Midnight Whispers (short stories collection) - Chapter 21: Chapter 21
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Lakshay's POV
If you ever wonder whether you can fuck up the best thing in your life, then the answer is hell fucking yes!! Because I did, with my stupidity.
That day mom had been constantly irritating me about getting married, as I was already 28, I told her I did not want to, but she won't just listen. Then she brought up Drishti's name. She kept pursuing me into giving her one single sign that I was in love with Dhriti, which I am, but I did not wanted Mom to know.
Or else she would've pressurized Drishti about it!
So in anger I said whatever came out of my fucking mouth, not knowing she was listening to it all. After she left, I did try to call her again, to at least listen to me, but she won't even look at me! Mom told dad about the fuck up I did and My dad knew I did not meant that, not even in a single way, so all he felt for me was pity.
I went to my bathroom, and let my urge to cry go free. I slapped myself a few more times, to even say something like that. I was in love with her, yes, but who was I to point finger on her blood.
As soon as Mom and Dad left, I followed them despite their warnings. I need to make it crystal clear to Drishti that I did not meant the single fucked up thing that came out of mouth. but as soon as I saw her swollen eyes, I knew she'd been crying for so long! Because of me!
And being a coward I am I had no guts to face her!, no guts to tell her how sorry I was, and how much I love her! We shared a beautiful relationship, if not as lovers, then as father and mother of a beautiful daughter. And I destroyed it all!....
I was in love with her since the first time I saw her in yard with her friends, but I did not wanted to show it to her, that like everyone else, I also fell for her beauty. I thought, maybe she wasn't as much beautiful from inside, but instead she was much more beautiful from inside, than outside! And I fell for her all over again. But I was afraid that she will reject me, I was sure. Cause she had so many admirers, so I restrained myself from showing even an ounce of liking for her.
But my confession came with a blast, I must say.
And hence, the conclusion to all of that was I was a bastard, and basically drove away the only person I have ever loved in a more than platonic way.
I cried everyday over the milk I spilled. The huge fucking mistake I made! But did not had guts to even go to her house, probably ten feet away from mine. Until......
"Yes Drishti! And wear that black one! you looks absolute fairy in that!" Mom said, loud enough from the kitchen that even I heard. Where is she going? I continued to type on my laptop.
"And talk with him, like you do with everyone! I am telling you he will like you in an instant, after all you are so beautiful!" Him, she is meeting a him that'll like her. I shut my laptop with more force than I should, and stood up, trying to listen more.
"Yes! Beauty, I know you are nervous because it's your first date, but I hope it is your last too...." I wasn't able to listen to anything further, as my ears started ringing. She was going on a date! She was going on a motherfucking date!
My eyes turned teary and red! Without even thinking I strode towards her house and barged in, all my anger flew away as I saw her, in her anarkali, she looked ethereal.
She stared at me for a second before turning to Shrenu and walking away to my house. I caught her by arm, and Shrenu ran to her dadi, my mom, who I did not knew was following me! She took Shrenu with her.
"I... I..." I tired speaking before she swatted away my hand roughly.
"Don't try to touch me!" I turned to her. She turned to me, but did not look at me even for a second. Her hands folded in her front, as if wanting to just get over with it!
"I... I am sorry Drishti! for that day.... I was just so overwhelmed! I didn't knew..."
"It's OK" She cut me off. I looked at her, tears blurring my vision. Why the hell I am crying so much for the last month. I swear, I haven't cried this much even in my whole 28 years of life, as much as I cried in last month.
"No, no, don't OK me! You know, I know, that what I said was me overstepping every boundary of cruelty, I shouldn't have said that, hell I shouldn't even think like that! How can I when I..."
"I don't understand your point here, why the hell are you sorry, you said nothing wrong!" Tears slipped down her eyes, so did mine. "You said true, that I have god knows whose bastard's blood in my veins" I shook my head. "I am filthy dirt and what it was? Yes! I was vicious witch, who might be trapping your parents into marrying you!" I was hysteric by now. My hands were shaking. It was one thing to realize your mistakes, but it was other thing to have it thrown on your face.
"Yes, I might be very much eager to marry you Lakshay, but I not once, I not even once said or did anything to irritate you, or have an impact on you that you hate me so much, just why?"
She roughly wiped her tears. I took a step towards her, eager to gather her in my arms.
She wanted to marry me!
I fucked up!
"I..please.."
"No..." She interrupted. "you think I did not wanted to know who my mother was, or I did not find about her. So listen, my mother conceived me with her one of many lovers, and then left me on the steps of Ooty orphanage, and decided to turn into a prostitute. When I went to meet her in tha.. that red light area, she was enjoying. I asked if she ever regret to abandon her daughter, she told me she don't because I was a thorn on her side. My mere presence was irritating." She sobbed and I sobbed with her! What had I done?
"I might be a daughter of a whore, but it wasn't nice of you to think that I was a greedy filthy bitch who wanted you for your fame, money and family, I am not greedy, I am not impure!" One second I was crying hysterically and the other I was kissing her tight. I can't hear it anymore! I can't.
I kept kissing her even through her sobs, even through the mixing tears. Wanting to soak out all of her misery, somewhere I was responsible of!
She didn't pushed me off! I kept kissing her but she did not kissed me back. I pulled away, and kissed her nose.
"You are not filthy, you are not impure, your past doesn't define you, my life. Yes, I said wrong, but I swear on my parents, I swear on our daughter Drishti, I did not mean a thing. You are not impure, you are the purest thing I had ever seen in my life, you are not irritating, you don't even know the joy I feel when you are around me. But I had to mask it, in fear, you will think, I also fell for your looks, and not for you! Over the years, I have seen more handsome men then me, fawning over you, and you will just kick them aside, so who was I to think that you were going to accept me."
She kept crying, but now it was less.
"I swear to you Drishti, believe it or not, I love you, I have loved you for past ten years, I can't express in words what I feel for you! You think I accepted Shrenu as my daughter because I am a good human, I am not, I did it because, you accepted her as your daughter, and I don't want your child to call someone else father."
Her cries turned into soft sobs as she listened to me. I was still holding her cheeks.
"Mom kept forcing me to date you, to ask you out, not understanding my fears when it comes to you! So I said all that, so she won't force you too. I love you, but I did not wanted to force a marriage on you just because I love you!"
I completed and put my forehead against hers. I felt so overwhelmed with emotions after my confession. God! It felt so good, to finally be able to confess to someone you love.
"I have a date to attend Lakshay!" She said, and I smiled sadly at her. She is free to go anywhere, she is free to do anything, then why does it hurts so much!
"You can go. Drishti, you can go anywhere you want, you can do anything you want, you are a free person, I am sorry I apologised to you so late, I should've came barging in when you closed shut the door on my face. Explain everything to you! I swear to you Drishti, you can love marry anyone you want, but I will always love you, Always. You are the only one for me, and you will remain the one for me." I kissed her forehead, and stepped back. I etched her face in my memory, before turning and leaving. I heard her closing the door and coming out. She took the cab waiting for her.
I stomped to my house! No way in hell, I was letting the shit out of my mouth take her away from me. I don't even mean it! I won't ever. But still I know, I should have never even said it, even if it was for her own good!
Had I known she loves me and wants to marry me, I would've swayed her off of her feet and married her that instant only, but I can't do anything now! Why it has always to be me!
I sighed!
Shrenu jumped on me as soon as I entered, I hugged her to myself dearly, my precious daughter!
"Shrenu, baby" She hummed in my embrace!
"What do you do when your Maa don't give you attention!" I asked, how silly of me! How would a child know. But my baby smiled evilly. I looked at her with wide eyes! WOW! I did not knew my little love had this in her too.
"I cry! I swatch her attention!" (snatch) She mumbled and hugged me.
That's right. If she won't give me her attention! I will snatch it from whoever is taking it away. I ruffled my daughter's hairs. And smiled at her.
"Get ready Shrey." I said. "we have a date to crash"
If you ever wonder whether you can fuck up the best thing in your life, then the answer is hell fucking yes!! Because I did, with my stupidity.
That day mom had been constantly irritating me about getting married, as I was already 28, I told her I did not want to, but she won't just listen. Then she brought up Drishti's name. She kept pursuing me into giving her one single sign that I was in love with Dhriti, which I am, but I did not wanted Mom to know.
Or else she would've pressurized Drishti about it!
So in anger I said whatever came out of my fucking mouth, not knowing she was listening to it all. After she left, I did try to call her again, to at least listen to me, but she won't even look at me! Mom told dad about the fuck up I did and My dad knew I did not meant that, not even in a single way, so all he felt for me was pity.
I went to my bathroom, and let my urge to cry go free. I slapped myself a few more times, to even say something like that. I was in love with her, yes, but who was I to point finger on her blood.
As soon as Mom and Dad left, I followed them despite their warnings. I need to make it crystal clear to Drishti that I did not meant the single fucked up thing that came out of mouth. but as soon as I saw her swollen eyes, I knew she'd been crying for so long! Because of me!
And being a coward I am I had no guts to face her!, no guts to tell her how sorry I was, and how much I love her! We shared a beautiful relationship, if not as lovers, then as father and mother of a beautiful daughter. And I destroyed it all!....
I was in love with her since the first time I saw her in yard with her friends, but I did not wanted to show it to her, that like everyone else, I also fell for her beauty. I thought, maybe she wasn't as much beautiful from inside, but instead she was much more beautiful from inside, than outside! And I fell for her all over again. But I was afraid that she will reject me, I was sure. Cause she had so many admirers, so I restrained myself from showing even an ounce of liking for her.
But my confession came with a blast, I must say.
And hence, the conclusion to all of that was I was a bastard, and basically drove away the only person I have ever loved in a more than platonic way.
I cried everyday over the milk I spilled. The huge fucking mistake I made! But did not had guts to even go to her house, probably ten feet away from mine. Until......
"Yes Drishti! And wear that black one! you looks absolute fairy in that!" Mom said, loud enough from the kitchen that even I heard. Where is she going? I continued to type on my laptop.
"And talk with him, like you do with everyone! I am telling you he will like you in an instant, after all you are so beautiful!" Him, she is meeting a him that'll like her. I shut my laptop with more force than I should, and stood up, trying to listen more.
"Yes! Beauty, I know you are nervous because it's your first date, but I hope it is your last too...." I wasn't able to listen to anything further, as my ears started ringing. She was going on a date! She was going on a motherfucking date!
My eyes turned teary and red! Without even thinking I strode towards her house and barged in, all my anger flew away as I saw her, in her anarkali, she looked ethereal.
She stared at me for a second before turning to Shrenu and walking away to my house. I caught her by arm, and Shrenu ran to her dadi, my mom, who I did not knew was following me! She took Shrenu with her.
"I... I..." I tired speaking before she swatted away my hand roughly.
"Don't try to touch me!" I turned to her. She turned to me, but did not look at me even for a second. Her hands folded in her front, as if wanting to just get over with it!
"I... I am sorry Drishti! for that day.... I was just so overwhelmed! I didn't knew..."
"It's OK" She cut me off. I looked at her, tears blurring my vision. Why the hell I am crying so much for the last month. I swear, I haven't cried this much even in my whole 28 years of life, as much as I cried in last month.
"No, no, don't OK me! You know, I know, that what I said was me overstepping every boundary of cruelty, I shouldn't have said that, hell I shouldn't even think like that! How can I when I..."
"I don't understand your point here, why the hell are you sorry, you said nothing wrong!" Tears slipped down her eyes, so did mine. "You said true, that I have god knows whose bastard's blood in my veins" I shook my head. "I am filthy dirt and what it was? Yes! I was vicious witch, who might be trapping your parents into marrying you!" I was hysteric by now. My hands were shaking. It was one thing to realize your mistakes, but it was other thing to have it thrown on your face.
"Yes, I might be very much eager to marry you Lakshay, but I not once, I not even once said or did anything to irritate you, or have an impact on you that you hate me so much, just why?"
She roughly wiped her tears. I took a step towards her, eager to gather her in my arms.
She wanted to marry me!
I fucked up!
"I..please.."
"No..." She interrupted. "you think I did not wanted to know who my mother was, or I did not find about her. So listen, my mother conceived me with her one of many lovers, and then left me on the steps of Ooty orphanage, and decided to turn into a prostitute. When I went to meet her in tha.. that red light area, she was enjoying. I asked if she ever regret to abandon her daughter, she told me she don't because I was a thorn on her side. My mere presence was irritating." She sobbed and I sobbed with her! What had I done?
"I might be a daughter of a whore, but it wasn't nice of you to think that I was a greedy filthy bitch who wanted you for your fame, money and family, I am not greedy, I am not impure!" One second I was crying hysterically and the other I was kissing her tight. I can't hear it anymore! I can't.
I kept kissing her even through her sobs, even through the mixing tears. Wanting to soak out all of her misery, somewhere I was responsible of!
She didn't pushed me off! I kept kissing her but she did not kissed me back. I pulled away, and kissed her nose.
"You are not filthy, you are not impure, your past doesn't define you, my life. Yes, I said wrong, but I swear on my parents, I swear on our daughter Drishti, I did not mean a thing. You are not impure, you are the purest thing I had ever seen in my life, you are not irritating, you don't even know the joy I feel when you are around me. But I had to mask it, in fear, you will think, I also fell for your looks, and not for you! Over the years, I have seen more handsome men then me, fawning over you, and you will just kick them aside, so who was I to think that you were going to accept me."
She kept crying, but now it was less.
"I swear to you Drishti, believe it or not, I love you, I have loved you for past ten years, I can't express in words what I feel for you! You think I accepted Shrenu as my daughter because I am a good human, I am not, I did it because, you accepted her as your daughter, and I don't want your child to call someone else father."
Her cries turned into soft sobs as she listened to me. I was still holding her cheeks.
"Mom kept forcing me to date you, to ask you out, not understanding my fears when it comes to you! So I said all that, so she won't force you too. I love you, but I did not wanted to force a marriage on you just because I love you!"
I completed and put my forehead against hers. I felt so overwhelmed with emotions after my confession. God! It felt so good, to finally be able to confess to someone you love.
"I have a date to attend Lakshay!" She said, and I smiled sadly at her. She is free to go anywhere, she is free to do anything, then why does it hurts so much!
"You can go. Drishti, you can go anywhere you want, you can do anything you want, you are a free person, I am sorry I apologised to you so late, I should've came barging in when you closed shut the door on my face. Explain everything to you! I swear to you Drishti, you can love marry anyone you want, but I will always love you, Always. You are the only one for me, and you will remain the one for me." I kissed her forehead, and stepped back. I etched her face in my memory, before turning and leaving. I heard her closing the door and coming out. She took the cab waiting for her.
I stomped to my house! No way in hell, I was letting the shit out of my mouth take her away from me. I don't even mean it! I won't ever. But still I know, I should have never even said it, even if it was for her own good!
Had I known she loves me and wants to marry me, I would've swayed her off of her feet and married her that instant only, but I can't do anything now! Why it has always to be me!
I sighed!
Shrenu jumped on me as soon as I entered, I hugged her to myself dearly, my precious daughter!
"Shrenu, baby" She hummed in my embrace!
"What do you do when your Maa don't give you attention!" I asked, how silly of me! How would a child know. But my baby smiled evilly. I looked at her with wide eyes! WOW! I did not knew my little love had this in her too.
"I cry! I swatch her attention!" (snatch) She mumbled and hugged me.
That's right. If she won't give me her attention! I will snatch it from whoever is taking it away. I ruffled my daughter's hairs. And smiled at her.
"Get ready Shrey." I said. "we have a date to crash"
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