run from me, she looks at me like I’m human, she understands me so much even though she dosen't know me much which is fucking crazy.
She makes my heart beat faster, Makes me feel things I don’t recognize, things I've never felt before and it scares the hell out of me because it’s only been three days, Three days and she’s already stuck in my head, There’s something about her that’s so damn addicting, It feels like I can't live without her.
Her voice ---sweet and angelic, sounds like music in my ears, I want to hear it again. Over and over again, I never want her to stop taking. Her eyes caught me the second we first met, it was so soft and kind, Those beautiful eyes did something to me, I still don’t understand it but it did something inside me and when she touched me, I felt this strange prickling inside my stomach, I wanted her hands to keep touching me for as long as she wanted and I wouldn't fucking complain.
Jesus, She’s so fucking pretty, so damn beautiful, I don't see girls that much but I know for sure that she was the most beautiful woman in this planet earth, Beautiful inside and out, she looks like an angel, My Angel. I don't know what is wrong with me but I don't think I'm letting go cause I'm addicted, Who wouldn't be? She's the most sweetest angel on earth.
Her hand was still on my chest, right over my heart. I know she could feel how hard it was beating. Shit, it was going crazy and it was all because of her, Her face was red. She bit her lip and looked up at me and damn... I swallowed hard. I wanna taste them so bad but it's dangerous, she deserves better than me, I don't want to do something that'll scare her, I don't want her to run from me.
"I...it's beating so f...fast"She muttered under her breath like she was telling that to herself while her fingers kept tracing small circles on my chest, so
soft. Fuck it felt good, I held back a groan that bubbled at the back of my throat.
She looked up at me with her lashes fluttering while biting her lips again and I swallowed hard, forcing my eyes to look away from them.
“It’s you, It does that because of you"I admitted as my thumb brushed her soft red cheek, she sucked in a sharp breath when I tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, Her face flushed even more.
She looked so damn flustered, So cute. It made me remember the first I saw her, I was a mess, I was so furious, I wanted to break something, I scared my parents but not her, she spoke to me, touched me and made me make a promise to her that I wouldn't hurt myself again then she called me a good boy and I loved it, I want her to call me that again so bad. I want to be her good boy, My dick twitched in my pants and it made me blink in shock.
It had never reacted to anyone before, It was forced to react to a certain person I killed but it reacted to her with no needles...I want her beautiful mouth around it, I want to....I shook my head mentally to stop those sinful thoughts from my head.
Fuck. What is happening to me? Since the moment I met her, I’ve been… different, I felt different, I know I feel something for her, I don't know what it is but I know I want her, God I want her And that scares the shit out of me.
Because she deserves a prince and not a man like me, She deserves someone Normal, I'm not normal, I'm messed up and dangerous.
I’ve hurt people before, Not because I wanted to but because I lost control and when that darkness takes over, when that thing wakes inside me, I lose control, I could hurt her, I could fucking kill----No, don't think of it, I won't let that happen. I can’t, I don't want to hurt her, I don't want to harm her so it'll be best I stay away from her.
My hands that were on her cheeks, left her face, I force myself to let go and It’s like ripping out a piece of my soul but I did it and took a step back from her, I could see confusion and sadness clouding those beautiful eyes.
Please don't look at me like that, Please don't hate me Angel.
“E..Eilas? Are you leaving?”She asks with her voice sounding so soft but sad and I made my heart ache so bad.
I nodded, swallowing the lump that formed in my throat, I have to, I have to go back to where I belong.
“Please don’t go, can we talk for a bit longer?”Her voice sounded so hopeful and I want to say yes, Christ I want to stay with her, To be close to her, To listen to her sweet voice, To tell her to keep touching me but I can't. If I stay, I'll want her more, Need more and I don't trust myself enough not to hurt her - So i shook my head with my chest tightening and I take one last look at her before turning around to leave.
It's for the best, For her own good.