Midnight Whispers (short stories collection) - Chapter 32: Chapter 32

Vanraj's POV
I had loved her ever since I first saw her. I knew my love for her is way too obsessive and controlling, but that's what it is.... I have never been in love, and she is the very first person I had been with. We had been very subtle about our relationship ever since then. I come late to home and then we will spend a lot of time making out, sometimes in study, sometime in my room, sometime in hers, sometimes we will must sit and talk. It was also convenient that my family does not live here.
They come here once in a while!
I love her, god forbid, how much I love her, but I also had warned her or told her you can say, to stay away from a man who isn't me. I am very possessive of her, and I won't tolerate a man near her.
But now, Veer --my cousin-- was totally irritating me. He was always with her whenever they came to our home. He --I don't know why-- had always wanted to compete with me in one way or the other. If I wanted something, he wanted it too... and that was the reason of the rift between us. When we were in college, he had wanted to be the football team captain because I was the captain at that time.
I had to back out and resign as the captain, because.... mom. She always told me to give my little siblings everything they want, and since I was the elder one, I should sacrifice.
But if he thinks that being continuously on Tamsa's tail will make him have her, then he is gravely mistaken. Tamsa walked into the kitchen, while I sat on the dining table glaring at her. Well... not at her, but the man behind her.
Having enough of his drama, I got up from my chair....
"Do you love someone" I heard him ask. Tamsa turned red... good. "I... I do.." Veer's smiled dimmed. But he again smiled like a hoe he is, totally dismissing Tamsa's crush as his competition. Well he don't know that's me.
I leaned on the wall.
"So are you two like together" Tamsa, still oblivious of his intentions, gave him the smile, which should've been reserved for me, only me!
"Umm...yes" She said. He was about to say something when I grabbed him by his shoulder, tight. He looked at me. Tamsa looked at me too... That's where her eyes always should be!
"Dadi is calling you!" I told him, my voice hard that he was not able to retort, once he was out of sight I looked at my beautiful girl. My Tamsa. In one stride I pinned her to slab and gave a hard kiss on her lips. Fuck these lips, these fucking delicious lips.
"Stay away from him if you want him alive" I told her, her eyes widened. My eyes must've held some truth because she looked at me with nervousness. But after a few moments she smiled at me.
"Don't worry, I will keep my distance" She lifted herself on her toes and pecked me. I smiled down at her and she looked at me with sparkling eyes. We went back to the dinner table and she sat down beside me. But unfortunately --not to her, but to Veer-- she was right in front of him. He smiled at her, but she did not smiled back like she usually did.
I pressed my hand on her thigh.
My girl.
My family finally left, after giving tonnes of gifts and praising to Tamsa for the excellent food she made. Veer, was especially thankful towards her. I had to hold her hand tight so I won't loose myself on Veer. With a smile we came back and sat on the sofa. She leaned on my shoulder and I smoothered her hairs.
With my family out of sight, we can at least do whatever we want to. Sometimes, these moments of silence were filled with so much love that I can't get over them!
"I think it's time I go back to my own house" She said. I stiffened. She must have felt it because she left my hand and looked at me, concerned.
I turned to her.
"What are you talking about? This is your house, our home!" I told her. She is leaving me! She is leaving me!
I got up from the couch, so did she.
"Vanraj listen to me first...." She said putting her hand on my arm. I swatted it away softly.
"No, I don't know anything, you will live here with me." I said with finality in my tone. I was confident that she will obey me as she usually did.
But I did not knew that this would lead to our very brutal fight. Her eyes blazed with fierce intensity.
"No, I won't be staying here Vanraj, I won't." She inhaled sharply. Her eyes softening again. "Listen here Vanraj, I love you, I love you a lot, and I am not leaving you. Not even in my dreams, but I can't stay with you forever here. We are in a relationship, but we are not married yet!" What?
"So lets get married!" I said. Her eyes looked troubled. She don't want to marry me.
"It's.. it's too abrupt Van.."
"NO" I shouted. My heart was breaking. It was breaking that I can hear the sound of it breaking in my chest. She did not want to be with me, she did not want to marry me! "Be honest you don't want to marry me right?" She hesitated, but it was all it took to answer my question. I stared at her in silence.
"Pack your bag and leave" I said to her and turned around. She was shocked I can tell.
"Vanraj"
"I SAID LEAVE" She flinched and went upstairs.
That night I was upset with her. But I also realised that I was being too abrupt here. She was right in her own place. She was right in her own place. She had a reputation to maintain, and living with a man won't be good for her. I was angry so I said things I should not have, but I was mad, so.. so mad. I also never thought she would retort me. But well, she can surprise me when she wants to.
With determination to earn her forgiveness I went to sleep.
To dream about her... about our future.
I parked my car in the small alley of her. I had not told her I was going to come over. I walked to her door, which was open. I will apologise later, first I need to give her a piece of mind. I did had my men assigned to look over at her house, but still she need to learn to keep herself safe as well.
"...but I don't want to." I heard her war.
"But beti, you should at least meet him." I heard a woman's voice. I looked through the door to look at the old woman from next door sitting with her, and she was working in her kitchen.
I want her to work in our kitchen only.
"No dadi, I bet he is a good man but I have no interest in dating right now." My smile slipped off my face. why the hell was she praising some man?
"Meet him just once when he comes to our home." She better not! She pinched her nose.
"Okay dadi, I'll see" I must have made some noise because they both looked at me. Old woman with confusion, but Tamsa's eyes were wide when she looked at me. I turned around to leave.
I felt like crying. I never cry. Why was she doing this with me?
Tamsa came running after me.
"Vanraj... Vanraj stopp...." She shouted. She held my arm but I pulled away.
"Not one word."
"I was just pacifying her. I was not going to meet anybody" She said.
"You should not be pacifying anyone with those wrong ideas. You don't want to marry me, live with me, and you want to date someone else. Does I need any other signal to be more clear that you don't want me, you were using me!"
She looked hurt by my statements. She knew, she knew how I was, still she choose to do this.
"Vanraj, I swear, it's not like that, I love you and I want you and only you. I just needed some time to think--"
"So you decided a date with another man will be good for that?" I asked sarcasm clear in my voice. She shook her head as tears coursed in her eyes. I looked at her with hurt. She came to me, but I backed away.
"You know what Tamsa" I said. My voice cracked. "Let's end this" She looked at me with wide eyes shaking her head.
"No Vanraj, no, please I..." I turned around to leave.
I can't deal with it anymore.
I love her, I always will, But I can't just deal with it. I made her cry more times than I ever made her laugh. My life was so risky. There were so many things pointing at me that I was the mistake, I was not right for her.
So it was the right thing to do!
This situation just escalated it all!