K-pop Idol Imagines - Chapter 78: Chapter 78

JISOO
Never had I imagined that I'd be stuck with my feelings like that. I had dated before, but never had I experienced one-sided love. I was always confident in myself and knew that whoever I'd confess to would fall for me too, but somehow, with her, I was not like that.
Every time I looked at her, everything felt like a slow-motion scene: her hair bounced with every step she took, her eyes squinted as she focused on the task in her hand, and how she folded up her sleeves to show her forearms.
Goddamn her forearms!
I was always left speechless and nervous around her.
I took my script and fanned myself a bit to lose the blush on my cheeks. Just a sight of her was enough for me to get all hot and bothered. I took off my sunglasses and put them on as I tried to divert my attention to the script.
It was an important scene. Being in this drama was so hard to get by, but she made it possible.
Fuck.
I was thinking of her again. Quietly swallowing the desire that was welling inside me, I zoned my focus into the script. It was a difficult scene. The break-up scene. It had to be heartbreaking and should be able to make the audience cry, but I was not sure if I could put those emotions into action when she was around me looking like that.
Soon, the shooting started. I took my place on the bench outside the grocery store. The weather was quite lovely in the countryside. I heard the clapboard clapping as the director shouted for action.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath as I tried to remember all those hard and sad times in my life to get into the emotions. I opened my eyes when I started to feel the heartache and sorrow in me. My eyes showed no light as my lips drooped in a frown. I looked up and took up the "supposed" beer can and drank it in one gulp.
I looked down, and I could feel my lips tremble as tears started to well in my eyes. My shoulders shuddered, and I could feel myself crying. I let out a harrowing sob and bawled my eyes out. I cried like I had just witnessed the worst day of my life.
I covered my eyes with my hands and bit my lower lip so as not to make any sound.
Soon, the director shouted, "CUT!"
It took me a moment to calm myself, and I looked up with bleary eyes at the crew. They were silent as they stared at me, and then all of a sudden, all of them started clapping and shouting.
"That was so good, Jisoo!"
"Best actress ever!"
"I never thought someone crying could be so tormenting."
"I am crying right now."
The director gave a thumbs up and said, "That looks like a hit, Jisoo. I don't think we need a re-shoot. You did amazing. It was exactly like I imagined it to be."
I could feel the pride swelling inside me as I stood up and bowed my head to him, saying, "Thank you, Director. Thank you all."
I stood up straight as everyone looked at me with appraising eyes. I smiled at them but gasped when I felt a warm hand over my elbow, and I turned around instantly.
"Y-Y/N! You scared me, "I said, a bit startled as I looked down at her hand that was holding my elbow and her other hand offering me a box of tissues.
I looked up to look at her and saw how her eyes were a little red, as well as her nose too. I felt my heart skip a beat and asked, "Did you... cry too?"
Y/N chuckled softly and replied, "Yeah, I did. How couldn't I? You acted amazing, Jisoo."
Somehow, I couldn't get used to her complimenting me. It was like when she complimented me, something about it felt sincere and right to me. It would move me and make my stomach do all kinds of gymnastics inside.
I blushed a little as I took the tissue and wiped my tears, saying, "T-Thank you, Y/N."
Y/N smiled in return and walked me back to my trailer. I sat inside and locked the door as I tried to calm myself down. Being with Y/N all the time was dangerous for my heart. But what could I do? She was my manager.
I decided to scroll through social media to distract myself as I waited for the next instructions from the director.
After a few hours, there was a knock on the door of my trailer. I said, "Yes?"
The door slid open, and there stood Y/N-now wearing a pair of sunglasses that I got her-looking sexy as hell. I could feel my heart racing inside my chest as I managed to let out a, "W-What happened?"
"Well, I think we're good to go. The director was impressed by your scene, and he was able to finish all the other scenes without a hitch, so today's schedule is wrapped up, "Y/N replied.
I nodded and said, "That's good news."
Y/N smiled softly again and said, "Yeah. Good news indeed."
She was about to close the door, but I stopped it and said with the last bit of courage I could muster up for the day, "Wanna hang out with me then?"
Y/N halted and stared at me for a moment before nodding in reply and saying, "Sure. Your apartment?"
"Yeah, that'd be good, "I answered.
She smiled again and closed the door. Taking up the driver's seat, she fastened her belt and drove into the evening towards my apartment building.
The ride itself was nerve-wracking for me. All I could hear was the sound of my loud heartbeat in my ears and the sound of music from the stereo in the trailer.
Even though I invited her to my house, I couldn't think of the next step. What should I do?
Unfortunately, we arrived sooner than the answer to all those questions that were on my mind. The trailer was parked in the basement, and we took the elevator up to my floor. It was unbelievably quiet inside the elevator as I stood next to Y/N, who was scrolling through her phone.
I carefully took a peek at her screen and saw that she was looking at the articles about me.
Something as simple as that made me shiver with giddiness. I tried to control my smile and thought about how stupid it was to think like that, even though she was just doing her job, which gets paid for.
The elevator door opened with a ping, and we both stepped out. I saw how Y/N was quietly walking a step behind me as she took in the surroundings.
To cut through the silence, I cleared my throat and said, "You've never been to my apartment before, right?"
Y/N looked at me and shook her head, answering, "No, I've been here before. Just one time."
I quirked my eyebrow at that. "What? When did that happen?"
Why would I ever forget something so special?
Y/N pocketed her hands and said, "On the day of the premiere of your first movie, You were pretty drunk at the after-party, so I took you home that night."
Suddenly, all the events of that night from two years ago rushed into my head, and I remembered every single detail of the night. And how I tried to kiss her drunkenly.
I gasped as I covered my mouth with my hand, feeling mortified about that incident. Y/N laughed beside me and said, "Don't worry. It's water under the bridge."
I raked my fingers through my hair as I stopped in between and almost cursed out my past self. What was I even thinking back then?
Y/N stood beside me and said something so bizarre that I could've never imagined that.
"You were pretty cute, though."
I instantly looked up at her and saw her staring at me intently. She was close. A bit too close for me. I could smell her perfume, and it headed into my head, making me dizzy. I could feel my blood rushing up to my face as I turned my head away and walked ahead to the door of my apartment.
What was that?
I took out my keycard and tried to push it through the slot, but my hands were trembling and my heart was racing to sixty. After a few attempts, I managed to get through and open the door. I entered and pressed the card on the monitor for all the lights to turn on.
I opened my shoes and put them away in the shoe closet as I took the slippers to wear in the house. Y/N did the same as she walked beside me. I threw her side glances in between and tried to gauge her reactions.
But, it was like I was trying to read a blank slate.
I sighed at that and said, "I'm going to take a shower. Make yourself at home and get yourself whatever you want."
Y/N nodded and made her way to the kitchen as I rushed into my bedroom and locked the door. Somehow, the very fact that Y/N was just outside my bedroom was seeping into me, and it was making me highly nervous.
I took a rushed shower and changed into my satin shirt and shorts. Maybe I was going a little over the board, but it was a chance like no other, and I was a little bit hoping to seize it.
I stepped out of the room and went to the living room where I left her, where I saw Y/N standing in front of my portrait photo frame with a wine glass in her hand.
It was a scene like nothing else. Something about Y/N staring at my photo so intensely made me stiffen up and work up inside altogether.
My steps slowed, and I walked beside her. I saw her face and then looked at my photo. It was a magazine photo shoot. My first ever Vogue cover shoot. It was a moment of honor for me, so I decided to frame it in my house.
I was wearing a blue silk dress, and my hair was tied up as I was lying on the floor, facing the camera. My fingers and wrists were adorned with the latest Cartier jewelry and watch collection pieces.
It was nothing too racy, but it was still one of my favorites.
"I love the way you look in this photo, "Y/N said out of the blue.
I saw her head turning towards me, and she gave me an intense rundown. I could feel myself being naked under her gaze all of a sudden.
I cleared my tight throat and said, "Yeah? You like it?"
She nodded and replied, "The way your eyes stare at me is alluring. It pulls me in unexpectedly."
My eyes widened at her words, and my heart was going insane with the speed. I suddenly rested my hand over my chest and slapped it a bit as I looked away from her gaze. It was too much for me. I was afraid to do something I would regret the next day.
However, a sudden touch on my wrist made me jolt with a gasp as I turned my head to see Y/N stepping close to me. Her eyes were intensely looking into mine as she held my wrist with her soft hands, her thumb rubbing the inner side of it.
My knees felt weak, and my lips parted slightly as if I were expecting something from her.
Y/N put the wine glass against her lips, and in a teasing glance, she drank it up in one sip. The way her lips were wrapped around the rim, her long fingers were holding the glass stem, and her throat worked up and down as it slid down smoothly.
My eyes were tracing every single part of her action, and I was easily in a trance. Somehow, it felt like she also knew the effect she had on me. She kept the glass on the table beside us that was beneath the photo frame, and she stepped even closer.
She was testing my self-control now. I was not sure that I could hold back anymore if she took another step towards me.
"Y/N, what--"
"I'm afraid, Jisoo, "she suddenly cut me off and said.
I furrowed my eyebrows and asked, "Afraid? Of what?"
Y/N took a deep breath and answered, "Of this, the tension between us, The way you feel about me and... I about you."
My world stopped for a moment. I couldn't believe my ears or my brain that registered her words. Was she saying what I heard she was saying?
Y/N licked her lips and said, "Yes, I'm saying what you heard I was saying."
My eyes widened in shock this time as I said, "How did you?"
"I know you. Whenever I do something like this or say something like that, you always make that face and question yourself in your mind as to if you were being delusional or did that happen really, "she said with a soft chuckle.
I blushed furiously at her words. It was unbelievable how easily she had me figured out.
Suddenly, Y/N stepped closer. Again. I could feel the warmth that was emitting from her body and could also see the way her eyes were the darkest shade of black. Her cheeks were a bit rosy, and her ears were deeply red.
She was flustered, too.
"I like you too, Jisoo. A bit too much. It is dangerous, I know, but I can't help it now. I tried to suppress my feelings, but whenever you're around, I fall for you deeper than before. You have me locked on you, Jisoo. I can't hold back anymore from you, "Y/N confessed. Her chest was heaving heavily, and somehow every word of hers resonated with me.
I couldn't believe that Y/N felt the same way about me.
Her eyes suddenly dropped to my lips as hers parted slightly. For the first time in my life, I never thought I could desire something so much that it would make me crazy to the bone. I could feel my heartbeat, and somehow hers too.
My breath came in shallow gaps as I leaned closer to her, and she did the same. Her grip on my wrist tightened as our lips were just a breath away.
None of us moved. It was like we both wanted this moment to last from the start.
But then, I couldn't wait any longer. After pining for this moment for so long, I was not going to wait anymore.
"Fuck, "I whispered, and I captured her lips with mine.
It was a sensation like no other. All the emotions that were inside me suddenly overflowed like a broken dam. Y/N's arm came to wrap around my waist as she pulled me closer to her body. My arms came to wrap around her neck as we kissed deeply.
Gosh. We were kissing. It felt so surreal.
Y/N's lips were chasing mine with ferocity like nothing I knew before. She was holding my waist for her life as she kissed me deeply. Her lips were warm and soft, like everything else I could expect them to be.
Her lips kissed my upper lip and then my lower lip with such expertise that I could hyperventilate. Her tongue slipped out and subtly traced my lower lip. I opened up instantly in reply as her tongue slipped inside my mouth, trapping me in her trance.
Her hands gently slipped inside my shirt and caressed my skin with smooth touches. I could feel my hair standing as I almost moaned in the kiss. Y/N's hands slipped up slightly as her thumbs traced the ends of my bra. I could feel my desire pooling between my legs as I almost fell to the ground with no energy in my knees.
Taking that as a sign, Y/N carefully pushed me against the wall beside the table and kissed me passionately. Her lips never left a chance to drive me crazy. I hugged her close as my nails dug into her shoulders.
She pulled apart just to kiss my jaw and down the line of my neck. Her lips were warm against my burning skin as she kissed my most erogenous spot. I threw my head back with a groan.
However, I was missing her lips on mine, and I whispered, "Come here."
I pulled her face up to mine again and stared into her eyes for a second. Her hair was a mess, her lips were all puffed, and her cheeks were rosy with blush. I knew I was the same too.
I pulled her in again by her nape and kissed her lips until I could no longer breathe. We both pulled apart, and Y/N rested her head on my shoulder. Her hands slipped out of my shirt as she hugged me close.
We were both breathing heavily as none of us spoke a sentence.
After a few moments, Y/N muttered, "Damn it."
She lifted her head and looked at me, saying, "What do we do now?"
"What do you mean, Y/N?" I asked, confused.
"Jisoo, we just kissed. It is not a small thing. What do we do now? You're a celebrity, Jisoo. I'm just a mere manager. Your career could go up in flames if the media got a hint of something between us, "Y/N said, her shoulders stiffening at the thought of things coming to reality.
To be honest, I was scared too. However, it was not bigger than my feelings for the woman in front of me.
I cupped her cheek and answered, "I'm afraid too, Y/N... but I like you, and that's not going to change. I just had the most amazing kiss of my life with the woman I like. I cannot ruin this day with all the overthinking. Can't we just enjoy ourselves? Please?"
I gave her the most believable puppy eyes, and that somehow worked. She let out a small laugh and sighed, saying, "Okay. We can enjoy ourselves. But..."
"I know. I know, Y/N, how risky this situation is. After all, it's the career we are talking about. But my feelings for you are real too. Even if I have a little bit of a chance to be with you, I want to take it. I don't know what the future holds or how it will turn out, but for now, I know exactly what I want, and that is you."
At my words, Y/N's eyes softened. Her demeanor shifted, and she pulled me in for a hug. A hug that meant a thousand words.
"I want you too, Jisoo. And I'm so lucky to have you, "she said.
I pulled apart and said, "Who said you would get me? I never permitted that."
"But, just now said," Y/N panicked.
I burst into laughter as I hugged her again and said, "I was joking, silly. I'm yours."
Y/N laughed and caressed my head.
And just like that, thoughts other than ours vanished into thin air as we decided to enjoy the night. Exploring and celebrating us.