My Princessa - Chapter 72: Chapter 72

" I'm going to jail." I kept mumbling on the car. they were taking us to God knows where, but I wasn't really concerned about where we are going but about the fact that Chase is gone.
" You're not going to jail. Your dad will sort everything out." My dad may be a superhero, but he won't save me from this.
" I left him there, and I didn't even call the police." l said. no one is going to save me from this because I fled the scene, and I didn't even check if he was alive or not.
" Rosabella De Luca, have to calm down. This is not who you are anymore. When the world knocks you down, you don't cry, but you stand up, and you fight back." I wish I could manifesta everything she's telling me that right now, but my head is on a different space.
" I fought back now. Look what has happened." I thought strength means hurting the person who's trying to hurt you, but why doesn't it feel good when you actually hurt that person.
"l know my baby. " nonna said, pulling my head on her lap as she sang to me until l dozed off.
I woke up in an unfamiliar room, but I could hear voices outside.
Sleeping felt good because I got a chance to forget, but now the memories have rushed back like a flood.
I couldn't help but sob like a baby, knowing that you killed a man is not an easy cross to bear as much as I thought it would. I thought I was stopping the hurt by killing him, but it turns out I have hurt myself a lot more.
The door opened, and I was faced to face with my brother whom I haven't seen in years.
"sorello," he said, and l saw unshed tears in his eyes.
Elonzo has grown a lot since l last saw him. he hardly looks the same, but he's still the same.
"fratello." I can tell that life has treated him good over the years and I'm happy because I know how much my departure hurt them but I'm glad that they managed to move on and create better versions of themselves.
I don't even know how he was by my side that quick, but he gave me a hug, and I just broke apart.
Being in my brother's protective arms was something that I really needed but it also was a reminder of what I've done to us I have put them in a s*** lot of trouble as well as my self.
" I didn't mean to." l said, and he pulled away from the hug but held my face in his hand.
"l know you didn't. " he said, but I cried harder because they don't deserve the mess that I've put them through they must be happy with their lives, and I just messed all that up.
" I didn't think I just took the knife, and I killed him." l said, trying to explain.
" That means that you intentionally killed him." Despite the years that have passed, there is no way on earth I would ever forget that voice.
"Daddy." he has definitely grown older, but it looks good on him.
The happiness that I felt on seeing him quickly went away when I saw the anger in his eyes.
" You said you wanted to go away because you wanted nothing to do with this life, and I let you. I thought you would have a bright future ahead, but you have just set yourself back because there's no going away from this. There is no escaping something like this, Rosabella De Luca." At the moment, the disappointment that I saw in his eyes hurt more than the pain I was feeling.
" it was a mistake." I am not a murderer, and it wouldn't have done what I did if I wasn't provoked.
" it was not mistake Rosa because if you wanted to stop him then you could have kicked him on his balls or something but you chose to stab him, you chose to carry that knife in the first place." he said, and my heart sank because a part of me knows that he is right.
" Dad, please, she's already going through a lot. You don't have to make it worse." Elonzo said, but the damage was already done. I imagined the moment I wouldn't meet dad again after all these years, and this is not what I imagined.
" This is between me and my daughter, and nobody will get involved." Dad has never talked to me this way, and it just makes me realize how bad this is.
" Leave us alone for a bit." he said to Elonzo in a non-negotiable tone.
" I'll be right outside if you need me." Elonzo kissed my forehead and left me alone with our furious father.
" I know you hate me right now, but please forgive me." l begged because I can take hate and disappointment from anybody except him.
"I don't hate you, you of all people know how much I love you, but you need to realize just how bad this is." his face softened and he came to sit next to me on the bed.
l couldn't help but hug him. it doesn't matter how many years have passed because his hugs still feel like home.
" as of now on you are now the Princess of the Italian Mafia. the life that you didn't want is the only one that will be able to keep you safe.