My Princessa - Chapter 75: Chapter 75

My heart was literally on my throat because of the nerves. it wasn't the plane that had me feeling like this. It was definitely the feeling of fear of what might happen when we land.
it was already a miracle that we made it to the airport and actually bordered the plane without being attacked, and now I have to be worried about what might be waiting for me out there.
" I told you to relax. Nothing's going to happen." I wish I could be Killian because he is so damn relaxed.
" it's nice of you to say that considering the fact that you're not the one who killed somebody." l said.
" You wouldn't have had to kill anybody had you stayed away from the boy." I really can't believe him.
" You didn't feel that way when I hanged out with you." l shot back.
" Oh, please don't go there." he said. I don't know why he suddenly looks mad, but I won't let him take it out on me because I already have enough problems on my own.
" What's wrong with you." he was okay just a few hours ago.
" I'm really trying not to be an ass but it's quite difficult because being with you reminds me of the future I once dreamt for us before you walked away on me." He said out of nowhere, and l felt my heart drop.
"What."
" I loved you, princess, and I actually thought you felt the same way, but I was wrong." I was at a loss of words at first, but this is something that has always bothered me, and I'm glad he brought it up.
" I take accountability for that, but I had to leave, and that is something that I won't ever regret." I hate thinking about that part of my life because it brings back memories of the things that I went through.
" l know l probably have no right to be mad at you, and I get why that was important for you to go, but I want you to know if you were alright." He said, and l stood up from my seat and knelt in front of his.
" You have ever right to be mad at me. We were in a relationship, and we loved each other. It was wrong with me to just up and leave without acknowledging you or telling you." I don't want him to think that I didn't love him because I did, and l still do.
" Did you love that boy." He said, and l stood up to sit back on my chair, but he pulled me to his lap.
Gosh, his whole body was muscley and hard. I just wanted to run my hands all over his chest and feel those muscles, but it would be inappropriate.
" he was just a friend." l said, and he smiled. it's a rare occurrence to see Killian smile, but he did it a lot with me.
" And what am I." l looked anywhere but him when he asked, but he held my chin and made me look at him.
" I'm not sure yet." l said blushing.
" I'm going to fix the mess that you created, and then they'll be nothing stopping me from making the Princess of the Italian, mafia the queen of the Russian mafia." Oh my god, I can't believe he said he wants to make me his Queen.
" Don't you have a girlfriend." I asked. I tried to play it cool so that he didn't see the pain and jealousy that took over, but l was anxious.
" There's just been one girl for me all along, and it will always be her." The way he was looking at me was a clear indication of who he was talking about.
" Do you think they're going to find me." I couldn't stop my mind from wondering to chase and his family.
" Even if they do find you, there's nothing that they can possibly do to you with me here." I don't know much about the mafia and their roles, but you can tell that Killian is capable of anything.
" I don't want anything to happen to you because of me." My dad got shot because of me all those years back, and I don't want the same to happen to Killian or anybody else.
" This is my life angel, and there's a saying. You live by the sword, and you die by it. To be honest, I've quite come to terms with that.
If anything were to happen to me, it wouldn't be because of you, but because of this life that I chose for myself." I've never heard somebody speak about that so casually.
" You didn't choose this life for yourself. It was a decision made by our great great grandparents." they chose this life, but we are now forced to live it.
He kissed my forehead and dodged my opinion.
" Will you give a relationship a chance when all of us is done and dusted." He asked.
It used to keep me up at night thinking about what our relationship could have been had the kidnapping and all of that happened, having him ask me to make the realities that I had in my head was like a dream come true.