Neighbor|Taekook - Chapter 15: Chapter 15

After finishing their late lunch, Jungkook and Taehyung washed the dishes and cleaned the messy kitchen. Then they sat down in the living room. It started pouring outside, raindrops angrily hitting the windows.
"That was a feast,"Taehyung sighed, resting his head on his hand.
"I'm glad I could finally do something for you, hyung,"
"My mom doesn't have time to cook for me... I rarely have home cooked meal... this... this meant a lot to me."
"When is your mom coming back?"Jungkook asked.
"After Hangul Day."
"What about your dad?"
"He's been gone for few months, I have no idea when he's coming back."
I know I'm not going to get any more information out of him... I wish he would open up... oh well...
Watching Taehyung's side profile, he got and idea. "Wait here," he ran to his room.
He returned, carrying his sketchbook and a pencil. "Can I draw you, hyung?"
"You know how to draw?" Taehyung raised one eyebrow.
"Well...I'm not bad at it."
"I don't think I'm a good model..."
"Nonsense, you're perfect for it... just a quick sketch...I need to practice drawing portraits."
"Fine, whatever."
Jungkook sharpened his pencil and started sketching. His eyes observing details on Taehyung's face, his hand skillfully putting them on the paper.
I wish I could stare at him like this for hours... admiring him... Seriously, how does he not have a girlfriend?! He drew a basic sketch and then started focusing on smaller details. He started to feel weird, looking so intensely at his hyung, although Taehyung was looking back at him exactly the same.
"Hyung, you have a nose mole like me."
"Do you not remember the elephant?"
"What elephant?"
"Nevermind..."
The pencil kept gliding quickly on the paper. "Your facial proportions are so nice...I envy you, hyung."
"You shouldn't... your face is pretty enough..."
"I'm not pretty...Besides, why do you always say I'm pretty? If you want to compliment me, why don't you say, that I'm handsome?! I'm a man, not some schoolgirl."
"Your face is beyond handsomeness... it's just pretty..."
"Are you saying, that I look like a girl?"
"Not at all... although you're not that far... maybe longer hai..."Taehyung was hit in the face with the sketchbook. "Ouch... what was that for?!"
"I'm not in the mood for drawing anymore..."
"You didn't have to hit me..." Taehyung slowly opened the sketchbook. He didn't say anything, he just kept looking at the drawing.
Jungkook nervously bit his lip,"so... what do you think?"
"You are so talented, Jungkookie... I have no words..."
"Th... thank you," Jungkook wasn't used to being praised.
"I want to learn how to draw too. Will you teach me?"
Jungkook smiled,"I could try..."
"Then maybe if I practice enough and get good at it, I can draw you too."
"You're cute,"Jungkook couldn't help smiling.
"What did you say?"
"I had no idea, you could be this cute... Somehow I imagined, that you don't have a soft side... but you do... and it's so cute."
To Jungkook surprise, his words seemed to make Taehyung coy,"I guess you are one of the very few people who gets to see that side..."
"You should know hyung, that I will like you no matter what side you show to me... It doesn't matter..."
"It should matter."
"Not when it comes to hyung."
"You don't know what you're saying...," Taehyung looked down and sighed. "What should we do now?"
"Well... I was thinking... there's this anime... I wanted you to see it, it's called Your Name...I'm not sure if you'd like it, so if you have another idea..."
"Let's watch it then. It's raining so hard outside, I think we will have to stay inside for today."
Jungkook prepared the anime, it got colder in the apartment, so he went to make them something warm to drink. "How about a hot chocolate?"he called from the kitchen.
"Hell yeah," Taehyung called back.
Jungkook returned grinning, carrying two cups of hot chocolate.
"Aigo Jungkookie, I'm getting used to being spoiled like this..."
"You spoil me enough already, hyung,"he started the anime and sat beside Taehyung.
"You know Kookie, instead of having you as a neighbor, I wouldn't mind having you as a roommate..."
Wasn't I thinking about that too?! I'm starting to think it wouldn't be a bad idea...
"What if I would mind?"
"Didn't you just say you like me few minutes ago?"
Shit!
"Now, don't be so full of yourself... I can still change my mind..."
Taehyung jokingly punched him lightly in the shoulder.
"Ouch... why the shoulders again?! If you want me to be your punching bag, at least choose a different spot..."
"Oh! I'm sorry..."
"It's okay..."he frowned.
"Do you want me to kiss the boo boo?"
"What the hell, no! Now focus on the storyline or you're going to miss the plot."
Drinking the hot chocolate, curled up on the sofa with rain outside, they started watching the anime. Jungkook had already seen it, but watching it for the second time, he was still mesmerized.
He said, that he has a feeling like he has known me forever... I have the same feeling, although I lied to him about it... It can't be a coincidence... it's so weird...Maybe it was meant to happen... Like in this anime... we don't meet people by accident...
"Move closer," Taehyung said quietly, holding a blanket.
Jungkook did what he was told to and Taehyung draped the blanket over both of them, making them sit painfully close to each other. Jungkook's side was basically glued to Taehyung.
"Ar... are you...c...cold, hyung?"he didn't move an inch.
"Not anymore," Taehyung smiled at him, then turned back to the TV.
Jungkook really couldn't move, he was so tense, that his whole body started aching. When will I get used to this... Probably never... he kills me... This needs to stop... courage, courage... He took a deep breath and put his head down on Taehyung's shoulder. Taehyung didn't react, like it was the most natural thing. However Jungkook was freaking out...
If someone would see us, they would think we're couple... What am I doing with my life... I should be with my family now, in Busan... What the hell am I doing?! I'm so screwed... He has me wrapped around his finger...
Taehyung put his arm around Jungkook and pulled him even closer. "You're so warm."
"Is that what I am to you? A source of heat? Is that all I am good for? What a cruel world..." Jungkook teased him.
Taehyung sneaked his hand up to his chest and pinched his nipple. "Didn't you tell me to focus on the storyline? Stop disturbing me."
Jungkook immediately flinched. Did he just... how rude... this guy... he will be the death of me...
After two hours the anime ended, the days were getting shorter and it was already dark outside, still raining.
"We really don't meet people by accident," Taehyung said stretching. "It was amazing..."
"I was thinking, hyung... maybe I might have a similar feeling... I think, maybe we are linked somehow... I thought it was creepy, when you were saying stuff like that... But maybe there's some truth in it. I just don't understand it much."
"Are... are you not just saying it? You really have that feeling?"
Jungkook hesitated and nodded.
"I was hoping..." Taehyung buried his face in his palms.
"Are you okay?"
Taehyung slowly shook his head,"I'm never going to be okay," his voice was muffled by his hands.
"What's wrong then?"
"How could this... life is a joke... whoever created this world... they have a really messed up sense of humor..."
"Hyung, can you just for once explain things to me?"
"That morning, when I first saw you... It was like a tug on an invisible ribbon, thread... whatever..."
"I felt strange too..."
"Wasn't it 1st of September?"
"Yeah..."
"So it was... your... birthday..."
"Yeah, but as I said, we were busy with moving and organizing our new apartment and I didn't really celebrate it back then."
"What a sick joke..." Taehyung laughed.
"You're... scaring me."
Taehyung finally removed his hands from his face," I didn't mean to," he pinched Jungkook's cheek. "Hyung sometimes thinks out loud..."
Jungkook stood up to stretch his legs and took the empty cups back to the kitchen.
"The elephant I was talking about... I showed it to you, when you were drunk... we have the same moles," Taehyung pinched the skin on his arm and then pointed to Jungkook's thigh.
"How the hell do you know, that I have moles there," he subconsciously grabbed his thigh.
Please... don't tell me he...saw me naked... Just how drunk was I?!
"You were wearing shorts, remember?"
"Oh, right... So we have the same moles... that's cool."
"You said, that we are soulmates... Why did you want to show me this anime?"
"I... just liked it... I'm getting hungry again. Want some ramyun for dinner?"
"Why not... One thing is for certain, I will never starve with you being around."
"For a perfect ramyun, you need 400ml of water per one."
"Are you an expert at cooking it?"
"Not me, but Yoongi-hyung is."
Apparently...
"Yoongi-hyung again... You really like him, don't you?"
"I like him and Jimin-hyung equally..."
"Two Mins... what a duo... So you like them more than me?"
"I don't know."
"You...don't know..."Taehyung said disappointed.
"What do you want me to say... what you already know? Of course I like you more! Ugh... You already have a big ego..."
"You never tell me exactly, just how much you like me. How am I supposed to know?"
You are not supposed to know...
"Just forget it..."
"You are so cute, when you're frustrated," Taehyung chuckled.
Time flew by and after they ate the dinner, it was bed time, so Taehyung was about to go back to his place.
"Good night,"he quickly hugged Jungkook. "Thank you for everything."
"Don't mention it."
Taehyung closed the door behind him and Jungkook was left alone.
At least with the rain, it's not so quiet here...It's so cold though... A nice bath would will warm me up... He turned on the faucet in his bathtub and added bubble bath. He went back to the living room to turn off all the lights. It's so empty here, without him... His presence always fills the room... Just him alone... he replaces a whole family...
Back in the bathroom, he took off his clothes and let the warm water filled with bubbles hug his body. Mom would definitely tell me, that I'm wasting water... He smirked and closed his eyes, relaxing. If we were roommates, would every day be like this? We would probably argue more... It would probably be a lot more messy... He really is my hyung, an older brother... He smiled at the thought. Hyung I have feelings for... His smiled disappeared.
When he got out of the bathtub, ready for sleep, the rain outside turned into a storm.
Jungkook was about to lie down in his bed, when he noticed a text message from Taehyung.
--Are you sleeping?--
--No--
--Could I come back?--
Huh? Did he forget something?
--Ok--
A minute after that, Taehyung knocked on the door.
"What's going on?" Jungkook asked, his voice followed by loud thunder.
Taehyung flinched," I don't want to bother you again, but... Could I...stay here for the night?"
"Why? I was about to sleep."
"I'm not going to bother you, it's just... I really... don't like storms... I actually hate them."
"Are you scared?"
Taehyung didn't say anything for a while and had a strange expression on his face. "Yes," he choked out.
"Then come in."
"Just give me the blanket, I'll sleep on the couch."
Jungkook went to get a blanket for Taehyung, when he returned, he saw him standing by the window, his figure got illuminated by the lightning, casing long shadow on the floor.
"Didn't you say, that you were scared?"thunder followed the lighting.
"Hyung?"
"I really hate storms," he whispered. He then turned around and took the blanket from Jungkook's hands. He stretched on the couch and covered himself from head to toes, with the blanket. Jungkook went back to his room and closed the door. He crawled into his bed, it was really cold. The rain was loudly splashing on the windows. He closed his eyes and tried to fall asleep. He was jolted with every thunder, he kept tossing and turning. Sleep was far off for him, he decided to get a glass of water.
He quietly opened his door, he was expecting Taehyung to already to be asleep. However, what he saw, shocked him. Taehyung was sitting with his head down, covering his ears. And he was...
Is he crying?
Small sobs were heard in between the thunder and the rain. Jungkook slowly walked towards Taehyung and gently touched his arm. Taehyung jumped, he look at Jungkook, tears were glistening on his face.
"Hyung,"Jungkook whispered. He couldn't say anything else, his throat tightened, when he saw his face like that.
Taehyung quickly wiped his tears,"did I wake you up?"
"No, I couldn't sleep... Why are you crying?"
Taehyung shook his head, he lied down and covered his face with blanket.
What is going on? That face... those sad eyes... I never want to see that again... He felt a pain in his chest.
"Hyung," he whispered again and grabbed the edge of the blanket, pulling it away. He then grabbed Taehyung's hand. "Come with me," he tugged at his arm, making him stand up and lead him into his room.
"You can sleep here... with me... if you're scared. I don't know if it would help, but..." Taehyung out of nowhere hugged him.
"The bed is big enough for both of us," Jungkook pulled him down and gently they lied down side by side. Jungkook covered them with the soft duvet.
"You should've told me, I would've stayed with you."
All this time Taehyung was quiet.
"I feel like I'm going to die, when hyung is sad. When hyung is in pain, it hurts more than when I'm in pain," Jungkook hugged Taehyung tightly.
"I really hate storms," Taehyung repeated again.
"I'm here, just let all of your worries go."
"Thank you," it was all that he said.
"Let's go on that trip this month. Hm? What do you say? We can go somewhere nice. Have you thought about it?" Jungkook wanted him to think about something else, while the storm was still raging on.
"Jeju Island."
"Whoah, that's a bit too far, don't you think? We would have to go by plane."
"I want to go there with you."
"Okay, but that's too expensive."
"Don't worry about it, Jungkookie."
"If it makes you happy... I will do anything."
"You shouldn't be like that, you shouldn't care. I shouldn't matter to you, I'm not worthy of that, you don't..." his words were muted by Jungkook's lips pressing hard onto his.
"What are you doing?!" Taehyung asked, stunned.
"I don't know," Jungkook whispered and kissed him again, his heart beating fast.
"Jungkook, what are you doing?!"
"I... don't know..."
Yeah, what am I doing? What the fuck am I doing?! I can't undo this...Fuck! I knew I was screwed... I knew it! What now?! What the fuck do I do now?!
He kissed him again.
"Stop," Taehyung pushed him away.
Jungkook started to panic,"I didn't... mean to. I don't know what got to me..."
"Just don't do that again."
"I...I'm not like...th...that, hyung... It's not how it seems..."
"I know."
"You know?"
"We both know."