Kenopsia - Chapter 13: Chapter 13

I was making back and forth-s between the two small malls and other small shops I saw, gathering as many clothes as I could as winter was coming.
I was currently nailing a thick coat over the window of the office before rolling it up so the sun could get in.
I had brought up pillows, clothes, blankets, covering the ground and nailing them in the wall, I am trying to make this room as isolated as I can as there is no heating and I am not dying to a cold.
I left the school, walking down south towards my old apartment, walking the streets to it.
I kneeled down next to the puddle of dried blood that was left of the boy, the husk having wandered away.
I looked up at the building.... So much changed.... So many died...
I know I will need to break into the cop's HQ place, they have guns there and I didn't explore the town a lot so I don't know where all is just yet.
It felt ominous to step back in the building and walk up the stairs.
My apartment felt higher then it had always been, as if the gravity of the situation finally dawned on me....
I stepped up to the open door.
Nothing had changed.
The dead husk was there, my clothes were there, my school work, all was there.
I sat down on my couch, leaving the door open, I can defend myself...
I leaned back into it and sighed, staying sitting for a little while before standing again.
I went to my bedroom.
I put my pillow in my bag, none was as soft as this was....
I took the calendar off the wall and looked at all the trinkets I collected, passing a hand over them.
I couldn't help myself, I grabbed the soccer ball sized pot of green plant and put it on my bag, it was a gift from my first girlfriend, even if we were long separated before the Great Silence I liked this plant.... I named it Jeremy.
I grabbed the small frame on my bedside table and grabbed the second.
One was my friends and I, took on my last birthday, November eleventh, we were to the towns ice skating rink and I spent my day trying to not fall and was being laughed at.
The second it was the only descent picture I had from my parents and I, forced happiness but in this world it seemed so true.
I packed them both next to the plant half hanging out of my bag, it had long leaves and only leaves.
I left the room and turned around, backing away from it while watching.
I turned back when I walked into the piano.
I looked at it, touching the keys and pressing down.
I pushed the seat back and sat on it, setting my hand on it and sighed.
I don't feel a single thing....
Have the pills done too much?
Haven't caught up with my friends in weeks,
And now we're out of touch.
I've been driving in LA,
And the world it feels too big.
Like a floating ball that's bound to break!
Snap my psyche like a twig...
And I just wanna see
If you feel the same as me?
My hand shook as I softly pressed the keys tho I didn't care if I was heard currently. Who would know how I feel? No one is left.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?
Like you're not really sad but you still wanna die?
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive cause you gotta survive....
Like your not in the room but you wanna be there?
Like you have apathy inside but you're trying to care?
Like you wanna be loved but there's no one there?
Am I past repair?
Tears sprang to my eyes.
A little bit tired of smiling when I'm alone...
A little bit tired of no repairs to cope...
A little bit tired of sinkin'.
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin'.
Tryna stay afloat
I wish I had quick repairs to cope.
Guess I'm just broken and broke...
I need to survive, there is no other reason to live... No other reason...
The prescription's on its way...
With a name I can't pronounce,
And the dose I gotta take
Boy,I wish that I could count'
Cause I just wanna see,
If this could make me happy.
I can't let humanity die out. I am so tired already.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?
Like you're not really sad but you still wanna die?
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive...
Do I have to survive?
Like your not in the room but you wanna be there?
Like you have apathy inside but you're trying to care?
Like you wanna be loved but there's no one there?
Am I past repair?
I want someone, anyone.... Why must I be alone?
A little bit tired of smiling when I'm alone?
A little bit tired of no repairs to cope?
A little bit tired of sinkin'?
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin',
Tryna stay afloat
I wish I had quick repairs to cope.
Guess I'm just broken and broke.
Tear fell down my face.
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life?
Like you're want to be happy and you don't wanna die?
Like a numb little bug that's gotta survive?
That's gotta survive...
That's gotta survive.... I need to survive.
I crossed my arms on the keys and pressed down, laying my head on them.
"Someone's up there?!"