My Princessa - Chapter 62: Chapter 62

"Hey daddy"l said caressing his forehead.
"l know you've missed me but am here now, and you have to wake up. You are my anchor. l have been trying to ignore what happened, l can't face it dad, not without you. They hurt me dad, they hurt me so bad. They made me afraid even of my own shadow. You always said that l should stay the way l am but now l fear that it's impossible. l feel dirty, worthless and so damn weak. l don't want to feel like that anymore. You will have to wake up so you can take me away from here, so you can help ,me heal if that's even possible.
You've been there for me at my lowest, at the bad and worst times so you will have to be there for me again. My heart aches and it's bleeding. l feel like a stranger in my own house. l am afraid of my brothers whom l know without a shadow of doubt would die for me.
Why should my happiness always be divided dad. l got you but l lost mom, l got happiness but it was short lived.l got my freedom but l am shackled and trapped in my memories.Now l have you after thinking that you were dead but you are in a coma with the least chance of waking up. Why why why??" l sobbed lying next to my dad.
Elonzo left me here so l could be with dad.l guess he knew how much l needed this. How much l needed to talk to him. He isn't just my dad. He is the first person l talk to when l have a problem. The one person who never judges or ridicules me. l don't have to say anything for him to understand me. He just understands even without me saying it. He is more like my best friend and most importantly he has always been my hero and seeing him in this condition is heart wrenching.
My hero always so strong but today he looks weak and defeated. They destroyed everything and they didn't even think twice. It's good though that they let me go because l was keeping an account of every wrongdoing they committed against us. l was going to pay them back in their language. l was done been weak and helpless.
Boston told me that l was the mafia princess and when l get strong enough l will be sure to settle score with him and l will be sure to castrate his father so that no girl has to go through what l did.
l was weak for the time being which is why it imperative that dad wakes up. In order for my wounds to heal ,l needed a change of scenario but l also couldn't leave without him which is why he had to wake up.
"You will have to wake up dad. l need you now more than ever before so please don't fail me" l cried out.
"You could never resist my tears right? Then why are you ignoring them now" l screamed at him in anguish but there was still nothing.
Out of nowhere the machines started beating rapidly and dads body was heaving badly. l screamed for my brothers and the doctor fearing whatever was happening and worst of all since it was my fault.
Oh my God what have l done. l must have done something that made the machines beat like that. l must have hurt my dad. Even though Elonzo tried to comfort me l still couldn't accept that it wasn't my fault. Everything that happened to my family is my fault. Ever since l came here l have done nothing but bring misfortune to all of them.
l brought bad luck wherever l went and it was ruining my family.
Elonzo had brought me to my room as the doctors were checking dad.Since l couldn't stand like the rest of the family he thought it would be better if l was in my room and as much as l wanted to disagree l couldn't because l still couldn't bear to look into the eyes of my family members. l didn't want to see the pity in their eyes. l knew they were hurting due to the fact that l was running away from them and rejecting their love but l just couldn't.
My whole body was on edge and my nerves were killing me. The uncertainty was killing me. Nothing should happen to my dad. l spent this whole time thinking that he was dead but now that l saw him then l wouldn't let anyone or anything take him away from me.
Everything was breaking apart without him. l could feel how quiet this house was and that is not how l remember this house. It felt so cold and lifeless. It's like nobody lives here anymore.
l could tell just how tired Elonzo was. It was like he hardly slept and l can just imagine how the others must be. Elonzo has always been my brother's strength and seeing him weak l know my brothers must be shattered and l just made it worse by harming dad.
"It wasn't your fault you know and before you disagree the doctor confirmed it" Elonzo said sitting on my bed and pulling me in for a hug. l couldn't help but release a sigh of relief after hearing that. Ever since Elonzo saved me l had a new found respect for him. He hadn't look at me with pity or disgust, rather he held me like he always did before the kidnapping.
"Then why did the machines shoot up like that" l asked because l couldn't convince my heart that l hadn't done anything wrong. l didn't want to be the one who hurt the person l loved and respected most in the whole world.
"Because dad is waking up" he said dropping a bomb at me and for a good minute l was stunned. It felt like a dream come true and l wasn't that lucky. None of my dreams ever came true.
"Tell me you're not joking "l asked him while looking at him because l know his eyes won't lie to me.
"l would never joke about something like that little one, apparently hearing your voice triggered him and it's just like we suspected "he said holding my cheek and l couldn't help but choke on a sob.
"I can't believe it, l get to talk to dad" l asked him just to be sure that this was a reality.
"l knew you would do it" he said.