Midnight Whispers (short stories collection) - Chapter 2: Chapter 2

ADVAIT'S POV
Fuck. fuck. fuck.
My father was getting on my nerves now. He was giving me threat on name of my jaana now. He was saying to leave her and marry to some bitch from my class. My father, being one of top most famous business man in the country had controlled my life like no one. Even after the divorce with mom.
If not for the company I would've never even looked at my father ever.
I was selfish! Very! I wanted the company, I wanted it to give a happy life to my mother and Urvi.
"I am not going out with anyone Mr. Rajvansh." I told my father.
"Oh! you will son." My father countered.
I got up from my chair and left with anger flowing through my veins.
Six months, It had been six months since my life took a new turn. I turned from a fuckboy to a love sick puppy, only in few days. It was really hard to control my lust, but lately, it was nothing. My Jaana had been the sweetest to me. She is --as my mom says--- the best thing that had ever happened to me.
Before her, I was a typical playboy. But my reasons were different. I was not a playboy, because I play with someone's feeling. Nor was I that because of some guilty pleasure. But I was that because of..... my father.
My father hated when I pull --in his words wasted my time-- this shit. He wanted me to stay loyal to work. He did not wanted me to waste time over some girl. So I did exactly what he did not wanted.
I started sleeping around to get on his nerves. It did work, until I fell for My Jaana, at very first sight. I started regretting as to why I did not save myself for her. I first every time for her. I felt even more so when I came to know she was as untouched as horizon.
It did not helped when she won't let me touch her. She won't let me hug her, let alone kiss her. I never even kissed her forehead. The last and the only time she had hugged me for more than one minute was when Mom had a heart attack, leading me to have fits of panic attack. I could understand her. As she belonged to a very orthodox background, and had immense respect for her father, who believed in abstinence before marriage. She had accepted my past why won't I?
She calmed me.
She was my solace.
I am going to stay loyal to her no matter what.
Until a 'her' happened.
My dad forced me to date Maya. I started having so-called dates with her and we were on tabloid for weeks. It was not too hard to hide it from Urvi since, she was not too much into celebrity lives.
For a whole month I ignored her. My dad then went overboard and asked to spend nights with Maya. Disgusted with myself, for my greediness, I started visiting hotel with her. I told her that I will sleep near the pool of the suite, and she will sleep in the room. It was all going good, until on the end of month I came back to the suite, fully drunk, due to my guilt of betraying Urvi.
When I came to the suite, Maya was sitting near the pool in nothing but a flimsy --almost translucent-- bikini. My instinct were shouting on me to avert my eyes, but I stood there frozen. My jaana would look undeniably beautiful in that.
That was the start of my downfall, I knew.
She came to me and dropped her lacy pantie down, and it was all it took to snap my hanging patience, with alcohol on my mind, and Jaana in her, I did the sin.
That was the first time I cheated on my Jaana, not mine anymore.
It was one night one mistake, which turned out to be two nights, then three and then four. I came to the suite on saturday, fucked her, cheated on my Jaana, cried in bathroom, and left.
It went on, until it was out of my hand. When Jaana told me she is going to her cousin's wedding and might ask for us to get married as well. I was ecstatic, but it went away as soon as it came. Guilt and heavy regret took over.
She smiled and waved at me.
Fifth night I visited the suite was to end things with the other woman.
That day I ended everything with Maya. I wanted to be all clear before marrying my jaana. I wanted to tell her about the shit I did. But I can't. I know she will leave me.
She had only ever demanded one thing from me, that was my Loyalty. And I can't even give her that.
That day I had cried hysterically, over my pathetic self in Mom's lap.
A few weeks after my birthday, I got a call from hospital that mom was badly beaten up. I was hysterical. I went to my father --the one who was after the whole thing-- and punched him right on his face.
I was exhausted so I drank. I drank, full five glasses of Whisky and heavily drunk took a taxi to hospital. My mom was unconcious. Not knowing what to do I went to Malik.
Malik, my best friend.
He was the only one out of our whole friend circle who had beat me up everytime I cheated on Urvi.
I went to his house only to find that Malik's brother had thrown a party, for some reason he hates me, he also hates own brother but it was justified since Malik was a step brother. I drank and was now swaying on both of my legs. Chirag --Malik's brother-- took me to a room.
"A beautiful surprise awaits you." He had whispered in my ear as he left me inside the room
Confused and heavily drunk I entered in only to find my Jaana standing their in a lacy nightie. I wanted her, needed her, so I kissed her to my heart content.
"Oh my Jaan, My love, I missed you so much." I said to her as she whimpered as I kisse dher down the neck. And soon I was making love to her.
"urvi.." I had said.
"Yes, Its only your Urvi sweetheart, make love to me." I heard her through my closed eyes, as I increased my pace and released in the condom.
I fell asleep after that.
When I woke up it was already evening.
I looked beside me and my head started spinning. I got up frantically and found Maya sitting there smiling at me.
I got down and whimpered in pain.
What had I done? What had I done?
I did this to her yet again?
I did this to my Jaan yet again.
My heavy breathing were resonating in the otherwise silent room.
I zipped my pant up as my mind wondered to many what ifs.
The biggest being, What if Urvi came to know?
"Fuck" I shouted. I looked over to the filthy woman who made me believe she was my Urvi.
"This was a mistake." I said. "Loose my number." I said and walked out of the suite with a numbing feeling in my heart. I was walking with the things on my mind. Should I tell her? Will she forgive me for the unforgivable sin I had committed?
I opened the door and spotted someone. I looked up to find Urvi there.
And I knew the least chance I had had, was now gone...
I am not getting her back ever.